/lit/ - Literature

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Me and the girl I have been infatuated with for a very long time finally got together. We had a small fling over a year ago, then we stopped talking to each other until a few months ago when she randomly reconnected with me. Totally platonic at first. We've read a few books together now because she's into them as well, that's the majority of our discussions.
So two nights ago, at like 1am, she starts texting me telling me to come over, she's obviously drunk. She calls me and convinces me to go, we planned to watch Lolita because we read the book together and wanted to see the movie together.

Cut to in her house, we eventually made way into her room where we're gonna watch the movie. I'd been trying to sober her up before we went up. We start the movie and she instantly starts cuddling up to me, I sit like a plank because I'm not getting #MeToo'd. Although she's getting more coherent. Then she stops the movie and says that we're in love. It's obvious we're in love and should be together. I ask her why this is obvious and she points to two weeks ago me and her had a long ass talk in her car about life, love, relationships, etc. I recall describing how great a connection with someone can be, and how rare it is to have "that" connection. I remember right after saying all of it I realized I pretty much described her. She said after that talk, she realized it all. She then says how we're so good together, and we both have the number 1 thing we look for in a partner (intelligence she said).

After that she falls asleep for 45 mins, then wakes up sober and we begin cuddling and then kiss eventually. I spent the night and in the morning she invited me over again the next night. Went over again and we just watched a movie and cuddled and slept together (no sex). She had to leave for work so gave her a goodbye kiss then a few hours later she called me from work and we talked about random stuff for 20 mins.

Despite how good all this sounds and in reality probably actually is, I have my doubts. I always expect the worst, yet I still get my hopes up. Our time together is perfect, yet apart my fear continues to grow. Nothing has really been officially said about the status of our relationship. I guess we haven't necessarily talked about what has happened.
But I must say, I've felt so good these past 48 hours. The feeling I'd get when we'd get close and look in each others eyes. The twinge I get in my body and heart when I recall seeing her smile with her eyes closed after kissing not knowing I was looking at her. The feeling of her leaning her head on my shoulder or running her hands over my stomach. It's all surreal. Sorry for wall of text for a story most people won't find interesting, my mind and heart have been racing intensely since our first touch of skin and I need to get it out of my head. I just want it to work, I've been wanting this for so long and I'm worried it's too good to be true.