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>When the overly earnest creepy guy in your English class asks if you want to study with him sometime

>> No.14434826

Wow, he’s just like me!

>> No.14434893

>>14434824
>overly earnest creepy guy
I’m the creepy quite guy who doesn’t say a word all semester

>> No.14434896

>>14434824
>English
>study
What

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>>14434824
>when the lonely guy with the bowl cut tells you you're alright and to not to go to class tomorrow

>> No.14434918

I've been "overly earnest" guy before so I identify with this

>tfw made some of my best friends for life because I randomly turned around in class during the break and said "so hey you study quentin skinner, that's cool want to talk after class"
>tfw had some of my worst humiliations in life because I tried to strike up conversation with girls in class and they ghosted me like I was a 10 year old boy with a crush on them

Weird

>> No.14435100

>>14434896
study english? bitch i sPEAK english!

>> No.14435103

>>14434824
>I'll turn him down; I have options!
enjoy your childless 30s

>> No.14435125

>>14434824
This is why I fear talking to people. Fuck you.

>> No.14435138

>>14434918
>>tfw had some of my worst humiliations in life because I tried to strike up conversation with girls in class and they ghosted me like I was a 10 year old boy with a crush on them
I've heard so many horror stories like this and that's why I never initiate a conversation with them. Really, when is it appropriate to start talking to girls?

>> No.14435141

>>14434824
earnest is a creepy word

>> No.14435143

>>14434918
This brings back trauma. It's not just the rejection that hurts. Her telling her friends and having people laugh at you being your back is shit.

>> No.14435151

>>14435138
Am I autistic for truly not understanding how you get to the stage of talking comfortably with women? I can't fathom how it'd work.

>> No.14435163

not surprising why there are so many altright threads on this board

>> No.14435168

>>14435138
Are you attractive? If so, whenever you want. If not, after you get in shape

>> No.14435169

>>14435163
lol le shoop le woop daysoo daysoo daysoo le happy negro amirite :^)))) get fucked old man the future is now

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>>14435169
embarrassing

>> No.14435180

>>14435168
It can't be this simple. I'm sure unattractive guys have it harder but that doesn't mean it's this simple for attractive ones.

>> No.14435187

>>14435180
Girls are flattered when they get attention from attractive guys. Even if they aren't interested they'll still be happy that you decided they were worth approaching.

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>tfw women strike up conversations with me and I drop the ball by being overly earnest.
>tfw attractive women hit on me all the time but think I'm uninterested because I have an avoidant attachment style
I've had girls I was attracted to decline wanting to study with me, but that's probably because they can tell I'm in ADHD retard who would probably leech off of them.

>> No.14435202

pro tip - if a woman isn't talking shit to you about someone behind their back it means she doesn't trust you.

>> No.14435204

>>14434918
>>14435138
>>14435151
I had a series of rejections in high school that shattered whatever confidence I had before talking to girls and I still avoid it despite it having been years now.

Every time, I got that uncomfortable look from them. That is the most confidence-shattering thing, when a girl looks at you like she is offended that you're attracted to her, when you were just trying to ask her what book she was reading, or trying to tell her you like her outfit, or some shit like that that you thought was innocuous. Even after I tried to dress well, practice good hygeine, work out, act confident, do all the shit that people tell you to do before talking to girls in order to seem like a normal ass guy, they looked at me like I had antennae growing out of my head.

>> No.14435207

>>14435204
Do you have ADHD? Could be rejection sensitive dysphoria.

>> No.14435209

>>14435103
honestly. i'm not even joking or anything. but imagine being a woman. imagine your sole purpose in life is to raise children. imagine fucking around with your ability to do this. imaine not actively seeking this out. its like playing with fire. how are they not shitting their pants 24/7 over not being able to tie down a man? seems like if you were a woman, your only goal in life would be to get married fucking ASAP. i don't get it. its like these girls are fucking insane.

>> No.14435215

>>14435143
>Her telling her friends and having people laugh at you being your back is shit.
yeah this doesn't happen past high school, and if it does they're legitimately terrible people

>> No.14435218

>>14435103
Imagine not turning down a weirdo, lol

>> No.14435223

>>14435207
No, I've been tested for it and the psychologist didn't think I have it. Could it be I am overly sensitive to rejection? Quite possibly. I find myself being paranoid about how people react to me in other situations too.

>> No.14435225

>>14435194
i'm becoming an alcoholic; becoming my father. i've destroyed every relationship i've ever had and abused everyone i've ever known; i can't even maintain a friendship. every day i get closer to doing something i will never be able to take back. sorry you can't get laid though.

>> No.14435226

>>14435151
you stumble around in the dark with each one. just b yourself is unironically ok advice for the most part

>> No.14435245

>>14435209
many dont believe that child rearing is their sole purpose, much like men. is this actually confusing to you?

