/lit/ - Literature

will I ever find a meaningful reason to live?

goddamn sex is so meaningless

6:15 AM. Alarm sounds. Wake up. Shower. Get dressed. Mix up protein shake. Take my antidepressant medication. Drive to work through the dense fog. Arrive 7AM. Someone else pulled into the parking lot at the same time. Race across the parking lot to the office building. Try to create enough space between my fellow traveler and myself so that I don’t have to hold the door for him. Sit down at my desk. 7:07 AM. Peace. Plug in my computer. Pull out my copy of Ulysses. Read for 50 minutes. 7:57 AM: first coworker enters. Close my book. Time to work. 8:41 AM: Boss enters.
—Hello guys, she says with a grin on her face. Anyone else need some coffee? She asks.
—No, I grunt out.
—Everyone have a good weekend? She says, not realizing I have no interest in conversation.
Say nothing. She leaves. Peace. Maybe I should find a new job soon. Working with all women is sapping my sanity. Pull out my phone. Open up my favorite Tibetan Goat Milking Forum. Type out a shitty attempt at Joycean writing to pass the time.

>>11304875
My friend has a bad attitude, sharp tongue and I'm her only friend since only I put up with her, she now mistakes my kindness as some favoritism directed towards her, and I know if I reject her we won't be able to stay friends, which I can't afford since I too have no one else.

The years go fast but the days go so slow

I'm tired. I'm going on a binge after finals.

>>11304875
She doesn't love me anymore but still wants to be friends, I just want to forget about her but I care about her too much.

God lives forever

I wonder who's the asshole mod who wanders in here once every few weeks or months and moves this thread to /r9k/, and why the moron hasn't realized this thread has been a constant presence on /lit/ for years and will not go away just because he deletes it a few times annually.
annoying fuck

>>11304875
Trying to make some sort of schedule I can follow loosely every day to better employ my time but new shit keeps appearing on the radar every day ruining my programs.
Yesterday's schedule was something like that
>get up at 5
>have breakfast
>go for a run
>back home and shower
>tidy my place and read for about a hour
>go buy groceries
>make lunch
>sleep some more
>go to the beach
>come back home and shower
>go out for dinner with a girl and have some drinks at my place

Ended up
>overslept
>get called at job on my free day because emplyee was missing and they were overcrowded with customers
>get food poison over a shitty sandwich I bought
>feel like shit for the rest of the day
>cancel my date
>didn't read a single page

>>11304875
I have to pay my electric bill, but I'm too scared to talk to my landlord. This is bullshit.

>>11305143
/lit/ mods are the worst mods on this website. they have no knowledge or respect for board culture. and they are completely humourless. i cant count the amount of times ive been banned for "posting fanfiction", just because i made the kind of funny thread that is acceptable on literally every other board

Also I'll never forgive the mod who killed the art thread we used to have here by always moving it to /his/ where it would get no replies.

No mods, no masters, only anons

>>11305293
viva la fucking revolutión

>>11305341
for real tho it does suck that theres no easy way for the actual users of this site to determine the kind of content they want to see. the mods just arent beholden to any kind of authority or feedback. i guess the idea is that if they wont do their job properly people will just leave, but most of us have enough of a sentimental attachment to the board that it would have to get pretty bad before we'd be able to justify leaving

>>11305358
yeah, and some of the rules are just archaic and pointless, now a days. I don't understand why we can't have a fanfiction general, or why roll threads keep getting deleted.

>>11305377
yeah its bullshit

i want to get rid of my economics teacher, that fucker likes to do exams insanely hard so he can get laid with his female students, fuck him

>>11305606
Undeniably based

>>11305293
/his/ sucks too

>make thread about automation and luddite movements
> talk about the implications of the future as well as the history

>sorry 25 year rule b& & delet

>>11305293
I agree. Fucking Nazi mods.

>>11304907
this board would be so much better if it were about tibetan goat milking

>>11305293
>post thread discussing Heidegger and Derrida
>gets moved to /pol/ because of that one culture of critique /pol/tard was having a debate on nazism with some leftist
>open catalog
>literally 5 jordan peterson threads thin-veiled as "philosophy"
Mods fucked this board pretty badly, it's 2011's /sp/ crackdown all over again

>>11305606
god I wish that were me, instead I'm wageslaving in finance for my banker overlords because I couldn't afford finishing my PhD to get a comfy uni professor job

Humor is the wrong way of doing something wrong.

>>11305377
because they’re gay and a waste of time, this is a board for discussing literature

>>11306287
>this is a board for discussing literature
okay whatever helps you sleep at night

I think that if I keep treating life like a one big joke, I'm going to miss everything

>>11306373
>I'm going to miss everything
like what?

>tfw the dream is dead but you're still alive, just drifting along in pointlessness and rêveries of times now gone

I have a well fleshed out outline for a book that I've been dragging me feet on writing. Also, I'm a non motivation having pot head who doesn't have a thing to his name and lives with his mom. I have congestive heart failure and a few months ago had unprotected sex with a tranny hooker and am worried I have hiv because I've been sick alot lately. I play crusader kings all day and smoke at least 80 dollars of weed a day which I finance through crypto and letting old guys suck me for money. Wew lad. Felt good to get that out

*whites persecute Jews for thousands of years*
whites: why are Jews trying to destroy us and our culture?

>>11304875
I wanted to apply to the Part III Mmath/Mast course offered by the University of Cambridge but after seeing the tuition fees and the cost of living there, I want to cry. I am trying to find alternatives but every other Institution I've found has the same (or higher) fees so I'm incredibly demotivated. I don't even know how to look for other alternatives other than googling "X similar to Y" while some institutes open their application forms fairly soon. What should I do?

>>11304883
>find
There's ur problem mate. "You don't find a meaning, you make one."™

the only reason i havent killed myself yet is because of my dog
the day he dies is the day i lay my head down on some train tracks

>>11306440
Better question:why didnt jews just fuck off to some other palce if they were so persecuted?

>>11306710
Imagine being this fucking dumb lol

My girlfriends friend jokingly likes the idea of us locking her in a basement. Is this an invitation for a threesome?

I am the worst magician

>>11306825
I quite agree.

>>11306838

;_;

>>11304907
>a woman is just being nice
>"ugh I hate working with women"
lel autism

>>11306843
>Boss enters.
>she says with a grin on her face.
>Everyone have a good weekend?
patronizing smarm from le bosswomyn

>>11306825

Chris Angel? Is that you?

>>11306887

way to project, incel

music is my biggest influence and now that I have run out of stuff to listen to I have no urge to make anything

>>11306887
>I read some stuff on /r9k/ and I hate my life
>clearly, I know what I'm talking about when I say that every woman on the planet acts with the express intent to mock and degrade me.

>>11306917
what kind of music do you like? I can drop a couple names if you like.

