/lit/ - Literature

Rene Guenon

I can't defend my wife from niggers

>>14387368
the last thread is still active you doublebaka
>>14367528

>>14387368
I started one of those internet arguments that I know is going to last forever and cause me massive stress. These are the only moments I really desire to kill myself

>>14387378
I want to marry nigger/spic trash, how do I become worthy

>>14387376
how do i delete your post

>>14387394
I learned to not do that when I was about 12.

>>14387394
>I started one of those internet arguments
why would you do this outside imageboards

When will I be rewarded?

>>14387440
When you come into my creepy basement and collect it.

>>14387440
right now! pic related is your reward, enjoy anon!

>>14387529
que the most savage rape fantasies

>>14387536
her hips....

Guys

Can you give me some good conversation starters? I'm trying to talk to this girl I'm crushing on. We just went on winter break till the 13th so I'm gonna see her next friday when we meet up to eat at a restaurant but I want to talk to her first. Should I message and ask what kind of music she likes? I don't know how to break the ice here. I didn't think I would be able to convince her to meet me somewhere even with other people

>>14387749
"So how about that Donald Trump guy, huh"

>>14387406
be prepared to service the weakest as initiation

>>14387749
just be urself bro

>>14387749
If she’s already willing to take time out of her day to spend time with you, then yes absolutely text her. In your past conversations did she bring anything up to work off of? Back when I was first talking to my gf we first started really talking to each other by sharing Spotify links. Music is a great ice breaker and leads to other conversations. Go for it dude.

>>14387368
there's so much love in my penis and i have nobody to shove it into.

>>14387368
As hard as I try, I cannot move beyond proof, though I recognize the hypocrisy of this position.

>>14387841
I'll just post the only conversation of any length I've had with her

>>14387868

>>14387868
>>14387873
hate to tell you, bro, she wants to fuck Trenton

>>14387895
I think that's just because trenton is a mutual friend and she wants someone around because she doesn't know me

>>14387895
To be fair, who doesn't?

>>14387868
>>14387873
wtf stop sharing our texts online you weirdo, lunch is off and please don't speak to me again.

>>14387908
You are such a fucking psycho

>>14387749
>Hello. I conciser you attractive. What are your interests?
The advice I'm about to give works with boys or girls. In fact, it works even with everybody in regular life.
First things first, if they start talking, fucking listen. Visualize the meaning of their words in your mind in a focused meditation. Respond with a thought out answer and do it in few words. If they start talking while you're thinking, ditch the thought and listen.
If they don't say anything, and for some silly reason you want to start the noise again, it really depends on what you want to say. If you don't want to say anything, but somehow induce words from them (You fucking madman.) Start formal with the "Hello." or "Greetings." First thing then you're gonna want to do is state something honest and positive about the person. It MUST be absolutely something you believe. If it's a lie, or flattery, it's USELESS. Gotta be genuine. Could be as simple as "You are attractive." but you really got to think they're attractive. That might make them like you more. At worst, it allows them to know your honest feelings. Are you scared by your own shadow? Then, you got to hit them with the best question of all. "What are your interests? What do you do for fun?"

That's it.

I unironically wish I was dead. I know my friends and family care about me but I can't bring myself to care that they care. I'm afraid if I kill myself I'll go to hell. I kind of want to do it anyway.

>>14387974
>"What are your interests? What do you do for fun?"
I'd like to do you for fun.

>>14387868
>>14387873
>Trenton
Good lord that’s the most Chad name ever you’re fucked m8

>>14388046
>Good lord that’s the most Chad name ever
What about 'Chad'

>>14388046
He's not really a chad. No offense to him because he's a good friend but he's kind of emaciated

Sniffling and snoring had ceased that morning,
i knew that silence would be my warning
and though i did as though i did not know
i wished today could wait for tomorrow
and that tomorrow would never begin.

My ears heard no sound, my eyes saw no sights,
as if days had become as dark as nights
for no more light shone in from the windows
and they had retreated from this limbo,
afraid to witness this purgatory.

Never had my body felt so heavy,
never had his body felt so heavy,
he always sprang up to land in my arms
where he would seek shelter from all the harm,
where he could rest and close his little eyes.

I closed his eyes and now he truly slept
no crying left for him, only i wept,
he always pulled me close with those small hands
but now at his sides those little arms hang
No more struggling for my little boy.

It's been 6 years since I last fucked.. I dont have money for prostitute and I am not in contact with many girls since they are mostly married.
Wtf should I do for sex

>>14388329
go to a gym bro, there's plenty of bitches there usually

>>14388329
>I don't have money for prostitutes
I doubt they're that expensive where you live

>>14387749
Just talk. If she wants to fuck her you will get the ok, because you are the fucker. But if she just wants to tease you, it’s up to you whether you want to be her babysitter. I typically don’t babysit but if she’s somewhat intelligent I might befriend her. But if she is strictly there to play games, and has no intention of getting intimate, but strictly like the “attention”- it’s up to you how you waste your time.

I killed a good dog yesterday and almost immediately got over it. Everyone is right to have left me to myself. Everything aches and everything will not improve because I do not improve. This world is of me and is me and it is a bleak horizon as far as the eye ventured to look. I am made of the right things in the wrong ways, but you see I do have the right things. A little too left of the mark maybe, or squared instead of rounded off edges. A low dull buzz in my left ear says to me awful things sometimes it eats up the time like some kind of machine, almost admirably efficient. I wanna bash it to shiny fragmented components
and be proud of how unfixable it is.
it lives in my brains and I crave them splattered; I want to have been brave and stupid enough to beat it head on. It lives on and I live on and nothing more comes from the either of us

i wonder if im going to eat donuts tomorrow

>>14387368
all women are whores

This life is nothing more than a nightmarish phantasmagoria, signifying nothing. In a little while I will be alone in shoreless space to wander its limitless solitudes without friend or comrade forever. I will dream other dreams, and better.

I should have married that hot ebony single mom who had an awesome personality. Now im lonely and sad because i listened to pol

>>14389231
why was she a single mom?

>>14389231
Little late for should'ves, anon. Next time, listen to your heartless, and not the heartless weirdos on the internet.

I seriously believe Atlantis was somewhere in America and it is so close to being proven by Fringe Scientists that it's frustrating me, because I want to talk about it but people would probably look at me like I am a schizophrenic or mentally ill.
I also believe that they had achieved a state of technology similar to the industrial revolution and created a method of manipulating the ionosphere with pyramids which harvested ions from the atmosphere, which is pretty much identical to Tesla's final invention before he mysteriously died.
It sounds super goofy I know, but is quite easy to pull off with relatively simple technology. The only downfall to this method is that technology from that point would need split off divergently from our current tech and wouldn't be able to utilise radio.
This technological high period came to an end when a meteor struck Earth, ending the ice age and forcing water to rise 400 feet making Atlantis sink to the bottom of the ocean.
Since this happened 12,000 years ago very little remains. In fact if our society were to face the same fate then within 1000 years 99% of our structures would be wiped away by erosion.
It's discovery will redefine our entire History. this

>>14389266
*listen to your heart, whoops

I hate putting up the family Christmas tree. It smells like car seats and is a fucked chaos to wire correctly. I think I'll get drunk and hit on my cousin again.

Salted biscuits

i miss him so fucking much

>>14389329
>and hit on my cousin again.
Based. Good luck!

Hey guys I've started writing a visual novel. Here's what I got so far:

Hah....Hahh...Mmhm...Ahnng...Ahhhh........Mlep....Ahhhn!...Mmmm....Shlick shlick...Ahh!....mmm....mmmm....mmmm...ahmmmm.....ah!!.......ahhh!!!!.......Ahhh~~~~~.....I'm.....I'm.....COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNG!