>> No.14435248

>>14435194
i want to die

>> No.14435252

>>14435151
>oh nooooo a woman got annoyed by meeee i'm going INSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>> No.14435253

>>14435225
fuck we're terrible people

>> No.14435256

>>14435252
Yes

>> No.14435266

>>14435256
women are trash and deigning to give a shit about their feelings puts you at a level below even that

>> No.14435271

>>14435175
cute pic, is /pol/ in some nostalgia vibe? or some other board?

>> No.14435280

>>14435215
>yeah this doesn't happen past high school
High school years are one of the most formative parts of lives but then its social scene is so different than the "real world". I don't know what happened but in high school everyone treated me like shit but now people are all nice and kind. It's been a few years but I still struggle to adapt.

>> No.14435291

>>14435253
only Christ can save us

>> No.14435303

>>14435223
It could be, I have it and I
very publicly cry my eyes out when I feel invalidated, often at a very slight offense. It could be more typical social anxiety if you don't have a strong physical reaction to rejection, I also have that.
>>14435225
Sorry to hear that man. I definitely can't help you, are you covered for mental healthcare? You should see a pro. Why alcohol? I can get laid but I've always ghosted after sex, never had a GF despite being very lonely. I don't care about having sex I just want someone to share my life with.
>>14435248
Why?
>>14435280
People are not supposed to live in communities stratified by age, putting a bunch of kids together for their entire childhood and adolescence is guaranteed to fuck them all up. Youth culture is poison, for the youth and the generations ahead of them. It alienates everyone young and old.

>> No.14435319

>>14435291
Christ was a cool dude. God the Father and the Holy Spirit are vague nobodies. Fuck those two. Christ is my jam though. I want to be like Christ.

>> No.14435326

>>14435103
more like enjoy lots of harmless sex with chads

>> No.14435330

>>14435319
bro, you just posted blasphemy. bro.

>> No.14435384
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>when the guy in your molecular biology class is schizoid but has a chiseled jawline

>> No.14435386

>>14435225
Fellow abusive asshole checking in.

I never had a positive relationship model: dad was abusive to both my mom and my stepmom, and my stepdad was abusive to me. So, shocker, I was an absolute shitlord to every girl I've dated. After about 8 months of dating, my poor HS girlfriend tried to break up with me since we were fighting nonstop, but I somehow tried to make it work for another two months... until I went ballistic over some stupid shit and said some really cruel things to her, just like my dad did to both my mom and stepmom. Stopped dating for a while.

Two years ago, I found out I was bipolar during my first relationship since HS -- I was overwhelmed by the relationship/a lot of residual insecurities/external pressures, ended up institutionalized and doped up beyond belief, destroyed the relationship with emotional abuse that I blamed on drugs and craziness, and spent the next half a year riding a long fucking roller coaster to metastability. I then spent most of 2018 drifting from shitty dead-end fling to shitty dead-end fling, all of which I knew were just a dirty way for me to cling to that feeling that, as shitty as I am, I could be liked, but I was just using them and felt all the worse when they inevitably imploded.

A year of not dating later, I feel more whole than I have ever felt in my life -- I'm fucked up, wounded, neurotic, but coherently and resiliently me. However, I'm too terrified to do it all again. I'm terrified of getting into someone yet again just to get rejected or, worse, have them reciprocate and get destroyed by my special brand of crazy. I'm terrified that this stable sense of self that I've worked so fucking hard to make while disintegrate in the wake of Feelings, since that's just what happens to bipolar people. I'm terrified that I'm gonna be locked in this lonely state for years yet again, if not forever.

And, go figure, I just started to get to know someone amazing. There's just no escape, is there?

>> No.14435398

>>14435386
>A year of not dating later, I feel more whole than I have ever felt in my life -- I'm fucked up, wounded, neurotic, but coherently and resiliently me.
How does it feel being a naughty teenage girl as a twenty something year old man?

>> No.14435400

>>14435398
At least I'm a person. I don't think I've ever felt like one my whole life until now.

>> No.14435410

>>14435386
>There's just no escape, is there?
i have no idea, i haven't talked to anyone besides my boss, family and cashiers in literal years. the good thing with me is that i have enough schizo in me to not give a fuck about being alone. i just don't want to become an alcoholic but damn, its exactly what i'm about to do.

>> No.14435420

>>14435410
> the good thing with me is that i have enough schizo in me to not give a fuck about being alone.
A small mercy. Safe sailing wherever you go or whatever happens, friend.

>> No.14435422

>>14435303
>putting a bunch of kids together for their entire childhood and adolescence is guaranteed to fuck them all up
Clearly, it fucks up some of them much more than the others.

>> No.14435431

>>14435386
Shit dude that was real. I just ignore it. I ignore my friendships. I ignore, I don't text anyone, I don't think about them, I think about stupid religious philosophy all day. I don't talk to my parents, my dad is an abusive asshole, and I decided to hole up instead of be like him.

I've dated a handful of people I didn't give a shit about. I am terrified of handing over some sort of vulnerability to them. What even is that? I want to do the opposite of whatever I believe people that want me want me to do, just to prove this vice of independence I believe I have. I'm such a shitty island personality I fucking hate it, I'm quiet, passive aggressive, and yet bubbly and I laugh too much at the same time.

