/lit/ - Literature

how can I stop playing videogames bros

I'm a 26 year old dude, skinny/average build, university dropout and currently slogging through a shitty trade school, no friends, completely alienated from family and society. My only vice is sugar addiction which I have no control over it. I live a boring life and i never do anything that violates routine. I don't buy books, the whole process is overly dramatic and wasteful, I just download epubs on my phone. I would kill myself but that takes too much preparation. Other than reading i don't have any occupations besides reading really slow and little.

Books for this feel?

>>TO THE RED COUNTRY and part of the gray country of O., the last rains came gently, and they did not cut the scarred earth (...) The clouds appeared, and went away, and in a while they did not try any more. The weeds grew darker green to protect themselves, and they did not spread any more. The surface of the earth crusted, a thin hard crust, and as the sky became pale, so the earth became pale, pink in the red country and white in the gray country.
>it's 1 am
>haven't read any books since I woke up at 6 pm the day before yesterday
>living the unemployment dream
>>“Uh-uh! I’d a walked her if my dogs wasn’t pooped out.’’
>browsing /lit/
>it's 1:30 am
>"ok, maybe I should go read X, I'm only halfway through it"
>it's 2 am
>still at /lit/ for some unknown reason
>board is so damned slow there's nothing to do
>keep reading a few interesting sections of a couple different journals
>read terrible GR reviews for the shits
>Oh, look, a graphic arts thread (>>7098544)
>spend hours looking at oil paintings
>cook instant noodles
>pick up a book at random and read a few pages
>covet other people's hoards of very hard to find books
>mfw $39.99 (Amazon)
>come back to /lit/
>suddenly interested in other books other than X
>suddenly 5 am
>did I transfer Y to my ereader?
>pirate Y and a couple others that I wrote down hours earlier
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>an hour and a later, still at /lit/
>nothing is happening

Why are you not reading, c/lit/s?