/lit/ - Literature

>>20045310
This is exactly what happened to me. But I tried reading 12 more rules, dropped it in the second chapter. I might read it eventually but ever since he came back everything felt so cringe. I dont hate the guy but that nigger should fucking continue the biblical series already.

Who in the fuck thought this was a good thumbnail. Shit like this put me the fuck off. Fucking JUSTed.

14.08.21

went to breakfast on my own. didnt even try to reach anybody. no one would come anyway. i think i tried my mom but her phone was off. then i went to schänzle read and fell asleep in the sun. it was the hottest day so far this year. went back to tris place and played surge til 6pm. then i went to bismarck turm and read watched the sunset. then i called tris and met them at the boat and we went to the boat restaurant. unfortunately kitchen was closed aready and we only got salads.

one thought i had all day is that i am less and less connected with any type of purpose. i just exist i dont really live and share time with others. especially with my family. i could be on another continent and things would be exactly the same. manu is in xlingen with some whore, leon is in steckborn smoking weed. my dad is alone in xlingen and my mom is alone in kn. zero connection. no family dinners, no breakfast. zero get togethers. wtf am i even doing here. i tired of running after these people trying to have a family relationship with them. its not happening. you either sacrfice yourself for your family or you sacrfice your family for yourself. thats what my mom did. and it was a burning crater ever since. not even burning anymore, just a crater with nothing left. i am tired of wandering in that crater.

there is nothing left for me here in germany. i know i have been saying this for a long time but the realization keeps going deeper and deeper.