/lit/ - Literature

I despise those who think they ought to lead and pity the fools who believe they need the same recycled actors to follow. We are all of us susceptible to using empathy to measure one another's worth. Nevermind politics or religion, etiquette or manner, cause or concern: the capacity for hatred abundant to every human eclipses all good when measured by cold reason, to both our shame and lasting benefit. One hundred billion humans are estimated to have walked, breathed and perished on our blue marble, and the vast majority have, if history teaches us anything, died in impoverished circumstance after a meager existence, or at best, bearing the flag of one tyrant to fight another. The course of social conduct, since its inception during the rise of agriculture, has been prinicipally employed to use the very many to benefit the very, very few and there seems to be no end in sight to this dynamic. Though the paradigm of civilization has improved, there exists no society today that doesn't require the working populace to share the majority of the market so a select few can live beyond any reasonable means. There is no conspiracy at work here, just the universal indifference to utilitarianism that free market capitalism thrives on, and this discrepancy is even more pronounced in more culturally regulated and market restricted countries. This isn't to say that there is no freedom, no dream, and no escape, but as the average human sinks deeper into the endless archive that is the internet, I fear for the collective rage and its cooling simmer (the bedrock of a healthy and adaptive government) as the boundary between security and privacy becomes increasingly thin. Social media is complicit to political apathy and hypersensitivity, but its ability to unite was demonstrated only recently during the Arab Spring, the effects of which endure. It is not enough to dislike or post or share or even debate in order to correct centuries of grave injustice forced unto almost all of us, and I no longer have any confidence in my government to protect or do what is best for me. I believe rage, unfiltered, distilled and sustaining, is the only treatment for our ills. Cast down those that would lie to your face and steal from your home to ensure five more years of living in the capital and accomplishing nothing. Demand a new standard for what we learn, more meritocracy for who leads, and accountability for the sins of countless fathers willing to incur infamy for moments of total segregation. Push them aside or set them ablaze, but do so before we latch onto a fragment of the halfbaked and illusory democracy existent today in these United States. Brave forth with spear and spine of book toward a tumbling turn of events and when the dust settles, stand tall atop the ruins of the unexceptional. Insurrection, in its simplest form, exists as a force of nature: once charted its course does not waver. Breathe life into the storm and take what is yours.

>>11333870
*SNAP*
this will go great in my collection

>>11333847
/lit/ is quite shit lately. where did all the christfags and philosophers go? why is contentless jezebelposting allowed?

chicken run is the greatest movie of all time and would make a wonderful novel adaptation

I'm writing a short story and it'll either suck or be pretty good, wish me the best.

I listen to or sing music loudly to disrupt my train of thought so I don't have to face my thoughts.

I know what I should do but I'd rather be a piece of shit then to amount to anything

>tfw no gf

flashing lights lights lights lights

>>11334066
Post your opening sentence friend

i really want a girlfriend, but i'm really socially isolated and i don't know how to get one

why am so dumb

I don't think these threads are literature related and are just anons venting to the big other

>>11334129
at least it's not genre fiction

>>11334118
You are probably in your late teens still, eventually you just stop caring. Its better to learn to accept it now.

>girl asked if i was awake at 2:40 am last night
>fell asleep at 2
>stayed up tonight
>nothing
well this is mighty gay

>>11334129
yeah, but the average iq is a lot higher here than on the other boards so it's nice to talk about this stuff with other sophisticated intellectuals

>>11334134
late 20s, i honestly didn't care at that age and rejected tons of women when i was back in college, now i'm working a blue collar job and meet almost no women irl and i'm fucking lonely and depressed

I just want someone to pay me to draw whatever I want in my sketchbook if I'm being totally honest with myself.

Being that I can't have that, I'm not really sure what I want to do with my life that doesn't bore me, is lucrative enough, and promotes personal growth as well as growth in a skill set.

>>11334129
>the big other
He has a name you know.

i keep feeling pinches on my balls but im not moving so its not a hair getting pulled somehow i better not have caught crabs from one of these thots my roommates be bringing over here

I read/write romance fiction and listen to girlfriend audios as a substitue for an actual relationship since I'm ugly as shit, completely socially inept, and terrified of so much as making eye contact with girls out of fear of offending them or making them think I'm a rapist. I've spent over 150 dollars on audios specifically made for me.

>>11334256
ok just checked really quick, sack is clear, i think it must be these underwear

>>11334269
you know what time it is folks

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BEtD0p6BIic

#badgalriri #queen #rihanna #thick #curves

>>11334279
she must have gone on some kind of anti-depressant meds, those always make people blow up like tubs in like a year or two

>>11334290
I started a year ago and my only issue is sometimes getting diarrhea

>>11333870
he's right

set everything on fire

>>11334301
i used to work with this chick who was on anti-depressents and she went from being tall to being massive bouncer sized flab, then she went off the pills and started to lose weight, and right when she was looking half way decent she killed herself, not even once with those fucking pills man

why should there be a beginning or an end? we are all on a number line, already there are infinitely infinite numbers behind and ahead

Everything annoys me. I also annoy myself. For instance, if conditions are not almost perfect to start something I put it off until I either move on or they become so. I have a hard time accepting that the first time I start something new it won't be a masterpiece so I don't do it. If I do do it then I get angry at myself for it not being up to my standards and become discouraged instead of accepting the flaws and persevering.

It is a cycle I would like to break but, ironically, it is difficult to start.

>>11334522
perfectionism doesnt really block my projects, but i do put up these arbitrary little goals and crap to do before i start my "real work" and it kills my productivity, i know im doing it, im totally aware, but still cant really stop myself from wasting time, so frustrating, but i guess thats why i am not destined to do anything good

>>11334534

We must conquer this bologna, anon. If only I could throw off the shackles of perfection for everything as I did cooking. I enjoy food, so in order to appreciate it more I took up cooking. I am no master and the only "training" I have is via youtube videos and trial and error. Apparently I have an instinct for flavour combinations and have, since I first began, saw recipes as mere guidelines whilst others follow them to the letter.

By God if only I could do that for everything else instead of it being the exception.

>>11333870
based

>>11333847
Do I deserve to cry if it was my fault? Is this the final selfishness on top of all the other ones? Sadness is a nausea of my life now.

>>11334060
I feel that anon

>>11334076
There was a study conducted a few years ago where people would either have to sit in silence or receive an electric shock. Most chose the latter. This is why I theorize that normies hate "music without words," they can't stand being with their thoughts and they can't stand intruding emotions that aren't programmed into them by lyrics.

I systematically fall in love with sweet hispanic girls. I think it's because my first kiss was at 4 to the mexicana across the street- who died of cancer one year later, a fact I never understood until I was in my 20s. This insatiable yearning to love the transitory will only cease with my own demise.

>>11334060

it's the great escape with chickens

I'm a virgin loser. I have nothing going for me and no energy to make anything happen. I'm sheltered and dumb. I'm always behind everyone else. I picked a major that won't make me any money and I don't have a job and have never had one. I've never kissed a girl. I'm a boring pussy. I don't know how to improve myself. I don't feel good when I do accomplish things. I have no purpose in my life. Everything is a competition that I won't win. I want to leave home and get prostitutes and kill myself but I'm to lazy to even finish that fantasy in my head. My whole identity is nothing. I had too much anxiety to even fit in with the stoners in school, I could have overdosed on something by now. I never even had a rebellious phase, I kept everything in my head. I'm not close to anyone. I will never create anything great.

All my emotions and passion will be completely dulled through overuse in my brain before I can finally enter a relationship. All the nerves on my dick will be completely dulled through masturbation before I have sex. University is half over and I'm still a lost 14 year old. I will always feel like Charlie Brown.

>>11334693

You're young and you need to focus on improving yourself. If you don't know how, start reading about it. Write it down, approach it scientifically and break it down issue-by-issue. Stop talking negative, stop obsessing over being with a girl or not as if it's a standard of manhood. A good chunk of people would stay single until they met someone they genuinely liked if it weren't for societal norms and sexual urges they have to contend with. You still have your whole life ahead of you and your basing your expectations of the future on what your experiencing now. There's nothing inherently wrong with you just because you don't fit in with everyone else so well. You just have to spend more time finding yourself than the average person does to function in society, and most people would have a higher quality of life if they did but they never take a serious look within.

Keep fighting. Man's life on earth is but warfare, but if you walk through it dejected and despondent then you already lost the fight. Win for everyone who believes in you and wants the best for you. You owe that to yourself.

>>11333847
My dad has been depressed for a long time. It got so bad that I couldn't bring myself to talk to him because it hurt too much.
Last night I heard him laugh for the first time in years.

I have zero interest in things such as space exploration as I just don't believe in things outside my lebenswelt. Not quite sure about evolution either or the earth being round.

>>11335050
brave of you to post a photograph of yourself

The gravity of confusion and subjectivity is becoming inescapable, what is it that will grant me escape velocity?
Once a connection to an idea or belief feels tangible, I am reminded of the disdain towards such an idea from those who believe anything else, which is something I can't be bothered facing.
I can't believe anything
I know nothing

Just finished reading Bleeding Edge by Thomas Pynchon. It's the third of his books I have read after Gravity's Rainbow and The Crying of Lot 49 and would consider it my favourite.
One thing that gets me down though is the way that reviews I have read have critiqued the way that narrative is structured. As opposed to the Gravity's Rainbow structure where scenes drift in and out of focus almost like a dream, Bleeding Edge actually has a focused narrative which the reader can easily follow.
This is something which I felt allowed Pynchon's prose to flourish as opposed to suffer. Instead of trying to decipher what the characters were doing and how they ended up there, you could enjoy his witticisms and observations from the regular narrative structure.
This may seem like "Uhhh just get gud reading scub" kind of review, but it's refreshing to read a Pynchon novel where the subject matter is something where the references are not lost on me at all and the structure is simplified to allow his prose to be centre stage.

