/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>>/adv/

Delete this thread and get out.

Whats the reason you're depressed OP?

>>7278019
Sadly, mental disorders are /jp/ related.

Go for a 12 years old perverted loli genius whose idea of "theraphy" is bringing you to the torture chamber underneath her clinic and setting you straight by repeated whipping.

>>7278021
No they aren't.

>>7278014

If you really want help, OP, I suggest you start giving us some information about yourself.

How old are you? Who do you live with? What's your occupation? Why do you think you're depressed?

>>7278021
But you have to leave your room to go to therapy, so it's not related.

Don't worry about wasting your money on therapy. Just follow this pic's advice.

>>7278016
Life's shit. I'm shit.

>>7278019
/adv/ is a place filled with terrible normalfags who make fun of you when you mention your fetish

>>7278028

well let me then ask the questions

How old are you
Do you go to school,uni?
You have a job?
Friends?
Relationship?///Girlfriend?
Hobby?

>>7278028
It's all a matter of attitude!
No matter how "miserable" your life is, with enough apathy and the right thoughts you can ignore the expections of society and enjoy a life of hedonism and maybe escapism.
That's how I do it, and I'm pretty happy

>>7278034
I'm 29, no job, no education past high school, NEET since 2004.

Not even going to answer the last ones.

>>7278035
He just needs a friend or a girlfriend.
Even how much people say " hurr derrp I enjoy to be alone"

OP
The best feeling in the world isn't to hold a bag of money, to play the best games, watch your favorite anime.

The best feeling is to wake up in the morning next to the person you love in the same bed and that she loves you , or to meet up with a friend and have a drink and talk about funny shit or daily life.

Or when you are sick , you have people who care about you.

>>7278043
That's silly.
I think that most people need friends or a girlfriend to be happy, but it's not like that for everyone.
For some people being alone or having online friends only is enough.

>>7278038
There are a few things you could do
1. is to kill yourself
2. if you feel your life has no meaning, try to use your life to help other people in africa or some other shit place
3.Tr to change a few things in your life


Dont rush with big changes
start with small
Try to go outside and walk a little and think how did you get up in this situation and how could you get out.

and don't forget, don't blame others or the world that your life is shit.
Blaming will solve nothing

>>7278038
I'm 23 and I guess I'll be like that too in 6 years. So far I've been able to live like >>7278035 Don't know if it'll last till 30s.

I dunno where you live, but shit can get pricey really fast. Make sure you know what you sign up for.
Also: Therapy is bullshit, meds might help.

Trust me on this.

>>7278043

>The best feeling is to wake up in the morning next to the person you love while she's fucking your best friend in the same bed.

Fixed that for you. Delicious NTR.

>>7278050
Calling you bullshit on that one
I have online friends too that I like.


but but

Trust me there is nothing more valuable in life then friends or a boy/girl that loves you.
The feeling that somebody cares about you , is something wonderful

>>7278063
Who would care for a disgusting neet like OP?
I'm OP btw.

>>7278063
Not if you are mentally crippled like me.

>>7278056
Ah I see , such a lifestyle is not for everyone.
One has to be pathetic about his own future in order to live this life.

>>7278038
Is there anything you enjoy doing? Anything you want to work towards? On the more general side, start exercising (walking through parks is nice) and eating a clean diet will help you feel better if only temporary,

>>7278056
I'm 21 and doing the exact same thing and I don't think I can keep doing it for another year; I feel too much for my financial security.

>>7278063
Not op, but I have a huge inferiority complex due to my health problems and childhood traumas. So when someone, except my mother, cares about me I feel like they do this out of pity, that I don't deserve it, so I hate it and prefer to do everything without anyone's help.

Different question: Has therapy helped anyone? Or is than just an urban legend?

>>7278060
So what even if it happens , Life will not hold your hand and carry you trough the days.

Shit happens move forward, its never too late to get new friends,boyfriend or girlfriend.

I was cheated by girls too, disappointed by some friends.

I just moved on.
I am in a relationship for 4 years.With a girl who never asked me for money.
Yes its hard to find the right people , no one said its easy but its not impossible.

Anyway I am off for a coffee now with a friend I will be back in 2 and half hours

>>7278063
Just because that's the case for you, it doesn't make it the case for everyone else.

God, fuck off you retards. Depression can be serious shit.

OP, if your depression if anything remotely as serious as I think it is, you have two ways of dealing with it.

One is to break the habit that got you into your depressed lifestyle; being a lonely NEET with no goals and nothing to do with your life is bound to make you insane. I've been there. If you think you can do something about it on your own, like getting a job that makes you happy or something else that drastically changes your lifestyle, go for it. I just do not recommend seeking for a relationship as a way to heal yourself. Depending on your personality, it can even work to an extent, but it's far too much of a gamble. I don't think that last one is a problem for /jp/, so I won't elaborate on it.

