/lit/ - Literature

Does whatever we read, Whatever we think in our head. Does this influence our subconscious despite consciously disagreeing with it?

I just started writing for the 1st time today ever in a small note book i bought. I felt like i could KILL it because im normally good at typing out prose and coming up with scenarios and wording it out in my head but the moment i put my Gel pen to the notebook i started instantly having writers block and having some kind of disassociation with my writing style. Is this normal? I feel like hand writing on paper kinda made me a different kind of thinker and processed things differently. I feel kind of embarrassed now. kek