I'm 21 and I'm about to cut my father completely out of my life.

I lived with him and my mum until I was 4 which was when they got divorced and lost the house we were in because of my father's alcoholism. I started seeing him when I was 7 which was when he cut down on his alcoholism and told me and my brothers he had quit drinking completely. I still remember feeling hurt when a man who looked homeless approached us in public and introduced himself as one of my dad's old friends, and asked my dad out for a drink and my dad told him he no longer drank alcohol and then thinking we wouldn't see it, winked at him to imply he's lying and told him he'd call him later. During an outing with him once a bottle of whiskey rolled out from under his car seat and he panicked and quickly told me he was keeping it there for a friend and put it back.

Since I was seven I saw him once a week until I turned 13, our outings would consist of him taking us up to the small town centre and buying us something cheap and then taking us back to his mother's house (where he lived until he was nearly 50) and sitting downstairs while we played on the xbox in his bedroom. He never really contributed anything to mine or my brother's upbringing until I turned 11 which was when he got a job and started paying my mum a tiny amount of child support (he still pays it for my younger brother but constantly brings up how he can't wait to stop paying him).

When I was 13 my mum kicked me out of the house over an argument and I went to my dad's mother's house to stay with him, I remember feeling happy to finally spend some time with him as this was the first time I'd ever stayed overnight with him since before him and my mother got divorced. I selected a film out of some DVDs I brought over with me for us to watch and we sat down together in front of the TV at night time to watch it while his mum and dad were asleep. During the film he was on his laptop and at one point got up to go to the toilet, I looked over to his laptop out of curiosity and he was watching porn (he used to leave porn lying around the house when I was 2 to 3 years old and I remember once going downstairs and pressing play on the video player and porn coming on the TV because he hadn't taken the video out after he'd been watching it all night while me and my mum were asleep, he'd also call phone sex lines which would show up on the phone bill at the end of the month).

When I was 13 we had an argument over something and I stopped seeing him again until I turned 15, since then our outings have been him taking me out in his car once a week to get fast food and then dropping me off back at home. I've struggled with a lot during this time, namely money and getting jobs and he has helped me with NOTHING. When I see him I feel like strangling him, he's a very ugly man a his girlfriend is even uglier than he is.

Sometimes when we drive past girls he'll make comments about them and it makes me feel putrid because of (1/2)

>>11334201
George?

I don't know if my face is going numb or not, but I'm kind of worried about it.

>>11335082
how vile he is as a person. He has never helped me even with things that he COULD very easily help me with (teaching me how to drive etc). He earns more than my mother does yet cannot wait to stop paying her child support for my youngest brother (both of my younger brothers cut him off ages ago). I've only kept seeing him because he's my father but I'm going to finally cut him off because I can't stand him anymore. Sometimes when I see him he says he hasn't been a bad father in a way that's really just him waiting for me to say "no you haven't" for reassurance that his subhuman effort at raising kids hasn't actually been just that.

His humour always consists of him doing something weird like farting or making scrunched up faces with strange voices, he'd often do this in public when he used to take us out places and it used to embarrass me a lot.

TRULY I don't think he'll ever understand the effect he's had on me or my brothers by being such a spineless coward throughout our lives.

>>11335094
sorry man. that sounds really shitty. you should do what feels right, and it doesn't sound like he's going to change.

My brother is the most reddit human on the planet. Anytime I criticize a game he says he liked it and that he plays games to have fun. He listens to NPR and says it's unbiased, says you have to do cardio to lose fat and weights will do nothing, watches binging with babish. He is a consumer. He bought some fallout pack despite owning all the games (he's only played 3, NV, and 4) just for a shitty replica mini nuke. He dropped out of a middling state school to do nothing. He's been living with my parents while I go to college. All he does is play dark souls, wait tables, and go partying with friends. Never argue with him because nothing can be criticized that he even might potentially like. I brought up politics with him and he voted to Gary Johnson. William Gibson and Phillip K Dick are his favorite authors, except he's too lazy to get a script for his ADHD that was diagnosed way back in middle school (he stopped taking his medicine around eighth grade) so he hardly ever reads anything. Despite claiming to be bisexual, every relationship he's had has been with a man. It could be he's too lazy to make the effort for women, or more probable he's actually gay -- claims to not care about breasts. Additional to his lazy reddit NEET ways he made me suck his dick when I was a wee lad. I believe this might've caused some trauma resulting in slight homosexuality but I'll never tell anyone about it. I confronted him once and he feigned igorance. Maybe he really did repress it. He argues with my Dad, who I get along with very well, constantly over anything despite being a lazy parasite. This skunk sprays at any criticism. Anything bad that he does gets rationalized to be the other person's fault, his boyfriend recently broke up with him, it's already be spun that that he should've been the one to break up with his boyfriend long ago. All of this makes me very annoyed.

Being mortal is terrible but being eternal would probably be as bad if not worse.

>>11333847
I'm waiting on two books but they're going to arrive on Thursday. The only other books i have that i can read is Frankenstei, but i really dont want to read it, its surprisingly boring.

>>11333847
It bothers me that women wear so much makeup. I know even young healthy women often have weak sickly looking faces underneath but I feel a perverse attraction to that. It’s as if the appearance of weakness triggers a kind of paternal instinct, making me want to protect and provide for them. I’m no cash-sureendering gynocentrist and I know better than to lay down my life obsessively striving to satisfy the craving for pair bonding behaviors. Still, it helps to articulate these feelings if only to faceless internet jerks I may never meet. I’m on day 5 of nofap and there’s a gentile persistent tightness in my stomach. I realize makeup is a form of self expression and it is a woman’s prerogative to decide the way in which she presents herself to the world. That being said I can’t help but suspect much of this behavior is stoked by competition for mates and the endless profiteering thereof. That plasticine sheen is offputting in the worst way.

>>11335484
>t. serial killer
easy buddy

>>11333870
Admit it, you only wanted to write "ought"

I think that when I will hit my 50's I will kill myself. I will realise that I never lived my life, only endured it, thinking that this was enough, but it won't be, and it will be too late.

>>11335577
How a man with quadruple dubs could feel this way is beyond me.

>>11335492
Nah the first thing I wrote for that was "nevermind politics or religion, etiquette or manners, cause or concern" and I liked how that sounded and had to remove it. I didn't wanna just save a random string of words so I gave it a home. I'm gonna turn it into a comedy piece (a really involved father who injects his politics into the local elementary school)

>>11333870
>rage, unfiltered, distilled
which is it?

>>11333870
I may not agree with this reasoning but your writing is at least good enough that I read the whole thing. Do you write essays?

>>11335615
Ah you got me I thought no one would notice that error. I think something can be both reduced to its bare bones while retaining its pop/gusto. It is a bit of a paradox though. What do you think?

>>11335616
I don't. But I think a lot and my views shift based on my mood to be frank. I generally believe that humans will do great things in this universe, but I worry about the cost of that greatness.

>>11334600
not based

What is it with normies and changing the meaning of words? I don't mean in the sense of the natural evolution of language, I mean a conscious act to change what something means. For example, I recently saw someone saying that "forgiveness" means you "stop caring about what happened", explicitly adding that you "can still hate the person". NO. That's not what that word means! You haven't forgiven someone if you still hate them wtf.

I wish I could tell you just how much I love you.

Words are so limited.

>>11335645
why are you reading self help?

>>11335670
Not sure where you got that impression anon.

I had a shot on the girl that I like.
She liked me back i think but i was too slow and chickened out because my friends kept on telling me she's just playing me.
The sad part is she is with my friend now and that totally caught me off guard. I felt betrayed after finding it out through my other friend and he did confessed to me about it after i confronted him.
I lost my first kiss on her, though we were both drunk and i can still remember the rain of that late evening. We even cuddled once so I can say i did have a shot. I screwed up alot also since shit is new to me which made me even more afraid to pursue something that wont amount to anything but pain. It was as if I was stuck in my indecisivness to do anything about getting her and not really knowing what to do. Maybe im just feeling regret now. Idk. and i would be seeing them frequently now since we're classmates in most of our classes. Im just venting out. Ive cried about her maybe twice now. It just that sudden pain, its really new to me. In my head i kept on thinking I shouldn't be hurt, the both of us were barely lovers. Anyways I'll end this rambling sorry Anons if the text is too long.

I want to die

>>11333847
Alcoholism is destroying my brain and also my organs hurt

I will never have an email address that’s truly alone. My military email was seized during my resignation, and due to my personal email having “sensitive” information a few armed soldiers broke down the door to my house. I still smell the cigar the colonel was smoking when he shot his nasty fire on me. “I’m commandeering this e-mail. If you don’t like it tell it to the president.”

I had given that email to cute girl at the bar I really hit it off with. Fuck everything.

Why are black people so fucking loud and irritating

Everywhere they go they have to be making noise and breaking the rules

A race of children

>>11334279
Chris brown should have defeated her when he had the chance. Instead he triggered her zenkai boost and doomed this reality.

>>11335693
You got fucked over, but maybe you've learned your lesson. Don't chicken out next time.

>>11335780
why are white people so fucking loud and annoying
everytime a couple fights at the store where i work they're white

>>11335296
Hey, that sounds like me!

>>11335780
I'm mexican and I feel the same way about most other mexicans, I think is just how most people act

>>11335780

That's true of everyone, anon. You're being legitimately racist and racism is a spook. I used to say that too before it dawned on me that melanin isn't what makes people loud.

