/lit/ - Literature

>>13000641
>posts the book i relentlessly praise
*sweats*

hey amigo. thanks for contributing once again. yes, i've had a bit of a change of heart recently. my intention never really was to just become Voice of Land or anything like that, i just thought he was the most shit-hot fascinating guy going on and that remains the case. but man cannot live on Deleuze and amphetamines alone.

it was this that did it. as simple as an idea as it sounds - the mind cannot represent itself - i don't know, it just felt like something i really needed to look into a lot more, and here we are, it was like a lot of things suddenly clicking into view: right time, right place. nothing really changes, but at the same time, everything changes. and i mean everything. i really can't change the world, and i accept this, but holy moses does just *watching your thoughts* ever radically alter the way in which you live your days. giving them that extra moment's pause, not fucking burying everyone you meet under a pile of bricks...i don't know, it's just that it's so important to realize that *others are feeling this shit too.* so that is one part of it. and the other is, as i was saying before, *if we really in fact want intelligenesis* in some form than surely Hobbesian paranoia and fear is not the way to go about getting there. i think some openness to a General Good is kind of essential for actually engaging with all the tech coming from the future with a kind of openness that leads to creativity. it just does me no good at all to think in the way that i so often do, even if it is in a way that is informed by people who i believe knew what they were saying. other people really do understand a lot of this stuff, even if they don't want to spend basically every waking hour dwelling on it (and what kind of fucking lunatic does that, anyways? uh...yeah...)

it's just kind of a double-whammy is what i'm saying. emptiness and mindfulness does kind of work on the paranoia. and again, it's not like Zizek or whoever is wrong (or that there isn't some horrible irony in Dorsey, for example, beeing freed up by insight meditation to then go back to working on a product that is completely ruining the world). but these ideas too are pretty deeply entrenched forms of negativity i know are just coded in me that may not have to be a priori realities...and then on top that, you have the possibility that *if intelligence is actually what we want* that the way to approach building things genuinely good for human brains is not always and necessarily one that goes through R'lyeh. the really bad news is that unfortunately it is probably beyond our collective paygrade to actually root for Meltdown...!

and so relieved of some of my largely misguided significance i've been having substantially better days. Uncle Nick would no doubt chuckle grimly at my delusions, but waddaya gonna do. we're not all built like he is.

>>12957327
thank you for the suggestions! yes, i agree that the Tibetans are probably a little intense for someone just starting to read in earnest. but this short passage had been blowing my mind for about three days:

>The ultimate reality is beyond intellectual investigation,
>for the intellect is regarded as apparent reality.

when i read that, i thought, okay, *now* i think i'm starting to understand! and for a person who often tends to get carried away by their own thoughts this was really a relief and a discovery, and a joy. i've saved a copy of that reading list also and will begin making my way through it.