/lit/ - Literature

>>9512072
Jesus... their vapid self-importance verges on delusional. I mean, I see the same attitude here sometimes, (and I'm sure some insecure teenager will quickly to jump to defend this landfill of a website), but at least there's a hint of humility in the self-deprecation of it all.

I'm really starting to hate online communities. You're all a cancer, and the only thing I hate more than you people is myself, for craving interaction with people similar to me.

>>9486667
Because it's the only thing that makes me happy

>tfw your novel will be forgotten within a generation because it's not YA epic fantasy

>tried writing something other than that parasitic obsession
>wrote half a sentence
>deleted it
>thought some more
>closed libre office

why can't I do this?

>18 months ago
>come up with a cool idea fantasy world
>spend a full year picking it apart and piecing it back together
>go through dozens of first drafts and concepts
>7 months ago
>everything is hammered out
>decide to write a short story as a testing bed for this idea
>4 months ago
>the short story has grown into a cancerous mass of novella and the larger concept is still in flux
>1 month ago
>I've pretty much mathematically proved the larger concept is shit and refocused on getting making the test story the main event
>1 week ago
>realize that to trim the novella down I need to start over from scratch and redraft
>1 hour ago
>realize that my draft won't work

How the hell to novelists do it /lit/? How the hell do novels get written at all? I'm not cut out to be a writer, I should have never taken up this stupid hobby or this dream of being published. I just can't get these characters and world out of my head but I can't put them into words or a plot.

I wish I never had this perfect storm of ambition and perceived but nonexistent potential that led me to desire accomplishing something more with my life. Everything since my freshman year of highschool has been a collossal fucking mistake

I started reading a story I wrote almost two years ago and I'm shocked by how good it is.

I've never been published and only started writing a few years back, but my writing now is nowhere near as good as that short story I wrote back when I was just getting started.

How the hell did I get worse at writing?

why is writing so stressful?

All I wanted to do was write a stupid short story, but before I knew it the thing had ballooned into a novella. Then I started getting bad criticism so I spent months making no progress in the plot, instead revising it over and over.

Just when I finally started making progress again, I got another shitty review that hit harder than any other. After a few weeks of focus I'm coming to the conclusion that I might need to re-write the entire story to tear out a skeleton that's rotten with cringe, and I'm only about 13-15k words in.

It's been six months

I can't do this /sffg/ my writing just keeps getting worse and worse and worse every day. I just want to be a good fantasy writer, to create something, anything, worth publishing. The fact that I've fallen so far is making my physically ill and I just want to an hero

>tfw you will never be remotely as good as half the fantasy you put down and never pick back up

>tfw you're legitimately terrified to work on your passion project because every addition and change you make makes it worse and creates more work than you had before

How the hell do I overcome this fear?

/sffg/, my most ambitious story yet is more than half way done, but I'm afraid to show it to my friends because the last time I showed it to someone – my mom – she didn't like it and thought I was affecting a writing style

what do?

>>8650620
>the stories you construct in your head will never leave your mind because you actually hate writing despite being good at it

>tfw you will never become a great writer because you don't actually enjoy writing and have to force yourself to do it