/lit/ - Literature

>>20563199
kafka

>>20483642

I have lived for a long time as a loner and still managed to stay in an equilibrium where I did not slip into social retardation and never felt crippling solitude. That being said, I did not live alone. Now that I moved into an own flat, I felt the full force of devastating modern living and I dont know if I like that. Being alone is like a smothering, comfortable blanket on a cold day at this point. Its way too warm, I am sweating and itching all over, but I just have no desire to lift it. And once I lift it, I suddenly realize how disgusting it would be to crawl back into the damp bed. Recently I reached out to someone at work coincidentally, simply because I tried to act like a human and immediately ended up sabotaging myself by declining an offer to meet sometime because this was not part of the plan at all. And then I came out empty-handed with a nagging feeling because I have disturbed the balance. Feel like shit for shuting down an opportunity and at the same time want to just forget that this opportunity was there in the first place.
I truly desire peace and seclusion, but every time I am torn out of it, regret hits me like a ton of bricks. Its like I have been choking out my need for human contact for a long time but it just does not want to die and every time someone pierces my persona beyond stupid small-talk, my grip slips and this instincts manages to catch some air and starts screaming.
I guess I now have walked the full circle of being a shut-in depressed fag. The initial romance evaporated and now the hangover sets in.
Man I want the teenage days back, where suffering had a unique, desirable trait to it, where one could comfortably suffer. Now its just bleak, constant pain.

>>20314675
I'm INTP and I'm like that too. I guess we really are cliches.

its over

wow he considered suicide, once. How tormented he must have been.

>>19908094
Schizoid isn't schizotypal but either way I just used that pic because it illustrates maladaptive daydreaming
>>19908097
I agree, the traits are memed as being "literally me" but they're too vague and broad to be termed a mental illness

>>19692035

What are your favorite outsider/schizo books?

no just schizoid personality disorder

>>18711816
That's schizoid personality disorder, very common among guys who end up on 4chan.

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>>18582781

>unironically this character is almost me
You are a schizoid

The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro
The Rainbow by D.H. Lawrence

>>18165569
Does this feel familiar to you?

>>17968357
>>17968454

I'm a schizoid and match this, but I have a decent job and income. Post tips for schizoids to hate life less.

>Schizoid personality disorder (often abbreviated as SPD or SzPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy.
>Affected individuals may be unable to form intimate attachments to others and simultaneously possess a rich and elaborate but exclusively internal fantasy world.
>Other associated features include stilted speech, a lack of deriving enjoyment from most activities, feeling as though one is an "observer" rather than a participant in life, an inability to tolerate emotional expectations of others, apparent indifference when praised or criticized, a degree of asexuality, and idiosyncratic moral or political beliefs.

I'm looking for books discussing or featuring SPD. Preferably nonfiction, but I'll take anything.

unleash your inner schizo

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>>17781626
OP sounds like me, a schizoid

>>17328499
tfw went the mental route.

Books for this feel desu?

Books for this feeling?

me
t. 800mg of quetiapine and 150mg of trozadone daily