/lit/ - Literature

I am scared that I will never make my parents proud, both are highly educated lawyers and my dad has his own company now and brings in the big bucks. My brother is a failure so all the focus is on me saving my familys honor. I am currently studying economic sustainability and when I graduate I will work as a sustainability consultant at my dads firm. I got my whole life laid out for me, I am handsome, smart, wealthy, charming. I am the luckiest guy alive. However there is something in the background, a sense of hopelessness, perhaps its the fear of mortality and chaos. Everything around me feels fake, money is not real, everyone is just pretending, there is no substance in anything, all is just formality, manners and pre-calculated outcomes.