/lit/ - Literature

Closure post.

I always said this trip would end through either my rise or demise and I guess I've risen. I didn't even realize that its been over 2 weeks since I was last on here. Life has been really good for me recently. I'm dating that girl I was super into and I've been having a lot of fun with my friends. Work is alright and the government gave me a bunch of money in tax returns. I'm eating good, working out again and you might be pleased to know I've even started reading again. This may be the happiest I've ever been. I go to bed and wake up with a smile on my face and I hardly ever brood or ruminate anymore. So I guess this is the end. Now lets be real here. There's no way this is my last post. You know it and I know it. An attention whore like me could never allow that to happen. All I know is right now I don't enjoy this anymore. I have no need for it. So this is the end for now. Let the record show you can attain happiness even as a drinker, smoker, toker and joker.

I love you all and wish you all the best. Cheers <3

- the author of the xi jinping of weed smoking
https://youtu.be/QvsF4FMdagQ

In 2 weeks I become a young professional with a salaried job full of benefits. I have 2 weeks to get all the degeneracy and partying out of my system. This all feels so strange. Hopefully ill be able to adjust to the white collar lifestyle. I really hope so...

anyways i have to go to the bar now and continue my bender.
https://youtu.be/hEC70H9v8ek

4 months of weed sobriety.

im relapsing tonight im so fucking excited. 1/3rd of a yeasr is long enough and quitting didnt change much in the end. sure im somewhat happier and have a job now and im more productive now but socially speaking notjing is the same anymore. i miss the old me. everyone does. when i hjang out with friends now i justy overdrink and smoke a bunch of cigarettes. nothings the same anymore. you fuckers gaslighted me into gaslighting myself into thinking i had a problem. you bastards! you never cared at all! you just like punching down. you guys are bullies. i listend to you all for 4 months and not once did any of you conrgadulate me. no "wow nice man" or "good job bro" or anything. you twofaced bastards! fuck you! you spineless sadists! you never cared at all you just llike picking on people! i got problems? fuck you! you have problems too. im the degenerate? fuck you! youre a degenerate too! you fuckers ruined me! im not gonna listen to you anymore! im a free man now! im gonna drink and smoek and do coke and do wbatever the fuck i want now! and you're not gonna do a thing about it.
https://youtu.be/qpl-UcfPlYw

I have become a tradie slave. its not an optimal career but whatever, it pays well and i work with friends. its actually really not that bad. and besides, all work is work. its all shit. sometimes my body feels pretty beat but when its really that bad i just drink the pain away. either way its been a positive change in my life and for the first time in a long time i am feeling pretty happy. i am finally profiting from changes i am making in life. i even read a book for the first time in a few months the other day. that felt pretty nice. ive been tryna acquire a new cassette deck since the sanyo broke. i keep buying used ones and they end up being in poor condition. thankfully i was able to return one and ive only lost like 4$ so far in this venture. uhhhhhh in terms of current disappointments in my life? i guess last week i got embarrassingly drunk in front of my friends. more so than usual. yea that was pretty shitty. also on sunday i drank and drove again. probably over 0.08 but i was still ok. anyways.
im trying to think of what else i have to say. i wanted to share a webm with you guys yesterday but /lit/ doesnt accept audio. lame. oh yea ive also been eating a lot of salad. salad is fucking amazing.

anyways i have to get back to playing thief gold. goodnight.

Where were (you) when the xi jinping of weed smoking reached 60 days of weed sobriety?

Yep that's right. 2 months. I've officially doubled my record. According to the original plan I will smoke weed in 30 days but I am unsure if I should do this. I am at a crossroad. On one hand I would really like to smoke weed because its been a long time and I miss it but on the other hand I know that if I smoke there's a chance that I'll fall into my old habits and begin abusing it again. I'm not sure what I'll end up doing but I'm not too worried. I don't have any serious cravings anymore, I guess I'm just excited for when I finally smoke again, Its going to be crazy. Either way this indefinite break was a good decision.

I would also like to take this time to congratulate the anon who quit edibles for reaching 40 days of weed sobriety. We're gonna make it bro.

https://youtu.be/hkDwv-EpOQA

Where we're (you) when the xi jinping of weed smoking reached 60 days of weed sobriety?

Yep that's right. 2 months. I've officially doubled my record. Now according to the original plan I will smoke weed in 30 days but I am unsure if I should do this. I'm at a crossroad. On one hand I would really like to smoke weed again because it has been a long time and I really miss it but on the other hand I know if I smoke weed there's a risk that ill just start smoking a lot again. I really don't know what to do but I'm not too worried. I don't have any serious cravings anymore. I guess I'm just exited for when I finally do smoke again. Either way, this indefinite break has been a good decision.

I would also like to take this time to congratulate the anon who quit edibles for reaching 40 days of weed sobriety. Were gonna make it bro.
https://youtu.be/hkDwv-EpOQA

I am back from my 2 week hiatus.
I have not smoked weed since then and I am still going strong, I've barely had any cravings. I have been feeling better although I am still feeling quite lazy and I have been drinking quite a bit but that's probably because I always enjoy drinking more in the colder seasons. Whatever. Despite feeling better I often feel tired and my head feels cloudy all the time, I'd like to think this is because of my sleep schedule, or maybe because of my caffeine consumption. I actually had a job interview last week so quitting weed has evidently improved my luck and fortune, and although they had to postpone my 2nd interview till after the holidays, I am feeling confident and I have good feelings toward my future.
https://youtu.be/hkDwv-EpOQA

I've officially reached 2 weeks of only smoking weed on weekends.
Despite this being a new milestone I don't feel any better than I did 2 weeks ago. I've started eating better, working out again and waking up earlier, and yet I feel nothing. I've often joked that "the weed is smoking me" or that the weed is killing me but the truth is, I think it really has. I feel nothing without it. No matter how long of a break I take its always just a countdown to the next sesh.
Regardless of this, I will continue this new regimen but if I don't feel any change in 2 weeks I will likely resume my degeneracy and increase it tenfold.

Anyways, tonight I will get high and nothing can stop that. For now id like to thank everyone who has supported my attempts at sobriety and I would also like to thank all my haters since you have also helped in a way.