If you can't do anything about it, or at least you think you can't, you can probably start with any run-of-the-mill shrink that happens to be easily accessible, say, like a college shrink or something. I don't know how it is in the US, maybe the reaction of any idiot with a psychology degree there is to stuff you full of meds, but at least here, those people will just try to asset how serious your case is and then recommend someone "serious" if they feel you actually need an expert.

Good luck, OP. Please don't give up. As someone who considered suicide for a long time and then saw a close family member commit suicide after that, there's nothing glorious or romantic about it.

>>7278063
>The feeling that somebody cares about you , is something wonderful

Right, and if he doesn't have that, you're kind of rubbing it in there. I'd like to love and be loved too but it's not about to happen.

>>7278068
>Is there anything you enjoy doing?
I don't know anymore. I guess not.
There were things I enjoyed and could think of as meaningfull, but that was ages ago.
Right now, all I'm doing is trying to survive the day. Escapism has stopped being fun a long time ago too.
I guess I could try getting a job/friends/whatever again, but... why bother?

>>7278085

>again

So you had all these things? What happened? Stopped caring?

Like it wasn't obvious enough, do not listen to that idiotic tripfag. I didn't elaborate on that because you probably aren't going to try, but seriously, do not attempt to get into a relationship just to "feel better" without at least taking serious steps to fix yourself before.

Getting into a relationship depressed is just asking for trouble, you are not ready for starting one until you're AT LEAST the process of fixing whatever's wrong with you, to attempt so is highly dangerous and you can seriously hurt yourself and/or other people in the process.

If you're feeling like killing yourself, do it, don't miss the opportunity. Don't listen to all these pro-life fags, they're just trying to justify their own existence. People are always talking about things you lose when you die, but when you're dead you can't feel regret anymore, so what difference does it make?

>>7278085
>Why bother
That's such a stupid questions.
You are asking for help and then you say "why bother"?
I tell you why you should bother.
Because there is no other way.
If you are unhappy with your situation you either have to change something or just kill yourself.
That's why you should bother.
Sure you think that those things won't make you happy now.
But not having those things doesn't makes you happy either, so I think you should at least try them once before saying that they wouldn't help you

>>7278063
>nothing more valuable in life then bla bla bla

That may be true for you but don't try to push your values on other people, I've never had a gf and I almost never meet with my "friends". But I'm perfectly happy as long as my computer runs and I have internet. Other people just bother and annoy me so I love being alone.

>>7278092
One up for that.
I wish I had the courage to just go.

>>7278093
I want to add something to my post:
Oh and if those things won't make you happy you can always just search another thing to make you happy.
Try to murder people, get rich , fuck bitches , rescue 3rd world countries , donate organs.....

Sooner or later you will find something to stuff this hole inside you

>>7278081
>being a lonely NEET with no goals and nothing to do with your life is bound to make you insane.

This is such bullshit. I've been NEET for up to five years at a time and not once have I ever questioned my sanity, let alone my contentness or quality of life. I recently quit a job as a matter of fact, after realizing it made me feel down. I worked there for a week. Now that I'm NEET again I can tell that I've become the cheerful and easygoing person that I used to be. It's all about the person. For people who don't like being alone, the people who desire to be around other people but for some reason can't, well that sucks for you. That's your problem though. For people that love being alone, a NEET lifestyle is the best thing you could ask for. I've got no job, no education, no friends, no nothing. That nothingness is very reassuring in a way that you know that if there is something you want to do, you could do it and no one or anything will stop you. That's how I look at my life. If there's something I want, I find a way to get it.

Try that: http://www.sedona.com/
It really helped me.
Pirate some courses from demonoid or whatever and give it a try. It's great because you don't have to leave your room for it and you have enough time too, right?

>>7278095
This. It happens too often that people try to force their definition of happiness onto you. I have not left my house for 5 to 6 years and have not once felt lonely or unhappy, yet people assume that I'm depressed and desperately need therapy. I like how I can be myself while socializing online, whereas in the real world I feel like I'm obliged to play one big game of pretend.

Find your own happiness, OP. You could try therapy, but it did not change me in the slightest. It helped my mother though, so it might help you too.

>>7278093
>If you are unhappy with your situation you either have to change something or just kill yourself.
You probably don't understand the meaning of question "why bother?"
I'm sure that many people here will choose to kill themselves. That's the level of apathy here.

>>7278115
I'm quite skeptical when it comes to registered trademark methods of improving your life.

