/lit/ - Literature

>>20048816
I try to read a bit of everything, from philosophy to fiction. I also enjoy theology a lot.Every now and then I also dip into the cesspool known as fanfiction.
Right now, i'm going through paradise lost.

there is a certain affinity, a deep seated kinship in the core of my spirit that i feel when i'm talking to friends, family, even random strangers that i strike up a conversation with online or in the street. that feeling that you're on the same page and you ultimately want to arrive to a somewhat close end point. but i do not feel with her, my girlfriend. i do not doubt the existence nor the strength of the love between us, but i doubt it's nature. she loves me wholly, but i cannot love everything about her. her worldview makes me miserable and drives me to tears. our clashes are not minimal, but we ignore them and walk on eggshells because we hate to hurt each other.
i feel very close to her, yet we do not see eye to eye on so many things. we do not want the same things out of this life. she's fine with me, but i am not fine with her. i see her going down a very dark path. she ignores her pain and keeps sedating it with distractions, and her stubborn and prideful self stops her from listening. almost every single value that i hold dearly has been challenged by this woman. i wish she'd stop being so mocking. i wish she'd stop being so bogged down on materialist, animalistic thought. i wish she didn't have such a hard life. the curse of the spiritually bankrupt.
people look at her in contempt or ignore her at her workplace. i cannot leave her because she would be in more agonizing pain. i am so lost. what can i do when i feel more guilt, more pity, more malaise than i feel love ? how can i stop feeling ill when i remember the things she does ? i knew it was going to be very difficult, and i shouldn't have accepted. i may be miserable but so what ? me making her miserable however, that's what's the most painful.
would you sacrifice your values for the sake of someone's well being ?

>>12747875
You don't.

>>11813415

Other half.