/lit/ - Literature

Painted my nails with a clear coat polish tonight. Not sure why, I impulse bought the materials a couple of days ago. I used to have panic attacks imagining anything feminine happening to my body (wearing makeup, dresses, nail polish) and had tics to wipe my hands off in case any of it touched my body by accident. Ended up on SSRIs for OCD for a good part of a decade because of it, among other things. It seems childish to do something so vain and effeminate as painting my nails, but the fact that I was able to do it means that I've come so far since then and now that I think about it, it's a hard won victory that I have had very few of the likes of in my life. I think that I can say that perhaps I've recovered from my previous mental illness now

Is there any literature on going out and trying things even if may scare or hurt you?