/lit/ - Literature

Currently reading Hegel. When I look at his philosophy in general (especially where I've gotten up to), it all makes sense. It smoothly goes from one thing to another and covers all gaps. When you look into details it becomes a convoluted mess which you can maaaybe decipher (I still have few small questions which I hope someone will be willing to answer as well).

But why is all of this? Where and why does it all begin? What is (let's say, in this case) Hegel's explanation for a philosophical system this complex. Or any system. Why must we 'imagine' (or assume?) the Spirit, the realization of self-consciousness, separation of phenomena and noumena, Platonic forms, God himself even? When does philosophy become no different than then occult?
I'm not a materialist, I do believe that there's something more, but why do we believe it and find ways to try to explain it?

Is his Concept the same as for Kant? How does it lead to an Idea? What the fuck is an Idea?

I'm going through his Difference essay and I'm getting filtered hard.
Where can I read more about his terminology. There's so much I didn't see in Kant, Fichte and early Schelling. I also believe that he gave some more specific definitions to some of them, or even changed them.
I'd like to go all the way from, let's say, identity and speculation and end wherever the fuck PoS leads me.
Is there a book or some sort of list just for this?

>leave being wrong about everything to me