By the creek in summertime
In the morning of my life
Sat I beside a moaning wheel
And watched the water rise

Turns I to the water wheel and asks
Why do you cry?
To my surprise a moan rose up
And shared with me a sigh

I am troubled cried the wheel
I am troubled so I moan

Once a giant tree was I
With arms stretched to the sky
The wind kissed at my fingertips
And sang the song of life

A thousand years I grew and grew
And sang with all my might
I wished to bask forever
In the sun’s eternal light

Then the children of my mother came
Then taught me they about lifes pain
They tore me from my mountainside
And cut me into twain
They deemed me as a water wheel
And here I am to stay
And here I turn around and round
Every night and day

I lift the water from below
And turn and pour it high
But the river has forgotten me
For I am not alive

None attains his true desires
None can outrun time
It matters not what one acquires
None stays in this mortal bind

There is no laughter in this story
My tale is one of grief and woe
The end for all is mandatory
never more will this tree grow

I am troubled cried the wheel
And that is why I moan

I am troubled cried the wheel
We all must die alone

Working in retail sucks, but especially at christmas

I'm shitting dynamite write now.

>>14389841
Yes.
We must escape
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PufT63ER0uY

>>14389841
>tfw lost my job just before the holidays

>>14389932
I wish I could get fired but for not for doing something wrong, just get fired so I don't have to work but I also didn't do anything wrong

>>14389900
>>14389841
Retail isn't too bad, at least that is my experience. :3

>>14389939
Retail has a knack of sinking its teeth into your brain and rationality processes.

I would do exercises where you find yourself quitting and finding another job often, just to show yourself you have faith in who you are. I mean, if you aren't happy with what you have and work at, change that man. It's that simple. :3

There is nothing of value.

An object or a activity itself cannot have emotional value since you have to impose it.

Since everything is intrinsically valueable one, if feeling like shit, can only come out of this situation, if he does so with no external motivation.

Besides instincts there are no external sources of motivation.

Why then, would one decide to do anything besides trying to stay alive.

Every goal is artificial and we see this. The problem nowadays is, that staying alive is to easy. Thus we get destroyed mentally.

>>14390025
I can imagine what your face looks like if you fell for this meme.

>>14389791
Great!

How do you employed /lit/bros find the time to read? I've been a bureaucrat drone for 3 months now and I haven't had the time to pick up a single book, it's my first job so I don't know if people just stop getting tired after a while and do stuff at night once they get used to it or if it's an issue everyone has.

I feel disgusting. I am disgusting, well, not just disgusting but also boring. There is a constant war inside me. I am so quiet that inside a group I just stand for being always alone, people get tired of me and leave me, sometimes they say things but I really don't care. I'm just enjoying things my own way. I know I could make some changes and look more social but I don't want to do that just to look better. If I do changes is because I want, because I feel like it.

She was gorgeous last night too. I like how the shape of her glasses complements his face and how her hair does the same with her personality. I felt like she was a white cavernous body full of emptiness and hope at the dame time. Black and white, contrasts in her soul. Maybe she was looking at me and I felt it, she is attracted to me; maybe she was just looking at someone else and I got just a few drops of the unruly river of feelings that take part in her soul.

>>14390083
/lit/ likes to make fun of manchildren and stupid women reading nothing but children's books. It's not all wrong, but a lot of people do not have the energy to engage with meaningful literature, or art in general, after a full day of often meaningless work.

>>14390083
It only gets worse

>>14389957
I mean I don't work retail I work food service so it's almost if not more diabolical

I love my wife
I'm too numb to write about her tho
So so numb
This life has been cruel
I want her to be the one that kills me...

Should I write poetry even if I'm bad at it?

To be in a bad mood or funk means to break tendencies. To be in a good mood or uptrend means to redouble them. When gloomy, the last thing you should do is follow your gloom into deeper depths of subjective darkness. When feeling good, you should amplify those wellsprings of vitality. This sounds so basic that it almost doesn't seem worth stating, but when in a funk it is almost natural to pursue it into the thickets of malignant consciousness. Or when doing well, to expect it to coast onward without interruption.

>>14387368
I'm struggling with faith and I really don't want to be a Buddhist or have anything to do with mysticism. That includes ancient philosophy, considering their methods. I'm just not suited for it, and I feel kind of helpless and weak.

>>14390948
Try reading Cioran

Cum makes the world go round

>>14390921
Bump

>>14390025
>gets 12 hours of sleep every night and still feels "tired"

Hypothesis:

Everyone feels implicitly "tired" and "energy" is an umbrella term for various terrors.

>>14389900
butter works retail?

>>14390083
I have a long train commute for work that allows me to read something like 2 hours per day. If I drove instead of taking the train, I probably would hardly have time to read.

>>14391247
good take desu

>>14387368
I wish I could be high all the time, like the high I get from coke or amphetamines. Just a nice, cool high; always in control, always feeling elated and engaged.

Yeah, that'd be pretty sweet.

Whenever I find a song I like I'll play it 20 times each day until I'm tired of it. Now it's "Strangers" by The Kinks.

I keep looking for answers as to what happened to ruin Nick Land but I just can't find them. And don't get me wrong, I know he's a hack and I'm no fan of accelerationism. But I'm not sure how you go from being able to talk about topics at such a high level to becoming a fucking conservative boomer. It's not that he went rightwing, it's that he seems to have dropped like 50 IQ points. I just don't understand it. I've seen people go batshit insane, but I've never seen someone that was relatively intelligent, even if they were spouting bullshit, go back into baby mode.

>>14391451
That's nothing, anon. I remember when this came out I listened to it nonstop for three days. Three days, playing it on repeat, without going outside. And then I never listened to it ever again. It was like a brain virus. But then that's how I feel about most electronic music. I will listen to it to the point of exhaustion until I can't listen to it anymore.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_nUbhbEp65s

While lying in bed I casually thought about the idea of sex as general penetration between Aeonic bodies, between any parts and any areas. Thought about a woman putting her index finger in my forehead, felt stimulated by a subtle rest that was not relative to fatigue, not the culmination of lethargy whereby I usually fall asleep, but a rest whereby I fell asleep as if suddenly evaporated.

>>14391516
L
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>>14391516
Early onset dementia? Long term side effects of drug abuse?

>>14391516
>he thinks spouting about bullshit made up concepts in impenetrable essays only read by academics makes you smart

>>14390921
Bump

>you need to grow up anon, you’re not the protagonist of some story!
Well what if I want to be bitch? What exactly would submitting your views and “growing up” get me, meek acceptance of forty years of waging? No thanks, I’ll keep my delusions of grandeur.

>>14392294
Everyone is the protagonist of their own story, even those who are unaware of it, or those who are on the other end of the spectrum who are aware, and don’t want to be. It’s called survival. Find a middle ground.

>>14391516
this webm is fucking kino

>>14391516
it's actually kinda simple: he quit adderall and probably hasn't overcome (or rather he isn't able to overcome) the mental lethargy that comes along with quitting hardcore uppers. old ppl who quit uppers usually never recover and are clearly mentally deficient until they die

>>14391516
there is literally nothing wrong with being a conservative and you're not as smart as you think you are

After having gone through a phase of reading into the subject, it seems that the only repeatable scientific studies that have gotten results are ones inducing priapism. There have also been studies showing that men with sickle cell anaemia have larger average penis sizes, and will sometimes undergo penis growth due to suffering from an extended priapism with this disease.

Now I'm not a scientist, but the venom in bee stings has an effect similar to a priapism: in causes increased blood flow, engorgement, and burst blood vessels. Bee stings are used in a lot of neurological diseases and traditional medicines because the venom can be used to stimulate nerve sights and cell growth.

It's entirely possible that a few rounds of bee sting therapy on the penis would simulate growth. Likely even, provided it was given proper care to heal well. An Arabic text on sex written during the dark ages provides another idea: soak the penis in warm water and vigorously rub a mixture of honey and ginger. Probably mixing these techniques, ie, applying a bee sting to the penis and rubbing on a honey mixture to sooth and heal the injection site, would have beneficial results. Mixed with red light therapy to promote cell growth and healing, I can't imagine it not working. Significant penis growth could be achieved within three discrete sessions over the course two months

Are there any good books that will teach me interpersonal relationships and intimacy? I do not want a PUA book. I am a good enough conversationalist to make acquaintances and friends but I have trouble knowing how much to open up to people how fast and how much attention and time to spend on them. This applies to platonic and sexual relationships. I am basically an autist socialized on FPS games and I need a standardized social roadmap to follow.

>>14392971
stendhal, balzac, dostojewski

She's gone for good. I hope with all my heart I'll see her again, and I hope she didn't hate me. All I can do is hope.