>>7278122
>I'm obliged to play one big game of pretend.

This is my problem as well. I think I could make friends in the outside world if I was willing to open up to people even a little.

I honestly don't understand people who want to kill themselves.
I have a very crappy job, am always alone and have no future whatsoever but I sill love my life of watching anime reading manga/VNs playing games. I've been doing the same thing for almost 10 years but I feel like my whole life is just not long enough to satisfy my need to play/read/watch everything I want to.

>>7278089
I lost my job, took it easy, enjoyed the neet lifestyle a little too much and you know... time flies.

>>7278123
Oh sorry then I misunderstood your post.
If you think that killing yourself is the best thing to do then I won't stop you.
It's your decision.
I just thought that by "why bother" you meant to
cry around how nothing will ever make you happy and blablabla

Fuck OP and his problems, now it's portal thread.

Does anyone have picture with bleach?

>>7278131
Yeah man. I guess many people get turned off by that cheesy marketing stuff. It's too bad really.

>>7278146
Fuck off.

>>7278139
>I honestly don't understand people who want to kill themselves.
You can't understand it because you're not depressed. Depressed people can try to justify it as "life has no meaning, so killing yourself is irrelevant," but the fact is, a mentally healthy person won't even consider doing that.

When a person wants to kill themselves, no matter how they try to look at it in a rational way, that fact alone is enough to say there's something wrong with their mental health. Humans are designed to want to live no matter what, and that's how we act unless there's something wrong with us.

I dread the day when escapism stops being fun for me. I would really have nothing if I didn't enjoy reading VN's watching anime and fapping to loli doujins anymore.

>>7278092
>don't miss the opportunity

What? The only time the "opportunity" of death isn't there is when you are already dead.

>>7278139
What type of job do you have? I'm currently a NEET and I would be satisfied having an income just so I can secure my future (through a large asset portfolio) and buy more escapism. I was thinking something like nightfill at a supermarket.

>>7278123
Except that no one kills themselves out of apathy. Just having no reason to live is far from enough to motivate people to kill themselves. What I find stupid is when people use suicide as a comfort, thinking to themselves that no matter how bad things get, there's always a way out, so it's not that bad. In reality, these people won't have the guts even when their lives go to complete shit. When they get to the point where they promised to kill themselves, and actually have to confront the idea directly, they either end up realizing they can't do it and regret letting their lives go to shit because they were planning to die anyway, or they keep putting it off, making up some excuse for not being able to do it right now, but promising to definitely do it in a few years.

Either way, all they do is make themselves more miserable while fooling themselves into thinking it's not that bad since suicide is always an option.

>>7278139
For me it's curiosity.
But I know that I will die sooner or later anyways, so there is no point in killing myself now.
But I'm kinda looking forward to the day of my death

>>7278159
It's just your animal self-preservative instinct. But you're a human, so you can overcome it with your rational thinking, just like other instincts.

>>7278160
When that time comes you have to realize that there are a lot of possibilities to fill the void. Try stuff you have not yet done before, finding a certain game genre you really like is a good way to start, because new games will never stop being created. A sport could help, too. There are a lot of ways to have fun in this world, don't limit yourself.

>>7278164
Software tester, games mostly. Low pay, horrible hours and may be stressful for some, but I don't mind it. The good thing about it is that sometimes I get weeks at a time with nothing to do but browse the net and play games.

>>7278161
By the opportunity I meant the moment when you're desperate enough. Just apathy and depression aren't enough to kill oneself. That's why I'm just shitposting on /jp/ and feeling sorry for myself all the day instead of being dead. You actually need something to push you over the edge.

Treating this is a general life advice thread, I was wondering, how viable would it be to get a job that allows you to work from home and move to a place where you can have a really good living standard for a really low price, like the Philippines, and just taking it easy for the rest of your life with minimal effort to pay for rent and food, and technically never needing to leave your house?

I mean, it's not like anyone on /jp/ would have to worry much about minor details like having to move away from friends and family.

>>7278192
That does sound decent, to me anyway because I don't mind bad times or pay, as long as they're paying me the minimum wage and giving me enough hours. Though I'd probably crack under that type of job...

>>7278211
The only 'work' I tried from home is currency exchange, Wouldn't recommend it, its basically like gambling and even then, the pay-out is really slow if you're playing it safe.

>>7278211
Not a clue, but that sounds awesome; except
>Philippines
Enjoy your earthquakes and tsunamis

/jp/ the only board in which the 'membership' wants to actively decrease!

>>7278231
How do you go about currency exchange exactly. Do you just live near an airport or another international hub and head down there every couple months to exchange a couple thousand *derpsderps* for a couple ten thousand *herpherps* and then re-deposit into your bank account and then...

