/lit/ - Literature

>tfw no tranny gf

uwu

>>13273582
You know they have to do ridiculous poses and lots of editing and make up to even have a semblance of female... Like a tranny gf isn't possible unless you're actually gay. There's also no point if you don't like heavy make up.

Language is such an inefficient method of communication. It's a poor way of communicating abstract and complex concepts to others in a way that they'll understand.

How do you deal with the fact that you're not getting the ideal woman

I should know my place but I have very specific standards, like eyebrows

>>13273609
But I do, that is exactly what I like.
For me there is nothing hotter than a pair of broad shoulders in lingerie

The reason Emergence has stuck so much in the Internet's conscience is because besides being wank material, it's narrative is actually a well-instructed and thought-out deconstruction of mindbreak/drugs erotic doujins. It genuinely has genuinely satirizes the genre and the culture that has to be in place for such a work to arise. Can anyone recommend other works of this nature?

>>13273635
Your ideal woman doesn't look too unattainable... I say as fat chicks get hundreds of replies a night on dating sites.

>>13273564
another day of listening to Autechre for the millionth time and not actually making my own music, despite always telling myself that today is the day i will start putting in the required amount of time and effort

>>13273635
>not getting the ideal woman
Actually start dating/talking to women. No women will ever meet your ideal. Learn to love them as they are

>>13273660
imagine thinking an ideal woman is even 50% looks

>>13273628
Someday we might upgrade our brain cyberneticly and we could learn/develope Ithkuil and other languages

I'm doing pretty good anons. NoFap is no joke and coupled with exercise, a decent diet, reading, and prayer, I'm actually starting to enjoy waking up in the morning.

>>13274269
>NoFap
Literally unhealthy. Masturbation is good for you - it's your autistic guilt about it that makes it unhealthy (unless you were an addict that fapped like 4x per day)

>>13274294
Whatever you say cumbrain. That's like saying candy bars are good for you because your body naturally craves it.

>>13274268
>cyberneticly
butterfly, you are the shittiest transhumanist primativst in the whole world

I've disconnected from the world again for a couple of days. In a drug fueled haze, immobile in that empty space between reality and dream. Late night resolution time again, tomorrow should have obligations banging on my bedroom door. Anger will be the first emotion to come back, getting out of bed with me, but the rest should follow hopefully. I can always try to hope I stay connected longer this time.

>>13274309
>butterfly, you are the shittiest human in the whole world
Fixed

>>13274309
To cyborg. Synthesize the flesh with the artificial?
What futurist magazines do you subscribe to so that I can polish up on my terminologies?

>>13274317
Cry some more. I love seeing your mascara run

>>13274393
negative attention is not something to be proud of

>>13274399
>ascribing emotions to someone you don’t know or want to know
Swing and a miss

>>13274413
What would your mother say about you shitposting on a Mandarin quilting BBS instead of giving her grandchildren?

>>13274537

>>13274542
Stop avoiding the question, and answer me once you've fed your cats.

>>13274413
>>13274393
do not post in my thread, faggot

>>13274542
butterfly, you are so crude. save it for the bedroom. :3

>>13274393
I was making fun of you misspelling the word 'cybernetically', but transhumanism is shit and magazines are a shit way to digest information. We are on a board about books.

I'm pretty sure something's wrong with my brain. I've had increasingly frequent migraines and suicidal episodes for the last 3 months and it's getting harder to ignore. I catch myself planning how to do it in detail, absentmindedly, when I'm sitting idly in my room. I'll probably never talk to anyone in real life about it though.

>>13274596
Ah! Oh well. Not a word I use much.
Science fiction is an old love of mine, but by science or magic, I wish I could be young and semi immortal

>>13274621
See a psychiatrist before it's too late.

>>13274621
Glyphosate can cause suicidal tendencies. See some specialist about it, anon.
Hang in there.

>>13274640
Nothing human makes it out of the near future.

>>13274653
I don't need advice from you

>>13273564
I HATE NIGGERS

>>13274732
that sums it up pretty well, ngl

>tfw no tranny gf

>>13273564
Logos is rending my mind from my flesh. I am no longer human and am ready to explode

I don't want to be alive anymore and I'm contemplating the best way and time to kill myself as quickly and painlessly as possible, and I'm thinking about what I should do beforehand.

>>13275036
>tfw making deep fakes and the only porn actress I can find that matches Olivia Wilde's jawline is Natalie Mars

i think i have missed every boat in my life, even though day to day i can deal with it, i don't feel any kind of transcendent or even fleeting happiness and i don't know if this is the actual default state or if i'm an emotionally dead wreck who burned myself out in my teen years and has lost the ability to feel human emotion.

i preferred my teenage years of frenzied hatred and insane fury, because i was capable of feeling strong emotions about my hellish situation.

>>13275116
Damn son, you live in a hell incomprehensible for me

I don't know how to meet people. I don't know what to say to most people I meet beyond idioms and polite aphorism. I want to meet a woman but I'm afraid to expose that I'm a virgin and generally useless. I can't really talk to any girl I know because they're all involved in relationships. I don't know where to go to meet people, and I don't know what to say to those people I meet. What I'm really afraid of is having my worst traits confirmed by an unbiased third party. I feel that if a woman truly rejected me, politely but truly, that I will never move on. I hate myself and my cowardice and I don't know what to do about it.

>>13275525
Tinder

>>13275534
That seems like a disaster. Isn't the point of Tinder to hook up with similarly experienced people?

>>13274294
In that case nature fucked us over because I work manual labor and landscaping and have thick calluses over my hands that prevent me from fapping

>>13275542
Then be my internet bf :3

>>13275525
Women rejecting you means nothing. Women are like children you're trying to entice to play with your old toys from when you were a kid that aren't cool anymore. Some will want to play with you, some will be bored of you fairly quickly, some won't even give you the time of day. But ultimately, what they all have in common is that they are stupid little dumbass kids and nothing they think or say matters. The only thing you can do is keep trying to get them to play with your Legos until you find the one weird kid who seems down with it. Then don't ask too many questions and try to enjoy it while it lasts. Except with a woman the lego is your penis.

>>13273564
christcucks are dumb and feminine.

i know this world is corrupt and due for cleansing, but i just want one good lay with a woman that actually wants to sleep with me, but again that woman probably had dozens of men before me and i'd just be skinny-dipping in a pool of filth. torn between wanting one good last lay and leaving the world of the demiurge for good... but isn't that just another ego trap in itself. women want only one kind of man and i am not that kind of man, but in a hypersexual society i am subjected to all manner of libidinous psychic attack - archonic design to keep the lifeforce from rising up and out of this hellhole

Christ is coming soon

No one will believe this but I am the poster who said "want to play cs" in that screenshot of the disillusioned Husserl PhD, and by fluke I am now writing a PhD largely on Husserl

>>13274294
>Masturbation is good for you

it is not good for you, read Augustine, it only fans the fires and leaves you wanting, it is an ego trap

I am not scared of what is coming.
I can't be dissapointed in something I did not control.
There is no hope for tomorrow, yet I had nothing to mourn over yesterday.
I have a yearning for something that would be my doom.
Passion for subjects that never really meant that much for me.
But one I mustn't forget.
I let things be, stay still in waiting.
Lay down.
Enough of myself.
How are you?
Sincerely.

Reading PUA stuff is very confusing, I do not understand how so many of these guys can simultaneously despise sex and modern dating, but also completely obsess over it and devote all their time and energy to getting laid or thinking about how to get laid.

I feel more far away from where I want to be in life than ever. I know what I need to do, but I would have to sell out my values, which would make me not worthy of getting anything good in my life. I don't know what to do.