>>14393010
>dostojewski
So I should fall to my knees and weep before the next woman I meet?

>>14393063
Don’t forget to kiss their feet

>>14393207
Gross, imagine how dirty and sweaty they would be.

The guénonanon(s) is going at it really hard tonight. I hate this, I'm going to sleep.

Just had a shit day lads, started working about three days ago moving furniture and painting my neighbor's house -some fat annoying lady, mom's friend-.
I got paid but got really depressed when she told me that her daughter -hot skinny blonde- finished her meme degree, and she also has a car which just made feel worse.
This bitch hasn't worked for shit in her entire life, for her dad -doctor, and nice guy- paid for everything including her education.
Sometimes I wish I was some kind of bourgeois you know? a Jew at least, but no, I had to be born in a simple middle class family inside a third world shithole.

>>14387368
A couple weeks ago lit encouraged me to ask out one of my friends. Two hours after I did it her grandfather died and she turned me down the next day. The rejection hurts, but so does her ignoring me. I only really have two close friends and she is one of them. I love her so much. I feel better sometimes but mostly I just miss her and want to hug her. She's one of the few people I've actually loved and the rejection broke my heart. It's all I can do not to bug her constantly because she asked for space after saying no.

>”Line/2- no touch 3048”
>Serial tape at “Comedi Cleb”

“Thank you all. And all.”
(Crowd members cough and arrange themselves)

“So, I went to the supermarket tomorrow. No fish?”
(No reaction)

“I could snap Hitler in half.”
(Chuckles)

“With my bare hands of course.”
(No reaction)

“Know what I think of Albert Fish?
I ate him. Bones and all-“
(Laughter)

“He kept squirming and the static was horrendous. Absolutely blinded by, and the stars were- Ah no not for you please. Thank me. God, really pulled a fast one on you factory workers, eh? The arena is still fresh for animals?”
(Silence, few jeers)

“I’m serious. Who else could make a monument towards breakfast cereals? The class of man called- “Dinosaur.” Ideal marriage of peace and war? Not in our lifetime!”
(Polite Laughter)

“We’re doomed!”
(Laughter intensifies)

“(unintelligible) not in this hour. The light is fading? Sewers...”
(Laughter dies down)
(Murmuring)

“Not what you expected, right?
Why’d you even come here?”
(Murmuring)

“I didn’t ask you to read this.”
(Laughter)

“Look, there’s the bastard!
Look at those eyes!”
(Laughter)

“Thank you all. Thank you all.”
(Tense Silence)

“A secret? Just one.”
“I was a farmer back on the distant side of another time washed out by the silt of a faraway rogue star. We pulled men from the earth and cut their tendons, drained the blood of His creations for mockery and kicks. Soldiers came... We were hungry! Jackboots turning on a spit. I have an idea- Where is my head? I can’t, I can’t, someday. Not really. It’s rolling? You’ve all lost your tongues! Ingredients in the stew of the universe! A feast fit for a world!
Oh Amadeus, gut me!”
(Raucous Laughter)

“You like that poison? You saw that poison! Then breathe, damn you! Breathe in the sweet air of a new era! Shovels bashing heads of livestock! Scoop that up and what do you have? A statuette!
There’s enough for everyone!
God save us! There’s enough human skin to coat the moon!
God save us!
A moon of skin! A w-“
(Laughter intensifies)

“Cutting t-
- - -
-miserable ga-”
(Laughter intensifies further)

“(unintelligible)”
(Crowd screams with laughter)

“(unintelligible)grab and-
(unintelligible)”
(Laughter fades into static as transmission degrades entirely)

>>14393406
Give her some space. Not everything is about you.

πρὸ τοῦ γενέσεως τοῦ Ἄνθρώπου, οἱ Δράκοντες τοῦ παντὸς Μύνδου ἦρξαν.
ὁ λόγος αὐτῶν ἦσαν Φωνή, καὶ πρὸς τὰς ἀληθεῖς ἀνάγκας μόνον ἔφησαν.
ἡ γὰρ Φωνὴ ἐδυνήσατο κνεφάζειν τὸν οὐρανὸν καὶ κατακλύζειν τὴν γῆν.

>>14393493
Nice

>>14393517
I am. I haven't talked to since she asked for space. I'm just saying it's rough.

>>14393493
>there’s enough human skin to coat the moon
Is that true? I should ask /sci/ but I’m guessing its true

I wish I had kept in touch with my friends from rehab

>>14389214
>I will be alone in shoreless space to wander its limitless solitudes without friend or comrade forever
Paradise, so long as one could still think.

>>14387368
Reminder to ignore all pseudointellectual rhetoriticians and instead go and read the complete works of Śaṅkarācārya, Guénon, al-Ġazālī, Plotinus, Abhinavagupta, Ibn ʿArabi, Jñāneśvar, Plato, Böhme, Kabīr, Ismāʿīl Ḥaḳḳī al-Brūsawī, Ānandavardhana, Iamblichus, Najmuddīn-e Kubrā, Palamas, Dattatreya, Gauḍapāda, Dölpopa, Han Yu, Mulla Sadrā, Coomaraswamy, Vaśiṣṭha, Bonaventure, Sanā'ī, Vyāsa, Ya'qūb al-Sijistānī, Vidyāraṇya, Longchenpa, Kṣemarāja, Damascius, Gurū Nānak, Baba Afzal, Śrīharṣa, Laozi, Matsyendranātha, Porphyry, Jāmī, Meister Eckhart, Madhusūdana Sarasvatī, Zhuangzi, ibn Khaldūn, Syrianus, Frithjof Schuon, Asaṅga, Bhaṭṭa Kallaṭa, Suhrawardī, van Ruysbroec, Kūkai, Jean Borella, Bādarāyaṇa, Clement of Alexandria, Vālmīki, Nṛsimhāshrama, Qutb al-Din al-Shirazi, Gorakhnath, Eriugena, Nisargadatta Maharaj, Chitsukha, Qūnawī, Somananda, Rangjung Dorje, Patañjali, Namdev, Aṭṭār, Rāmānujā, Shao Yong, Uždavinys and Ibn Bājja

tHaT WaS rEtrOAcTiVelY reFuTeD by gAynON

>>14393537
nooooooooo not greekerino

Seriously considering cutting my dick off and taking HRT

>>14393842
Just take the feminizing stuff and leave your cock intact. If you cut it you will have a painful gaping wound between your legs that modern doctors are unprepared to deal with, you will go into debt, and you will likely try to kys
Just stick to discord and don’t maim yourself

>>14393842
Personally HRT is fathomable but I'd never cut my dick off.

>>14393842
lmao do you really hate yourself that much?

>>14393842
Don't do it. Traps are much cuter with the dink still attached.

>>14393842
you will never become a woman
all women secretly despise you and wish for your death

>>14393903
Well that's not very nice.

>>14393921
but it's the truth
kill yourself filthy troon

For some reason I suffer from the strange paranoia that many famous westerners throughout history were either cryptojews or at least had an unknown recent Jewish ancestor. I don't consider myself an antisemite. In fact I try not to think about Jews at all. I did go through a Jew hating phase during the short amount of time I browsed /pol/ but that was over two years ago now. But the idea that so many famous gentiles could be secretly (((chosen))) can occasionally get under my skin and really haunt my thoughts. It's especially bad with Iberians and Germans. For the former it's due to the fact that they gave birth to the phenomenon of cryptojudaism in the first place and because so many scholars seem to like putting forth theories that "X famous Golden Age era Spaniard was secretly a Cryptojew". For the latter it's because Jews and Germans share so many surnames and also because the secret Jewishness of famous Germans would seem like some kind of retroactive divine retribution for the Holocaust. As if God would be saying, "See all these so called "Germans" you people worship so much, well they were actually part of my chosen people that you Nazis tried to kill 80 years ago". I will sometimes look at paintings or pictures of famous people and determine whether they look Jewish to me or whether they have any specifically Jewish facial features. For example, the past couple of days the idea that Schiller might be a secret Jew has been nagging at me constantly. It's actually not because of his nose since stereotypically large hooked "Jewish" noses seem somewhat common among many European ethnic groups but because he has that large slightly puffed out lower lip that seems endemic to Ashkenazis but no other group of people.