>>11306906

No, I am Soror Ruby Gogh

>>11306440
*jews try to destroy white people and their culture for thousands of years*
*whites persecute jews*
jews: oy vey why are white people persecuting us?

>>11306933
>*jews try to destroy white people and their culture
examples?

>>11306918
t. Never worked in an office with women.
They all act the same in nature. Passive aggressiveness galore

>>11306933
Yes, I acknowledge this. This is why I support antisemtism.

>>11306954
I went to a school with 97% female student population. you're just an angry fucking white boi that's pissed because obama made his dick stop working. how about you try saying hi back instead of fondling your ball-sack to how edgy you are.

>>11306923
I like different genres but my tastes are really narrow- looking up recommended artists based on what I already like almost never works. things that are a huge plus for me are
varied compositions by the artist- aka, their shit doesn't sound the exact same throughout all of their songs
uniqueness, so their music sounds different from other bands
some level of storymaking or good lyrics. not just love songs, or "i hate my life", etc.
also good vocals because I can't stand screaming or, on the opposite spectrum, singers who sound like they don't care and they're just reciting what they wrote down.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M5ce15s4NYc

>>11306910
>>11306918
way to be triggered mom

>>11306918
>when I say that every woman on the planet acts with the express intent
patronizing smarm can be unintentional you know
its monday morning, no one wants to be the worker drone of a happy cheery woman boss

>>11306943
It's more to do with Christianity than white people. If you take a look at new films that are coming out such as Deadpool 2 or Ocean's 8, which carry anti-Christian messages, most of them are directed or produced by Jews. With deadpool it's Simon Kinberg and with Ocean's 8 it's Gary Ross.

>>11306967
Check your grammar and sentence structure. This is a writing thread.

>>11306967
>>11306988
>>11306918
>patronizing smarm can be unintentional you know
its monday morning, no one wants to be the worker drone of a happy cheery woman boss
practically forcing me to feign a smile... I listen to heavy metal and hardcore music on the way to work every day, on my lunch break in my car, on the way home, and at home.. every morning on my ride to work I scream non stop "Fuck fuck fuck I hate this shit I hate this fuck fuck!! I fucking hate my job ahhhh!!!" and then first thing when I get there I have to act like I am happy, I cant just be left alone to do this dumb gay stupid shit that is entirely insignificant and could have been automated by ai 5 years ago but they need excuse to give these women jobs, while this fat happy cunt sits in her office farting all day playing solitaire, fucking bitch, whore, dont smile at me, dont force me to smile, just let me fucking do this shit ass work you bitch

>>11306975
Yo, that doesn't give me much hope but here are a few of my favorites.
Takenobu:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAnkU9hqJbE
A lot of instrumental stuff, but also some vocals.
Neil Cicera:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmF-t3zfEXo
The Kills:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=498zUzNGQxY
The Yeah Yeah Yeahs:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIIxlgcuQRU&index=35&list=PLNJpYEM5PAFwwG4vU9gLu-_jN-R2lNv7A&t=0s
Fever the Ghost, probably, but I've only ever heard Source, so:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RHFFeQ2tu4
and to cap it all off is MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS (hey, I can like a little pop, too):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1VTcJfL7RE

I don't know if this trash to you, but whatever. hope you like.

>>11307002
>This is a writing thread.
no it isn't

>>11304875
I am too old (27) and too stupid (took my education for granted) to become a writer.

I am the best dragon

>>11307044
besides the first video the rest is a little too pop for me. I lean towards more rock, metal, new wave, or punk as far as western music. I still listen to trash like kpop and jpop though

>>11307055
Not true man most writers get there shit published around 30, work hard if you want something out yourself out there I don't even know you and I believe yoyr capable of doing this. Now do it.

>>11307089>>11307089
Huh, sorry man. other than that I can only go down my list of songs I listen to and that'll take too long and I don't really want to.
How do you feel about irish punk?

>>11307113
>irish punk
like what

>>11304875

I'm gonna drink myself to death, I have no thoughts in my head, I'm a stupid animal, I reach into my soul and pull out a turd.

I'm not going to drink myself to death I'm going to shoot myself in the head first.

>>11307163
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDTQQWSmo8s&index=24&list=RDQMdmphPe4BaEg

>>11304875
That face you make when met with the absence of a spouse is one of sadness and cruelty.

>>11307219
little too irish for me

>>11307309
i guess that was implied.
flogging molly is a big one

i love the rain

>>11306995
christianity is a slave cult

>>11306692
i miss my ex's dog terribly.

>>11307802
you miss yourself?

WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO

If you're feeling low just search "Jeremy Bentham mummified"

>>11307835
this hurt, not that anon but my god im wounded

>>11307835
i broke up with her, a bitch wouldve stayed

I don't know if my tinder profile is garbage or not but I don't want to post it for advice anywhere because I can't stand anons mocking me.

Do you ever look backwards just a few years and realize that you were so much more productive and you had so much potential then to create something great? But now you're older and more pessimistic and don't have to drive to work on creative projects and all your friends who used to be creative too are just wasting away at normie office jobs.

>>11308137
Such is life under capitalism

>the internet offered a revolutionary ability to communicate with our fellow man
>instead of bringing about a new era of peace and understanding it's primarily used for memes, shitposting, and sowing political strife
humanity was a mistake

>>11304875
I think i’m gay. I’ve slept with women for a long time but all of a sudden i’m into dudes. Women just don’t do it for me. Weird.

>>11308041
are you hot?

>>11308248
are you french by any chance

>>11308251
Hard to say, I feel I look pretty good but I don't follow traditional male fashion norms (I have long hair and dress very colorfully).

>>11308041
post it here. we'll be nice, promise

>>11308041
Just post it man, we're pretty friendly in this thread at least

What a ridiculous world we live in.

>>11308294
>>11308295
Fine, it'll have to be tomorrow though because I'm at least going to blur my face before revealing myself on 4chan of all places.

>>11308327
just type or copy paste what you wrote for your bio, I thought thats what you dont know is garbage? or by profile you only meant the picture?

>>11308342
My bio is a joke about rock climbing (my main hobby outside of shitposting and feeling sad), then some lightly-inflammatory statements about some of my other interests (eg, "Tolstoy is the better novelist") with an invitation to debate me.

I'm conflicted between making myself more presentable or making a truthful impression.

I'll start working a blue collar job tomorrow and I'm worried my body won't be able to keep up.

I wouldn't say I have a pregnancy fetish per se, but now that I have a girlfriend I do think from time to time what it would be like to impregnate her, and it's pretty arousing. I guess that's fairly healthy and normal.