After 4 fucking months I finally got out of Air Force boot camp. Now people claim I’m more mature but I don’t feel any different, which kind of disturbs me. When will I actually feel like a adult and not just some punk playing along?

Something wrong
I hold my head
Kingfish gone, our nigga dead!

>>13275648
How can you take that long to get through AF boot camp? Isn't that the easiest one?

>>13275621
I feel the same way. I plan on killing myself.

>>13275648
Enlisting in the military is for the dreggs of society. You're not mature, you're a leech that has replaced one set of parents for another.

>>13275657
Got injured and was put in medical holdover. Somehow scored over a 90 on the PT test at the end though
>>13275670
Maybe for the marine corps yeah

Urban planning under a capitalist system is a way of organizing and facilitating the dispensation of commodities to certain facilities, and a byproduct of such a motivation is the gradual but sure commodification of the city dwellers themselves. 75% of the population does not have access to private automobiles and yet 100% of the street space is given to cars and trucks. The knee jerk reaction of the middle and upper middle class whenever a solution to transport problem envolves cutting down on car lanes or reducing cars in the streets is a symptom of such commodification. Apart from that, the increasing prevalence of tiny apartments, stemming from the fact of a bubbling urban population concentrating towards Capital, is a facet of our situation as modern hunter-gatherers.

>>13275693
Nope, ALL of the military. Enlisting is for chumps.

>>13275704
Dumb Americans and their dumb cities.

>>13275704
So the upper middle class which are the alleged managers of capital refuse to allow a more efficient use of capital because?

>>13275736
it would mean selling less cars and therefore less money

>>13275737
Please tell me you are an American, because I can't relate to your post at all.

>>13275704
Go away, pinko shit heel.

>>13275737
Wouldn't an inability to remove obstacles of converting labor into capital be indicative of a weakness of the free market system. IE, a demand for privatized high volume transport similar to what has been built in Japan is being unmet because of political reasons shows that even in the most capitalistic system, individual human instrumentality still reigns supreme over the free hand of the market? And that accusations of commodification are greatly exaggerated?

>>13273564
I had the best upbringing of anyone I know and I turned out very mediocre. The guilt from this is driving me insane.

>>13273635
>I should know my place but I have very specific standards
Why would a 10/10 woman want a 3/10 man?

Removing the incentive of female companionship from male economic production has been an utter disaster for society.

>>13275786
The free market IS ineffective.

>>13275804
Incel Society and its Future

How can you find meaning in what you do as a European? Everything your ancestors worked for and trusted future generations to take care of will be destroyed or stolen from us in our lifetime. Any value you create is taxed and these taxes contribute to this process. There is nothing we can do to prevent or stop this.

>>13273653
Unironically One Punch Man

>>13275804
so people say. I understand the logic but is there data

>>13275835
Even trees create meaning in their leaves anon. Since the first cells found meaning in the suns light. You might be one of the most capable creatures in the world when it comes to the task of finding meaning, and the macro details of our habitat won't strip it from us.

>>13275116
Shit, you're right. It's almost eerie.

>>13273564
Why can Americans not come together as one country? So often we see vast swathes or the people, especially those who are conservative and uneducated, work against their own self interests. I read and read about politics, history, economics.... I talk to educated people from many different areas of the country: The west coast, south west, mid west, new england, the South... Everything comes back to: "Well, these poor conservative people may actually be too dumb to ever be helped".

>>13275827
If it's so ineffective at accomplishing it's own goals (which includes commodification of social relations and atomization) what are you complaining about then??

>>13275857
Fuck off, sucking Harvard educated technocrat dick is not in our best interest. Keep your hands off our guns and our children or you'll regret it

>>13275864
I'm complaining because it's unsustainable and fucks the middle class in the ass in the long run. Capitalism can be ethical if there is market regulation
>Asukafag
Never reply to me or my posts ever again

>>13275835
>taxes are new and more crippling than when they were given in crops
I'd suggest you're not European.

>>13275571
...Bill Murray?

>>13275875
>lament the decay of our nation
>Seething retarded who is the object of such lamentation is consumed to anger towards a concern he does not understand
My point exactly. Shit is fucking tragic. Can we ever regain our country's former grandeur? Is there any hope of us becoming the envy of the first world? Is the only hope REALLY to simply cut out the South and let it become the third world nation it is, without dragging the rest of us into squalor?

>>13275839
If you do get into One Punch Man, get into the webcomic. The anime just doesn't have the same flow and feel.

>>13275896
Your "educated" coastal technocrats have waged an unprovoked war on the American working classes for the last hundred years or so. We know you aren't on our side and aren't concerned with helping fix our problems. You need us, we don't need you.

>>13275917
the animation was its high point. its one of the best looking shows of 2016

>>13275921
don't you have a cousin to fuck, LMAO

>>13275951
Why do you Americans keep insulting your fellow cluntrymen so?
Do you truly wish for a bloodshed?
A velvet red dawn where fathers bury their sons?
I truly wish someone supposedly of your stature and education does not hold his hand in such a manner.
To strike, is to pass the frame of a door, for far too many times re-opened, seal it once more behind you and throw away the key into the gutters.
Just wish those who you decided to butcher never find the key among the corpses and still glass eyes of their brethren.

>>13275951
you're much more like the flyover prole you think youre better than than the actual elite.

>>13273653
Just go to sad panda and search for "schoolgirl" and "mind break",there are thousands of works like emergence,the reason it's famous is because it was shilled by Fakku

>>13273564
I don't know what I'm doing with my life. The only thing I really give a fuck about is art. I can't see myself working away for some business for the rest of my life. I also feel like there is something missing in my life and I don't know what. I'm just not having any fun.

>>13275921
>claim: Your "educated" coastal technocrats have waged an unprovoked war on the American working classes
>Actuality: Educated liberals are the only ones in the country trying to support the working class, while conservative billionaires trick poor retards into thinking corporate overlords are "more american" and rob the country of its wealth

>claim: You need us, we don't need you.
>Actuality: The high tech industries account for well over 40% of the US GPD. The majority of whats left is wrapped up by large corporate goods distributors (ie. Walmart). Indeed rural america would not qualify as a first world country without being subsidized by the wealth generated by large liberal urban centers.

This could not illustrate my point better. Poor, conservative, rural Americans have literally no idea how the world works. They are told "Jesus wants you to give money to X, Y, and Z" even when those entities are DEMONSTRABLY responsible for the shit living conditions these people are subject to. They invest in their own destitution. They go to bed with a dozen billionaires fucking them in the ass, only to turn around, look them in the eye and be told "it's the brown guy's fault".... and, believing the lie, they turn around to sleep soundly in their shit invested shanty towns and think "It's everyone else who's wrong".

Truly truly truly pathetic. I miss my country, but short of disowning the entire South / much of the midwest, we'll never never be able to carry such worthlessness to the great heights of our forefathers. They burden they subject the rest of us to is simply too heavy.

He stared at the screen, the blue tint of the image board washing over him and bathing the room in a soft light. It was the only source of brightness in the room. The keyboard with it's cherry keys clicked and clacked away typing up the thoughts on his mind, checking back for (you)s occasionally. The empty bottles on his desk refracted the light into interesting patterns on the wall, although he hardly noticed them. He told himself that he didn't really mind not getting people to respond to him, but truth be told he did mind, a lot. Longing for conversation on an anonymous image board, how much lower can you get? He thought. But he continued typing away, giving his opinion and hoping someone would come along and read what he took the time to write up.

I hate my damn job so much

It is life sucking I want out but I'm literally useless.

>>13273564

This thread is going to be deleted despite being a good /lit/ tradition. Kind of sad and yet another sign of the times.

