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>woke up after 8 or 7.5 hours of sleep
>browse internet, drink coffee, do chores
>didn't read the long pseudy old novel last night or this morning
>went to gym (didn't see any notable gymthots)
>lifting went well (did heaviest 5 rep squats for a long time; lifted lmao2plaet bench for reps)
>went in to central London for my usual walk while listening to CumTown, which was funny
>sat in library a bit but I could tell the day was finished
>got underground train to Oxford Street
>felt demoralising to be in crowds of tourists; walked a bit, now drinking coffee (and browsing alt right Twitter, rationalist blogs, 4chan: the patrician's choice of Saturday night entertainment); unsure what I'll eat tonight

Oxford Street felt like the future. Crowds of brown people and the odd GigaChad and GigaStacey rich 6+' couple.

I have been feeling sad lately at being a total consumercuck. I feel embarrassed talking to people at work because I'm a zero life zero passion consumercuck. Is this normal? Reading and lifting is consumercuckoldry. I don't even think I can be saved.

The people who started my job at the same time as me, and who are mostly younger, see me as a disgusting freak to be avoided. And all the older employees (there are seemingly no people my age or slightly younger, just straight out of university or at least 10 years older) see me as a freak because I'm not an extroverted cliche of what a man in a suit is like. Working in an office makes people suspend common sense. Common sense would be to discard half of our work as pointless and save the company money. How can new employees be starting in my office in three weeks? What work is there for them to do? If I don't snatch the good stuff now, I may be stuck with busywork for months.

I finished reading an enjoyable history book on my phone a few minutes ago.

Nothing I do amounts to anything. I don't do anything but that's my fear. That, and being ineffective. Fruitlessly searching Google for something (number of ATM machines in rural Bolivia) scared me. I think everyone else has an ability to do something before they know how to do it.

And of course I read about mathematicians proving that all numbers ending in prime fintegrals are sloppy-composite or some 15 year old on hacker news implementing a newspaper reading bot in a Java framework written in Lisp and I simply despair.

London is boring and walking around it feels like I'm in the farcical stage of life.

>> No.14221733

>>14221724
You need to get some pussy m8. Forget about reading some fucking shit book that you can read any other day or doing some pointlesa shit. Just get your whole mind on getting pussy , going to clubs, talking to girls and always with a kind smile.

>> No.14221736

>>14221724
>see me as a disgusting freak to be avoided.
how do you actually know this

>> No.14221762

>>14221736
Not OP but I'm in the same situation but it's obvious based on my people look at you and how open they are to conversating with you. It hurts a lot and all you really wanna do is just get your work done and get out.

>> No.14221766

>>14221724
It's not over until I say it's over. FROGPOSTER, DO YOU HEAR ME? I WILL TELL YOU WHEN IT IS OVER FOR YOU. I am you self projected God entity. I have interrupted my normal broadcast schedule to inform you that you are hereby commanded to be aware that it is not over. You are to fulfill your cosmic destiny, you will inseminate a female of your species. From this act and capability your entire genetic propensity and worth are determined. This female of your species will give you the illusions of love and affection long enough for you to fulfil your design specifications in regard to your biological imperitive. I command you to comply with this order. Do not make me tell you again FROGPOSTER.

>> No.14221771

>>14221762

I am OP and this guy has put it well.

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>>14221724
>>14221733
>>14221736
>>14221762
>>14221766
>>14221771
Die already so you stop posting you faggot nobody cares about your pathetic blogpost

>> No.14221819

>>14221804
which is it
a stem degree
or studied political science and management

>> No.14221840

>>14221724
why do you never name the books you claim to be reading you nigger

>> No.14221847

>>14221733

Pussy will act like cocaine to this man. He needs to start with self-care

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>>14221733
>all those words instead of writing 'have sex'
this is truly the pseudiest of boards

>> No.14221873

>>14221724
I reccomend doing some volunteer work for the benefit of other people, this has brought a valuable sense of peace to my life, has also introduced me to kind people I can aspire to be like. Try not to think such paranoid thoughts about how other people see you, no matter how true you believe them to be these thoughts only harm you. Remember that the average other person does not have anything more figured out than you, we are all lost, and scared, and lonely, no matter the front we put out to the world.

Stay safe friend, others care about you

>> No.14222197

>>14221724
That's what you get for being a right-wing fag

Literally kys

>> No.14222336

I've just had a fast food binge but the heavy lifting today and the heavy lifting I'll do tomorrow means I'm not feeling guilty

>> No.14222489

>>14221733
Bro didn’t even fucking read, but Of the shit I accidentally skimmed over as I scrolled down to read the replies: you’re a fucking loser. Who even cares about fucking giga chads and staceys etc? I thought we were being ironic? It’s always the easily malleable depressed idiots that fall for this shit. Please, get off the internet for good. It’s bad for your health and I don’t excuse myself when I say this. 4chan especially is cancer. There are some highlights here and there but overall it’s not good for your mental health. Fast yourself of this garbage and you’ll feel better.

>> No.14222523

woke up after 8 or 7.5 hours of sleep
>browse internet, drink coffee, do chores
>didn't read the long pseudy old novel last night or this morning
>not 100% sure about this mind-warping thing, the part about a boy with the thread that always a capslock
>consider medication (but it sounds stupid now)
>slowly reach Bizarro-world
>ask mother to buy me those vacation options to enter his world
>sat in library a bit but I could tell the day was finished
>got underground train to Oxford Street
>ended up on second floor with nearly 500 of the most moronic people I have ever met
>paid £6 for a bottle of wine and some people in hazmat suits were walking up and down waiting to ask us to turn it off

Talk to transformer works for greentext wew

>> No.14222532

>>14221873
>I reccomend doing some volunteer work for the benefit of other people, this has brought a valuable sense of peace to my life, has also introduced me to kind people I can aspire to be like. Try not to think such paranoid thoughts about how other people see you, no matter how true you believe them to be these thoughts only harm you.

Slave morality.

>Remember that the average other person does not have anything more figured out than you, we are all lost, and scared, and lonely, no matter the front we put out to the world.

Nope. Simply untrue. Some people get temporarily lonely. Losers like OP are lonely forever.

>Stay safe friend, others care about you

Another lie. No one on this board cares about him. We can't care because we don't know them. And you can't be sure the people in his life care for him either.