>>14393952
>I don't consider myself an antisemite. In fact I try not to think about Jews at all.
>But the idea that so many famous gentiles could be secretly (((chosen))) can occasionally get under my skin and really haunt my thoughts.
based me. i hate knowing this shit, ignorance is bliss

>>14387868
>>14387873
that was really square and cringy dude. also very, VERY beta. your first sin is telling her you'd ask her face to face. it doesn't matter. if you two dont see eachother then shes not gonna be thinking "wow why didnt this loser just ask me to my face?" next, it doesnt matter if you work weekend. also don't mention work. it's sad and boring. also you sound way to polite and its really depressing. next, you ask her if SHE has a time and place in mind even though you're the one messaging her. complete lack of creativity and inspiration, boring again. also she said "we COULD go out to eat" which is actually a really good sign. if you didnt already sound like a complete fucking beta im pretty sure you could have said anything and she would have obliged, but now you're just gonna get cucked by chads. also DON'T say "okay" as a reply, ever, it just sounds moody.

here's one of the million ways this convo could have gone better,
>Hey Megan I'm aware we haven't really talked much or anything but you wanna hang out sometime?
>Sweet, wanna hang out on [insert weekday date here]? We can [insert literally anything here. food, park, cafe, beach, whatever the fuck]. I think [insert mutual friend here] might be free, we could all [insert groupp event here].
Now pay attention, YOU just invited Trenton/Alex/whoever here, which is way more alpha. Because the trick to this is that you're lying. You have zero intention of actually hanging out with them, but it makes it seem like you aren't a coomer trying to get her alone with you for some big romantic move.
>excellent, excellent, amazing, can't wait
literally just type anything that would show excitement here. anything.

>>14389231
I wonder who’s behind this post

>>14393941
>troon
I remember when that just meant an ugly girl who looked like a tranny, when did it change?

>>14393952
>>14393973
Rent free for 2,000 years

>>14394001
where are you from, anon?
>Someone who says they are the opposite gender, but do not make any attempt to pass of as one, typically gets mad when they are misgendered

>>14394009
give money

>>14394017
Check number 3
>A girl that looks like she used to be a man. Not an actual transvestite, a real girl that looks like a transvestite. They are about 6 foot tall, wear loads of make up and false eyelashes. They act mannish and drink pints.
https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Troon

>>14394022
Do you accept Republic credits?

>>14393952
>For example, the past couple of days the idea that Schiller might be a secret Jew has been nagging at me constantly. It's actually not because of his nose since stereotypically large hooked "Jewish" noses seem somewhat common among many European ethnic groups but because he has that large slightly puffed out lower lip that seems endemic to Ashkenazis but no other group of people.
Do you even know what a fucking Jew is? Having a mediterranean (Jew of Algiers) nose does not make you a Jew. I have one. Not a single person anywhere in my family is a Jew. Not a single genetic test on me has even shown 0.01% Jewish. Even if I was genetically Jewish, that still wouldn't make me Jewish, it would still be very unlikely that I would be accepted as a Jew unless it came from my mother's side, was it? Father's side? Even THEN Jews would tell me that I'm not a Jew because I wasn't raised one and that I'm just appropriating. Back to the point though, a distinct genetic phenotype inherently predates "Jews" by tens of thousands of years. The "Jewish nose" has existed and proliferated long before even the first written language developed.

>>14394060
Did you even read it all? I specifically said the so called "Jewish nose" seems to be 100% stereotype while it's Schiller's lips that make me paranoid.

>>14394024
what meaning do you think it's being used here?
did you finish high school?

>>14387368
I love an older anime aesthetic. The faded colors, static-y texture. The animation style is really quite cool.

>>14393326
>I had to be born in a simple middle class family inside a third world shithole.
country?

>>14394116
watch the first episode of zeta gundam

>>14387899
not to rail on you some more but comon man..
>because trenton is a mutual friend and she wants someone around because she doesn't know me
as I said, she said,
>we COULD go out to eat with Alex/Trenton
she was offering it as a suggestion because you fucking had none at all. you asked if she wanted to do something with zero plans in mind and then made her make plans. now you're saying that she wants someone because she didn't know you? you didn't even make any attempt to plan something else because you're a beta. what did you actually expect from her? did you want her to make reservations too? make you dinner? pay for it? go for the first kiss? download bumble dude. every time i read this i get more angry

>>14394096
Sure, but that's retarded as fuck for not only all of the same reasons I outlined in that post but because, obviously, you wouldn't have ever arrived to that conclusion if Shiller didn't have the nose in the first place. Looking at someone's lips to determine if they're Jewish alone is, well, what?

>>14394130
I will anon! Thanks for the recommendation!

I'm increasingly convinced that every member of the abrahamic faiths are just Satanists, or something equivalent to the common depiction of that. They've made a deal with the Demiurge

>>14394159
Yes, I'm well aware I'm being paranoid. But of course the problem is I can't shake the paranoia. Why did I think going on /pol/ was a good idea? Over two years since I've been on that shithole and their autism still has a hold of me.

>>14394190
Who made a deal? The founders? Current leaders? All extant members?
Please be specific and coherent with your ramblings /x/friend

I was sitting at the head of table (probably christmas dinner). To my right was my mother, I don't remember who was at my left, if there was anybody. I had previously fought with a man who most likely was my dad or my brother, or some weird fusion of both of them. There I was, praying.
We never sit at the table anymore, our table is broken. We have never prayed at the table before eating. Yet we did that time. I told everyone to shut their eyes so we can pray. I asked god to forgive me for fighting with said man--only for my mother's sake, she doesn't deserve us fighting, she deserves a real happy family. But then I said "may I never be subjected to another man's will anymore, and may he apologize to me because it was his fault". After this last sentence, my mother at my right corrected me and said "it was YOUR fault". Or did she say no one was at fault? I can't remember.
Anyway, at this point everyone had their eyes closed except for me, and I was holding a gun to my head. Did I pull the trigger? I can't remember.
I dreamed about this last night. I saw myself in third person, like the "dreamer" me sat opposite to the "dream" me.

>>14394710
dream journal?

>>14394728
I've never been able to write a proper dream journal. I mostly just decide to forget about my dreams or write them on these threads.
I never get good dreams, they are either bizarre dreams or nightmares.

>>14394219
>Why did I think going on /pol/ was a good idea? Over two years since I've been on that shithole and their autism still has a hold of me.
That's completely understandable. If I grew up with muslim parents I would probably be muslim. Similar with spending time on /pol/. Although if you do entertain (((the jewish conspiracy))) then the whole of 4chan is liable to keep you "trapped" in this mindset unless you start thinking for yourself or leave this place entirely. Most Jews are ashkenazi, which are the highest iq ethnic group in the world. I can only surmise most of the hate is derived from this (in the same way pol hates niggers). If you're too smart it's a threat, if you're too dumb it's low hanging fruit. Also it's a really easy worldview. Every single world problem can be reduced to "die Juden are behind it". if thats ur thing then go for it my man

>>14394748
what if you're an eloquent falseflagger

>>14394748
>if thats ur thing then go for it my man
But it isn't my thing. I want to somehow learn to get rid of the paranoia. But the only surefire way to do that would be to somehow get genetic testing done on certain peoples remains to make sure there's no genetic Jewish connection. Although in Schiller's case that might actually happen at some point since I remember reading a while back somewhere they tried testing the DNA of his dad and sister with some bones they think might be his but the priest where is family is buried didn't want to disturb the dead or some shit.

>>14394823
I don’t get how that’s going to prove anything? What’s your hypothesis? That some people may have been genetically Jewish and we weren’t aware? Of course that happens. It happens in 2019 with 23andme tests

>>14394837
>That some people may have been genetically Jewish and we weren’t aware?
Yes

>>14394845
Well we already reasonably know the answer to that question without exhuming any bodies for genetic testing. What’s your point though? What is there to be paranoid about?

My journals since 2016 make 602,712 words which is 59,003 words more than Infinite Jest and almost half In Search of Lost Time.