>>13276217
Sorry to hear that anon. Do you have any hobbies? What kind of stuff do you read?

honestly, i hate him a lot, but butterfly is at least better than the lemur spammer and the tapir spammer both of whom make me homicidal

>>13276230
What's your favorite thing to do in these threads?

>>13276258
I haven't seen the lemur guy, I guess my mind is protecting Madagascar for me.

>>13276262

Write what's on my mind.

>>13276242
I've been learning a 2nd languagefor two years but I'm still not particularly good. I have been reading roman history for the past year, but also some fiction here and there. I feel like I used to have a lot of hobbies and interests but work just sucks the life out of you and you have no time or energy to do anything but the necessities. It's been getting to me

>>13276272
I feel ya. I used to have a job like that. Switched industries though and I'm much happier now. I know I'm lucky to have made it out. I hope you can find some stuff to keep you motivated. I believe in you, anon <3

>>13276262
Sometimes it's nice to see people read and reply to "what's on your mind" ... It's a;desperate form of validation getting a thoughtful (you)

>>13276276
Can you tell me in more detail? I understand if you don't but I'm interested in what you switched from and where to.

>>13276269
That's fair, you ever just write random shit for shits and giggles or actually try to tell people problems and stuff?

>>13274304
What are you talking about? Sugar causes inflammation in your abdomen, high blood pressure, tooth decay, etc. Masturbating a moderate amount actually improves heart health/brain function. In what way are they medically similar?
>>13275577
>Read Augustine for medical advice in 2019
I don't doubt that he was a great philosopher but this is just dogmatic. You guys are seriously brainwashed

>>13276360
>I don't doubt that he was a great philosopher but this is just dogmatic. You guys are seriously brainwashed
Cumbrain.

>>13273564
Merchants were always the good guys of history right up until Capitalism reached it's industrial stage, turning what were Merchants into Capitalists. Also, they were the most aesthetically superior people around during the medieval ages.

i was hit with amazing inspiration for my novel while walking my dog but had forgotten it by the time i got home

>>13275799
im tall and have an 8inch penis

>>13276179
>This is obviously bait but I'll bite.
Why are you so quick to make a difference between educated liberals and conservative billionaires. Who introduced NAFTA and destroyed American industry? Who came up with the 1965 Immigration act and sunk wages across the board, especially for low skill workers? The Lions share of that haughty infotech GDP you are so proud of goes to offshore tax havens and is almost never reinvested in the country. The support alleged educated liberals want to give can never challenge the class structure of the United States, any help is given on the condition of dependence and loyalty to a very particular party. Unions weren't destroyed by the industrialists, no conservative American has started an unneeded overseas war since 1898. The ignorance you show in your post is astounding. Go educate yourself

>>13277326
But how will they ever know?

>>13273564
I'm as confused as ever about my sexuality and all.
I came to the conclusion I'm a degenerate half faggot yet I won't accept it..
This caused severe pain, sickness and mental instability for days, so what I decided to do is work out, go hiking, walk my dog, help my father with maintenance and work, socialize more, study, read and go out as often as possible in order to get really tired so that I won't think about it.
I want to make sure I'm so tired at the end of the day that I'll fall asleep as soon as I lay down.

I've also completely quitted porn and I haven't masturbated in 2 weeks.
I plan to go on like this until I die or as long as it works.

Life is shit anyways so I'll make it even shittier.

Clearly this will mean that I will never settle down with a woman nor have sex, but I was already on the good path in this regard.


Whatever it takes.

>>13273564
I've stopped listening to music .
I don't like it anymore, not since I was 17 and my old headphones broke.

>>13277578
buy new headphones?

>>13277591
I already bought new ones that are even better than the old ones 2 years ago.
I don't think it depends on the headphones themselves.

>>13277578
So have I. The songs kept sticking in my head and became a problem whenever I tried to concentrate while reading.

>>13277554
Don't worry, you will relapse and do the cycle all over again.

I watched The Terror and have been thinking about it a lot. Pretty good show. I think it has very good positive masculinity in quite a few of its characters. Especially Goodsir. The camaraderie expressed between a lot of the men is very good, and I wish men today would express that sort of thing more. It made me think of my own relationship with some of my friends and acquaintances. How with a few I am extremely open and with others I am quite reserved. Mostly due to their actions, I think. What they would think of me.

I cried in front of one of them once and he offered consolation and encouragement without any judgement. He didn't look down on me or tell me to "man up." He realised and empathised that I was dealing with difficulties and supported me. As a friend should. It's kind of odd how we don't see that as normal. Is masculinuty not also about that? Supporting our comrades? I find it more with people that have been outside of the civilian worldview. There's kinship there, you know? Empathy and friendship. I wish it carried over more.

My point though about Goodsir in the show is that he's kind and considerate. A lot of the characters are, I think. I long for politeness that isn't just fake posturing but genuine. I don't know. I try to be polite to everyone. Cordial.

>>13273564
I really want to go home, play EU4 and eventually drop college

Jojos Bizarre Adventure could have been a competent, fun series, had it not been in the hands of an incompetent writer.

I haven't finished infinite Jest, maybe I should try to complete it soon.

>>13273653
>dumb bitch fuck things up
The same narrative is ever-present in fiction and has been for an extremely long time. Personally, i believe the only reason Emergence is famous is because of normies.

I don't know how to get through to these people. What seems almost self evident from my perspective is unapproachable and incomprehensible to others. When will the Grand Unified Theory of Classical Physics be taken seriously and given the proper peer review and appraisal it deserves?
I believe in a universe that has no secrets, only discoveries yet to be made. I believe in the ingenuity of human beings. I believe in a brighter future, in which technological advancement is the key to our survival and prosperity. I believe that the curiosity of the human race will prevail against helplessness, in a world where knowledge is power, and knowledge is given to all people freely and generously.
It keeps me up at night wondering what will become of us, that issues of the highest caliber are neglected, while those of the lowest are utterly swarmed. I am beset with grief, as I begin to lose hope in others, as I begin to lose hope in my own self.

>>13276179
Anon, they're both basically the parties of big business, they just campaign it differently

>>13278333

Stop that. You'll ruin the illusion of democracy and the lower class may unite against their masters instead of fighting amongst one another.

>>13275101
It's never worth it, anon.
You'll always make it through the troughs, they pass just like all things

>>13273564
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>>13275036
p r e t t y

>>13275577
>>>>>>>>>>>>Augustine
take your outdated nasty theologian away from here
pelagius is the goat

>>13275797
how do you define mediocre? there's nothing wrong with being relatively untalented or unskilled, don't dwell on guilt that suggests you should have been something more just because your upbringing was good
you're equally valuable and worthy regardless of what you do, find something to give your life meaning and make sure that something doesn't hurt other people/living things

>>13275835
waaaaaaaa
shut up

>>13273564
I like to think I have a thick skin, but after years of hearing dumbshit MRA/redpill rhetoric, ironic or not is starting to wear on me.

Goodguys and incels and guys getting mad at "forced diversity" only makes it clear that no matter what I do, there are people who think I'm not an actual person. So many people are belligerent and actively cruel for no real reason and I'm tired.

>>13277554
All this because you don't want to be gay? Where is the issue with it?

