/lit/ - Literature

>>9580169
I question whether or not I like any of my friends and I also wonder if they like me. They never communicate with me outside of the college campus. I have to go out of my way to talk to them. Whenever they spot me, they wave, but they barely talk to me. They have my phone number and I have theirs, and I have them added as friends on Facebook, but there is no communication. Sometimes I get dark thoughts. Not suicidal thoughts. I am over that. No, sometimes I feel like going full columbine and wreaking some havoc. I think about how I want to go to campus with an explosive vest underneath a hoodie. I contemplate whether or not I should detonate or not. But, then I realize how stupid and insane that sounds. I try to drop those thoughts, mostly by playing digital skinner box. Most of the time, it does not work. I hate the idea of resorting to violence, but it's hard when you think everybody is either patronizing, pitying, or laughing at you. Sorry if I sound like an edge lord.