>>14394853
>What is there to be paranoid about?
Because it would completely alter my perception of Western history and culture. Sure, if someone tested some famous person's DNA and it came up with like 2% Ashkenazi or whatever no one's going to give a fuck but let's say they dig up Cervantes, test him, and people discover he was 100% cryptojew. Wouldn't that completely make you question whether any other great men of the past were also secretly Jewish and that all of so called "Western civilization" really is just Jewish civilization in the literal sense thus proving certain shitposters right that Europeans are useless people and the Jews were always right in their claim of being the chosen people of God?

>>14387749
Where do I find a girl like this?

when you're truly hungry, you can't think of anything else

Her tears became an icicle. Panicking, I clawed at her face, ripping the frozen spines now solidifying her eyelids. Each pluck bore new tears, new cages of ice. My hands were red and numb, her lips spoke silence, locked in blue. After a time, we couldn't see each other.

I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND DELEUZE REEEEEEEEEEEE HOW TO EVEN READ HIS WORK FUCKING OBSCURANTIST CONTINETAL FAGGGG

>>14389268
>The only downfall to this method is that technology from that point would need split off divergently from our current tech and wouldn't be able to utilise radio.
What are you smoking anon?

> horse has his dick out while i'm brushing his sides
> the stableman comments on it and laughs

>>14395223
start with Nietzsche and Philosophy

if you haven't read Nietzsche start with Nietzsche, seriously

>>14395084
hunger is the ultimate compassion provoker. it's so primal and vital, synonymous to crisis and hardship.
Kolyma Tales is one of the only books that made me truly sad, innocent people starved and used like slaves on their own soil

>>14395311
thank you for the rec

>>14395344
you welcome. it's much better than archipelago if you want to get a feeling of what gulags were. author spent about 14 years in them.

> be me
> braiding horse tails regularily
> be you
> haven't ever braided a single horse tail

>>14395797
i thought this picture was of a black woman at first

>>14394874
I genuinely think you might be schizotypal or something, not because there aren’t already dozens of people on this board who believe worse but because you actually think you’re making sense right now

Women will pretend to be your ideal partner so you fall for them not because they want you but because they want your attention, and the more they think you can't live without them the more thrilled they are when they break your heart

>>14395797
Do the horses like having their tails braided?

>>14394144
>NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU CAN'T BE A BETA MALE!!!! BE AN ALPHA LIKE ME!!!!

>>14395834
they're neutral to it, but some likehaving their mane combed because comb scratches hard-to-reach areas on the neck

>>14394874
Zionism was right about goys.

>>14395805
here's a black mare for (You)

>>14387368
watched this cartoon flick because of this gif. kinda meh. suggest me good ones.

>>14395913
The Royal Space Force.

I feel like I almost have the answer to a question that's been eluding me for ages. I just busted a nut, I'm drinking. I feel the winds of winter through my open bathroom window. Why don't I just lay my genitals on the window sill. My neighbor's always watching Fortnite streams, so I don't respect him. I wouldn't have sex with him, but I'd come close. If only I were smaller and more effeminate. I'm not totally unhappy with my body, but I want to play a new round. I'm tired of fucking with women. I want to fuck with men and then make them pay the price for having ever wanted me in their lives. This gayness has gotten me far. This has nothing to do with the answer though. It's barely out of sight and I can just make it out. I need more wine. What the fuck is wrong. I got a bunch of sour gummy worms. They're delicious. They make me think of my broken mother. I need to figure this out. It's a foundation. This is a basic foundation. It's up to me to accomplish this. My shoulders hurt and I haven't slept in a while. Maybe I'm overthinking this.

>read an article by a leading scholar
>he argues essentially exactly what I did in a 4chan post

>>14396174
THIS is precisely the post these threads were made for

>>14395855
So I assume, in that case, that picture is of you? Even so, it’s doubly pathetic that you would not only save a picture like that but then get butthurt and hurl strawmen at the slightest bit of criticism toward either you or someone that represents your betamale views

>>14395873
I like the hat. Very cute.

>>14395797
>based horseanon is back
Nice braids buddy

tfw all novelty and excitement has left the world

>ywn rush to your friends house after school to watch the latest ep of dragonball z together
>ywn train and fight each other to raise your power lvls
>ywn enjoy oreos and orange wedges after a soccer game
>ywn have a pizza party and stay up past your bedtime playing vidya with your best buds
>ywn enjoy a day of carefree self-indulgence without responsibilities and hardships lurking in the back of your mind

>>14396270 thanks and >>14396273 thanks, brothers. day's misty and there's still no snow, and probably won't be any for the next week.

>>14396326
That's what drugs are for

> mfw sister shaves her cat

I've only ever met two men who I can trust. These men are what brothers are. They can keep up with my madness. I can keep up with theirs. It's time. It's time I give my support and help my best friends. This is one of the many things one must do as a man. I'm going to take on the world. I will bring these two up with me.

>>14396358
for what purpose

>>14396354
Can't afford to get hooked on drugs tho, there's things I have to do. Maybe if my relationship falls apart.

>>14396435
Take my hand and I'll show you a new way to live.

>>14396457
O-okay anon...

>>14396477
So how do you want to do this?

>>14387368
The quality of /lit/ has really been declining lately. It’s been getting unbearable for me. I’m probably going to stop coming here for a while and hope it gets better during the time I’m gone

>>14395866
Zionism has nothing to say about goys and in fact was inspired by gentile philosophers and values.

>>14395807
Don't tell me that (assuming you're a white gentile) you wouldn't go through a massive world shattering revaluation of yourself and your culture if such a thing were to happen.

It is so difficult to be the knight of faith, the existential hero. I dread soullessness but melancholy and ennui is so addicting. Either reject anxiety or embrace it and make that leap. One hopes it's an either or situation but most of us, including myself appear to be exhausted by listlessness that amounts to nothing.

>>14387368
I hate /g/

>>14387368
maybe i'm meant to be alone forever

>>14397159
It's all the disillusioned /pol/tards that think they're smart that migrated here after becoming disillusioned with politics and lets not forget the "bloomer" types that think reading will somehow fix their personality faults.

>>14397159
It's a combination of this, and Pewdiepie's "literature club" and visits here.

How do I stop suppressing my emotions and actions? I went to a Christmas gathering yesterday with friends and wanted to laugh and joke and relax and have a good time but I simply couldn't. I was so stiff and felt uncomfortable. I can never let loose and always feel as if I'm expected to be above hoi polloi. Not out of a sense of superiority or anything of the sort but out of a weird sense of decency. I was too reserved and they were intoxicated. Not that that bothered me either.

I've been told by my friend that I also suppress laughter. Like I don't allow myself to enjoy things and he can see it on my face. I don't know how to stop, though. How? How do I be a normal human?

>>14390083
the secret to productivity + working is to do it all in the AM before work. After work, sleep ASAP

>>14397159
lately i'm more happy to open discord to engage in a mediocre horse channel than to go on lit and say nigger all i want.

>>14396352
Beautiful. Where do you live? And I’d be curious to know how this lifestyle affects what you read and write.

>>14398200
i live in m*Scow but work in suburb, where pic was taken. 3-4 days at work, then back to city, sometimes for a couple of days, sometimes weeks if weather's too bad and there's little to do at the stables.
what i write is utterly schizo, but i find this work healing, your mental state goes to normal, daydreaming is sharp and clear, no retarded thought loops of the city. being able to pet a horse whenever i want makes problems irrelevant
the mist here also looks cool

bump

Perhaps prematurely said, but I think this is the year when I do not feel any Christmas mood at all. I'm detached.

In later years I always have this thought, but then, somewhere in the mix of dinners, the darkness outside, the warmth inside, the light chatter, the deep of winter being like a womb, I succumb to this sustained emotion of childhood memories and the present moments suffused together; it's Christmas after all, let's take it lightly.

But no more. And what is better, I don't resent it, I am truly indifferent, and won't likely even attend any family dinners. And that's fine!

I want to die the beautiful death of a martyr. The cause itself is not as consequential as the action itself. I can think of nothing more beautiful or noble than to hold so strongly to something greater than yourself that even your most fundamental existential drives, toward life and propagation, are overridden. That the greatest fear, the greatest pain, pale in comparison to the transcendental truth of this thing that lies entirely outside the self.