>>13278323
> I believe in the ingenuity of human beings. I believe in a brighter future, in which technological advancement is the key to our survival and prosperity
literal halfwit

>>13277554
Classic Toxic Masculinity. You're going to miserable your entire life if you don't knock it off

>>13273564
Reflecting on a brief psychotic episode I had a year ago which included delusions and auditory hallucinations. I've always been fascinated by altered states of consciousness and I view the episode in a positive light retrospectively, although tremendously scary at the time it's a state not often visited and it amazes me the extent to which you can be fooled by things to which you would laugh at in any other state of mind.
Same reason I always find myself drawn back to drugs (solely recreational, with friends, I should add) after taking long breaks; to explore altered states is exciting, and I go through phases of being charged with hubris in exploration, and then other phases of the idea of altered consciousness making me uncomfortable as I half-heartedly (and mistakenly, as I've repeatedly learned) try to cling to some concrete and unchanging sense of self that I don't want altered or lost. It's an interesting cycle of attitudes and one that has already looped multiple times, I hope I can learn to fully let go of the desire for a concrete self and be content wherever or however I happen to be.

>>13274294
This is your brain on masturbation. Can you cite a study about the health benefits of masturbation?

>>13278720
This. The number of men driven by a sort of bastardised Darwinian attitude wherein the desire to be stereotypically masculine and contempt for the 'weak' is astounding, and it seems to have seen a surge in popularity in recent years, too.

>>13275857
and in the same breath they discuss their depression and what antidepressants they take (if they are honest). Godless soldiers of mammon.

>>13278664
I'm not even gay, maybe bi or just a degenerate tranny fetishist or at least this shit arouses my dick.
Long story... Porn fucked me up for good.
I would get off to all kinds of porn as a teen and didn't think much of it. Then I quitted all weird porn, watched only normal stuff for a few years.
It came to my mind that at some point I watched that kind of porn when I stopped masturbating after years of porn addiction and fell ill from shame.
I don't see myself in the LGBT community and I refuse and despise degeneracy and porn addiction, in fact I could never love a man especially a masculine one.
Now I feel decently even if I still have nightmares and I'm not always completely balanced.

I look forward to better days which means a less sexualized life even if I have to live alone, after all how could one like me ever marry a woman or raise children.
Work and entertainment can fill up my life.

>>13278720
I resent your words.
Masculinity is nothing to me, happiness and a healthy life is all.

>>13278790
resent all you want. It doesn't change the fact you're aggressively ashamed of, and repressing an inherent part of you to fit some arbitrary metric you've built up in your head.

>>13278781
>degenerate tranny fetishist
Why is this degenerate?
I can understand the disgust that comes with reflecting on watching fucked up porn as a teenager, I'm sure we all can to some degree, and a porn addiction is never healthy (although I'm certainly not one of the people who think it should be avoided at all times) but I'm confused as to what you mean by degeneracy? What part of you do you see as degenerate other than your past porn viewing habits?

>>13275140
Yeah, feeling rage was great. These days i don't really get angry at anything or even myself anymore.

>>13278805
In what terms my past reflects who I am.
That time was incidentally the darkest time of my life and nothing that came out if it I could consider healthy or natural.
What I did then is nothing but shameful and I know that I won't be able to ever live a normal relationship, for many reasons all spawned in that time and one of these is the one above.

>>13278804
Your inexistent cathegories are just petty cathegorizations .
My problems go deeper than that and in the end nothing that causes me such pain I could ever accept.

>>13278869
It only causes you pain because you refuse to accept it.

"being a half-faggot is unacceptable" but you are. That's the truth, and you can't change it.

What a person does is, they examine this new part of them, maybe play around with a dildo a couple times and then they move on. Because being a "half-faggot" only influences your life privately as in, only when you have sex, and sometimes on the bus when the guy standing next to has a fantastic ass.

You're obsessing over it, and letting it become something way bigger than it is.

You're actively harming yourself because you're afraid of "faggot thoughts". What, are you afraid you're going to start wearing assless chaps and playing with your nipples in public if you wonder what it would be like to get a hand job from Bradly Cooper?

You're never going to be happy, because you can't make "half faggatory" go away and you're always going to hate yourself for it.

That's not healthy my man.

>>13278908
Based response

>>13274268
stop using my Elesh Norn in your book

>>13277414
>Knows nothing about american history
Not that guy, but that's gonna be a y i k e s from me anon. Might wanna go back and read a history book or three.

Ahhhh I’m so hungry but I gotta go fast

I just made an Infinity on a regular thresher, not an ethereal one, and I don't give a SHIT.

Meow meow purr purr.

>>13278323
>Grand Unified Theory of Classical Physics
Correct me if I'm wrong, cause the last time I touched anything physics was a few years ago, but this doesn't actually exist?

Is the reason we don't date kids as adults basically because of their inferior intellect? But then how do you reconcile finding a wife when women are on average inferior to us intellectually? Do we have to somehow find the rare above average women?

>>13273653
Unironically the works of Sade

>>13278908
Absolutely unlikely I'd be many things if I based it on my past fetishes.
But self insertion always sounded ludricrous and nasty and no manly man ever looked even mildly arousing to me.
My nasty thoughts are various and recurring and all bother me equally in various ways.
Only the tranny porn one still bothers me greatly because I'm still mildly aroused by feminine boys and the thought is disturbing to me that only ever desired a romantic life with a woman and find my ideal of beauty in the female body.

I've almost lost my job today. The headmaster called me out for talking too much about death. She agreed on letting me stay if I start going to a psychiatrist. That was really unexpected cause I thought I've been a lot better in that regard since last year. It seems I don't really realize I'm talking about death/macabre stuff, for it comes subconsciously. Maybe it's remnant from my edgy teenager phase, when I just wanted to shock the world talking about those stuff whenever possible. But it makes me sad thinking that I must be conscious about what I say from now on - even though that's a fundamental part of being a functional adult in society.

>>13279033
But what is it you object to about tranny porn?

>>13279033
>no manly man ever looked even mildly arousing to me.
then you're NOT GAY what the fuck are you on about?

>Only the tranny porn one still bothers me greatly because I'm still mildly aroused by feminine boys
Yes, because they are FEMININE. You are attracted to females. Your boner does not care as long as it looks like a girl.

Oh my god, you're such a fucking idiot.

>>13279061
I consider them man

>>13279071
Okay, but what's wrong with being attracted to a man?

>>13279069
I know that much.
I despise myself as a degenerate fetishist.

I'm not homophobic, Gay men have dignity and live life proudly.

I lived like a deranged porn addict and tried virtually every fetish.
Now I'm ashamed of my past and wish I coukd delete my teen years and do it all over again.

It's not hard.

>>13279086
Man is very inclusive of a term .
What am I supposed to say ?
I'd settle for both a, woman and a feminine man ?

I feel sick, so I'll end it here

>>13279101
my dude, everyone has a fetish, you're having a meltdown over something that everybody has.

I've a fetish since I was 12. I have multiple fetishes. People who don't have a fetish just haven't found it yet.

As long as you're not hunting down trannies and killing them in your sex-torture dungeon, then it isn't a problem.

I PROMISE you, other than being a dipshit, you have nothing to worry about.

>>13279116
I feel the exact same as you except my morality isn't so feeble.

>>13278982

no really

>>13273564
God, I wish I had Jesus by my side

>>13273564
I can feel all these thoughts in my head attempting to happen but they don't actually happen. I'm braindead now. wtf

He will look with fear out from blue glow into dawn-glow as the birdsong begins, hearing his clock's (xth) tick that night, remembering the (xth) thrust of his hand to the (xth) beat of some h-game found online with a simulacra body revealed to reward for (x) score.

The refrigerator turns on again and the smoke detector keeps blinking when he digs for the phone out of his pillow and feels pain. RSI or carpal tunnel from the same nights and days spent pressing w a s d d s a w s d after waiting in an institution for the x-day to end to waste another x hours before trying to repress the day's negative expenditure of energy in bed on the pillow; that's when the screaming thoughts come of action, interspersed between the phone-glow and getting up to piss. In the last few dark hours those thoughts become real screams and the inaction really paralyzes him just long enough for caverns and figures to unfold around the sleeping body but he is lost, the geometry is all wrong and yet so familiar like the school-work-prison-dorm institutional windows and stairways that wrap around a somnambulent field of view.