>>11308398
>1942+76
>being sad

>>11308398
>My bio is a joke about rock climbing (my main hobby outside of shitposting and feeling sad), then some lightly-inflammatory statements about some of my other interests (eg, "Tolstoy is the better novelist") with an invitation to debate me.
yikes

>>11308398
are you a 17 year old snappy sassy rambunctious randum XD tumbler girl?

>>11308398
Just remember pics should be:
>just you (not a selfie)
>you with friends
>you with a single girl
>you with a dog
proven formula that works every time

>>11304883
dat dere corrupted power process bra. mufuggin tier 1 an 3 shit. Ain't nuff tier 2 ta go round if ya knowsayin

>>11308437
nonsense you should have only one pic, a shirtless selfie in a shitty looking bathroom

>>11308437
>you with a single girl
this is debatable. it can look like you and an ex gf and this is not attractive

>>11308437
If I do this can I take a girl out for fish tacos(tm) and then back to my place to netflix(tm)The Walking Dead(tm)? Or would it be better to take an Uber(tm) to the a trendy(tm) yet quaint(tm) Downtown(tm) bar? All I really care about is getting head(tm) though amirite

>>11308464
Just simmer down and enjoy your life man

>>11308474
I do though, but one of the most enjoyable parts of my life is shitting on other people's idea of fun

>>11308405
sorry mr. cantstandya

>>11308426
>>11308432
I don't know how to interpret these.

>>11308437
I feel very uncomfortable whoring my friends out for an online dating app.

>>11308253
No i’m from new york

>>11308498
You know what? That's fair. Carry on.

>>11308535
appreciate it. I've given up trying to make myself more prosocial. Years and years without progress, seems like it's genetic or just beat into me from my childhood. I just want to find a girl who enjoys taking a nice walk and talking shit about the stuff and people we see around us

>>11308518
you are obviously asking because you are not getting the results you desire.
>Tolstoy is the better novelist") with an invitation to debate me.
that is kind of lame and cheesy, although you may be thinking you dont want to even speak to a girl that is not well read, so maybe you are right there. How many girls have you talked with on there?

>then some lightly-inflammatory statements about some of my other interests

what are the other things? and what does lightly inflammatory mean?

Maybe all the book nerd girls think you seem tryhard 'tolstoy is the better novelist' like you are just like "LOOK AT ME I READ FANCY BOOKS AND HAVE NOBLE OPINIONS ABOUT THEM DOESNT THAT IMPRESS YOU?"

Maybe just say: some of my favorite authors/books are, and try that for a few days/weeks to see if there is any change in your luck

>>11304875
Friend tried to kill himself a few months ago.
Tried again this past saturday and succeeded this time. I could use a little help writing something for his wake, anons.

>>11308636
You could use Dave:
>The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.

>>11308636
You could simply get a nice engraving that says "My Friend, Friend: A Man Who Never Gave Up."

>>11308629
You're misinterpreting, this is my first time using the app. I think I'm just going to go for it and see how it goes, because right now I have no idea if you guys know what you're talking about.

>what does lightly inflammatory mean?
Just light banter, like the Tolstoy one. I thought it was more interesting and easier to start a conversation with than just enumerating things like "Tolstoy is my favorite author". Same principle as posting a thread with
>[author] was a hack
in the title, it gets people's attention.

>>11308636
You’re speaking at the wake? Is this normal? I’m Catholic and usually the priest just says a few prayers at the wakes.

>>11308664
not him but wakes here are more like parties where everyone tells stories [Catholic too]

I'm not very good with women. Fuck you dad! My writing sucks

>>11308663
Unless you're really cute, women aren't going to ask you about your bio. Just make it short and sweet, a bit descriptive and a bit witty

>>11306975
So literally indie folk. Lol. Get off this website.

>>11308683
"indie folk" is good retard

Microsoft did good in E3 but my life is so full of work that i can only gaze at the amazing games that i will not get to play.

>>11307835
Based.

>>11306975
look of Peter Tessier - By Turning a Knob

>>11308687
>indie folk is good
real folk is better, the 60's and 70's were a fucking golden age for folk music. Even the Japs got in on that action.

I can't believe I grew up to be this pathetic. It's fucking disgusting. I'm too much of a coward to kill myself and yet too loathsomely inert to improve my situation. I'm a puddle of stagnant rain water seeping into the earth.

>>11308641
Stop shilling yourself Wallace, and get out of hiding in Cuba. We all know you faked your death.

There must be a new literature genre called: "Asses" or "Butts", I think there's a lot of material in this world.

I don’t know what to think.
I don’t know what to do.
So much freedom, and yet not enough.
And the day passes.

>>11308664
>>11308667
OP and Catholic too.
At a wake some people will have either the opportunity to say something or will be invited to prior by the family.

>>11308687
>"indie folk" is good
*Breathes in*
HAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHHAHHAHHAHAAHHAHHAHHHAHHAHHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHHAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHAHAAAHAHAH

I think I get more ideas for writing from ironic posts than I have original thoughts

>>11308248
Absolutely based

>>11308711
you have metal in your top played i guarantee it

I am now in a state of depressed mania. My ambition has gotten to a point where it is inevitable that I fail. It isn't certain though. I live daily in this sliver of hope, and it has pushed me forward for so long that it has become my whole world. Now I am nothing but endless confidence, a god who can achieve anything, yet at the same time a self-deprecating loner. I don't know what is covering what anymore. I don't know which is me, and which is my costume. I think I'll stick with the better of the two for now.

>>11308726
Metal fucking sucks. I do love post-club, post-industrial, triphop, electronic, and Memphis rap though.

>>11308706
>Catholic wake
>for a suicide

There'd better be mitigating circumstances, Anon. No offense to your friend or anything, but doctrine is doctrine.

>>11308687
>"indie folk" is good retard
*inhales*

>>11308767
>>11308711
>Metal fucking sucks. I do love post-club, post-industrial, triphop, electronic, and Memphis rap though.
*inhales*

*exhales*

>>11308788
He was autistic. Not the 4chan kind, but actually mentally challenged.

>>11308798
Yeah, that's probably okay. If he struggled with depression as well, that's another factor.

I'm sorry for your loss, and I'll pray for your friend's soul.

man I just wanna go flex

>>11307658

I'm filled with regret to a point where even moving seems pointless. I should have stayed true to my convictions but I didn't and now I'm just an empty shell.

>>11305293
the scum janitors here suck shit

a lot of bible and religion discussion is deleted too

>>11307044
> The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
> Fever the Ghost, has only heard Source
> Marina and the Diamonds

i literally cant believe i have to tell you this but you need to lurk /mu/ more

>>11309375
no

One of my teeth hurts real bad. I brush them after every meal, I don't smoke, I don't drink alcohol and I rarely eat foods with sugar in them. Every 6 months or so, I get a new toothache somewhere and I have to go to the dentist to sort it out. This has been happening for years and it's made me so jaded that I have actually been skipping on brushing lately, and I'll probably only go get checked until the pain becomes so unbearable I can barely stand up, or until the fucker decides to fall off on its own.

