/lit/ - Literature

Yes, my literature teacher in highschool. She was beautiful, inteligent and kind... I want to go back bros

>>14661532
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Life is bearable as long as I don't think about my future at all. My particular situation is precarious. I love on a religious commune in the midwest with my parents, born and raised. It's most similar to the Jehovah's Witnesses out of all the Christian denominations I've ever heard of. Everyone I've ever known has been a member. The commune is Christian, but nothing special, the theology is honestly filled with holes and can only survive do to it's isolation. basically, there is no way to advance in life without getting deeper into the church: you can't have your own place without being married, you can't pick your job, you can't go to college to any real extent unless it's required of you, you can't be in a serious relationship or get married without an elders permission. You have to conform or you can't really do anything worthwhile. I don't believe in the religion anymore but I'm still very much attached to my family and friends in the church. If I leave, they have to shun me. I feel like I'm trapped.

I always fantasize about being someone else. I'll research another way of living for months and become obsessed with it: researching all of the different jobs in the army and what requirements you need to get them, finding the path to become a national park ranger, or finding the lowest rent cities on the west coast and which Greyhound route you would take to get to them. I even thought that all my problems were caused by gender dysphoria and started privately crossdressing and tried to order hormones online (a very dark time in my life). I don't know what to do with my life but it feels good to get it off of my chest

>>13247060
Delete this please