Days have already became years. What good is changing the paint of a machine already built to perform cycles of time-passing in time with the time-keeping of it's clock environ? Within each computer, limitless potential glossed over by evolution. It could all be optimized by optimization itself has a cost. Humans don't operate in costs.

One day, having never been stopped, his sun will break

>>13275140
>i think i have missed every boat in my life, even though day to day i can deal with it, i don't feel any kind of transcendent or even fleeting happiness and i don't know if this is the actual default state or if i'm an emotionally dead wreck who burned myself out in my teen years and has lost the ability to feel human emotion.
I can relate

>>13274258
all that was posted was a picture dumbass

>>13273564
She is.

>>13273564
The impending sense of doom and paranoia that I am dying.

Whenever I write prose my sentences are always long as hell and I figure it gets tiring to read for most people. I have no idea how to stop though.

>>13275553
Not that anon but rationalizing these thoughts doesn't really help simply because the feels don't listen to logic. If I would live according to my life philosophy I wouldn't give a shit about anything and live like a god - a bit exaggerated but something like this -, yet it doesn't directly translate to my actions. The fear and anxiety remains despite all my logic and I act like a little compliant faggot only to hate myself for it later which leads to coping in form of more rationalizing. The cowardice sits too deep. The behaviour is already learned. I want to die.
This all sounds so fucking dumb. Why do I have to fight against my own brain? What is this shit? Do I kill it or make friends? Fuck.

>I hate myself and my cowardice and I don't know what to do about it.
>>13275525
Very much this. How do I delet?

>>13273564
When I was a teen I thought Nihilism was a really stupid concept. Now in my thirties I am starting to understand it.

>>13275571
post an excerpt and your css hours faggot

>>13279101
Same as me. You can't possibly be worse.
I ran out of material. No type of porn produced a boner anymore. Nothing. Not a slight fucking reaction and still doesn't (more info below).
I'm not ashamed and do not give a fuck whatsoever. How do you even logically deduce that shame?
>Society says: Porn bad!
=> porn bad
That's hardly objective.
The only thing I worry about is the possible brain damage I gave myself because it really was almost an addiction. That's why I'm trying to abandon porn. It's not easy at all.

>>13280037
Could be worse. You could have understood it in your early 20s.

Just agreed get drinks with one of my students. I'm her TA.

The course is technically over and she'll technically have graduated by the time we have the drinks. I'm fine, right?

Right?

>>13280344
shut up and sleep with her

The past is inside me like the smaller units of a Russian doll. The child in me, the adolescent, recessing into the embryo. My past decisions have made a layer, each year a new crust. And the further it goes on layering, the more settled I am. When in the beginning there was a softness and pliability now there is a growing rigidity and fatefulness.

I think he had philip k dick tier vision from other universes and in "a shadow out of time" about our own past and future.

>>13280457
You should read The Mind Parasites

I don’t really feel any anger towards other people and all it takes to make me happy is some genuine conversation. Somehow I am also miserable all the time.

Am I a retard if I take notes of what I read even if it's fiction? I get inspired by a decent amount of stuff but I never write it down and usually forget it when I want to remember it.

>>13280469
cant find a torrent

>>13273564
I'm a reprehensible criminal and the only solution may be suicide.

>>13280750
>I'm a reprehensible criminal
what did you do? stole chocolates at walmart ?

>>13280750
youre in good company on earth then

How do i ask someone who is in an open relationship to fuck his girlfriend

>>13280734
libgen

>>13273628
Stop washing and learn to communicate through your musky pheromones.

>>13274268
Elesh Norn cringe

>>13280344
As long as you're not grading any of her stuff or influencing those that are; I see nothing wrong.

>>13274730
You should take his advice, trans people know about suicidal tendencies

I wanna become a international assassin. It's a ridiculous dream, influenced by a ridiculous thing, but it's genuine, and lately so few things are.

Doing heists would be fine too.

No one ITT realizes that I'm archiving all of their posts so I can writet my own sequel to The Book of Disquiet by Bernardo Soares

>>13273628
DFW talks a lot about this in Oblivion

>>13281583
Back here to say becoming a vampire would also be nice. Yes, I'm being completely serious.

Just realized that dates are basically field trips for women. Someone else picks the itineray and finances the trip. No wonder they have no appreciation for the efforts expended to win their affection; it's just as likely for a child to appreciate their education as it is ongoing

>>13281768
Life is a field trip for women. People constantly want to talk to you, impress you, make you laugh, take you places. You have extremely high self-confidence because you've never had to deal with complete and total disinterest or disdain from 98% of the people you interact with. You usually don't feel alien in your own skin because you're used to wearing barely any clothing and slutting around town. Everything is fun and everything is designed to make you have fun. When dating, you get to have fun picking from the top guy out of the 10 guys who are truly interesting out of the 100 guys who are interested in you out of the infinite guys who are always showing some sort of interest in you so you could theoretically have any one of them at any time (which you do sometimes, but you don't count those because LOL I was in London for a week and I only sucked his dick so it doesn't count!!!).

You have no ambitions and no goals and you really give no thoughts to the future whatsoever, other than that it will be a continuation of the current fun bubbly joyful life of dating and socializing and sifting the eminently dateable men from the endless roil of socializing and talking about those men with your best gal pals. So you aren't really worried about jobs or careers or grades or your life's purpose, because life's purpose is to walk around in a short skirt getting iced coffee, talking to men and talking to other women about men.

Then you hit 27.

who the fuck cares lmao

>>13281783
There is plenty of lads that care about women over the age of 27, like me. Your view of women seems very shallow. Either way, like this lad says. >>13281789

The urban negros are doing nocturnal military exercises with Nerf guns around my house tonight. Their cries and whoops echo for blocks off the houses. The police are nowhere to be found

>>13278740
One literally can.

>>13278967
Why? She seems pretty badass, which is just the reason Penguin Classics would use it for the cover
>>13280786
Why?

>>13281804
>There is plenty of lads that care about women over the age of 27, like me.
This.
The fantasy that women will ever be undesirable is not true because men are way too desperate. There are plenty of examples of even millionaires marrying used-up women, Joe Rogan raised a black stepdaughter, for example.

>>13281804
>>13281830
listen carefully lads.. if you're real quiet, you can hear their few remaining eggs jangling, the cold breeze rustling between them

>>13281835
I hate women as much as any man with a brain, but the reality is something different.

>>13281783
Women are more similar to black holes than any of God's sentient creatures

>>13281807
Those were some brave lads over in Rhodesia.

>>13281804

>>13281804
From the way these women are living, (if college campuses and social media are anything to go by) they will look and smell like corpses by 30. Sex and drugs without the musical talent.

>>13281860
Michelle Pfeiffer is so fucking hot. At 61 years old she's hotter than most women at 35.

b
im so sorry I never meant any harm. please come back
you are on my mind each moment of the day.. it hurts

>>13280344
You fucked up

I would like to write a book while I'm still young. I have never attempted fiction though, and I can't imagine I'd be very good at it. I have thought about non-fiction but that would require too much research/references. I don't think I'll do it but I know I'll regret not trying while I still have the time

>>13274294
t. cumbrain
Masturbation is worse than heroin. Most masturbation addicts will be stuck doing it the rest of their life.

I wonder what it's like to apply yourself 100% to something, to just completely engage in some activity or effort with every fiber of your being
I wish I could do that

>>13276295
Holy cow sorry anon, just saw this a day later, still having the tab open.