>>11309393
>in before you die of a infection in your mouth like a damn caveman

> Brain is scattered. A few different views all at once.
> Brain is melted. You're watching just a little bit of everything and deciding which part you get.
> Brain is diaphonous. Because the propensities you try and use are not pieced in the correct order.
> Brain is innocent. But no one is innocent.
> Brain is repetitive. Although the rehearsal is not an obsession.
> Brain is addicted. You might not like the emotions, but you're going to keep them in the lineup.
> When the fuzz disintegrates, a more abstract insularity blossoms from the coherency.

>>11309435
> Brain is kill. Everything is good now.

>>11306452
Is there really nobody here who can offer some sort of insightful advice? Does anyone know anything about potential Cambridge scholarships?

I got scrombled

>>11308668
/lit/ in a nutshell

>>11309597
If you're British, the government funds part of the tuition. If you're an Euro, there's the Erasmus program. If neither, yer kind of fugged, but some colleges have scholarship and tuition schemes.
Maybe try talking with the University about your specific case? There's a good chance they'll point you to the right direction. Especially if you're a promising candidate or has already passed in their selection process.

>>11309769
*or if you have already passed

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Etb1DfG-w1M

I am not here to display my record of having sex, merely my issue that I have had during such act.
I have always had a positive response from the females that have decided to spread their legs for me, but I just have never got any enjoyment out of it. Sex just gives me the satisfaction of a “job well done” from fucking them absolutely stupid, instead of the feeling of actually enjoying the sexual act.
What the hell is wrong with me. Is sex just a competition to see how many times you can make your partner orgasm before being too exhausted to move? Should I be able to ejaculate when she has blacked out?

>>11311771
lel, on the off chance you are not joking. Have you ever seen movies where they romantically make love? is what you are opining about, possibly your desire to imitate that, and a weird realization of that you havent, and a wondering why you havent?

>>11311771
here's a question. Before you have sex with a woman, do you WANT to have sex? Or do you just assume that it's something you should do because she's clearly interested and everybody's been telling you that pussy is amazing your whole life?

>>11306967
t. Nignog

>>11311771
>>11311875
Okay, I'm about to pass out so I can't wait on you to respond, but basically my point was that depending on your answer, you should look up asexuality.

Finding out if your asexual is notoriously complicated and cartoonishly hard because all you hear your whole life is "tits are fucking fantastic" and "I need me some fucking pussy or I'm gonna shoot up a school" and you're like, "well, this sex thing is... fine? I guess this is what people mean?"

So, I don't know. Think about it.

Planning a story fucking sucks. Makes me feel like a pure brainlet

When will God finally grant me a gf

Hey, this guy has a pretty good thread going on here >>11311496

She stole my appetite. I wake up sick most days, if not from that evening's drinks then from starvation. My mouth is dry and my throat like sand but I don't want water. I want more beer, but a sip will send me to the toilet, which I can't manage to unclog. I'm living where I work now, by some mercy of my value to my managers I am not without shelter. A bare mattress on a mummified, filthy carpet. I finally get to go shower today, which means seeing friends, but neither my public bedroom or my friends house will make me feel at ease. I am homeless. I feel part of me always will be homeless.

I read this.
https://granta.com/a-clean-marriage/

>>11305377
>why we can't have a fanfiction general
Fanfiction of what?

>>11311875
Definitely the second option. Usually it is under the pretense of “well, that guy (my older sibling in actuality) totally blew any chance he had, you down to fuck?” I respond with affirmation because I don’t want to disappoint them and maybe having sex with someone will actually make me enjoy the act for once.

>>11311830
I was always hoping for sex that would actually make me feel engaged. Hilariously enough I can still hold a conversation during sex as if I am just doing basic excercise

>>11311917
Sorry for the delay man, I was finishing my shift at work.
I still can feel arousal, and it namely stems from feeling the softness of a female. Not the sexual components specifically, but just the comfort of the female form.

It feels like I am just trying to enjoy something that I just can’t really get used to. Similar to drinking or smoking pot: I’ve tried, but those actions just don’t make me feel like other people feel. I see people going to bars and having fun, getting stoned out of their gourd and having fun, having sex with attractive women and having fun. What it really all boils down to is that I don’t feel as much as what other people feel, from my observations of others.
Thanks for reading my blog

>>11306692
My dog died about a month ago. I keep coming home and expecting her to be there and she's not.

>>11307055
Conventional wisdom states that you're only fucked if you haven't started writing seriously before age 40. Science and music have earlier cut off dates.

>>11308400
Lift carefully. Don't BTFO your back for life just because you want to make a good impression. What're you going into? Factory work? Trade?

>>11308248
Welcome to the club.

>>11312432
Keep writing keep suffering keep living

Much love man, take it easy.

>>11311938
When you realize god won't grant you anything

I feel like Jordan Peterson every time I have a girl over because only then do actually clean my room

>>11312552
Responding to myself
I looked at the Wikipedia article, and found a line that sums up how I feel quite accurately.
I’ll continue to do research into this, and maybe find out more about myself in the process.
Thank you anons, you have helped me far more than you could ever know

>>11304875
I wish I could have a second go at university, after graduating with a bachelor's of engineering I suspect a bachelor of science in physics would be quite easy. This second time I would, however, prioritize getting a gf over all academic pursuits.

tl;dr
University would have been better if I lost my virginity in highschool.

I like to eat pooooop bleep blorp blop what does the beeeeeeeeeep say to the blooooooop i carry two flibflorp ahahhahah!

>>11304875
I have only masturbated twice today.

In three sentences...

Were we so capablewe would have more options for choosing a make of a variety. But unless we have the option to deny ourselves a choosing principle, we have only the variety of sake that in it we have become the ones chosen. So that we need more than so many options is why we cant ever really need to make a choice for ourselves and thus we can fellow to require that either the quran, the talmud, the koran, the bible or even dare i say it the textbook become our most approved points of topic unless we make certain that the book itself becomes less outrageous, by putting it our own words, than the people that treat it like its made out of gold. For my face. My face. For my face. My face. Face.

>>11308437
a 'silly' pic or a bunch of them are good if you're trying to net carefree pump n dump girls
like you with sunglasses on and a blunt in your mouth

>>11312890
those are rookie numbers

I want to stop caring about things. Everything I've ever cared about has either died, left me, or distorted so much over time it no longer resembled the original. I already barely care about anything. My job? My future? My career? My health? Art? Truth? Don't give a fuck. If I could find a way to stop caring about being so miserably alone, and to stop caring all my old cares from the past, then I'd be good I think.

