/lit/ - Literature

not gonna lie. a very selfish and irrational part of me wishes there would be another major war.
>sign up for a war that can largely be characterized with "good" and "bad" sides
>go through the traumas and brutalities of war, realizing that both sides commit atrocities, but the scale of "good" nonetheless still tips to one side's favor
>this conflict, this struggle will give me meaning. i may even die and my legacy will no longer be tainted with the overwhelming failings and uselessness of my life.
>live
>fail to contemplate what to do after the war ends
>revert back to useless NEET
>still irrationally, but genuinely, wishes for war