I graduated undergrad with a degree in molecular biology and became a research scientist for a private pharma company. This was shit. It was boring monotonous work that under paid. Worst of all it had no opportunity for advancement. There were 9 other researchers and the only tier above us was the Science Director on the executive board. As you can imagine that position opened up once every 30 years when the old hag retired.

I got out of that industry. I went back to school. I learned how to program and now I work for a triple A game studio as an engineer. Not only do I make near 4x as much money, but I get to solve puzzles all day (for instance, today: setting up a new JSON parsing system to convert our particle system to follow our shift towards data driven functionality). There are a number of promotions possible as I climb the ladder from Jr Dev, currently, to primary dev. Lead. Possibly up to director at some point... I'm older though, because of my previous career. Most kids we hire start at ~23. I started at 29, so I'm easily 6 years behind my peers. This might prevent me from ever really vying for the top positions, but I'm ok with that. Leads make like $200k/year (I'm currently around $110/yr) and honestly, I don't think I'd need much more than that to be happy.

Hope you're doing well anon, and if you ever see this know I'm rooting for you even after this thread dies :)

When Windom Earle shoots that biker douchebag in the throat with the arrow, it scares the hell out of me.

>>13282319
That is crazy. Not only because of your success but also because I too have a biochem/mol bio degree.

Thank you for your support. I really do appreciate it. Maybe I should look into programing. Did you do another full uni degree or was it college/vocational training?

>>13282394
I did do another full uni degree, but only because I had the financial means to do so. I totally understand that it's not for everyone.

The biggest thing you learn in school, IMO, is memory management. I work primarily in c++ and being able to manage multi-threaded processes, write even basic stuff with memory efficiency in mind (this is like, 90% avoiding unnecessary allocations + avoiding iterating through containers when possible) , and knowing how to interpret .dmp files. Stuff like mutex locking and what not are good too. Like everything else is SUPER basic stuff you could teach yourself. If you got some books and got really good at that stuff, then there is no reason you couldn't start in on a jr programmer career path.

The good part is that it can get you in to a lot of different industries. Like JavaScript is easier than C++ (only because it does memory management for you) but you still need to know how to write efficient algorithms. Honestly, a lot of that is become familiar with explicit tool kits, like node.js or Electron apps. Like if some company heavily relies on ADO (Azure Dev Ops) for automated build systems, and you know your way around ADO backwards and forwards, then you could be a slightly worse programmer than the next guy and still get the job.

Whatever you choose to do, I wish you the best anon.
The crazy thing about 4chan is I know after this thread dies we'll never hear from each other again, but I hope that this bit of encouragement can make a positive difference. Some random anon wrote some really meaningful stuff to me when my father passed away in 2008, and that bit of good from a stranger can out weigh all the trash we read here every day. <3

I only managed nofap for 48 hours. I'm a failure.

>>13281812
That's a nice painting. What are some of your favorite paintings/artists butterfly? (For me it's Matisse)

>>13273564
Just came back from hanging out with a good friend of mine. This last weekend someone slipped something in her drink (a urine test at a sexual trauma center confirmed it was GHB) at a bar and when they went back to her apartment the boyfriend of their roommate, another friend of mine (she's out of town), had sex with her. She has no recollection of it, and she wasn't even sure they had sex until he confirmed it. He maintains she was consenting. The other girl, also a dear friend, says that she was groped by him at the bar last night and also the next morning when he tried to get into bed with her. The next morning she woke up with bruises and cuts on her legs (probably from falling down) and also had GHB in her system. We don't think he drugged them. That was the first time he'd ever been around them with his girlfriend (their roommate) there.

It's torn our friend group in two. I've known the guy for about a year. He's a little distant but I never thought he'd do something like that. I don't know if she didn't seem as fucked up as she was. I wasn't there. I'm just trying to support her. Her bf said she cried rape and broke up with her and blocked her on everything. A bunch of people are out of town and she's alone in her apartment. Her roommate isn't sure she's going to move back in. She feels an incredible amount of guilt. Some of the closest people in her life cut her off. There was a lot of crying and i just tried to listen. I didn't know what to say.

I stole some food from the grocery store and went over there after work. We ate it and watched Trainspotting, pausing it every now and then to talk. She was just happy to have someone there, I think. Eventually, she fell asleep while we were watching Always Sunny and I locked her front door, put the key on the door frame outside, and went home.

Life is good. Nietzsche's philosophy really helped me bite the head off the viper.

HOW THE FUCK DO I GET A JOB
I'M GETTING NOTHING BACK FROM MY APPLICATIONS

>>13282925
Did you write a personalized cover letter?

>>13273564
i miss her

>>13282935
go to the gym or go for a walk. don't drink alone.

>>13282932
yes i do that but only sometimes
i'm not gonna spend half an hour writing it for each of the dozens of jobs i apply for

should i buy a B&N membership?

>>13274268
Name a bigger psuede than butterfly on this board Ill wait

>>13273564
im lying to my parents about what i do

Are you telling me that Jesus survived that long on a single can of canned tuna?

>>13274294
>your brain on cummies

Trip to London. Curious whether it is purely British when it comes to culture, or more international.

It's interesting to examine my own experiences and realise how divorced from the everyday reality of my own peers I am.

I genuinely and unironically have never worried about my sexuality. It's just straight up not a concern to me. I know that the traditional, muscled, hairy male form doesn't interest me but a penis is fine when the body it's attached to is lithe. For that matter a vagina is likewise fine but with women I'm okay for them to be more muscled and more haired. At worst this is just confusing to me but at no point does it evoke any sort of fear or ill feeling.

On this subject I also don't fear my own image all that much, I'm aware that I'm unattractive but I don't feel much if any jealousy towards my more romantically successful friends. What little envy I feel is more for wondering at the physical experience so that I can better understand what I watch on the screen, when I watch it on the screen.

Is this a function of my upper class, atheistic parents? My secular, first world society? Or is it my unfettered access to the internet and therefore all the porn a young boy could ever want to view which has shaped my attitude towards sex and gender. It's truly a mystery to me.

>>13283210
>Curious whether it is purely British when it comes to culture, or more international.
Its exactly like any major western city, an absolute shithole.
I also don't get why you would even consider the notion that a city which isn't even majority British could be purely British.

>>13282288
>>13274304
>>13278740
>>13283204
is this trolling? are you guys /pol/? is this an nRX meme?

>>13283265

>>13282940
Post it, I'll critique it

>>13283262
but thats what makes it good

>>13283376
all to do with porn nothing to do with jerking it

I have my problems with envy and ressentiment.

I didn't reply to an old problem of evil thread so I'll just say it here for the record: in my opinion Irenaean theodicy and Gnosticism are the only two solutions that I feel are somewhat convincing.

Maybe because they both share a similar theme when you think about it. That is that evil is a necessary ingredient for the current world as we know it because of some secret rule to reality that us little brains can't easily comprehend.

>>13281768
come back when you realized how dating even became a thing and how it was subject of normalization.

>>13283427
Its the exact same as everywhere, if you enjoy absolute shitholes, then sure, it will be great time.

>>13279990
Are you eating your ambrosia, because you wont ascend without proper food.

>>13279493
God wishes for you to have jesus on your side aswell.

This board is gay
And so are you
So kys
You stupid Jew

>>13283265
masturbation is sin and it will be a sin forever, just look at the sinners in this thread and how they are bound by their past sins.

>>13283697
CathLarpers are so cringe

>>13274537
Trannies can't give birth you moron.

>>13283265
>just call them /pol/
you sure showed them

>>13283431
This is "no porn" cope. Porn is what causes the masturbation problem in the first place retard and masturbation is definitely responsible for the negative effects like joint pain, low motivation and headache.