>>11311938
this >>11312586
from both a christian and an atheist standpoint

>>11307029
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCqW54i24PGw1q7IxciRmgTA

>>11308197
back to /r/latestagecapitalism for you faggot

>>11309189
gold on my teeth and my neck

>>11313236
>reeeeeeee anyone who criticizes the objectively terrible economic system is reddit!!!!!!!

>>11313269
>im a weak female other people should do everything for me i can't take care of myself
this is what you sound like get a fucking grip on your life man

>>11313283
>capitalism apologia
>complaining about reeeemales
>individualism
bingo :^)

>>11313289
hows that depression treating ya?

i'm stoned on lots of pizza.
listening to a cute and good album. i'm thinking about posting it in my facebook group for sharing albums. i'm thinking about three girls i like that would probably enjoy this album. i can see one of them telling me while i'm in her mini cooper with her, "yeah i really liked that!" and her playing it and both of us singing along as she barrels down the twisty road. very fast and jerky like she does when she drives at night. seeing shadow people come out from the tall trees and high hedges on the sides of the road like we talked about. i've had some good times in cars with her. my favorite joke to tell is still the time that i was driving her back from redacted's house and i was feeling really low for some reason, and i sped up to make it thru a yellow light and she yelled "WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!".
but i'm not doing anything fun with her right now.
i'm at home right now in bed and stoned on pizza.

>>11304875
>write whats on your mind
I want a dinosaur to shit in my mouth

>>11313289
the swatzika has two colors on it and only one of them is bleeding.

>>11313283
Not that guy but clearly something's fucked up considering how suppressed wages are and how many brown people live here now. Capitalism doesn't care about you or your family or your culture or your history or your future or your God.

>>11313305
not great, haven't felt normal since I was 12 desu.
yet somehow your posts are the ones coming off as unhinged lol

>>11313370
you ever think you just failed at it and everyone noticed.

maybe work is like an exclusionary act of conflict agreeable qualities emerging to suppose a diacritical exposition of effect. like point light at something with a magnifying glass.

>>11313412
not him btw
i wanna help bring you out of the subject

>>11313329
I'm not a political philosophy guy, i don't much care to spend my time and attention on things outside of my control. but when you do, like our friend(>>11313289) here has, you're setting yourself up for failure. you're putting you're life in the hands of an cold and uncaring universe. part of being a man is imposing your will on the world and i'm afraid our friend has given up on that ideal. Furthermore I'm afraid he will attack the idea in self defense. I feel this way because i have experience with failure and self loathing and using nihilism and a assumed lack of agency to cope with this failure and low self esteem. Ted writes about this in his manifesto, albeit in a different context; when you can't fulfill the power process (imposing your will on the world) in meaningful ways, you're liable to go nuts and feel like shit (I disagree with ted as far as surrogate activities and their role in the power process but thats neither here nor there).

>>11313370
take some responsibility for yourself. clean your room, take a shower, make yourself some food, drink a lot of water, get some excersise. what you need right now most likely are small victories to get you going, to give you a little motivation.
heres an analogy i like, i wanted to start running to improve my health, so what did i do, i went outside and busted my ass. it was too much, i hated it, i wouldn't go running again for a month or maybe more. repeat that little process a couple times. what helped me get over the hurdle was jogging as lightly as i wanted, it turned out to be super easy, super enjoyable, and i ended up running very fast anyways. i really think that core idea extends to most facets of life, but that might be specific to my very own brand of perfectionism idk who knows

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yia1NHmkSAo

fuck I didn't know gaben attended harvard. are there ANY highly successful, influential, renowned and/or powerful people who didn't attend an elite university?

>>11313260
give me some recs senpai, I'm new to this genre and need to catch up with the times

majored in stem and wondering if I did the right thing. I've realized I'm so much more emotional than I originally believed. I don't hate what I do but I wonder if I will mind continuing to do this for the rest of my life. at the same time I don't want to be poor and if I didn't do it I don't know what else I'd do
posting this on /lit/ because I think my writing isn't that bad and I like reading but wouldn't consider a career in writing at all

>>11312664
Hey, no problem anon. I'm really glad I could help.

The extent to which everyone, myself included, does things and appreciates things purely for amusement seems kind of horrifying when you look at it from the outside. It makes me think of that bit from Kierkegaard about the clown in the theater on fire.

>>11313955
>if I did the right thing
you did

>>11313955
i got my degree and have been in it for just a month and nothing has meaning anymore
but i have a lot of money which is cool

>>11313955
I don't see this as a problem. I'm in the same boat as you, majored in mathematics but enjoy literature and art as much as, and sometimes more than maths. Like me you obviously enjoyed the pure logical side of stem, and for me it's good to have an outlet for that. It's classic grass is greener mentality, I'm sure you'd be bemoaning the lack of science in your life if you were an arts major (although knowing some arts majors that may not be the case). Why not pursue writing in your spare time? William Carlos Williams wrote poetry while working as a doctor, and DFW was pretty interested in mathematics (although not as well studied as many of his fans make him out to be I think). Why limit yourself to one thing?

>>11314057
I can do that, but what weighs down on me is the idea that I'm not as good, as acute, or as invested as the people I'm around. people will explain enthusiastically about new tech to me while I'm just pretending to be interested. sometimes I just feel like a complete retard. I don't like only being into something half heartedly

I genuinely enjoy writing cheesy romance and I've gotten solid feedback from some fairly intelligent/qualified people. It's incredibly embarrassing, but there you go.

>>11304875
whats on your mind

>>11314057
fuck that pic is so good
never thought aboubt it in that way

i want to kill myself

>>11314193
sorry dude

I have found the perfect short story for pseuds: "The Education of a Poser" by Machado de Assis.

>>11313317
What type of dinosaur?

>>11313748
Notch is a billionaire despite being a high school dropout.

>>11314094
I'm happy for you. It's good to do something you love.

>>11314088
I know that feel.

>>11307029
why not just leave pussy

>>11304875
more people die each year from preventable illnesses and disease than a decade of murder and terrorism combined.

i don't wanna die too young

I wish I never fell in love with that girl, she lives literally thousands of miles away from me
I wish that when I confessed to her she would have told me a direct "No", not a "I like you too, but a LDR won't ever work for us"
I hate the way she influences me so easily: I stopped smoking, got into the gym, began practicing guitar and started saving money just to go and visit her at least once in my life.
I hate how she likes to give me hope, saying some stuff like "Maybe someday we can be together, after we both finish our career and save money to move out"; my cynicism doesn't let me believe that such thing could happen to me, so it only hurts me deeply.
Despite all of that, I love that now I have a reason to live, to improve as a person, to change my shitty habits, she gave me the drive I needed.
Maybe she won't be the one for me, hell, we may eventually stop talking to each other completely and become just a mere memory of eachother lifes, but i think I can say from the bottom of my heart:
Thank you, Maria, for making my life a little brighter

(Shitty writing, I know, I'm an ESL)

I envy characters in fantasy stories where the gods are real and are active. It would be extremely nice to know that faith and diligence would be 100% rewarded or at least acknowledged instead of the prisoner's dilemma we are in with higher powers.

