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>>18338243
Bought a dildo and fucked myself in the ass yesterday

It didn't do anything for me.
It was a small dildo, smaller than me in girth, and slightly smaller in length. A beginner dildo they called it.
Even lubed up a fuck ton and everything. Tried a few positions. Jerked while I fucked myself. Followed all the instructions. Got some gay porn that was as straight as I could find.
Nothing.

Not that I didn't gain anything from the experience.
At least I can live knowing that I tried to be gay and failed. I gave it a shot, not going in with any pretenses to see if I was gay or not, and I just wasn't.
I honestly don't care if I am straight or gay, or if others think I am gay when I am not.
My life might even be a little better if I were gay, at least then I would have more sex, and a community, and a society that vehemently fights for my existence.
Oh well. I may be one of the few straight men whose straightness comes not from an internal feeling, but by trying both, and concluding at the end that I am straight.

I am, however, more confused now than I was at gay men, and even more at male to female trans women.
They claim there is a pleasure center in the ass. I tried really hard to find it with my fingers and a dildo, and it just isn't there.
Perhaps there is some psychological pleasure unbeknownst to me that they get when fucked in the ass or mouth?
The cock has evolved over thousands of years to have a primordial connection to the part of your brain that is responsible for orgasmic pleasure, the ass and mouth don't have those.

Even if you only fuck and never get fucked, why not fuck a woman? They have self lubricating holes which give them pleasure at the same time, no need to do extra work to lube up and get your partner off.
Your dick was made for pussy. Have gay men even tried pussy? Or do they just get fucked in the ass by a man and think, 'I am gay, this is what I want' without having tried the other side, as I and others have.

I suppose I'll never know what happens in their head, I barely know what happens in mine.

>wallacesque
>joycesque
>bukowskesque
>pessoaesque
>dostoevsque

>>15847291
>Have you tried writing a premise first rather than writing without a plan? It can be like a topic statement or thematic sentence, e.g. "self-discovery on another planet"
Yes, of course. I have a fairly intricate outline already written down. I'm not writing without a plan. The plot, the characters, the story lines, the setting have all been set and I already started writing the novel itself. The whole "isekai" thing was just a quirk, but seeing as it's so popular in anime, I think it's something I can easily brush aside. The story does not revolve around the isekai part, that was just a small thingy to kickstart the story. I can honestly do without. It would also feel less anime which is a plus.

>Anyway, that already sounds a lot like the beginning to The Knight by Gene Wolfe, so come up with something more original
Yeah. I never read The Knight, even though Book of the New Sun is my favorite book of all time. I will edit out the whole isekai other world part. It's for the best.

Summer's late sunset drifts behind the horizon,
while nature's decorations fill the ground and air,
great sentimentality and nostalgia abound,
my fated place of return is where?

What are some books to begin with if I want to delve deeper into theravada buddhism?