There are virtually no causes left worth dying for these days. Virtue and selflessness have been completely subsumed by the Spectacle. What is left to us is mere theater at best, pale jokes of dedication to be entertained by in our sick fascinations for only a brief moment, then discarded into the endless amorphous flux of media.

And so I'm left to go mad in my comforts. I will, like presumably many other men, live abiding by nothing more than ourselves, and die a boring withering death in discontent. No transcendence, no virtue, nothing but some stupid machine consuming in comfort until death.

>>14399178
>There are virtually no causes left worth dying for these days.
Find something (or somebody) worth living for, then.

Life seems not worth living if I can’t find someone. I’m 36 now and have never dated. Seeing a therapist in two weeks to try to fix whatever’s wrong with me.

>>14399601
>whatever’s wrong with me
you're fat

I'm thinking that talking to yourself in the second person might actually be healthy. Well, one of you thinks that, anyway. You might be wrong. Don't get too confident in your thinking or you might go crazy.

>>14399612
I wish it were that easy.

>>14396402
Learn to read between the lines. She shaves her pussy and Anon likes some pubes on a girl.

>>14399622
It is. You need to have self-talk (not rumination) and care for yourself like a parent.

>>14387368
Monkeys playing drums.

>>14399667
Noooooo

Life is not daijobu desu senpai

>>14399720
(quote from my diary desu by Anon R. Faggot 1995 edition unexpurgated)

>>14399601
Sounds too late anon

>>14399832
That’s my fear. I’ve been considering killing myself.

>>14399993
Devote yourself to God fren, suicide only brings lower reincarnation. Nevermind eternal recurrence and quantum immortality.

>>14398326
Congrats, you’re probably the most /lit/ motherfucker on this board. That duality between city and country is a theme I’ve encountered in my own life and psyche as well, working as a mountain guide when I can and then retreating back to the concrete when money runs low. Have you read any Willa Cather? She’s a fantastic early 20th century author who grapples with that dynamic. I highly recommend starting with her short story ‘Neighbor Rosicky.’ It talks about the health of nature and toxicity of cities. Hope you’re able to escape the concrete permanently friend. I know I am certainly trying too.

The contrast on womens feet, the pale colour to orange, is truly a work of art. Soles can be really beautiful. Foot fetishists of asian girls are descendants of former blue blooded aristocratic classes.

>>14387368
Harun Farocki y Hito Steyerl ganaron fama porque tocan temas de arte-tecnología que sus contemporáneos desconocen, no porque sus textos sean buenos análisis sobre los temas que tratan.

It's been an entire year, to the day, since I've last posted on /lit/. I initially left with the feeling that my time away from here, as well as the rest of 4chan, would help with mental stability and overall happiness. Not that I actually believed either of those was possible, but it was pleasant believing i could have them in some capacity. I also thought I would have more time to devote myself to music, friends, relationships, socializing - pretty much anything else besides 6 hours a day scrolling through an image board. At first things seemed well: I joined a political organization on my college campus, got laid for the first time, and began working out regularly. However, with the exception of lifting, it took just two months before I returned to square one. Two months...and since then I've tried to get roaring drunk virtually every night. It's been nonstop, the drinking. My dad is (was, since he's at a halfway house right now) an alcoholic, as was his dad. Of course, it's cowardly to resolve myself to drinking in light of some genetic predilection; doing so is justification ex post facto. Worst of all, even worse (or in conjunction with at least) than alcoholism, is my inability to write anymore. When I was "addicted" to 4chan last year, I was able to set down a couple of lines of poetry every day - some good, some bad. Now it's as if I had never written before at all, with every attempt to relate an experience in words being impotent. I think my biggest anxiety about 4chan was how detached it made me feel from the social world, from friends and family and the like. Yet, in a hilarious twist of fate, my time away from here has made me both more detached and less productive. Absolutely fucking hilarious.

>>14400894
As an aside to this, I had a dream a few months ago that conveys in images what I cannot in words. In the dream, I was running through hell. How did I know it was hell? I don't know for sure, but the fact that I was violently running through a pitch-black hallway - with no legs, moreover, as if I were a spirit - while screaming at the top of my lungs towards an exit certainly has a hellish quality to it. There were others in this hallway, yet they were more incorporeal than myself. I ran through them like the living amongst the dead. Continuing to run, the exit came nearer. It was almost cliche how I was reaching "a light at the end of the tunnel." Nevertheless, I emerged from this dark hallway into a field, a field wherein stood my sister, most notably, as well as other friendly figures. Now, any interpretation of this dream only yields hackneyed half-truths about community, family, love, etc. So my question is: if there is in fact a deeper meaning, what the hell could it be? I've had other dreams with more symbolic nuance, but none have affected me as this one. And I suppose there has to be a deeper meaning since I so vehemently reject the surface-level interpretation.

I’m 25 and already feel life is over. No motivation to do anything for the past 3 years. I wish I could do something to be less depressed.

>>14387368
I wish I was beautiful

>>14400953
you can always be beautiful on the inside
and people who are nice to look at can always be ugly on the inside
you have to do the best you can with what you have

>>14400953
Are you a girl?

>>14394638
All extant members. All three religions have an implicit focus on conquering and replacing your enemies through population change. They all profess the existence of an infinitely loving god who, according, to their own books is a childish, vengeful tyrant. An infinitely powerful being who has something to prove. A corruption of the Platonic One, or any philosophically advanced depiction of deity.


>You live a long life, mate, and have a dozen children. All of them have a dozen children, and so on. In a couple of generations, the island has ten thousand rats and has reached its carrying capacity. Now there’s not enough food and space to go around, and a certain percentage of each new generation dies in order to keep the population steady at ten thousand.

>A certain sect of rats abandons art in order to devote more of their time to scrounging for survival. Each generation, a bit less of this sect dies than members of the mainstream until after a while, no rat composes any art at all, and any sect of rats who try to bring it back will go extinct within a few generations.

>In fact, it’s not just art. Any sect at all that is leaner, meaner, and more survivalist than the mainstream will eventually take over. If one sect of rats altruistically decides to limit its offspring to two per couple in order to decrease overpopulation, that sect will die out, swarmed out of existence by its more numerous enemies. If one sect of rats starts practicing cannibalism and finds it gives them an advantage over their fellows, it will eventually take over and reach fixation.

>If some rat scientists predict that depletion of the island’s nut stores is accelerating at a dangerous rate and they will soon be exhausted completely, a few sects of rats might try to limit their nut consumption to a sustainable level. Those rats will be outcompeted by their more selfish cousins. Eventually, the nuts will be exhausted, most of the rats will die off, and the cycle will begin again. Any sect of rats advocating some action to stop the cycle will be outcompeted by their cousins for whom advocating anything is a waste of time that could be used to compete and consume.


The Abrahamic faiths are the rats in the passage above. They've made a deal with the demiurge, or the ruler of this world: "Mutilate yourself and your children, and I'll make your descendants outnumber the stars". Genocide, murders, rape, enter stage right. Historical revisionism soon to follow. Imagine looking in the mirror and thinking copies of yourself ought to take over the whole universe. Pure Narcissism.

I hope I don't need to convince you about the evil of Islam, it's a totalitarian political ideology that needs to be stamped out like fascism or communism.
I don't know much about Judaism but I've heard some pretty bad things.
Christianity is the worst because it's a corruption of greek philosophy. They are so close and yet so far away

>>14400976
Boys can be beautiful, too.

I met my father for the first time today. Actually, I've known him my whole life but I never knew he was my dad until recently. It's crazy how things can be kept under wraps for so long. I was raised by another man thinking he was my father all along. He'll always be my dad though.

I also have two new half sisters. Both lovely young women. And I've known them all along too. Life is just crazy.

Get your ancestry test done my niggas because your mom might have been a hoe like mine

>>14400990
You bet they can. I love men

>>14400990
Eh, not really. People running on testosterone are nasty looking

>>14400996
Was your dad the one to break the news to you, or did you find out on your own?

I think my dad cheats on my mom but I don’t want to investigate it further and as long as he puts food on the table I shouldn’t care about this shit. My moms quite a nervous person and if she found out something really bad would happen.

>>14401013
Rude.