Been playing Vermintide 2 lately so Saltzpyre is on the team a lot and he is a witch hunter whose god exists and shows it. Sigmar Heldenhammer, in the Warhammer universe, is real. Saltzpyre is devoted to him and sees the payoff whilst still alive. Dwarf gods, elf gods, and even chaos gods. All real. All with evidence.

It must be nice to have that assurance.

>>11312586
>>11313169
When will the stars align in my favour and have me and a girl fall in love with each other?

I got acute insomnia in the middle of my finals. Pls help, I'm frying my brain here.

>>11305056
get as far as you can from her. it will only get worse.

>>11312521
anything

>>11308788
most suicides are ruled as a temporary madness, not a directly willed sin. you have to do shit like sign up to dignitas a few years in advance in most parishes/dioceses for the church to say anything most of the time. otherwise they'd have to bury all the swiss guards who keep topping themselves over homosexual affairs outside the church, and you know that's not happening.
>>11307163
>>irish punk
>like what
>>11307219
>>11307339
>posts american and australian bands
>>11307309
irish punk from ireland is different
www.youtube.com/watch?v=_YhtLZ5WVD0
and often more fun
www.youtube.com/watch?v=jxmZZBJQAKM

I feel the world would be better off if we weren't afraid of killing useless people.

>>11315705
let's start with (you)

>>11308253
Are you french/gay anon?

>>11315680
>>posts american and australian bands
Irish punk is a genre

>>11315733
which is very different to punk from ireland and not terribly popular in ireland. just sayin

>>11315751
Yeah. that's why I said irish punk, and not punk from ireland.

>>11315761
that doesn't explain why punk from ireland was called irish punk for decades beforehand though. the being from australia and america might though.

>>11315779
I don't know what you're trying to prove. I like music I like, I barely care about the definition beyond making myself understood - if that, and flogging molly is a good band, so... you win, I guess?

Fucking summer 4chan

>>11315572
/y/, /u/, and /trash/ all have things like that.

>>11316085
MAYBE I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT PORN ALL DAY

anyone else only read stuff under a certain number of pages?
i wont touch anything with more than 300, shits too long

>inb4 t.brainlet
to each their own desu

>friend living in millennial box
>supposed to get 24 hr notice for maintenance ppl/anyone else to enter by law
>bunch of retarded 50 yr old boomers show up to replace everyones windows
>they never gave 24 hour notice
>friend says the knocked on his door, he stood silently while they then tried to unlock the door.
>they were foiled by his large deadbolt
>he hears them say "ok gonna have to go in the back"
>friend is now waiting by the door for a bunch of retards to break into his millennial box to rip his windows off which are still functional and do not need replaced

how does he defend himself against this bullshit?

fucking

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>>11316438
I am afraid

>>11307029
dude if you really feel degraded when she patronizes you (assuming for a moment she does) then you are really insecure.

I work at a place where there are 85% women, and even if I feel patronized by a boss I just laugh internally at their attempt to patronize me in the first place.

In a work environment either your boss is more intelligent/experienced than you (by which you should try to learn everything you can from him/her) or he/she is less intelligent than you by which you should ignore internally everything they say and try to gain their favor helping so you can get a promotion or his job.

It's easy as that.

>>11316500
monday morning, she comes in smiling like just a beaming ray of fucking sunshine, looks me dead in the eyes and says "how was your weekend, anyone need any coffee", smiling...beaming! This forces me to be chipper, to smile and say "ha, hey! *smile!*", if I just looked without smiling as if I were dead inside and said in a straight expressionless monotone voice 'no thanks', I could be fired! for being so antisocial and strange and bummer

i'll spare you guys

I'll spear you guys

>>11316626
like with your dick?

Just posting in this thread because I want to write something. I have nothing to write and have been staring at a blank document on and offfor the kast three hours. I might just pack it in and go to bed. It's nearly 4am here.

I'm trying to write a novel for /k/ but I'm getting fucked by the opening fucking lines. I know exactly what scene I want to write, but nothing I write feels good enough. Not even for a first draft.

>>11316546
Ok I get it, its tiresome to pretend to care. Anyways its a job man, nobody likes their job that much, they are not supposed to be fun. I think I read you take antidepressants, ever thought about exercise or a sport as a hobby?

>>11316661
I know this is tired advice, but if it's not coming to you naturally sometimes you just have to force it out. Nothing is too awful for a first draft, it's more important to just get an outline of the action on paper so you have something to work with.

>>11304961
Is she fat?

>>11316642
My love is accidentally shaped like a spear

>>11317000
I'm so sorry

Reading more about schizoid personalities and realise how much I fit the mould. Can I ever fully participate in the world or will I forever be a spectator of existence? In some ways I take delight in the fantasy of self sufficiency, living in a little mouse hole with a few creature comforts, watching the world go by in safety. Psychoanalysis might help, but do I really want to change? Besides, I don't live in London, Paris or Vienna, I live in the country so whose fucking couch do I lie on to talk about my fears and my relationship with my father? I feel so trapped, despite all my savings I feel like destitution and the annihilation of my self is minutes away. How I admire the free spirits who can hitch hike with pennies to their name and die with an unironic smile on their face.

>>11316096
Nothing's stopping you from trying to discuss nonporn stories there as far as I can tell.

>>11317480
You just have to shut up when the disassociation happens, then write about it later and share it with other people

>>11318255
Can you expand on this? Do you have the same issuses? How does it work out for you? Do you have any method? How do you know when disassociation is happening? How do you "shut up" when disassociation is happening?

I have learned tonight that all my family's items in storage were auctioned off, so that what remains in this dingy hotel room is all that I can call my own. To be honest, it's kind of nice, like a snake shedding its skin. I lost all of my records (plus the player), most of my clothing, all of my keepsakes, and a whole horde of miscellaneous others. But I don't mind. I have my books, I have a computer, I have a guitar, a game console, and a functional wardrobe. No more multi-day moving sessions for me; Everything could fit in one car. And I've always liked vacant houses with their nice open spaces. This isn't bad at all.

