/lit/ - Literature

>>19283940
I live in Texas, and sadly there's no land available out here that I can just fuck off to without getting shot by someone eager to kill strangers. It's also all badlands and plains, so unless I travel somewhere (which requires holding myself accountable to a vehicle/belongings) I am confined to the salt flats of the coast.
>>19283923
I have the overwhelming urge to kill. That's the only thing that drives me, this notion that some day I'll be able to afford the materials I need to commit wanton slaughter. How do I mitigate this demon in my heart? I know it comes from feeling unable to control my environment, and therefore I feel I must destroy the structures that bind me, but then these structures kept me fed, satiated, etcetera.

I also don't look how I want to look, and there are things I can't change. Is this a reflection of egotism? Is it wrong to want to be exactly how I percieve myself? Should I percieve at all? Is it better to drift into the fantasy of writing instead?

What fulfills?