>>14401065
It's objectively true. Testosterone is literally poison. It makes you ugly and makes you live a shorter life. I wish that not a single granule ever entered my body

>>14401014
I found out on my own. Though he had always suspected

>>14401111
Quads checked. But that's strange that he would suspect you knew, and never thought to come to you about it.

>>14395072
Unironically everywhere

>>14387749
I am going to rape you.
Then you rape her.

I'm drunk and feeling very resentful of the way I was raised. I wish I had emotionally honest, healthy, and practical parents instead of ones whose brains were fried by religion. I could never actually talk to my parents about the things that bothered me or that I actually cared about, all I got back was a canned answer or them telling me they would have to check their Bible before getting back to me. It's like they were scared of having their own opinions outside of the church. I can understand why they would turn out that way given the way they were raised, but I'm not going to forgive them anytime soon. They must know deep down that they have to keep the charade up to just preserve the life they've built for themselves, a second of honest self reflection and it all comes tumbling down. That's why they surround themselves with only people who share their views. They think that because they are mind to other members of their group that they are gods special end time people. They couldn't be any farther from that, they are just tribalistic emotionally deprived wageslaves like everyone else. It's so fucking tiring, they are *never* going to see what everyone else sees so plainly about them. This whole topic is like a thorn in my foot that won't ever heal, I'm sure I'm still going to be livid about this whole thing fifty years from now (that is, if I'm still alive by then)

>>14401004
Please fuck me.

>>14393903
women are the biggest supporters of trannies though

>>14401018
damn

>>14387979
Same. I'm not even religious but something at the back of my head tells me that killing myself is "breaking the rules" and that I'll just end up somewhere worse than I am currently

>>14387368
Kinda. Falling for a art girl .. who is beautiful internally and externally but is kinda a Loser ... because of her do nothing boyfriend... it’s sad how a women with such protential can be bringer down by a man

>>14401649
are you a lesbian

>>14400952
Learn to run ... but start walking .. you’ll change yourself and stop masturbating learn to edge

>>14401656
Ahahaha fuck that made me laugh nah a bro

as long as you fight you are your own justification
the fact of the battle is the explanation

EVERY ROSE HAS ITS THORN

>>14401649
>>14401656
If it’s anymore cringe I am baking her favorite pie for her on Christmas ahah

>>14387368
There is this girl I've been speaking to rather regularly. I see her on the bus a lot. We went to college at similar times. We would talk and do things before class. If We ran into each other after class we would go out and do stuff. She seems happ to see me and invites me to have Coffee with her and stuff. She tells me about her life and such.
I have her number. I was texting her rather regularity. I got answers back almost always. But when I would ask if she was free to do something she would ignore me. I asked her to go to the mall with me once and she never got back to me. But when I saw her later that day she was super friendly and agreed to go to the mall with me. She also tells me her work schedule in extreme detail. She tells me to pop by and say hello if I can. I don't get it. She strikes me as a very conservative person. I would say there's a 50/50 chance she is a virgin. She lives with her older sister as well. Her parents are from the middle East. She's hot kinda looks like abella danger but with a better face.

What does she mean by this?

Sorry for the ramble it's late and I'm tied. But I can't get this off my mind.

It's been almost seven years now, but I still relish the reminders of our encounter. You must remember as well, don't you? Perhaps it's a minor thing to you- a reflexive function born from so much time on social media. It almost certainly is, but I still choose to believe that each interaction over this impersonal platform is your agreement that our time together just for that one night is worth remaining in both our memories. Seven years. Many others, much more time spent with them. Still it remains. Even without your intermittent contact I know I'd still think of you. I knew I would from that very night. For a while, thought it was a sort of torture; to be consistently reminded of something that is impossible to bring to fruition. Lately I've come to take it as a comfort. It allows me to believe that maybe I could have loved somebody for real. I'll never understand why the prospect of a hopeless situation appeals so much to my being. Perhaps because I've recognized that the world is cruel and capricious and that I would feel guilty if I could not count myself among the victims of existence. Have I objectified you then? Made you yet another vessel of satisfaction for my cosmic need to feel miserable? Possibly. Right now I'm letting it feel good for a change. There's time for resentment later. It would be nice if you dm'ed me again like you did last week.

>>14401677
it's not cringe, you love her
i hope she can see there's someone outside who truly cares about her

>>14399178
Yea modern conforts have made people more passive and less willing to fight for there beliefs. Why fight against unjust men when you can just watch shit on Netflix. Or better yet masturbate to anime. These things make it easy to ignore the unjust real world.

I love her more than I will ever show

>>14387368
If I enjoy art, will I stop enjoying art? If I enjoy gifts will I stop enjoying those gifts, only to became a pathetic brat always wanting and wanting more? It seems t me that enjoyment is waning and temporary, all things i've enjoyed in the past I now have less enjoyment in doing, all friends I interacted with in the past are now seemingly absent from my life due to my lack of interest in interaction. I try desperately to just enjoy doing something but it all seems pointless, and ironically work is more interesting to me despite its stresses and dullness, but with no real friends or relationships I feel my life has amounted to nothing, and, by the looks of it, will amount to nothing, taking in the fact I spent 30 or so minutes writing this on the literal sphincter of the internet.

I stopped watching porn about one month ago, same goes for my masturbation habit. The coomer meme really affected me and made me realize how bad I was. Now that I think of it, I'm glad I took that decision, for my erections were never strong, it wasn't real, and the idea of watching a video in bad quality of some random whore getting fucked isn't erotic to me anymore.

>>14400996
Sometimes I dream about one day finding out that I had a long lost sister.

>>14401801
Why fight anymore, everything seems fucked, if you fight, your fucking over others lives, at least when the medieval knights went crusading they were ignorant of the people they killed, they saw them as heretical monsters that needed to be driven from the holy land. Now everyone seems human, given that everyone can change within time, so why waste energy fighting your fellow man?

I'm 23, I have fallen in love with an 18yr old girl who has been with over 20 guys. Most of them black. I am her first white guy, and it's funny as fuck. And I feel like this entire thing is a joke on me

>>14389268
A little late but recently I watched this dude from a site called gemstone university and he thinks it was a global civilization which makes a lot sense

>>14400449
thanks for rec, brother. i'll look into it, early 20th century is one of my favorite lit periods
i hope to settle in the countryside when i move, whole country is a shitstorm but the village was massacred with especial brutality. euro villages seem good enough though

>>14402003
Well, are you going to date her?

>>14402034
I am dating her. I sleep at her house regularly

>>14387368
Sometimes, I wonder if there is anything left to say after reading pessoa.

>>14401977
mind=cured
4chins is better at making young men quit porn than the church

>>14402041
>Implying this isn't the church of the 21st century

Spinoza was a good man and great philosopher. His life outside his work was that of a renegade, however I have one problem with his philosophy. I can't accept the idea that he rejected any sort of irrational thought, for dreams and memories constantly haunt us and hide key knowledge. You telling me there's no such thing as the human soul? how can a rational person explain the poetic phenomenon? what happened to Homer during ancient Greece isn't a simple action of the mind, it is something more profound indeed. Same goes with his God, the human body and soul are just to perfect to be a simple effect caused by a nonhuman God that isn't linked to us. Maybe it was Descartes' method and the whole irrational thought that affected him. The fact that he only saw bodies instead of forms amazes me.

>>14402059
> dark mysterious institution that's actually a bunch of retards with a couple of really bright but antisocial ones
> promoting monkpill
> obsessing over obscure mysteries like repeating numbers
> has real power, only utilizes it for profit(lulz)
> can bullshit aerchant onto the throne
damn

>>14402134
a merchant*

I like femininity and its aesthetics but i find women boring.

>>14401749
Be more decisive. It lets you both know where you stand. Ask her face to face, "I've got tickets to [pertinent occasion], I'm going at [time], and I'd love to take you." Don't allow her room to maneuver out of it

>>14402134
Yeah and there are angels of light through out it's chaos.
.it's a very interesting spectacle

>>14402160
I envy women for their femininity. I wish I could be some qt bishonen.

>>14387368
Am I eternal cursed to be a middlebrow shit? Maybe

I usually end up taking a shower during midnight. Am I the only autistic who does this?