>>11317480
Hi anon, I briefly thought I was schizoid last year, and it was terrifying, but after some more research I discovered it was melancholic depression instead. The key here is that if you're bothered by the diagnosis, chances are you're not a schizoid. This is because they never properly experience life like other people (unless they're cured), so it's almost like a living example of the allegory of the cave. All of that sounds horrible, but supposedly through some intense therapy, drug use, or meditative practice, it is possible to cure it. Read the book below, it should help you a lot. Whether you're schizoid or not, I hope you won't agonize too much over this.
https://nofile.io/f/pSAn4eNqe8x/%5BAlexander_Lowen%5D_The_Betrayal_of_the_Body.pdf

>>11307089
I'm with you on the western music. Here are some of my favorites, in case you haven't already heard these:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RXs3ENJ1W7A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ga5ZbMMZ6Hk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d43gKl9xIME
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2w7dDVcPSOg

>>11318529
who had the right to auction off the stuff, why did that happen, why werent you notified? thats messed up, what happened, stopped making payments to storage? wouldnt they have to send out notices or see if can contact family?

>>11318666
It was a friend of my mother, and there was some mix-up involving payment, but I don't have the details. Still, she's helped us out so much lately that I can't possibly be mad. Stuff is just stuff, after all.

>>11318686
storage is a good example of something that should have never been allowed to be a private enterprise, for such reasons, even if you have accepted your case, how many people have had their precious invaluable items sold when they didnt want them to be

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Taijin_kyofusho

>>11318727
So what's your alternative, people should have to permanently purchase their own land just for temporary property storage? That sounds like a great way to run up the kind of property schemes common throughout much of history.
Or are you a commie?

>>11318762
will you halt your emotional barking and mindfully hear me out, comrade?

Without thinking of other government owned industries as a whole, this and that and that, lets consider this one mentioned example. Though considering a state owned industry at all, it would likely work in the types of industries that are proven to have such a consistent demand (and low cost to boot, literally, it doesnt get much cheaper than a low maintenance box of boxes).

There is constant demand, many cities, it is an obvious idea: people need and want storage, around heavily populated areas. The people want storage. Government makes an investment, and can still charge money for them, to get the investment paid back and eventually receive profit, same as private would and do: but, there would and should in that case be an easier moral ability, to not instantly sell a holders items to the highest bidder at first chance, but more easily work out deals, let the person have a few extra days, do some more reaching out to extended family, help them for a discount move the stuff, maybe even coordinate move it to some storage center which is known to have a few extra slots open often. The motivation is moral, and the economics are equal to the private, except eventually there will be profit going to the state, easing the peoples tax burden. This concept, is the same reasoning for any industry that could be socialized.

>>11308767
these are good, but you gotta have 70's folk rock in there as well, and some good old fashion nigger funk (keep on truckin, etc.)

I would be perfectly willing to start and fight in a civil war in the United States in order to end abortion. If we fought a war over slavery we can fight a war over this.

>>11318804
>comrade?
DEATH IS A PREFERABLE ALTERNATIVE TO COMMUNISM

>>11318900
.. I seriously did for around 1.7 seconds considering not including that humorous aside on the slim chance you would not have any relistic argument or discussion to my well laid out statement and just barked at the single word I used as a method of humor, sad!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2I9LyiGrclc

>>11313748
a better question is " in this term?"

why does it matter who collected curriculum and adapted policy if those same students had courses with similarly straited individuals taught by someone that went to a completely different school? i can understand harvard having straight A students across the board because prestige requires a set standard for success but that success becomes a mode of standard out of the running, meaning non harvard students need not apply, is kind of angular and totally not what healthy and driven competition is about. this term has a lot of shitty services, harvard!, and all innovation is a branch of MIT and like princeton work force work arounds because no one can afford them.
luckily the work force that can contend that principled workers have a sort of manageable income, meaning they dont hide behind interest loans (thst union viddy) and bail outs means that we can afford to trust them. how is this not something the other schools pride themselves in? oh wait it is.

>>11306430
Damn man really heavy feels there. On the bright side st least ur not an /alk/
I used to smoke a shit ton of weed(I sold it so now gay sex work here) but it doesn’t do it for me anymore so I just drink excessively every night and I fear that I will die soon from it because it’s really out of hand.. I also miss living with my mom so enjoy the family while you can I fear that my mom is starting to encounter the first stages of memory disease that runs so strongly in her family

>>11306755
Yes u need to smash her ASAP or put her in a dog cage while you fuck ur girl with eye/ear shot

>>11306917
I don’t believe you

>>11307044
Damn bro that’s like the worst kills song
Try
goodnight bad morning

>>11307165
Damn dude I spent like 3 hours considering this same concept today. I’d tell you that your not alone or that you shouldn’t do it but I know that won’t matter to you. I guess all I have to say is good luck and before you off urself have a little fun and do all the things uve been told not to do. If ur gonna kill urself then fuck, go talk to that cute girl on the street that would normally be too intimidating. Go shoplift some sweet books, call your boss a fat philistine, spend all your savings in a sweet muscle car. Shit if ur just gonna end it at least make the last chapter super fun

>>11307835
That’s legitimately funny

>>11308041
If u show me urs I’ll show u mine and mines probably worse(I hate tinder so much but I just matched with a cute younger girl that was named after Lydia lunch and seems to like me so I’m not gonna delete just yet)

>>11308401
100% dude nothing says “that’s my bitch” like you planting a little parasitic version of yourself inside her for her body to nourish and then eventually give painful birth too and then sick on her tits

>>11308464
This is a very hydeian post.

>>11308533
Aye my man

>>11308629
Tolstoy comes off as a name drop, kindof shallow desu... I have a DFW meme as one of my pics and it comes across a bit less try hard and more just like I enjoy kidding around about this shit(pic related) >>11308663 also it’s good because it’s somewhat ambiguous and it doesn’t nessacerily signal that I like DFW just that I’m familiar with him and his legacy/character

>>11308687
No it’s really just not sorry friendo

>>11308698
That’s vaguely poetic and enough to justify your existence. Write more plz

I wonder if I just write 1 sentence every day how long will it take me to write a book and will it be any good

>>11318242
except for the fact that they're redboards are you stupid?

>>11312432
Jesus fuck man this hit me in the feeels I’ve been there

Shit I’m still there but I got a room now
Hopefully you find some gold at the bottom of that well

>>11312879
I did the opposite. BFA and slacked off the whole time spent it with a chick I ended up marrying and then divorcing. I’d give anything to do it again but minus the party’s and sex and actually put my head down and focus on academia/developing my skills

>>11313314
Lol sounds like the type of fun that more anons on this board need to have with girls. Fun fact: once In high school I was in this girls prius and she put on bon iver and we sat in silence listening to it and she got stressed that I didn’t approve of it or say anything and then she crashed the car.... I feel bad about that to this day hey S if ur reading this it’s me H and I don’t like bon iver but if u like it hey that’s cool you do you

>>11313539
Nah man that’s totally on point if I go a day and have less then 4 drinks I feel like I’ve made myself a bit better it’s all about developing good habits and incremental growth

>>11314193
Hey there’s like 7+ of us in this thread why not all get together and like rob a bank???? If we’re gonna do it let’s just have some fun and bet it all before the end

>>11314799
SHE didn’t do any of those things man, you did, your the creative force and you needed was a little feminine energy like a carrot on a stick. There are plenty of girls in your city that you can make swoon with your guitar and intellectual prowess and hey I bet if you distract yourself with local chicks and keep on your upward trajectory your Maria will come around

>>11315761
Dude I’m sorry but he’s right that flogging molly dropkick murphy shit is super cringe and basically just some anglosphere plastic paddy shit. Go listen to the Clancy brothers if you want actual Irish music lol

>>11316330
>>11316337
>>11316423
>>11316428
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>>11316438
My sides

>>11319639
>Damn bro that’s like the worst kills song
>Try
>goodnight bad morning
hey thanks dude

>>11319730
>Go listen to the Clancy brothers if you want actual Irish music lol
no. fuck you.