>>13283761
You are cringe with your liberterian worldview that eats itself.
The harmful effects of masturbation are reported in all abrahamistic religions, zoroastrianism, brahmacharya, taoism talks about lowering the energy level of males due to masturbation (if not practiced correctly).Qigong has lenghty essays about the dangers of masturbation (and the need of energy cultivation if one ejaculated), Tantra recommends having 1 ejaculation every twice weeks.
i would say 85% of wisdom traditions try to abstain from masturbation, only recent, modern science tells people to masturbate their brains out, and even there is research about prolactin.

Cumbrain is real and 500 harvard scientists won't obscure the truth. The male semen contains various b vitamins, noticeable amounts of zinc.
The concept of sin is progression from the divine connection to god, something you will probably never comprehend. Why the fuck do you think wanker is a universal insult found in many languages. Because it is not what a man does, wasting essential nutrients with useless hedonistic masturbation.

I have experimented with all forms for 4 y ears now, no porn, no masturbation, full celibacy (3 months) and i never felt a more connected state of bliss when i was in a state of full celibacy.
No experience, no opinion.

>>13284197
I didn't say that it wasn't bad. You don't have to paint it as an eternal struggle between good and evil, just stop touching your dick lol

My libido has just cratered this past week. I usually jerk off once a day, sometimes more if I'm bored, but in the last week I've only done it once. It wasn't even that good. I'm not complaining, but I'm concerned as to why this suddenly happened.

Broke things off with the girl I was seeing. I recently started talking to this cute country singer. We kissed in a flirtatious hot tub situation and now we have one of those pacts where we get married if we're still single at such-and-such a time.

>>13284250
I wish this would happen to me.

>>13277426
How would they know he's tall?

I'm beginning to see what comes next, I can't help but wonder if I have any control over the outcome; if not I imagine the ending will be tragic - demons have begun to haunt me again they possess my mind in almost all waking moments, when I go to sleep at night they are there, when I finally drift off they are there when I open my eyes in the morning I feel them watching me as if they're trying to learn something about me like they've never seen a human before whatever comes next will be no better than this, medication, sectioning again or suicide

>>13285272
I pinpointed my sexuality and even kind of explained it, which initiated a landslide for other things which were a mystery to me. It feels good and relaxed a lot of things in my life.

And no, I didn't discover that I'm a homo.

>>13285385
the quote is an accident, obviously

>>13285385
why are you replying to me about your trap fetish lad?

Got off of my antidepressants this week. Still feeling the side effect: electrical shock sensations whenever I move. My libido is back in full force, everything makes me horny now. Surprisingly, even males which I've never been attracted to before. Guess the drugs made me bi. I also started reading the Book of Disquiet, really liking it this far. Had no idea that pessoa was really into the occult and frequently consorted with Aleister Crowley

>>13282304
Same. Fucking same. I just wish I could commit to something like learning a language but I just can’t. I know fundamentally it’s due to a combination of laziness and poor time management skills, but I have trouble communicating with others in my native tongue as it is due to autism so on top of that indolence it seems like a genuinely futile endeavor.

I’m a neet of 3 years and am ashamed to say I’ve done nothing productive with my time. I’ve tried to pick things up but have always failed, one time have even injured myself and ended up in the hospital trying to pick up a new hobby.

>>13282555
different anon here. did you do a masters or another bachelors ?

>>13285494
Bachelors. I had no background at all in programming. Had never seen a line of code before I went back to school. I was accepted to the masters program for some crazy reason, but after speaking with my adviser, she agreed that it would be incredibly challenging to jump right in to that program given my lack of experience.

>>13285411
>electrical shock sensations whenever I move.
man those suck

>>13285547
At least they don't hurt, just really annoying

>>13282555
Thanks man. Really appreciate it

>>13274294
t. either a retard or a jew

kingsley amis' 12 bad men list
(from take a girl like you; 3, 7, 9 and 11 are characters from the novel)

>>13282558
just try again bro

>>13282319
110 as a game dev? which city?

Wes Anderson should direct a Touhou movie to be honest, I'm curious how his aesthetic would work with the aesthetic of Touhou.

I'm the Anon who is compiling London Frogs posts. (I also have some of Princeton Toad's as well for those who remember him, aka Princeton Anon)

>>13287178
>I'm the Anon who is compiling London Frogs posts
kys asap plz

>>13287178
I suppose the complete London frog posts would be some kind of modern art, like one of those avantgarde muscial pieces that play almost the exact same bar 3000 times with minor variations

>>13287261
This is imo the appeal of a compilation of LF's posts. >>13287274

If presented in the right way, its essentially modern art, or post modern art.

I just don't know anymore guys.

>>13273564
Titties

>>13287298
not art, then

>>13273564
i stopped masturbating and all i can think off is women - literally
teenage girls and young women in summer dresses and skirts walking all over town - their skin, their body shapes, their legs, hips, their motions

please help me, i need to find some way to stop feeling like this or else ill go mad - theres gotta be some secret book or meditation to help

>>13287307
We are there for you Anon

My girlfriend of 5 years and I can’t stand each other anymore. We fight every day and I end up saying things that I regret and hate myself for. I know this is a dying relationship, the thought of having the go through the motions and the period until she finds a new place to live sounds like a drag.

>>13285416
What Was The Hobby?

>>13287448

Boomers should be killed.

>>13287443
seems like something that can be solved with some understanding
your fights cant be that bad,
waht are they about?

the days go by, but I feel like there is some unbearable quality to them that will lead to me doing something drastic. at least it should, I can no longer bear the fire of the soul.

also "harassment architecture" is toxic alt-right trash and i'm disappointed in everyone who touts it as some sort of decent example of transgressive deviant literature

i have a 7.25 inch dick thats never seen a vagina. all i do is masturbate, then abstain for a week or two until my dick finally overpowers me. i wish i could transcend my dick. i wish it didn't hold the reigns of my will. even if i cut it away, that wouldn't change a DAMN THING! don't you see that if i severed it, that would only cement his victory? Ah! Castration is merely the formal acceptance of defeat. how much masculine energy has been wasted on w*men? imagine the total freedom of not being tethered to the pursuit of that soft and plain gender, imagine all the things capable of coming to realization by your unhindered hand, gliding swiftly and resolutely across the waters of life unswayed by the dips and throws of temptation. to cast it away my dick would be to cast away any potential of this divine freedom, as the very organ responsible for my downfall is the same organ which fuels man in all he endeavors toward. but how to harness it?

w*man is lost and scared. she frantically fumbles around through this dark and unforgiving world, grasping for any kind of solid hand hold she can find. the Dick is her ultimate safety. when, to her, nothing makes sense in this world, the Dick is always there. when she's riding that gift from God - when she's riding Dick, she's safe. her life has meaning. she has a place in this world. there is nothing that can hurt her, nothing that could confuse her when she's riding the Dick. the world makes sense now.

i want that feeling.

i want to be the one riding MY OWN dick! fucking hell, its my dick, so why can't i be the one to get that ultimate sense of peace and fulfillment from it? Pussy can't even compare, nothing can compare to riding Dick. when you're inside a pussy, nothing makes sense! you're as lost as you always were! there's no answers, there's no fullness, there's just your own primal embers stirring in the bones telling you to keep thrusting, but for what? the Pussy can't save you from all despair, the Pussy can't give your life meaning like the Dick can! as soon as you nut, you're just come crashing back down to earth like Lucifer, you've gained nothing, there wasn't even a MOMENT where you felt secure. everything that took place in the previous few minutes was entirely between your Dick and w*man - you were not invited! you were a third wheel, a nobody who stumbled into the wrong room, and the people within were to polite to ask you to leave. sitting atop your own dick triumphantly is the stuff of legends. its like those books you read as a kid where the hero has to learn to ride a dragon so he can save the kingdom. your Dick is a dragon.
O DAMN DICK OF MINE, WHY WON'T YOU LET ME RIDE YOU?!