>>11334118
You think you really want a girlfriend.
Then the novelty wears off and very quickly you find yourself wishing you had time alone in your room to knock one out to weird ass porn. Overrated as fuck mate.

>>11333847
Why do I develop a new type of physical pain every few months? It seems absurd I'd be so fragile at 28. Is it possible for the mind to fool the body that it's in pain?

>>11334265
Why would you pay for this, just get an ASMR waifu

>>11335816
Your pic reminds me to that photo of a young aryan male threatening an old man

I want to have a soul-to-soul conversation with someone on this board. It doesn't matter who, as long as you are real. And you will know if you are real if you read this post and feel a familiarity. I want to know for certain if the person with which I speak is really there. Convince me as if your life depended on it. Because I don't believe it. I've never experienced another lay their soul bare for me before. I want that experience. I want to be mesmerized by it. I want to feel a connection. I want to know at one moment in time, that me and someone else, both alive and real, are sharing the same thought. Even if it lasts but one moment, I promise to remember this moment forever.

>>11335780
>WHY ARE OTHER PEOPLE HAPPY BUT NOT ME REEEEEEEEE

you and other racist whitebois

>>11334118
You should fall in love first dumbo

>>11335712
Do it faggot

>>11335867
I am tired of my friends man. I fell that I spend time with them not because I particulary like them, but I know them for years so I feel comfortable around them. Now they only speak boring bullshit, and describe how wasted they were after dropping acid. I don't give a fuck, they could be describing how their ass stiches, it's the same.

Is there a master list of Zizek writings anywhere?

>>11336013
>>11336013
There is no connection. I do not see you in me; do you see me in you? Why do I not feel an inextricable link? If what you wrote was truly the words of someone who is conscious, I would feel it in my soul. Why can you not provide me with this?

Sleep Paralysis
Awaken. You find yourself in a theater that's pitch black. You know you're in one, but you can't remember how you got there. You can feel the vacuous atmosphere that a theater possesses – even in silence. You clap your hands. It echoes.
The seat is very comfortable. It's almost as if the seat was made for you; you're not even sure how that's possible, but the moment you thought it, you realized it must be true. It is absolutely pitch black, you do the hand-test just to be sure... You put your hand in front of your own face and if you can't see it, it’s completely, unsparingly, pitch black... It is. Your hand is completely immersed in darkness. It's comfortable. You're comfortable. For this moment, you are satisfied with your life. Away from them, away from it all. In your seemingly busy and yet boring life, you've managed to find refuge in this book. Wait. Book? Why did you suddenly have a slip in thought that you were reading a book? You laugh at yourself, and the echo is ingested deep into the comfortable, solo theater. You're always over-crowding your mind with thoughts like that, but in this theater, it's eaten by the darkness that has swallowed you – it too, like all other thoughts slip away into the pitch black abyss. However – as you're pushing the grasp of comfort away – you're still a wonder of how you got here. Where's the exit? The entrance? No, that's not the right question to be asking yourself. What were you doing before you got here? …You think it over in your contemplative mind and come to the excoriated realization that you can't remember. In fact, you can't remember a lot of things. A pale and rigid anxiety begins to fester and boil putrid abscesses as you begin to realize that you’ve even forgotten your own name. You try to move, but the comforting chair has you stapled and sealed to your own horror and terror. You smell a putrid sewer coming from the floor, feel a creeping and chilling water scythe your ankles. You try to speak but as you do the hand of Death grasps your throat, sucking out the sound of fear and presence of warmth.The foul, pitch black oil then rises above your knees. You find that the leather hand grasps tighter around you, so chilling that it burns through your esophagus. The water continues to rise. Fear. The murk is at your waist as you try harder to shriek. The ice cold is up to your neck, engulfing you even more than Death's grasp. The water is thicker than molasses, you can't even hold your breath, what do you do? You begin to dawn on how fruitless your endeavor is. You taste the murk of sickly grief and a foul face of disgust bursts from your now infested soul. The clamps of Death are inescapable, and unavoidable. Is this Death to all? A sudden, stalking, ballad and dance as black lights illuminate a stage of incest? An end to all things beautiful? Are you beautiful? Do you deserve to live? If you had, Death would not whisper pitch black in your ear:
"Come with me."

>>11336057
You are not able to connect, you will always be dissapointed in other people, because they don't care about you to a degree sufficent to you. You want people to please you, I gave you a piece of my life, that I wouldn't tell my best friends, because they would know my repulsion, but you don't care. You think that people exist only when they have your validation, but it's not true.

>>11333847
I always thought political corruption was just a stereotype. After researching Mike Madigan, seeing SPN codes after the Vietnam War, and just a better understanding of politics in general, I'm a lot more skeptical of higher government. While I still try to check the facts, it's becoming more and more apparent to me that people will gain power anyway they can. There are things that we're not told, but it's not some insidious conspiracy. It's just people being people. Looking for a piece of the pie.

I AM A PATIENT BOY
I WAIT I WAIT I WAIT I WAIT

>>11336089
It may be so. Your anger gives credence to your existence. If you could rage for me, scream for me, I may be able to believe you are genuine in your consciousness. You sharing your darkest secrets does not do anything for me, they are just secrets. I need feelings that cannot be expressed with words. You must feel a rage inconsolable.

>>11336126
What is the point when my anger reaches the minimum required for you to consider me a concious being?

>>11336151
It's gradual, you can be more or less conscious

What is the end game? To prove myself to you? To me? Even if I accomplished either of those things what would be the benefit? A pat on the back? Making me feel a bit better about the next time I put the empty ramblings of my stream of consciousness into writing? Maybe it's the challenge, having nothing at all to say and still saying enough anyway. Maybe it's in search of purpose, or faith in myself, certainty in my ability to follow through and be commendable in some regard. Maybe it's Maybelline.

>>11333847
what was the meaning of the three bars on sandy's suit? why was is that sometimes and not an acorn

>>11336186
There is no end game for you. I simply desire proof for the existence of a consciousness aside my own. If you are unable to provide this, then that post was not for you.

If what you desire is friendship, then good luck to you. It seems as though you are at the point you find everyone tedious. Acknowledge that you too are tedious, as is the world, and that you will never find any meaningful activity. Then do shrooms, only once you have come to accept this. Do 5 grams in a dark room. I know not the result, but perhaps it will help you.

>>11335816
If you really don't know the extent that the conscious mind fabricates opposition to good things or to extraneous exercise, than you need to read more. Look into sport physiology, as this will tell you Why the mind tells you wrong information like "I have to stop now or I'll die." Holding your breath under water is the one that always gets me. Apparently, your brain is a pussy that needs to shut the fuck up so that your embodied awareness can make itself apparent to itself - yes, that is fucked up, but it's the best description of getting into non-dual awareness that'll ever get. CBT is a good starting point for painful cognition, but it can be taken a step further beyond just cognition so that you can learn to read the signals of pain as crying wolf.
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Also, I want to marry two girls that love each other and need only my sperm to feel complete.

Mods are asleep again, failing to remove Jezebels and the people who post these harlots.

I wish men could wear women's clothes the way women can wear men's clothes. It's hot as hell today and a summer dress sounds comfy as fuck.

>>11336341
Just wear shorts, shirtless but with a cape instead.

>>11336341
just swill some whisky and throw a log around in a cute plaid skirt and swear to Christ you aint no arse licker till you're blue in the face.

>>11334118
ill be your gf

>>11335807
The difference is it's a well known stereotype. So when it fulfilled the traits are reinforced. It's why when we see black people acting respectful or raising kids its a pleasant surprise, it completely subverts our very reasonable expectations about a stereotype. The truth is black people are proud to be black but god would we rather not be associated for the most part with what being 'black' is. I've stood in a line for example and a black woman is yelling at a cashier about something beyond their power, in that same line are several white people me and one other black guy. We see all of this happening, everyone in the line is annoyed witnessing this woman freak out and me and the other black guy will lock eyes and shake our heads. It's a cultural pain in the ass that happens frequently. So maybe he's being racist, but stereotypes save time and behavior reinforces them

It's all rather hopeless.

>>11336477
Where do you guys live? The black people I see in my day to day act just like everyone else for the most part. If anything the people that best match the descriptions you've offered are old white women.

I'm in New England for reference.

>>11336489
I grew up in BedSty NYC, I travel around the US a lot for work.
I'm not saying that there arent black people that act just like everyone else, I'm a perfect example of that. I am still black though and across the country like anywhere you have people that act ridiculous. my point is that we are held to a different set of rules when it comes to how people interact with us. The expectation will always supersede the reality at first
New England isnt exactly know for its large black populations either

Is it always a terrible idea to start a blog? I've found myself in a difficult and unique situation, and keeping a record of my progress and thoughts would really help me move forward. I don't like building up an ego, but having a space to communicate and share with others would be much better than keeping it to myself. Still, I'd like to know what you guys think. Should I do it?

>>11336429
no you won't, please don't make fun of me

>>11336341

>>11337141
go for it dude, it's good to write your thoughts down

>>11337156
I'll try it then. Do you guys have a site that you'd recommend?

>>11337184
honestly...tumblr

>>11337184
wordpress is fine

>>11337145
I really will

>>11337184
not really, i write mine in html by hand and host it on github pages because i'm a nerd, if you're a nerd too that's the fun way to go

>>11333905
>where did all the christfags and philosophers go?
How long have you been in here? /his/ took all the good threads and flooded them with /pol/. There is no hope for this site.
Also, summer is not a meme. Summer is real.

>>11337204
Alright, it's finished. Let's hope I don't regret this.

