/lit/ - Literature

>>18530542
Why do I feel so mediocre and stupid for studying the humanities?
I used to not care and have self reliance but lately I've been weak and falling more for "humanities bad" meme thats become prevalent in contemporary culture. I will sit and read a history book but hearing the sounds of cars, helicopters, planes, ect. outside or watching the intensity of the city while walking around has me feeling left behind. Like the world is moving at such a pace I'm a loser for not engaging with it. At my university the history department was not as valued, you can see it physically with the state of the buildings compared to other departments and the salaries of the professors.
Its like I'm a stupid fucking idiot for wasting my life on something that's dying. But at the same time I know deep inside that it is extremely valuable and I love it. I guess I'm not as independent as I thought. The dominate zeitgeist of an age will have its effect on me.
I'm not a stupid person, I could have easily gone for a "harder" stem subject and succeeded in it.
Income doesn't really concern me either, my father has a small successful business that I will learn and take over