/lit/ - Literature

i am a normalfag and i genuenly feel bad for them. now if you ask how a normalfag ends up shitposting on here or even being aware on the topic, i browsed the misc section of bodybuilding.com, elliot used to post there and the first incel like websites like sluthate were shilled on there years ago. i got on 4chan thanks to due the crypto scam mania in 2017. on a sidenote this method of communication is far superior to reputation or karma tier forums like bodybuilding.com and reddit for obvious reasons.

now im from germany and drinking culture is fully retarded here, was drinking from age of 13, went in clubs at age of 16 where drinking becomes also legal and its basically a huge big degenerate fuck fest. ecstasy, speed and cocaine came later and by age of 18 i had +160 gpt/got liver stats and already signs of a fatty liver and was depressed as fuck. made out with probably +200 club whores, had a girlfriend, the point is i experienced sex, affection, love as a normalfag in my youth.

now at 19 i decided this isnt the way to live and i slowly ascended into ascetism, and spirituality because i wanted to avoid pain. of course i had relapsed until this day but at age of 23 i legit feel better on semen retention and celibacy.

here is where the story gets interesting. to due lifting i fell for the bulking up meme and gained 40 pounds, mostly fat. last summer me and my old crew of friends went to lorret de mar for a once in a year revival thing. my barber was ill and the new one fucked up my fade and my eyebrows. on top of that i was sunburned and grew a shitty beard to hide the fat i gained. in retrospect i was looking brutally hideaous. now the point is i hit on whores there and got rejected multiple times in a row. i was genuienly confused. like who are you to say no to me? what gives you that right? i felt this tier of rejection the first time in my life. that feeling was nagging on me for weeks after the trip and it was bad man. i knew i could reverse how i looked but i asked myself what if i was deformed from birth and felt that sort of rejection from the start? i would be a complete different person and the point is i dont know if i would be able to enjoy celibacy and simple things like mindfullness hiking in nature or if i would be obsessing over my face on incel forums.

so its all just luck in my eyes. you cant just tell them to get a grip on life and start being buddha. what is the solution though? is there none and life is simply unfair?

Holy shit I feel old
>23
>/b/ 2007, /mu/ -> /fa/ -> /lit/ don't remember when
>Absalom, Absalom!
>White Noise (English), Lucian's True Story (ancient Greek), Lucretius De Rerum Natura book 4 (Latin)
Grad student, classes ended last week so I finally have time for pleasure reading

Can someone explain to a brainlet Deleuze's The Fold?