Porn
Sugar
Its all i need for my physical health

Daily meditation
Loving Kindness
Breath meditation
Death meditation

Its all I need for my mind

Love, generosity, compassion
Its all I need to be social and ethically sound

Free of temptation, addiction, and negativity

So I can help others and I can be a source of happiness and goodness to everyone

>>11337184
Unironically tumblr

or if youre not a drama queen, just use Journey or even Notepad

Tumblr, blogger, wordpress is alright too

>>11337207
ok, i accept

>>11335780
This 2bh

I want to become more /lit/, but that would take away time from consuming other types of media and I don't wanna spread myself out too thin. I want to keep focusing on 1 or 2 things and become an expert in those fields, but I'm at a crossroads as to which of my interests I should focus more on, music, film, literature, all that shit.

>>11337731
one creative
one stem

anything else is overextension and superflous

>>11337760
I don't care for STEM, so I guess that means I could handle 2 creative subjects?

>>11337760
>overextension
maybe for you
>superflous
unless it connects all your interests in a meaningful way which doesn't require you to become an expert in, like /lit/ for example. It's mostly not useful in survival situations, Bibles being less sacred than flint or a jackknife.

EXAMPLE:
Creative: Linguistic procrastinator focus.
STEM: Nanobiomechanics
=
Math stuff.

I hate cars. It is literally impossible to find a beautiful car or even a beautiful society where cars exist. They shit up the city by their very presence. Cities are not optimized for them and so they're always stuck in traffic. You cannot have some time of silence at a sidewalk while eating or drinking without those noisy fuckers blasting their horns at each other like the barbarians that they are. You cannot take a good sight at a beautiful building in the city without Molly and her red SUV passing by with gaudy stickers that say "NUMBER ONE MOM". Those car drivers who want to avoid the shitty act of driving in the city create even uglier suburbs which spread like the plague. It literally expands forever, raping the countryside. In it, everyone becomes detached from their work, their school, their friends, etc. and so no genuine spirit of community forms. You only find paranoiacs aka people that scream >muh freedumbs (see /g/). It creates a society of sick people, not healthy ones. Those who want to escape the city and the suburbs attempt to move to the country. However, it is literally impossible to move to the country as trains going there do not fucking exist now that cars are so widespread. You have to take the car once more and again you pollute the countryside with your shitty Ford automobile blasting Lil Tyrone's latest rap album and going at a speed of six gorillion miles per hour. Imagine that sight. Fuck cars.

A black hole has taken everything but the kitchen sink
Empty space is all I eat
A dusty mood for breakfast

Oh, black hole, spare me a penny on my deathbed
So I can buy back a memory

>>11337878
You can indulge but you cannot truly master one thing.

Take it from me.. I have many interests and have little focus and time to indulge my many interests

Master one first or get beat by a kid with google

I have tiers of friends. Think of the ripples when a drop hits water and disturbes the peace. The closest ripple to the drop is two people. The next is another 3 and then everyone else tapers off into the rest of the pool, not very pronounced, graduated but not worth mentioning. But at the very center I have only myself, and I have no one.

Nobody wants to talk about politics or Rene Girard or Aristotle or if there is a discernable difference between a disk and a puck in definition. Nobody wants to hear about Gabriels Horn, Roman arches, or the Infinite hotel.

Even in prayer i feel alone by how annoying i must be to others and the to God. I am miserable and cannot allow sorrow to consume me lest seek out further temptation.

I have nobody to complain to and nobody to chastise me for complaining, and I have nobody to chastise me because I complain too much.

I hope God has fatherly plans for me that are merciful but laborious

>>11334885
Not that anon but well written friend. As of recent I've been realizing a lot of what you've just said right now about my life, about me being solitary and introspective by nature, and have been coming to terms with who I am and the nature of my reality. Life is hard but despite that I'll just try to learn as much as I can and do good for all those who want and deserve it until the very end. Put yourself to a worthwhile cause and commit yourself to it.

The contemporary concept of sex is disgusting. Porn is just how sex is now to the average person, there is no respect or love shared between two people anymore. The whole world is filled with carnal/attention seeking men and women looking to lose themselves in physical pleasure when it could be something so much more. Social media like instagram and snapchat and even this website with these slut threads propagate this behavior and make it the norm. Soon 10 year olds are going to want to fucking each other when society gets toxic enough with the "role models" of today

These few paragraphs are not meant to be sophisticated or verbally erudite in any way. I just want to express my sorrow for all of you (though not necessarily all are lost).

If only you knew what awaited you in eternity. If only you knew how much God loves you and how much it pains him when we sin. If you only knew how trivially unimportant literary skill is, in the final analysis. What matters is how you treat each other.

>>11338139
Surely you can go on some IRC or some chatroom/message board with others of similar interests anon? Or perhaps even write articles/blog/short stories to get others interested in the things you find interesting? You can't be the only one, even we share similar interests; if i knew you I'm sure we'd have a nice chat on some of those things.

>>11338201
All I wish to do is to bring good on to myself and others anon. May the Lord forgive my past sins and those of the future as well. Modern day society disgusts me with how acceptable a majority of sinful behavior has become.

biding my time
twisting my mind
i'll never pine
for the dead days
for the bad takes
time for a fire by my side

>>11338210
I guess, I just don't want to spend so much time on the the internet. It's not healthy

Thanks for the reply by the way, I appreciate it

Navigation
Simple and crude

I understand hell but only when I think of those who believe they deserve heaven

>>11338318

and for the sake of hell I would endure it forever if it meant I could see real justice

>>11337913
Yeah, the fall of the Soviet Union really was a tragedy

>>11335577
how old are you now anon? What makes you think it'll be too late to turn your life around by the time you hit 50?

Why hasn't /pol/ been deleted yet

>>11335811
fucking this

>>11335811
This a zillion times

>>11338470
containment purposes

The only type of music I can enjoy anymore is 70s prog
I think something inside me broke

>>11338470
Because moot gave up before /pol/ went full stormfaggot cancer again. Hiroshimoot literally could not give a single fuck about this website.

>>11338489
What do you think could be done to change his mind?

>>11338515
Not a thing. The guy makes his money selling metadata to advertisers, same thing he did with similar operations in Japan.
I can't really say I blame him either, 4chan has never been profitable.

>>11338521
I see. That sucks, then. Thanks for the explanation.

>>11338470
because it rules

>>11338488
wow dude you have literally no taste

>>11338139
Having friends, normie. Anyway. . .how's your sex life?

>>11337472
Love is the original sin, the big lie

>>11336341
Oh look it's you again

Always posting the same cross-dressing fantasy shit

>>11335867
Namaste
>>11336013
>normie
How's your sexlife? Inb4 sex sucks your soul and doesn't exchange it for spirit >>whores

>>11338554
What would you suggest as far as music goes?

i need to start studying again

>>11338610
Potates can't be wizards

>>11333847
Squanto should’ve never taught the white people how to grow food desu.

I often wish I was born in a different time, history feels like it’s ending in a certain non Marxist sort of way. I realize I would just end up hating the past as much as the present, but our problems seem so fucking horrible, micro plastic choking our ocean for thousands of years, if humanity dies out our only legacy may be trash, mass migration was always a problem but it fallowed a natural flow, now its chaos globalist free for all, we slowly heat up the icecaps and mentally dilute ourselvess to fake individualism with out any true cultural disiplines or connections

>>11335623
That’s true, but unfiltered and distilled are both metaphors, and they clash. Use different word instead.

The concept of reality, as in the existence of an absolute and strictly defined world, is a construct of human thought and perception. It is wrought from the desire to bring (perceived) order to (perceived) chaos. Man desires singular definitions and despises vagueness. Multiplicity must be learned.
Reality is a belief. It is an object of faith that Man can never know.

>>11338656
You ask to be a god, to judge people?, to create (child)?, are you lacking of power?

>>11338656
That's the first realization one must have to achieve liberation. Congratulations. Don't waste your opportunity.

>>11338631
All sufficiently-educated men have believed theirs to be either the ending or pinnacle of society.

>>11333847
kinda blue

i feel so damn dumb.

>>11338656
Good goy

>>11338716
Just shitpost

>>11338724
This post is a figment.

It's the 2nd week in my summer vacation and I'm already fucking tired of it.
Next year is going to be my last in the uni and I still haven't done anything important with my life.
I spent the entire year watching my friend, who I despise, get closer and closer to my crush. I saw his disdain for me whenever I talked or even interacted with her.
I should have taken my chance when I first met her, she had a crush on me for fuck's sake and I just ignored her because I was a beta faggot.
I want to be better, I want to be better than him, because he never liked me. And because he's doesn't deserve someone like her.
Oh god
I'm so lonely, I have like 3 friends, and I don't even feel anything towards them.

dude devil may cry is fuckin lit

>>11338716
That's because you are. Stop bitching.

>>11338762
Hey fuck you
I'm coming up on 4 years after highschool and am only now getting around to HOPEFULLY unfucking my life and attending higher education
I've been through 2 utterly fucked up relationships and completely missed potential on a third with a person who actually wasn't dogshit
I have all of 1 friend who I see maybe once a month to play some videogames with

Stop being a little pussy all the fucking time and recognize everything you have going for you before you piss it away in self-pity.

>>11338762
Cont.

I can't even blame them, I feel like I don't have any kind of personality whatsoever.
I can't express myself when I'm with people. I don't talk much and would spend the entire time trying to understand the other person, "does he/she feel bored ?" "Am I too clingy ?" "Am I even interesting ?"

>>11338779
I'm trying anon, I've never given up on my life, I'm always trying to get better and improve myself.
But I feel like all the years of being ignored, bullied and getting sexually assaulted throughout my childhood are beginning to get to me.