>>13273564
I just spent an hour ironing my shirts while listening to Paradise Lost on audiobook. How the fuck am I so cool?

>>13287559
depends on what kind of shirts they were

All women are completely insufferable and hold no value other than reproduction

My drumming has gotten worse lately and I think i may have an IBD. I wanna kill myself everyday.

>>13287574
Why do you think this?

>>13287617
I think about driving my car off of a cliff everyday; blowing my brains out with one of the guns that my parents own; hanging myself; jumping from a cliff; jumping from one of the buildings downtown.
I miss drugs and smoking still, and I wish I didn't feel so weak all of thr time. I've got to take a break from the gym because I'm so fatigued from school, and thats one of my healthiest outlets.
I want to kill someone sometimes, because I hate them. I've been finding myself losing control sometimes and yelling at strangers out of anger; road rage. It seems fairly innocuous to the casual observer, but ive always had anger issues and will only get worse if I don't curb them now. I've been trying for years, though (through repression at times). Everyone flies off the lid at obe point another, but I can be a real spastic. Moving will surely help me. Writing will surely help me. I'm not sure how much longer I can take the cognitive dissonance at times. My outlook on life has to improve or I'll certainly kill myself in mid life. Maybe I won't though, becsuse im still in therapy.

>>13287680
you should tell some of that to your therapist. Start with one of them first so that you can work through it with them.

>>13287709
I tell my therapist everything.

>>13287715
oh nice, well then, is it helping?

>>13282814
To numerous to go into really.

>>13283001
(You)

>>13287628
Women, beyond a very specific subset, are protected from all manners of soul building activities (isolation, lack of power, "sublime experiences"). The only value a woman gas is her body, and as such, is prevented from experiencing anything that might show how powerless she is against the universe. The world she lives in has been purposively adapted to her every need and want. The world of women is entirely human centered, social and subjective. No woman ever goes alone into the wilderness. And no woman can ever teach you anything about the universe that you can learn from literally any man. Women's curse and saving grace are their wombs, the only item that can justify their existence

>>13287721

My man it appears you’ve hit the deep end. What did it cost?

>>13287552
only way you will liberate yourself is to understand that you have been putting your dick into the vagina only physically, but you havent been doing it metaphysically so you try to compensate by seeking to complete yourself physically due to your lack of ability to understand metaphysical aspects of sexuality

woman is pure potential with no dynamic power - she holds true energy
man is pure dynamic force and in your case that force becomes masturbatory, compensating with misdirected anger at women
you fail to realize that without her you are nothing, you fail to achieve your purpose which you can only do in her
accept that you are here only to fertilize her, disposable with illusory dynamic power, merely to throw your head into completion of the egg cell of her femininity

I am depressed that this particular thread will be eventually archived. I have a lot of very vivid memories just from the past week of conversation on here

>>13287721
and no women has broken this mold for you? No educated women etc? Im not saying Ive met one, but..... Idk Im starting to realize I've met women who had some character compared to those who did not

>>13287734
If they exist, they are true exceptions. And are certainly not mother's or even heterosexuals. Even Schopenhauer realized this. A transcendant cisgender woman is the rarest of all God's creatures

>>13287733
Any in particular?

>>13287721
>The world she lives in has been purposively adapted to her every need and want
THE IRONY of you not being able to understand the significance of this and understand her importance over you and superiority of her position
the only value man has is to complete and protect the woman - his value lies in her

>>13287747
just no. shut up roastie

>>13273564
I've been thinking about this story I never finished because it had gotten accidently erased. It was about this single mother picking up a woman hitchhiker on a stormy night. What I wanted to do with the story was focus on the destruction of family when the hitchhiker and mother start a relationship. That was one of themes in this horror story. I got to writing it again, at least the start before just stopping completely. It feels like I can't even come close to how fucking good the original story was and I wasting time but ideas nags at me. I want to finish this story but I don't know how to capture the lightening of the first time I wrote it.

>>13287759
you are a mere tool of the woman - her servant and protector and without that honour you render yourself worthless
entire society and civilization revolves around the woman, and lo behold the worm who rejects his msitress

>>13287740
Ive read his "On Women" and even had my ex listen to it on audiobook. What do you mean by "not mothers or even heterosexuals"?

>>13287747
The problem of the woman is her incessant desire to remain separate from you. If we were all hermaphrodites there would be no problem. Woman cannot exist independent of man. They cannot even build a Reed hut for themselves. Women are prideful and unwilling to become humble enough to admit that they need men. There is a very concentrated effort to prevent then from realizing this

>>13287780
There are some masculine women who are able to be independent of their sexual desires, or at least able to differentiate their homosexual urges from the straight herd enough to come to a relatively more accurate realization of their place in the universe. Any women who becomes a mother is completely consumed by her child's needs and desires; for better or worse

Good thread.

New thread?

>>13287790
>her incessant desire to remain separate from you
you mean your inability to fulfill your duties as a man and keep her?
>Woman cannot exist independent of man
rather funny way to phrase the idea that men exist to provide for her
>Women are prideful and unwilling to become humble enough to admit that they need men
women are too tolerant and too humble to complain about the terrible maltreatment and abandonment of duty they have recieved from men
>>13287802
woman is the taker of the apple of knowledge - the font of intellect, the one who brought you into the world in the first place and without who you wouldnt exist

>>13287802
>
This may be presumptuous but you seem to have a touch of neofreudian feminist jargon within your posts and yet it is also anti-female. Odd isn't it?

>>13287839
Isn't "feminism" essentially opposed to the concept of the *woman*? You can see a strain of transhumanism in even the earliest feminist writers. If the contradictions of gender relations are to be overcome, the only possible path is a technological one. You can't solve the problem with culture and biology doesn't play along nicely with our timescale

>>13287883
So ill take that as a yes. But then you believe that they will become other than they are with transhumanism... How would that make a difference?

>>13273564
Im feeled with gratitude for the friends i've made after finishing high school. They are the most sincere and kind people i have met till now, and i won't ever be able to express simply how much gratitude i feel for them sticking by my side

>>13287902
There in lies the rub. As long as women are responsible for reproduction, they can never truly be human, or, subjects in a world of objects able to recognize other subjects (or something like that, I am very tired, drunk, and misogynistic tonight. Good night!)

>>13287525
Kill yourself, sweetie.

>>13287680
Unleash violence upon this world.

I'm far right and my friends are to dense to get the hint.

>>13288016
why don't you just tell them about the things that made you far right

>>13288041
I have, it seems like they just forget for convenience sake.

Nightclubs, people advertising their sexual value like cheap trinkets behind the glass of an overcrowded mall. No dignity

why are liberals so excessively obsessed with destroying europe and Europeans? I genuinely dont comprehend it, not even fighting climate change is as important to them as destroying European civilization and ending "whiteness"

I wish I could vote liberal without knowing for certain that I am literally voting for my own peoples destruction, I know neocons aren't any better but personally id rather go with using climate change as a Samson option

>>13288916
shakespeare was against the europeans as well

>>13273564
What is fum?

I have a real problem with identity. Or even deciding whether I want to project an identity. A character. Me. I wobble between wanting to be serious or humorous.

I also somewhat struggle with being creative, as odd as that sounds. I try to put some thought in to being creative but all of my good ideas come about randomly. When I try to plan I feel like I force it.