/lit/ - Literature

I have absolutely no desire to be in a relationship. A girl I know asked me to go on a date with her next week. I said yes but I'm dreading it. She is nice and pretty, but I just don't want to be in a relationship with her or anyone.
Anyone else feel like this? I have always felt this way. When I was a teenager, I started to think I was gay because I had no interest in going out with a woman, but I'm definitely not gay. I sort of wonder whether I'm just absolutely terrified of commitment, or I haven't found "the one". I haven't even watched porn in years, but maybe the damaged has already been done.
All I want to do is stay at home alone, read and study, and I don't feel guilty for that, nor do I care what people think about how I chose to spend my free time. People seem to like me, but I wish I was invisible so no one would talk to me.