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So nervous about having sex with this e-celeb. The panic makes me feel like I won’t get it up. Then she’ll just laugh at me behind my back. Panicking everyday dreading it. Thinking it over if I should go or not? I’vs had sex like 3 times before in my life. Twice it went well and thr other time I couldn’t stay hard enough to put it in. It was so embarrassing for me that it made me avoid girls for a long time. Idk I just want this all to be over. Even my life. There’s no point to this all, so silly driving myself mad over this. But if I don’t drive myself mad over this, then what should I go mad for?

What do you still enjoy? I don’t enjoy anything anymore.

I’m always in existential thought. I can’t get out pf it and live my life. This is really killing me.