/lit/ - Literature

I was born with a personality disorder that disallows me from feeling romantic emotions. I don't feel bad about it, really, I have plenty of free time, and enjoy being alone. Or I'm just coping incredibly well, I've long lost the ability to tell. You guys are great, though. I have fun arguing with you. I haven't been able to properly hold a non-argument conversation with my family for over a decade. My dad's the same way, though, and everyone says we're exactly alike, but he says I'm smarter. I love that old fuck. He's 75 years old and likes drinking and doing coke while building houses and cutting down trees and shit. He rakes in more 20yo pussy than I do, in his New Balances, acid washed comfort fit jeans, and anti-Obama t-shirt. Sometimes I visit him on his private beach in Seldovia and we smoke weed and argue about philosophy and watch war movies. I'm helping him build a gun range in his back yard there. We're gonna blow some shit up.

Am I to lose my mind? for that Israeli girl I feel devoted too and yet she does not want me back.
I should commit to sublimation, I am not good with people or romance and yet It's the thing I want. I do nothing all day except write, eat junk go swimming occasionally and youtube... either way My sanity is draining. I notice I talk to my self more often than not and I just want to calm down on it but yet, it makes me feel better too think that I am with you.
I am alone... but not lonely, not too lonely I try not to take my family for granted but I am stuck in this place where I put myself into and all I can do is wait and I despise on miss action. witing help. I wish I enjoyed reading as much as writing which kind of brings me to think that I am a bit of a narcissist, I read my own work and yet no one else. Is its lack of patience or just intolerance to people? Either way, I would appreciate someone to tell me how to work on this. But why would want to help me, stranger, why are you here. what brings you to this thread where you feel solitude and piece?
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