/lit/ - Literature

i don't know how to put this into words but i'm gonna try.

me and my best friend aren't talking like we used to. her tastes shifted significantly and that makes it hard for us to talk since she cares little for the things i like and i have to put a lot of effort putting on a front trying to sound interested in the things she likes.

she doesn't get my jokes anymore. when in the past she would laugh a lot and reply with a counter-joke of her own that would play off of mine, now she's just... cold, and often reprimands me over them.

we often go days and days, sometimes weeks without messaging one another. whenever she messages me, almost always now it's to link me some stupid shit about an actress i couldn't care less about. never about how she's doing, never to ask me how i'm doing. hardly.

we still say i love you but much less frequently now. i'm scared our friendship is deteriorating. a person can be friends with another even if they don't share that one big thing in common, right? if so, why does it feel so hard to try and keep this up with her?

we've been best friends for almost three years. she's from a different country than mine, on the other side of the globe. we became best friends because we could relate a lot to each other, even if we are different in a lot of ways.

i feel like i can't even talk to her about my feelings anymore. i know i still can, but it's just feels hard for the both of us. i don't know. maybe i'm wrong. but it still feels like i really don't have anyone i can truly talk to anymore, be it about the dumb shit i like or about how i feel about things or myself that day.

i'd say more but i don't wanna dump more shit than i've already have. just wanted to put this somewhere to try and let some of it out.