>>11338575
I'm Catholic and unmarried

>>11333847
I don't know why I'm such a fuckup
I don't know why I'm avoiding talking to my dad even though that's one of the things I wanted the most for most of my life
I don't know how I'm supposed to find someone willing to date me, and I'm not sure why there are so few women I'm actually attracted to
I don't know what to do about something secret
I don't know if I should try learning French or not, my reason is just to understand Wakfu better but that's kind of an excuse, I know learning another language is a good thing unto itself
I don't know why I'm so reticent to spend time with my sister, it feels like the old days when I didn't know how to strike up a conversation, but I'm well past that, or I thought I was
I don't know if the game I'm making is ever going to get a real artist or even be finished, and I don't know if my other ideas will fare any better
I just don't know

>>11338829
yes you are

>>11335867
you write like a fag and yet I totally relate, partly because I too once wrote like a fag
I don't know if I can convince you of anything and it's not my job to try, but my response to OP here >>11338912 is the best I can do on short notice

>>11338607
idk man i listen to everything from prog metal to salsa to classical music to bossa nova to jazz etctecte

>>11338912
Every language is like having a new soul, french is for little fags or cute smug maids tho, learn something better and don't be french, i fucking hate frenchies

>>11338962
literal pleb

>>11338965
Native french < Foreign Academic french

>>11338955
Cool, listen to what u want mang

>>11338962
I already learned the basics of Spanish (and then forgot them and relearned them), and I'd prefer something useful, at least useful to me

>>11338702
On one hand I agree but on the other hand we have mountains of empirical evidence saying that thanks to climate change, the future death of our planet's natural ecosystem and possibly entire human race is not only inevitable, but also imminent

>>11339030
Cool, I can't wait for everyone to die

>>11339056
same

>>11339071
>foxes and bird cooperate
birds are so nice

>>11335867
Hello.

>>11339082
birds are some of the most vicious animals

https://youtu.be/4ArjlPAU_X4

they’re nice when there is something to eat

>>11339030
>but also imminent
Except that's fucking wrong, every predictive climate change model we have is significantly less complex than day-to-day meteorological predictive models and we don't trust them for more than a few days in advance.
Rising shorelines, which are really the only climate change effect that seriously threatens humans as opposed to animals, are pretty non-dangerous.

A lot of bad people are just socially incompetent
Either it makes them hateful, makes people hate them, or both

>>11339106
birds are nice to transfer merit to
https://youtube.com/watch?v=BUp4jUMIy68
https://hooktube.com/watch?v=BUp4jUMIy68 if you don't want to sign in

>>11338488
Check out Zeuhl if you haven't

>>11338626
I agree

i'm so fucking lonely i feel like i'm dying. i feel like my entire being is being enveloped by it, i can physically feel it in my chest and stomach constantly, i just want it to stop

All I've wanted my entire life was to be a self-sufficient fictional writer, I'm still in my early twenties but I'm currently a year away from completing my BA in Accounting and while I don't despise spreadsheets I feel like half of my soul is ripped away when I'm not writing something creative, when I'm not thinking of new fantastical ideas. I currently work as an accountant while I'm going to school to get my BA and my life is extremely busy right now, I can barely write anything besides posting a couple times a day on /lit/ at times like this, I'm only happy when I write fiction. I hate that I know I have no other choice but to pursue this accounting degree and get into a big five which will work me 80 hours a week for five years so I can be hireable afterwards to a more comfy gig. My dream has always been to be a fictional writer, I want to write a beautiful series, I want to write novels and see other people enjoy them. I'm stuck, I'm not miserable but I'm desperate, extremely desperate. I'm not depressed, I'm impulsively trying to find an avenue into at the very least becoming someone who has a collection of short stories scattered throughout the internet, I want something as a creative writer but I have no time, I'm stressed and I only have posts like this a couple times a day. Don't know what to do, I feel trapped.

Everybody's blind when the view's amazing

>>11339429
Having too much time on your hands can just as easily be detrimental to how much inspiration you actually find to write something. Just look at all the sadfrogs on here.
Pessoa was an accountant as well and that alone should suffice for you to not give up hopes.

Was assigned my tasks for this week and once more it’s fucking __nothing__, I could do it in one day or even half a day. But I’m not gonna say anything, since it’ll just be more of the same boring tasks for me, if I do, and they wouldn’t even give me a raise even if I worked five times as fast all the time.

I can feel myself getting more neurotic about my virginity by the day.

Is the "use less adjectives" advice for writing legitimate or a meme?

>>11338626
I feel the same way about sending food and medicine to the third world 2bh

>>11340245
That's just your pride's death spasms. Soon you won't care about anything at all ;)

>>11338409
27 in may
Because I didn't when I was 24, 25, 26. I will be too busy with trying to stay afloat financially, with fading hope and willpower every year.

>>11338089
The entire idea of becoming a master of anything is only looking for social proof, validation. If you choose one subject to Master, you will never have the potential that others have in their work. The people who become master of none with many interests are usually just ignorant of how little effort they put into their life, how little passion they have for their interests. Only those who indulge in many interests and become Masters in the process have any chance at overcoming their inclusion into the standard mediocrity of contemporary culture.

A specialist is usually not able to communicate their speciality to others outside their field unless their interests are so varied that they can pull metaphors and allusions from other activities to explain themselves.

There is definitely such thing as generalists who have mastered their subject or skill.

I'm convinced you are born with natural tendencies torwards certain political views. All 4chan redpills just made me more of a centrist, not being a literal nazi it's very comfy.

>>11340609
political views are worthless abstractions next to decisions of real political action. Anyone can be left or right in their head. I know many people who swear up and down how rightwing they are, but it's easy to catch them up in their bullshit when you talk about real power and real politics. And considering how little power you probably have, being right or left is ridiculous posturing that only gives information collecters a hint as towards which way you'll vote, not how you would deal with an actual issue.

A Nazi on 4chan is no different, no less powerless than a gamer choosing Orcs or Elves and, if you think otherwise, you're destined to fit in well with the rest of the /lit/tles.

The redpill exists only as a deterrent from actual political engagement in the same manner that News-comedy or infotainment or infowars subverts community bridging efforts of various groups.

The fact that Nazis and Feminists have some much in common and are so opposed to Right-libertarians will never be apparent to those who identify themselves within those tribes, or swarms or herds.

Right-communists and Fascists have this problem too.

And then don't get me started on environmental and cultural distinctions that result in specific, usually countrywide false right/left dichotomies that are not universal at all when comparing the actual strategy of political parties.

---

I'm an Omnivorists myself, devouring political agency until I myself am able to set the measure of political views. Some people call this wanting to be a tyrant, but I like to think of myself as much more detached to the people and the earth. I'm more like a cancer, and humanity is simply a resource which I will digest and then be done with forever. I'm more interested in creating a symbiotic entity with the earth so as to grow a mouth in which I can chew the sun.

I've mused at calling this the enlightenment pill, but I don't want people to think I'm joking. I'm dead serious about this. It's the only relevant political view I've been able to come up with to suit the natural tendencies with which I was born.

I'm tired and my hand hurts. Doing things is so fucking hard, thinking about my carrer, and making appointments with the doctor
I need time time time

i am just about to get up from cpoputer and make ploppy doddy sharty peepee

>matched with someone on tinder
>have to actually talk with with now
oh fuck

I keep forgetting that I have housemates now and can't walk around undressed when it's hot out.

I want a girlfriend so bad, but I just don't know how to do it. All the girls I kissed, I met online

>>11339428
Wow, it's like me, i never had this before, but for like few months i feel so sad my bones and muscles are in pain.
It's really horrible.

I have no friends

>>11341532
It's hard to make new friends as age progresses.

>>11339428
it will pass, the chest pain stopped last year. it was like being impaled but now i feel nothing
>>11340712
lolberts are psychopathic pedophiles
>>11340716
go away manchild neotenized arthropod
>>11341530
it will pass, give it a few years you will cease to feel anything at all

I feel that it's nearly impossible for me to meaningfully understand, and express new idea within, philosophy or literature because I would need such serious investments of time to read through the history of both. I feel like I'm trying to enter a conversation where everyone already knows much more than me. I do not know whether to read a work many times over to fully digest it or rapidly move through my catalogue of books. I'm thinking the former might be best given my procrastination. Maybe I'll just reread the Iliad 100x over and write a story of similar design but of my own work. I do like the Iliad.

>>11341799
People who are pathologically convinced of their inability to comprehend ideas are beyond help.
Your brain digests information by correlating it with new information and recognizing inherent or imagined patterns within. People who understand The Iliad back and forth do so because they've read a dozen or more other works that elucidate others' variant understandings of the work, not because they focused so hard that their brain somehow constructed a mapping of all possible modes of understanding the work.

You sound like you might need therapy tbqhwymdfamila

>>11335867
>>11336057
You sound like an insufferable asshole. No wonder you can't relate to anyone.

>>11339128
Very ignorant post.

Why are (a lot of) old people so entitled, selfish, and stupid yet get get onto younger people for it? It blows my mind.

I love my grandma, I guess. Not sure, honestly. Does that make me sound edgy? I know we're supposed to love our family but my grandma is so stupid. An obese woman who attempts to diet (but always needs her sweets), a hoarder, a complainer, watches Fox News and Jimmy Swaggart (a televangelist who peddles books and CDs that "guarantee a blessing"), and supports Israel and everything the American government does now that Trump is "in charge." She can't argue any of the points she parrots. She only talks at people and not with them. She is pushy about her religion to the point of driving away her friends (same with politics too) and hardly leaves her house. It's very depressing.

I feel nothing towards her but anger most of the time. I do not love her like I love my mom or something. I have been questioning the entire concept of family love too lately. Do I love my mom? I care about her and do things for her and want her to be happy and that, but is it love? It's all just chemicals and that, right?

