/lit/ - Literature

My brain is constantly looping on 4 thoughts : "Fuck, why am I not dead already?", "I wish I could speak with my ex but she ignored all of my previous messages (from months ago) and I don't want to harass her", "what the fuck, I'm so dumb" and finally "must do some work after work today" this is unironically the whole résumé of my existence for the past two years. the person I was? poof gone. remaining friends? poof gone. my ability to feel empathy ans care for others? in the process of being eliminated. while others are becoming better versions of themselves, I'm running towards doom. also have been getting fat and ugly (not a woman, these niggers can't get depressed) lately

thanks for reading my journal

pls help a homie out here i'm dyin rn

>got told that my fantasy story was too unrealistic because the protagonist was a short guy that was paired up with a tall girl

>start reading books
>become very patient and disciplined
>stop reading books and start using the internet more
>can't focus on anything slow paced, lose discipline, don't think much
HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS HELL AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Reading old chinese literature makes me sad when I think about the cultural state of modern china. It's like they've been lobotomized.