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My gf was giving me a blowjob and i guess i grabbed her head to much and started moving it up and down on my cock myself and she got really really pissed and stopped and started cursing at me in Russian. (I moved to moldova as an american for pussy)

Then i had to spend like 30 min calming her down saying its my bad but also in my head iim confused why she let me do it for like 10 min and not say stop or that she doesnt like it. Anyways she was really fucking mad so i went full simp tier calming her down.

Finally shes still mad but less than before but then starts crying on the couch saying its her fault for acting like this and that she should have told me to stop and i reassure her no, its my bad for not asking if shes okay with it.

Next she apologizes for her behavior and she leaves to work on a decent vibe, but now i feel manipulated and furious because she was about to leave at one point and we both got on our knees and started crying a little apologizing to each other, and also her behavior is not justified, what the fuck did i do to deserve being treated so harshly for a mistake? Jesus

At one point i told her lets talk about sex and whats off limits so this shit doesnt happen again and she said anal, other partners, etc

Im starting to think i probably grabbed her head the way i saw in porn from my porn addiction and she didnt like that too much, which makes me realize i probably wont have the most pleasurable sex with her, not that sex is like in porn but maybe at some point ill subconciously try doing what i saw in years of videos and she might get angry with me again.

Add my situation to the endless amount of relationships ruined by porn addiction i guess