/lit/ - Literature

>>19183967
You gotta be honest with yourself: do you really find solace in being this way in your life? If yes then you made it, but the tone of your writing suggests that's not the case. See a therapist dude. Don't take that in a condescending way, but even two visits can help big time if you haven't done that already.

See a therapist, start putting checkmarks on Maslow's hierarchy of needs and at some point you'll start projecting your reality onto the world. THEN your life will start to turn around with a constant input of energy from you.