>>11342031
>permafrost is melting
>if it wasn't clear from that name that's not supposed to happen
>massive amounts of trapped warming gasses are being released in the process
>no real way to stop the feedback loop at this point
>humanity is fairly fucked
>anons like that guy continue to smugly insist that there's no real danger

>>11335867
i want nothing to do with you and your attempts at plasmogamy and metriculation into higher emotional strata by bootstrapping with my vitality are debased, climb yourself and meet others in the peaks or enjoy being subject to the foul and vengeful winds of the river valley fag

>>11339128
lol pseud know-nothing

>>11339134
this is a tower of silence ritual yeah? aren’t these common to north india, tibet, nepal, iran? would think its ie-mongolic steppe/himalayan foothill trait

>>11339128
Yo, show me some of these predictive models.

>>11342068
It's a Tibetan sky burial. Its only similarity with a Tower of Silence is the use of vultures.
One might argue that it serves a practical purpose, as the climate conditions of the Himalayas will make a dead body last for a very long time without rotting. Tibetans also make mommies out of lamas. Of course, the Buddhist scriptures describe this practice thoroughly in the Satipatthana Sutta (MN 10) as the contemplation of death (maranasati).

My Eros broke

I was fourteen

Printed off pages of a porn site for later, but the printer was out of toner. If you looked at it long enough, the pallid, random grey on an A4 page, the shape of a breast could materialize in your mind's eye. A memory more than anything. I have not gone a month without shooting brain out of my dick since that summer.

>>11333847
last night I had a dream where, after an accident that leads to the amputation of a woman's foot, she sits on a gurney and takes a scalpel and starts to cut at the stump. At first, I thought she was just cutting the bandages away, but she kept cutting, higher and higher and I realized she was cutting down deep. She flung the scalpel away, eyes flat and dead and then crammed her fingers into her own leg and started peeling the flesh off of her bones. Not just the skin, but huge strips of muscle and fat, that slack, lifeless look on her face, shucking herself like corn, using both hands to slip underneath and pull it away from blood pink bone, red purple muscle and yellow curd just... turning inside out with that LOOK ON HER FACE. I ran away, ending up in a beach house, all white and pale blue, a lot of open windows hung with delicate white curtains that drifted in the breeze. The front facing out into a white sand beach, and the backyard filled with sand and beach grass at the edges of the white picket fence. This place is terrifying. I go out into the backyard and find a tengu mask without a mouth or eyes half buried in the sand. I brush the sand away, and I know that I am going to die. There is something under the sand. It has wide, gleaming eyes and a grinning mouth filled with too many teeth. It will kill us all, but it will kill me faster if it knows that I know. I make my way back to our house slowly, so slowly, and it's moving the thing is moving. I can FEEL it. The neighbors are too loud. It gets them first. It slides out of the sand and tears them apart, blood spraying and bones crunching. I stand in the living room, listening to their screaming, I'm watching my family sitting on the sofa from behind, and they're oblivious. It's coming. We're next. We're all going to die. I don't want to die. I don't want to know. I don't want to watch this. I close my eyes. It doesn't help.

Sometimes I wish I didn't have nightmares like this EVERY NIGHT.

>>11342053
She's a boomer unironically. Most of them are mentally ill, be they left or right wing. They ruined our countries.

>>11338488
>tfw only type of music I can enjoy now is classical and opera
also nice digits

The only thing I wanted to do was make video games but now I'm homeless and can't find a way to get off the streets and everything is fucked and I can't think anymore and I forgot all of my writing which I didn't write down nearly enough of. I am thinking about killing myself, maybe I will set myself on fire, I'm really not sure, it's hard to know what to do at this point.

>>11342055
If we're already trapped in the feedback loop there's literally no point to continuous outcry. If you're not developing technology that allows us to adapt to the new environment we're creating, then shut the fuck up. Or are you going to really advocate we start genociding the livestock of developing nations, who contribute a significant portion of the greenhouse gasses while providing fewer resources/person than Western industries?
>b-b-but muh """awarenesss""" of a problem that we can't do anything about
Virtue signaling doesn't make you virtuous

>>11333847
I have dummy-accounts on social media I use to observe bipolar/crazy/mentaly unstable people. Their antics bring me much joy, I really like the moments when i say to myself “wow, (s)he’s fucking nuts”.

>>11342439
Holy fuck this is a dumb take. Have you considered that awareness directly impacts how much funding, effort, etc goes towards developing solutions?

>>11342444
super asshole behavior, but it also sounds really fun and I want transcripts. got anything for us?

I thought I had stopped caring about politics but this shit about snatching children away from their parents at the border has honestly horrified me. It's absurdly pointless cruelty, if you hate immigrants that much or just want a white ethnostate or whatever just deport them, kidnapping children has taken you to literal nazi level wtf.

If a girl asks me to tell her about myself, should I ask her about herself in response or wait for her to respond to me first?

Yes I'm this autistic.

>>11342654
Read Roissy.

>>11342654
You should probably just tell her what she wants to know about you. If you treat social interaction with the opposite sex like military strategy it's not going to go well.

>>11333870
I would buy this book desu. Anon write a book of collected essays

>>11342461
You know we want to deport them, but the immigrants come here right before birth then pop em out.
Literal anchor babies

>>11342053
>I love my grandma, I guess. Not sure, honestly. Does that make me sound edgy?
yes
>I know we're supposed to love our family but my grandma is so stupid.
I wouldn't say stupidity is a valid reason to not love someone, it's a good reason to be annoyed by them but not something as big as that
if you really don't love her then I don't think you ever did
>all these details
she sounds like someone who is full of worry and insecurity and doesn't know what to do with it, hoarding in particular can be a sign of an anxiety disorder
>Do I love my mom? I care about her and do things for her and want her to be happy and that, but is it love? It's all just chemicals and that, right?
pic related
>>11342373
honestly she fits the stereotype of an aging baby boomer, enough that I'm skeptical this is real
she may be mentally ill, but it's important to remember that mental illness is an illness
it's not something a person can choose and rarely something they want, it's a hiccup in normal functioning that it's really hard for someone to work around or get over

>>11342707
These aren't anchor babies, they're children who have come to the border with their parents and then been stolen away.

>>11342450
not that guy but awareness only does that when the people making decisions have awareness, and outside of occasional public referendums, those people are all politicians, and they may use Twitter and watch the news but they sure as fuck aren't reading your tweets or your letters to the editor more than once in a blue moon

>>11342715
Those ones i think we should deport, but you should also keep in mind that it is only .5% (yes point five) of all the people in the camps are below 18

>>11338483
Not anymore, it's literally the opposite now. /pol/ is the ellis island of 4chan. Newfags entering and spreading to all boards.

>>11338515
nothing tech people are complete sociopaths
>>11342373
boomers are actually mentally ill, its some kind of sluggish schizophrenia, narcissism and biopolar disorder they all suffer

>>11338631
Yeah... sometimes I think this, but then I remember there is unlimited amounds of internet PORN Fuck yes!

Also, what the other anon said about the previous generations feeling the same.

>>11342723
forgot to add to this, what does at least partially do something is demand
demand for something different, blasted across every platform, every medium, including bringing it up at every debate and every press conference, writing letters and e-mails constantly, using different addresses so it's not just turned away, and most importantly getting other people to do this
but even that has only marginally more effect
what would be nice is if we could just say "fix this or I'm going to punch you", but that's easily ignored or punished and has bad philosophical implications for the one saying it

>>11342461
apparently it's just a circumstance of the order to house illegals in prisons, because children can't be put those prisons, and if they were (legally or not), that would cause almost as much outcry

>>11342709
>she may be mentally ill, but it's important to remember that mental illness is an illness
Just as important, health and normality are also an illness. People who are sane will never understand that they are not. You can't understand how your brain works until you see it fail.

A sober mind is just a different mind, not a "real" and "free" one.

>>11340712
> I'm more like a cancer, and humanity is simply a resource which I will digest and then be done with forever. I'm more interested in creating a symbiotic entity with the earth so as to grow a mouth in which I can chew the sun.

>I've mused at calling this the enlightenment pill, but I don't want people to think I'm joking. I'm dead serious about this. It's the only relevant political view I've been able to come up with to suit the natural tendencies with which I was born.

Geez. I don't suppose anyone with such unfathomable capabilities could make a positive impact on the world and be done with it.

>>11342770
I wouldn't go that far, but any mental condition has a scale to it, it's not just on or off
most people some mental hiccups, they're just not big enough to affect their day-to-day lives, and affecting your life is the main criterion for whether something is an illness or just a quirk

>>11342373

She was born in 1937. She isn't a boomer.

>>11333870
Very cute, but this could have been written in 30% of the text. Also, considering you were given just over six minutes, you probably had this shit written beforehand. You would need about 80 words per minute for the entire six minutes if you started typing immediately.

>prinicipally
Dropped.

I went on twitter to look at art and ended up depressed about the various forms of idiocy I found in between pictures. I can't tell this feeling is because I hate social media in general or because I spent an hour in the hospital this weekend watching my father wasting away in silence, so void of energy that he's unable to do anything other than stare at the curtain and drop in and out of consciousness when a couple weeks ago he'd at least been talkative and able to sit up unassisted and this is all simply a delayed reaction to that experience.

I'm sorry /lit/. I left you for /fit/ but I'm back now I promise.

>>11342654
No. Ideally, you start with something basic, but something that allows you to ask her when you finish your first thought. Don't say nothing, but don't say everything.

Example: Well, I'm originally from Ohio, lived there for most of my life. *maybe some other impression of your childhood*. Where are you from?