>>11319737
Hey listen you can enjoy your Boston music I don’t mean to be rude but if you like that stuff I’d bet like 100$ that U’d be into this
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_yPIC-o1O3k

>>11319750
hey thanks man, it's all good.
I like it, but I like a more modern twist, usually, unless I'm in a mood.

>diagnosed with autism
>go to see doctor who is supposed to help me find work and help me to deal with a workplace environment
>appointment at 1pm, she texts me at 12 asking me to come in at 12:30 instead, i hurry and make it
>dont get seen until 12:50 anyway
>another appointment today
>just got a text saying she has to cancel

i dont like last minute changes and she knows this reeeeeee

>>11319945
maybe its some meta test training to try and get you used to little bumps here and there, build up your tolerance, make you struggle through some grievances, or she is just actually shiesty, though it would be a bit harsh to make that judgement over only 2 iffy occurrences.

>>11319945
don't worry, man. even if you weren't autistic, that shit is super unprofessional.

Is repressing someone's hatred of you then having sex with them using astral projection morally rape?

i dont get it

>>11320059
Kafka isn't very good

Fucked up the dosage on a few trips awhile back and now I occasionally see something move on the corner of my vision. Not sure if it's just a reflection on my glasses that my paranoia exaggerates or I'm starting to hallucinate. Also for a bit I started to think that there's some sort of hidden meaning and connection in everything.

Hoping it's just temporary and not some underlying condition but I'm starting to think that the trips just exacerbated some latent personality disorder.

i kicked a stone but then wondered what if that stone has a soul and was next to his other stone bros for decades and i just separated them forever and the stones its next to now are huge cunts or something, then felt bad

>>11313314
What album dud
Also you're pcool for me
That's the spirit of teenage

>>11306388
>like what?
That's the real joke

>>11306917
Watch the Flashing Lights music video with the bouncy titties.
Even better if you hate Kanye because he gets murdered by said titty monster.

Anyway, those titties always motivate me.

>>11304875
One time I got high and tasted my own tongue. It tastes like unsweetened yogurt. I hate unsweetened yogurt.

>>11304875
my life could be worse but instead it's just mundane all i do is work and unsuccessfully starve my self as an attempt to become /thinspo/

>23
>no friends
>still live with parents
>working towards a CS degree
>Not good at programming, cheated my way through last semester with chegg
>working minimum wage grocery store job
>loan bills, phone bills, owe mom 2k
>not paying her back like the shitfuck i am
>buying useless shit and just scraping by

i'll never move out at this rate.

>>11321935

I was literally you and now I'm homeless.

>>11322022
how did that happen

>>11322049
i can guess

When does life get better?

>>11322124
It only goes downhill, anon.

>>11322124
When you want it to. If the question is when does it get easier, never.

>>11322022
FUCK, went to NYC the other day and saw homeless people and was like that could totally be me considering my brain is deteriorating everyday as i become even more mentally ill.

do you care to elaborate how you ended up that way so maybe i can avoid it?

The idea of a road to maturity is a self-deprecating journey of repetition. A repeated sense of consciousness where the sense of evaluation reappears with the only trigger being the passing of time. Time stays the same and the grey matter of your body remains constant during all of your life.

The latter topic is but of notion of lucid validation of one's ability to assert oneself amid a homogeneous group of shared experiences. The mental capacity to mature doesn't speed up or slow down as a certain age threshold is reached. There is but an invisible barrier created by convenience of staying stuck at a common array of goals and interests once an estimated level of maturity is reached.

Real maturity is more directly connected with the transgressing of personal limits without external confirmation. The mirror is then allowed to be the only judge as the rational being is able to objectively measure personal progress. There are no checkpoints and no prizes in a never-ending race with no feasible end and a blurred beginning.

why I am reading people talking about books instead of reading it myself a book now?

Why its so hard to do anything? Why it is hard to do the simple things that normally would be fun?

>>11322155

Got kicked out by my parents for being trans. Went to school for an associates in computer networking. Couldn't find work. Went on for a bachelors in computer science. Along the way, got several other associates degrees in computers. Still couldn't find work. Ran out of money and couldn't afford rent anymore, so moved back in with Mom because she said she was chill now. Mom turned out to be a retard. Went schizophrenic. Got expelled from school for schizophrenia. Mom then kicked me out again.

Why is writing so hard? My words make myself cringe with their rough and contrived noise. That anyone managed to get past the beginning of a novel astounds me.

>>11305293
oh yeah it really sucks
thats why leftypol (which came from here) moved to eight chan, frog-twitter moved to that eponymous eponymous site, etc.
this particular board just cant foster community. even the book club guys always move to discord

>>11324070
Shouldn't have been trans I guess, bad choice friendo

there is an instant, a small window of time
when your mind is flooded with lust
a moment where your frontal brain collides with your hind brain
you are stunned
who can remain unmoved?
who has attained to such control, to that degree?

>>11305606
based econ prof

i thought that whole scheme was limited to continental philosophy, mfa stuff, etc

god i really wanna fuckin exploit a college chick now. why did u do this to me

>>11306843
write something interesting like that anon instead of sperging out thnx

>>11306910
imagine being this bad at parsing human emotion and nuance
ok, my guy, he's a fucking /r9k/ incel chud!!

>>11324070
try not being a tranny then you nutter

thank you whoever posted that thread about "convenience store woman". it sounds right up my alley and i just ordered it.

surprisingly /lit/ isn't shit for learning about new books, it's only shit for discussing them

>>11324070
I always feel that there are a lot of trans people working with computers, like a lot of trans programmers and web developers, I feel that way for some reason, at least it should be trans friendly, computer history had always a big contribution from "outcasts" and people out of the norm. Now ironically, people in the medium bash you out for your difference.

If you cannot find work anywhere, go do a really nice portfolio, someone will like your work eventually.

Good luck anon, I wish you the best.

>book is supposed to be around 200 pages long
>pdf file is 400

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