>>14402181
Definitely like a true androgynous person.

>>14401990
Intolerance and selfishness have a good public relations firm. Which can make intolerance look like tolerence and selfishness look like selflessness.

As i said before no one speaks truth to power anymore. So People have to be put in line less today than in the past.

Also the powers at be in this world wether they be the Chinese communist party, "The west" or Vladimir Putin don't tend to get physically violent with each other. They wage war on each other in different ways.

Maybe the Aztecs were right when they foresaw the end of the world in 2012. They didn't predict an actual apocalypse, it was more a change, the start of a new era, a decline that is linked to the modern era which Guenon discussed throughout his work.

>>14402160
women are only interesting while amusing each other. hmm, just like men.
was homosexuality based all along because it praised prime masculinity and feminity as men&women themselves see it, instead of retarded ideals from the other side?

>>14402209
i have an androogynous face and literal inbetween body (pseudohermaphrodotism), i'm basically a guy with mangina
thanks genetics, at least the face is cute somewhat

>>14402332
Wanna be my bf?

>>14402358
i've taken the monk pill, you can be my brother

>>14387368
I have lots of ideas for stories but lack the discipline to start writing them.
I've resorted to screenplay format to make it easier/faster to visualize the story but still struggle to get started. Any tips or advice?

>>14402365
o-oh okay...

>>14402332
bost bicture

I came home for Christmas and I noticed that the best pizza place in town, Gregory's Pizza, had been replaced by a Dominos. I gazed in disbelief. A flood of negative emotions swam through my head, disbelief, outrage, hate. I wanted to open the door and toss in a stick of dynamite. I wanted chain the doors shut and light the place on fire, to hell with who might be in it. Or maybe a drive by shooting, shattering the clean new glass front in a hail of fully automatic retribution. I grew up with that place. The only reason it might have gone out of business is because of its shabby exterior which repelled the out-of-towner cocksucking recent college graduates, or an entirely forgivable sanitation code violation.

I left city with all it chain store homogenization only to find it back home, like some monstrous world-cancer chasing me where ever I go.

Who is the actual demographic of 4chan? It is one of the highest traffic websites in the world. Is it just a global cross section of bottom feeders?

>>14402416
>Is it just a global cross section of bottom feeders?
Rude.

>>14402245
And honestly I am glad people ARE less violent in todays world. I know it may sound gay but I just don't want anyone to get hurt, we are all human and we all can change after all.

>>14402416
I mean, the people on here seem more truthful, and way less likely to kiss ass and become a hivemind.

>>14402422
>I know it may sound gay but I just don't want anyone to get hurt
Cute and peacepilled. You've got a good, sweet heart, anon.

What are everyone's favourite operas?

>>14402434
Star Wars

>>14402431
Shit, thought you might call me gay, sorry fer the dicktug, but thanks anon.

>>14387368
Kierkegaard is retarded, not for being an incel and a Christcuck, but because he exalts faith as "higher" than other directives for no reason.
Criticizing him has become taboo due to incel spillover from other boards, 4chinz' continued slide to the Christcuck right, and the permapseud inhabitants of the board believing that it makes them look smart when they blindly reaffirm the worthiness of "agreed-upon" intellectuals.

>>14402416
lonely people

Penis penis penis nigger penis penis

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Door opened, oh no a colleague will see me shitposting wdid

Nice horse m8 >>14402032

I should write a friend instead of being in this shithole

Recently finished my fall semester and i’ve been wanting to initiate conversation with this girl who was in one of my classes but I haven’t been able to.
We both follow each other on social media but have not said a word to each other. I think shes extremely attractive and kind of want to try and send a message but I feel like thats just weird. Want to just try and get to know her even though I have a gf that I also really love. Not really sure what to do, probably just gonna disregard her and not say anything even though I will most likely see her on campus next semester.

shut the fuck up tinnitus nigger reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

>>14402446
I wouldn't say something like that. But I think that world could use more people like you. Everybody just seems so angry at the moment.

>>14401018
Silently punish him by cucking him and fucking your mom.

Anyone here have a blog they write? I'm going to try to start one to get myself into a habit of writing more, I'd like to follow anything other anons on here are writing.

>>14402465
Quite angry, especially people who delve too deep into politics, I am not sure what country you are from, anon, but people over here in the States get angry over a lot of things fer political reasons, theres a bunch of people dividing themselves up into political partys an fighting an all that, everyones divided fer really ridiculous reasons and its quite upsetting.

>>14402422
based and goodpilled
>>14402427
that's true. i've been chatting a lot in one horse discord lately, and the sheer amount of polite-faggotry is insane. discord mods also handle "felonies" like literal lawsuits. pic is a long ass letter the mod (Face) sent to my friend (Grim), look at the list
> saying you hate purple
> "labelling" someone a bad pet owner for minor abuse
> arguing
not just it, but the way it's worded makes me kek profusely

>>14402485

>>14402490
That's hilarious. It's like they get off on running a kingergarten for adults. Why would you ever join such a place?

>>14388233
Woah. Is this what I think it's about?

>>14401018
Tell her anon, my sub-human father cheated on my mom fer and lied about it for 7 years and we only found out due to one of his co-workers snitchin on him, tell her before she wastes 7 years of her life with him anon.

>>14402496
>wanting your mother to turn into a single whore and go sleeping around with a bunch of strange men
It's better she keeps getting cheated on by his father. Better talk to him and tell him to stop doing that shit, at least try that before telling her.

>>14393537
But a dream cometh through the multitude of business; and a fool's voice is known by multitude of words.

>>14402485
Ya, discord is strangely dramafied and political for being an le epic gaemer meeting place.

>>14402507
My point was that my mom didn't know for 7 fucking years and it fucked her up, I just don't want this anons mother to go through the same shit.

>>14402434
El Barberillo de Lavapies maybe. comfy music, bad plot. Zarzuelas are underrated.

>>14402493
it's a horse server, other than fag mods it's comfy to share pics and talk to horsegirls from america. not great but nice

>>14402520
She never has to know if he stops. It would fuck her up anyway. The best option is to be a good son and beg his father to stop because you don't want your family to fall apart and to see your own mother dating strange men. Promise that you won't tell her if he promises to stop. It's still fucked and will affect the relationships but it's damage control for the least bad route.

>>14402490
Like a fucking professional lawyer dude.

>>14402545
that's what im talking about. also >>14402493 got it right, it very much seems like he gets off to managing safe spaces and expressing his power in the mildest most retarded words possible
like a local politician thinking he's the shit, but more perverted

>>14402539
There could be a reason why anons dad is cheating on his mom, maybe they have contempt for each other an want to divorce but are too scared to do it? My parents were the same, and its fine if they wanted to break up but they stayed together for the family, and I promise you my mom would be happier if she was told of the cheating before she wasted 7 years of her life. Nevertheless, anon should wait till after the holidays.

>>14402568
>muh happiness
You're a coombrain. Shut up.

>>14402554
Ya, and have you seen servers banning VERY mildly offensive words like "trap," got perma banned right off the spot fer spouting out a joke bout traps, its fucking outrageous how 1-ply toilet paper these guys are.

>>14402570
Coomers gotta love their mothers too, fuckboi.

>>14402595
If you loved her you wouldn't let her become a common 21st century slut

>>14402605
Ya I do, thats why I know she wouldn't become one, she doesn't have to rely on other people for money, so that marks out her becoming a hooker, and I know for a fact that she has enough respect for herself to not become a slut, and I respect her because of it, I respect and love her because she doesn't allow herself to fall into such a slum after she told dad to leave, she works hard to make sure she doesn't slip down into that state. All I am saying is that anon is incredibly lucky to be the one with the knowledge of his dads affairs, he gets to choose, I didn't, anon should be careful.

>>14401671
Based, boomerpilled

>>14397171
What are you talking about? I’ve already agreed that’s probably lots of people that were genetically Jews that we weren’t aware of, or that they weren’t aware of. Vice versa as well. You also should probably learn what Jewish means. You haven’t listed a single thing that it would change. Because it wouldn’t change anything. There’s no revelation to be had. IQ is quite well correlated with success and ashkenazis are the highest IQ ethnic group in the world. There’s no mystery to be discovered.