/lit/ - Literature

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>I wanted to write this beforehand and then post it here, but this post from the last thread made me want to vent a bit.
My father once told me as a kid "you shouldn't love a woman more than she loves you". I'm 22 yo now and have never been in a relationship or had any kind of romantic connection with someone, but as I grew up and observed his relationship with my mother, this sentence got ingrained into my mind.He is a terrific father, and treats my mother caringly even though they live apart. But recently something surfaced, apparently he had cheated on her when I was 1 yo, and now there was this grown ass woman wanting to know him.A bit of my respect for him died since then, he is a great guy, but I don't see him in the same way I did before.The thing is, I'm not feeling like this because my mom was miserable, but because he had a kid and wasn't there to raise her, to be a good father to her like he was to me.I feel guilty for not caring about my mom, but watching their fight, how she skipped meals, went to bed early and barely talked to me or my brother for days, and then seeing their reconciliation after only one week, I can't but feel almost disgusted by her, the way she pretends she is forgiving him begrudginly when she is not, how she is completely devout to him as if nothing had changed, I look at their relationship and how asymmetrical it is and it puts me off.