Then she says some tihngs, and you continue like this, each volley of sentences should be related, don't go sperg off about something unmentioned.

>>11336107
MY TIME IS LIKE WATER DOWN A DRAIN

>>11342782
What I meant was somewhere more along the lines of a universe where all labels are really just arbitrary to help categorize things. Basically, the output of the mind is simply some function of the inputs. Whether those outputs be considered healthy or not. Which eventually means, yes, everything is on some spectrum.

>>11342461
>snatching children away from their parents
As per legislation made at the end of the Bush era, Marshals can't detain children for more than 20 days in the instance that their legal guardian has been charged with a crime, they have to be held in a separate facility - the alternative, and what was being done prior to this, is that they'd just be released into civilian safehouses which were constant points for illegal integration.
Now, when immigrants cross the border illegally for the first time, they're found and charged with the appropriate sentence, a misdemeanor, and if they don't bitch and moan and fight for appeals to the sentence they and their children are deported.
The problem arises when someone attempts to cross illegally on a repeat offense, or applies for asylum after already being charged with illegally crossing. That legal process can take weeks or months, and the Marshals can't legally hold onto the kids that long, so as per adjustments made to the law during the Obama administration they have to turn them over to underfunded second-party detainment centers until their parents are either granted asylum or charged and deported.

Illegal immigrants are literally doing this to themselves, smuggling their own children across the border knowing full well that they are committing a crime and then wondering how they end up in prisons and why they aren't being given full amenities for endangering themselves and their children. And this has been happening for over 8 years.
If you come up to a proper port of entry and say "I need to apply for asylum", the US doesn't charge you with any crime and you and your children are held in the custody of ICE, not the U.S. Marshals, where you and your kids can stay together just fine. All you have to do is not break the fucking law.

Daily reminder that the rape of Nanking never happened. Jews just created the myth as a spook to control Japanese people. Daily reminder that telepathy is real. Reminder that auto suggestion is real. I don't even know when I have to go to the bathroom I've trained my subconscious so thoroughly. I sent black enerhies to the ones I hate and white energy to the ones I love...but here's the thing I don't love anybody except myself. That's what I've learned in this cruel dark TWISTED world that you should only love yourself. The rest of the apes are just primates while I'm not a human I'm something else...something better.....

>>11342851

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gBH30uXB0xI

>>11342859
You can't get more based than that...

I'm starting to fucking despise any kind of famous person. They think they're invincible and immune to criticism. This includes people like the faggots who write a lot of the books posted here. The worst are the artists, especially outsider artists. As soon as you dare criticise them you get hit with "hurr you don't understand" and shit

>>11342824
>If you come up to a proper port of entry and say "I need to apply for asylum", the US doesn't charge you with any crime and you and your children are held in the custody of ICE, not the U.S. Marshals, where you and your kids can stay together just fine.
I didn't know that
what do you want to bet most people crossing the border don't know that either? or about this order about who can keep the children for how long, or the second order, or pretty much any of it? that's not to say it should be disregarded, but you should be telling the people in Mexico all this, not us

I want to have lucid dreams

>>11342959
>what do you want to bet most people crossing the border don't know that either?
Actually, the border has seen a resurgence of immigrants after a brief respite following Trump's inauguration when immigrants expected the policies to change. The numbers have come back up specifically because would-be immigrants are aware that policy HASN'T changed.
Illegal Immigrants from Mexico and South America aren't fleeing war-torn countries, disease, famine, etc. They're taking deliberate actions, doing their research and they choose illegal entry because they know full well they don't qualify for asylum status.
These people aren't the idiots you believe them to be?

It's also not America's job to advertise its immigration policies in foreign countries, outside of the existing embassies and immigration offices that already do exist in Mexico and every other foreign country where you already can apply for asylum status without breaking the law.

I dont read at all

I miss this girl lads, I used to talk with her a lot. Help her out of her depression and bdsm kinks. Then I fell for her. Got rejected so I left. I returned and she kept wanting to talk to me, she was into me now. I did nothing and left again, I couldn't let myself be caught.
Now I mess with her using catfish accounts, and she hasn't changed. It's all so sad, she doesn't get better and still is into all that shit. I want to love her, want to say I'll try and be there for her like the past. But I can't do it lads, she won't change but for the worse. I'm tired boss, so tired.

>>11343037
i should not that the time of me leaving after rejection was 3 months and after i left of own volition was 3 months

>>11343037
a man tricks a woman into thinking he loves her by fucking her while ignoring the aspects of her personality he finds distasteful, trying to change a lover is womanly.

Power and greatness are upheld through the establishment of the weak and the lesser.

>>11343096

Real greatness needs nothing to establish itself.

>>11343098
Things can only be defined through disparity.

>>11343107
dumb relativist

>>11343085
I don't care about sex with her, she's much too short for my tastes. I initially talked with her just to help her out of it, then I fell for her personality. Trying to change her as I would a friend, then I start to think of her as a love interest.
I will never be with her, if a woman turns me down then comes back I always say no. Learned that lesson before.
Now I just talk to her (fake insta accounts) to see how she is, and it's just sad to see how she won't change at all. I am overall better now, I changed and got better friends and was encouraging her to, but she won't do it without my help. But I know as soon as I leave again she'll just go back to the bad stuff she does. It's more like seeing a friend who just wallows in their own filth that used to be someone you cared for. I can't pity that anymore, the pity is tiresome.

>>11343110
dumb objectivist

>>11343037
There is nothing wrong with bdsm you pathetic worm of a man

>>11343123
>wanting a partner who has no respect for themselves

>>11343126
>having a sexual fetish means you have no respect for yourself
The levels of willful contrarian idiocy on this board never cease to amaze me

>>11343126
I probably know a few gay bottoms who would and could kick the shit out of you if you fucked with them.

>>11343123
It was the root cause of her self hatred. She hated it herself and is still ashamed of it, but couldn't and still can't change it.
It's like r9k and porn, they don't like it but keep doing it until the end.

>>11343135
Okay?

>>11343134
>muh fetishism exists in a bubble it has no bearing on my character cuz i said so

>>11343141
Sexual desires and behaviors are certainly informed by social and developmental pressures - but not the other way around. You can't take a person's fetishes out of context and reconstruct their entire personality, or even aspects of it. People can even experience extreme dissociation in attitude and behavior between their daily lives and their sex lives, you don't have any way of reading one into the other even though both are affected by similar external pressures.
Freud posited this hack bullshit decades ago and has since been thoroughly discredited on the subject.

I started university last year at the age of 27 after 7 years of doing nothing, and while I enjoy being in the vicinity of youthful, sprightly people in their early 20s I fear that I'm out of place among them, or rather, I fear that they feel I'm out of place among them. But it's so intoxicating to be among them; their merriment and laughter and carefreeness.

>>11342786
It's both, I think.
>>11342792
/fit/'s kind of funny. I went recently and most threads seemed really off-topic, but then I remembered cringe threads from years ago and I laughed.
>>11343159
Don't forget that all those things fade. Find something that lasts.

>>11342450
Are you aware that the sheer volume of funds going towards technological research has little indication of the actual speed or efficacy of that research? See Cancer research in the west, the return on investment's fucking terrible.
"Awareness" is a meme pushed by charities and NGOs that stand to profit, if indirectly, from large poorly supervised public funding campaigns. No amount of bitching will scoop plastic out of the oceans or rebuild the Ozone layer, individuals with profitable skills will do that.

>>11343168
>Find something that lasts.

nothing lasts

>>11343137
Eh, that's her battle to fight then. People come to terms with themselves by themselves, or not at all. You aren't doing any good by digitally stalking her or whatever it is you think you're doing.

I'm fairly certain that all population statistics are bullshit and unreliable due to unforeseen variables and poor control. Too much of it is extrapolation.
At the core of the practice is dehumanization.

>>11334125
screencapped
>>11334578
only if you actually intend to change. if you wanted to comfort yourself and go back to being a piece of shit than wouldn't deserve it.
>>11335050
fucking pussy. If you were telling the truth you'd go life in the woods. Living your life as though you knew there will be food in the supermarket when you need it, running water, electricity, etc is an act of faith.
>>11335091
did you die?
>>11335763
¿¿??
>>11337768
if not stem then a practical skill. do something useful with your hands.
>>11337913
fuckin preach
>>11338046
first stanza is breddy good. second one sucks.
>>11338239
I like it. what are the bad takes?
>>11335334
>>11335712
>>11335744
>>11336479
it is possible to transcend suffering.

whats on your mind

>>11340609
yes, there are other mechanisms at work when a person subscribes to some ideology besides pure rationality.
If you're gonna claim we're born with biases, you need to propose some biological mechanism whereby these predispositions could be transmitted. (spoiler: this doesn't exist).
Here's another explanation:
Each ideology comes with an associated aesthetic.
A conservative dad will never be caught dead agreeing with a socialism about anything, not because he has knowledge or information that would make that illogical, but because to be associated with faggy, unamerican liberal cucks is unthinkable to him. It would clash with his established aesthetic and effectively destroy his persona. Defense of the ego is the underlying mechanism.

>>11343231
don't do this ever again
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoRJgXMcUEg

>>11343245
Haha wow no one has posted this before anon you're so clever haha let me suck your dick

>>11343279
why not? Nice music.

I'm about to meet up with this guy i meet here on 4chan and I'm kinda scared. of him pressuring me or getting pozzed ( my worst fear) or me just fucking it and being autistic like I usually am. I tend to run into moments where i have no clue what to say so i just sit there in silence waiting for the other person to make the first move, and I know that won't fly on a first ""date"". there is also the more primal fear that he is a serial killer of some sort and this will be my last day; regardles our first conversation went well and the more paranoid part of me is shouting "IT WENT TOO WELL",but for now I will ignore that part of my brain because I need this. I need to know if I will like this or not.