You'd probably hate me but I don't care. Nah you might like me. How do I be honest? How do I even have friends? What do I even tell them? How will I know when I'm happy for telling them? Who the fuck do I talk to? Goddamn I just want to phone someone for an hour, but I'll have nothing to say, I don't know anything to say, I haven't dated in a year, what do I say? What do I even say? All I want to do is set up dialectics all day on the internet and prove that I can be a mirror of everything, I'm probably doing that right now in mirroring your posting style because I'm too goddamn lifeless and unoriginal to come up with my own shit. Or to even think to come up with my own shit. God damn I am a skeleton.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckf uck I want weed or LSD

>> No.14435445

>>14435420
wherever i end up going, it won't be safe.

>> No.14435542

>>14435431
I get it. I feel like my very existence is a procedurally generated chimera of cliches, that every awful thing I do or say was undercut by a real low-life, that every shitty circumstance I encounter is a sick parody of real suffering, that every good quality I have (as few as they are) is just the great value version of actual virtue. I'm very, very sensitive to it -- I actually got into a fight with some really good friends over it last week -- but if going down this dumb fucking rabbit hole of lit and theory did anything for me, it gave me a foundational vocabulary to actually voice what I've experienced. I don't know if I can become someone I like, if I can really mesh with anyone around me, or if I can go beyond the dividual me, but I can get some grasp on who, where, why, and how I am. It's helped... well, not much, since it's made everything look a hell of a lot worse than before, but just being able to talk and think about it in a different way that doesn't just completely circle back to me being an inhuman abomination is really liberating. I don't really know where I'm going with this, but what you're saying really resonates.

>>14435445
Best wishes regardless.

>> No.14435605

>be tall, kinda tan, nice lips
I literally don't have game but girls flock to me help
I've literally done the
>y-you too
response to shit like "thanks" or "happy birthday"

>> No.14435608

>>14435100
English speak me!? Unacknowledgedmentlying

>> No.14435645

>>14435542
Good luck I guess. Does anyone ever mean that when they ever even say it? Do I ever mean that? How do I tell to what extent? It's clearly in my activity, and my activity shapes my being, and my being is changeable. I honestly am no longer believing that I have some sort of core part of me that never changes and or is immortal it's just such a stupid idea. I'm a collection of psychical density that managed to stay intact I guess. Or was allowed to be intact. Or it was necessary that I am. No words for that. What does it mean to have a friend like for real.

Or a romantic partner that I actually trust and or care about. I've seen it, I've seen it die, I've seen it stagnate, I've seen two confident people carry on with it like it's fucking NOTHING it's just so stupid how they do it.

Shut up everyone that's making fun of me. I'm not a virgin zoomer. I'm not some lonely boomer. I'm initiated into some intellectual mysteries I'm young and I look ok. I dated a millionaire. My parents are millionaires. I don't have to work, yeah ok yes I do. I don't have to worry about money yeah you're right I don't. Ok. I just want to meet someone that doesn't care about that who isn't a rich stuck up retard because most people that don't care about money have it and are also given BMWs in high school. Isn't that some great personal development yup.

I hate telling people I'm rich. I feel awkward around poor people it feels like they're gonna stab me. I can't tell if they care or not. I hate saying it. I'm alienated. You hope I rot yeah fuck you too. I don't need that. I want connections with genuine people. I want to be a genuine person and I can't. Because I don't know what it is to trust people. Or let go and just like... I don't know what it is. I don't know if I'm even worth having decent friends if I can't find a job. Is that even a valid thing to say? Generous friends. Can I be a generous person? How can I if I don't have access to any money b/ my dad is a rich asshole? He just gives me stuff to keep me in that sort of control. I go to goddamn school. I don't have mega millions on hand.

I feel like a fortress made of mirrors and signal beams, like a rotten cretin at the center of it projecting loudly away anyone that has not faced their own soul. I certainly haven't. What will happen when I do? Will I fall apart and join that person like a religious zealot? Fuck I sure hope not. No wonder I like Jesus.

Yeah good luck dude.

>> No.14435660

>>14435645
usually, i stop at this gas station on my way to work to get water or redbull or cigs. so i go one morning and the qt girl is working, and i buy a jug of water and a redbull. then i get to work, get the van and drive to the jobsite. then i realize i forgot half the shit i needed because i was hungover and my head was not in the game (first day back from christmas). so i drive back to the shop, get the shit and decided to get another redbull. so i go in and she says "twice in one day?" like she wants me to know that she recognizes me and remembers me (we've talked before). so i tell her that i just been driving around being a retard, in so many words, and then i go to leave and she says "good luck."

>> No.14435692

>>14435180
i am moderately attractive now but i was a spotty greasy teenager and its really a VERY big difference. occassionaly women still treat me in the same way if they dont know me and firmly do not view me as a potential sexual partner

>> No.14435799

>>14434824
go to hell whore