>>11343285
several reasons, but mainly because it's cringy as fuck, this is not a rate thread nor /soc/
if you must do it, make one reply for each post, not one reply quoting every fucking post in the thread

>>11342786
twitter is really depressing, stay away

>>11335807
What's actually racist is thinking that black people being loud and violent is bad or wrong or makes them "less". You're so brainwashed into thinking that western life is the best that you have to gaslight yourself and others into pretending that racial traits don't exist. I love black people, I love chinese people, I love hispanics, I love whites I just don't think they can or should live together.

>>11343348
>You're so brainwashed into thinking that western life is the best
Western life IS the best by any arbitrary measurement you could produce. If Black violence and loudness as you put it (or social incohesion as everyone else would) were equivalent to or superior to White social values, Black societies would not be so extremely inept as they are.

>>11343372
It's their natural way of being. You're just entirely convinced that either knowledge or material status is the only measure of happiness because that's true for the most part for whites and minorities who've been integrated into our culture.

i just want to write lyrics for a song about how im waiting for this girl to come back to town when summer ends but i cant come up with the word and poems were never my strong suit, any suggestions there?

>>11343372
The closest analogy I can think of for the situation is people keeping housepets. We're removing their natural instincts of other cultures and training them to act in exchange for praise and trinkets.

>>11343376
I'm actually not in the least bit interested in base emotional happiness, I'd rather not have starving AIDS-ridden countries full of people too stupid to comprehend their suffering.
And having said that I actually particularly enjoy various cultural output and I'd even agree that subjectively black cultural output is more enjoyable than white some of the time, but that doesn't excuse their abject failings as a people even when integrated into functioning western societies.
Even black people are beginning to realize this as they have periodically at different points in the past in the west. The least intellectual black man you can find on the street will probably be able to tell you all about the breakdown of monogamy and the resulting social ills within black society, albeit not in as many words.
The difference between you and I is that you inherently believe black people too stupid to transcend their "natural way of being", while I have full faith in their ability to do so and hold them and everyone else to that standard.

>>11343395
Why do you feel innate guilt for expecting people to take control of their own lives and eliminate their own suffering?
The closest analogy you can think of is that of housepets because you have crystallized the view of blacks as animals who could never possibly be responsible for their own actions.

>>11343401
>I'm actually not in the least bit interested in base emotional happiness
How is that not all that matters? How you get their is arbitrary as fuck, and just because whites like us need tech to do it doesn't mean others do or should as well, especially if they will never be able to perform as well as whites within a technological based society. Being the king of a shitheap is better than being a slave in a palace.

>>11343413
>How is that not all that matters? How you get their is arbitrary as fuck, and just because whites like us need tech to do it doesn't mean others do or should as well, especially if they will never be able to perform as well as whites within a technological based society. Being the king of a shitheap is better than being a slave in a palace.
God the amount of relativist white guilt in this fucking post could kill an elephant.
There's nothing wrong with expecting more out of people than material hedonism you sheltered pleb. If all men are held to a principal of equality, all must be able of achieving more. To hold any other view is to categorize some people as less than human.

>>11343409
I mean, you're not wrong in your judgement. But tell me, would you whip a horse for not understanding calculus? Bit of an exaggeration of course, I realize that blacks are highly variable, and some are perfectly capable of succeeding in our culture. But most are not, and that's not their fault, or even something that needs a "fault". We're the ones who created systems, imported people to run them, and then judged blacks by their ability to fit into social machinery they had no part in creating.

>>11343426
A horse will never even learn to trot if you DON'T whip it, to say nothing of calculus. People didn't get where they are by experiencing generations of non-adversity.

>>11334693
Yeah, I'm pretty much in the same place. Wouldn't be so extremely down and dramatic in the descriptions, but all the feelings are in my head point for point. I have developed a theory that self-improvement is possible, but one must be willing to reconsider every single assumption about one's life and to sacrifice anything about it to grow (apart from morals, if you still have some).
For me, that has meant thinking that fapping so often is most likely a huge part of my life's problems, so fighting that has brought at least temporary meaning, if not the beginnings of actual long-term improvement, to my life, and I imagine it would be the right first step for you as well, but that is up to you.

Bec. this is lit and no some /psych/ board, I wanted to mention that I ffing hate how hard reading is for me after not doing it seriously for over a decade. I ffing have the Count of Monte Cristo, a book of books, on the last 30 pages next to me, and I'm having difficulty picking it up to finish it. Fuck it, it will happen before I sleep at least.

Anyone have stories of getting over mental blocks to reading?

>>11343417
How can you call me a white guilt liberal in one sentence, and then say absolute bullshit cliches about "muh equality" in another. No, not everyone is equal in terms of ability to succeed in white culture. That's a lie and everyone knows it. Moreover it's a lie designed to enslave people into working for something that won't benefit them and that they have no hope of achieving.

>>11335577
>"There is only one thing that I dread: not to be worthy of my sufferings."

A man with such varied dubs can only be a true representative of 4ch.

>>11343441
>Moreover it's a lie designed to enslave people into working for something that won't benefit them and that they have no hope of achieving.
Holding people as equal under the law is slavery!
This is your brain on fucking relativism

>>11343453
How about we simplify it a bit: Imagine we invaded and colonized china. The population is half white, half asian. We for some reason institute a law requiring all adults to drink a certain amount of alcohol per day. Turns out that amount is fatal to chinese people b/c low alcohol tolerance genes but shit, we were just holding people equal under the law.

>>11343476
Except
A: Modern western law isn't comparable to the idiocy of your hypothesis and
B: There's no universal biological component of the Black race that impairs their ability to function within the law, only individual case-by-case limitations of genetics and circumstance which either fall well within the broad lifestyles acceptable to our society, or are so far deviated negatively from the normal that they are in fact given handicaps
I'd think you could come up with a less retarded hypothetical for your argument.

Let me ask you this, if we're going to hold people accountable by to different laws by nature of their skins, why don't we give a shitload of benefits and subsidies to whites? They're technically not at the top of the hierarchy, they're behind Asians (Japanese and Chinese) and Jews in terms of IQ and in some other avenues of success. Of course your response would be "muh institutional power muh whites already have subsidies" but that clashes with your previous narrative, that everyone needs to strive to succeed within the system but it's just too hard for the blacks.

>>11343453
the whole point is that white law is a system designed to take account of the behavior of whites, just like all of our other cultural systems. Now, because of people like you, and people more liberally inclined than you, we have to re-work and bastardize our laws for all races, which obviously benefits absolutely no one except the ruling class because half and half systems don't work very well.

>>11343494
>we have to re-work and bastardize our laws for all races
No we don't, we can in fact completely stop doing that and just apply all of our laws equally and stop making excuses/allowances for asocial behavior within failing cultural/social groups.
If Western law only exists to account for Whites, why do Jews and Asians do so well in Western countries? Why was America intolerant of several European races throughout the 19th and 20th centuries?

>>11343491
>everyone needs to strive to succeed within the system but it's just too hard for the blacks.
Where did I say that. People should create their own systems, and should not be forced either by violence or social pressure into the systems of others. It goes far beyond skin color. And if it's going to happen regardless b/c human nature than we should at least not delude ourselves about it.

Blacks should be judged by how good they are at being black. If some want to be judged for being white than fine, a sizeable minority are more than capable of it. Rednecks should be judged for being the best possible redneck, chinese for being the best possible chinese person, and so on. Right now all judgements are based on who is the best possible androgynous/raceless/soulless consumer/producer.

>>11343523
>People should create their own systems
Nobody is stopping anyone from creating their own countries, or modifying the laws of their current country from within their existing legal system.
>Black people should be judged by how good they are at being black
Said the plantation owner, eyeing up his next purchase

>>11343523
>Right now all judgements are based on who is the best possible androgynous/raceless/soulless consumer/producer
Remove the word salad at the end there and you're left with consumer/producer, which is a rightful judgement because production and consumption afford wealth for more people. You're just mad at capitalism because you're a faggy little marxist.

>>11343526
>Nobody is stopping anyone from creating their own countries, or modifying the laws of their current country from within their existing legal system.
Yeah, except for the fact that the people this applies to don't know jack shit about the legal system, and their own countries are run by an upper crust that gains power by clinging onto the western system.
>>11343529
well shit, looks like I'm a faggot marxist plantation owner white guilt racist who thinks of blacks as animals. kek

>>11343538
>Yeah, except for the fact that the people this applies to don't know jack shit about the legal system
Yeah except for the ones that do and have completely successful lives and even careers dedicated to the legal system, but they don't count because they must be, like, mutations within the stock right.

>>11343379
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHCWbWsRd6g
obvious answer

>>11343451
Holy fuck, which Dosto is this quote from?

>>11343168
I do think it's both. I was able to get some writing done so I feel a bit better.

>>11343231
>did you die?
no, but thank you for asking

How is someone so heartless and spineless that they can look at the person they call a friend and promise to them that there was nothing going on with the friend’s girlfriend when there was a long, chaotic night of pure, intentional debauchery and nippletwisting? Telling him there is nothing going on made me visualize this urge to tell him the truth as a parasite that is begging to surface. I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing to my friend. Just earlier tonight, I convinced her to leave him, and it was eerily easy, like leading a trained horse into the stables. She didn’t even stop to think it over. I am taking a girl away from my friend and I haven’t even thought twice myself. Am I an emerging sociopath? Have I found true love? Am I just an evil, disruptive emotional vampire that will fuck over one of few friends to the point he will find out and will not be able to do or say anything? She gave me one taste and that was it. What the fuck is wrong with me?