What? Do currency values really even shift often enough to generate income anyway?

>>7278240
It's done online through a broker. Basically what you're doing is betting if the currency will go up or if it will go down. For each $0.0001 change in the USD, you will profit or loss depending on how much you put down. It's been a while since I've done it but I only used the smallest amount, which was like 10c profit for every 0.0001 change.

>>7278234
Well, mugen still lives, so it can't be that bad.

>>7278252
This is done in currency pairs, so USD compared to say.. the yen or something like that. How much you gain or lose per 0.0001 is up to you, eg. 10c, $1, $10, $100, etc. but you have enough money to bet for that amount. Something like $10 if betting 10c, $100 if betting $1, etc. It is quite complicated.

>>7278262
How much money did you make in a month doing that? O_O

>>7278211
If it worked that way there would be no poor countries, because everyone in these countries would look for online job from richer country.

>>7278266
Fuck off.

>>7278266
-1000$

>>7278253
>mugen still lives
That's exactly what's wrong with the Philippines.

On the other hand, I have never seen Arisa post again. There's no fairness in this world.

>>7278266
Like $10 a week if I was lucky. It's too slow and risky in my opinion.

>>7278273
Figured...

Owell, I still have some more time to do nothing with my life, still plenty of time to come up with a way to make money, still time, still time...

And if all else fails there's always the "sucking dick in an alley" plan to fall back on.

>>7278267
Except they do. Not everyone, since not many people actually know enough English and have other useful skills. And not everyone gets lucky always too, but it works.

>>7278211
I did have a kind of "online job"; farming money in mmos, Anarchy and later EvE, and selling it. Used to make like 300-500$ in a good week, got a few accounts banned but that didn't stop me. What did stop me was inflation and stupid chinese farmers driving the prices into the ground.

>>7278267
But if you're born in a rich country, isn't it just a matter of getting a job before moving? I guess there might be some issues in regards to citizenship, which is why I'm asking, was hoping someone could enlighten me on how to make a plan like this work.

Someone tell me which offline job I should get.
Anything that needs zero qualifications.
I can't shoulder the responsibility alone.

I have a very silly goal. I live in Australia and our banks generally give 6%ish return on term deposits, so I'm trying to drag myself out of the house and find a low-paying job so I can start saving. I figure at 6% return, if I had a large enough principal amount then I could just live off the interest. Something like 500k would give $30k/year pre-tax and whatever I don't use (most of it, going to live with parents for ages) will be reinvested back in. Granted it'd take me until I am 40-45 if I'm lucky to pull this off, that and I still have to work through my huge anxiety and getting out-of-the-house problem first.

I think too far ahead in the future.

>>7278298
Street-sweeper, loader.

>>7278302
Ever heard of inflation?

>>7278310
Don't kill the mood.

>>7278302
This essentially would work if you don't piss away your money like most people in the western (and fuck it, probably eastern) world do. Most people would have already saved enough money to live in modest living conditions after one or two decades no matter what shit job they're working, but everyone spends money on stupid shit that they don't need.

My father get's paid a six digit salary, and has for about a decade. Before that, he was making between 45K and 80K. He is now in his early 50s with two mortgages on his house and almost no money to his name because he pisses away his money on expensive cars, animals (no I'm not kidding, he buys horses, sheep, goats, etc. just for the fun of it), expensive computers that he doesn't really use, expensive ass furniture (again, I'm not kidding)....etc. etc.

Just four months ago he bought a fucking greenhouse saying that he was going to grow vegetables and shit in it to eat and cut down on grocery costs. ... He has yet to grow a single damn thing.

>>7278310
Yeah, it's roughly 3% per year in Australia. As long as I keep my expenses really low I should be okay, but I doubt I'll really buy thousands of dollars of anime/vn goods. Only problem is when my parents pass on.

well i go to therapy...didn't really choose my therapist because one of the higher ups must have chosen the best match for me...so i guess it depends on the problem. it's HELL but it HELLps =/

>>7278319
Yeah people adjust to their income and spend accordingly. But knowing that, I'm still shocked hearing stories like yours.

>>7278319
I wonder how better we're off financially by simply not being interested in drinking and partying every weekend.

>>7278332
Did I mention that he lives on a 3 acre plot of land and has no time to spend on that plot of land because he's constantly working...because that's what he's doing.

When the old fucker dies I really hope the creditors don't come to me to collect his debts, because there's no way I'm going to be able to help them with that.

I think it's OK to adjust to your income and spend money on things that you enjoy doing or enjoy having, but there's a damn limit man.

OP, I bet you don't get enough exercise. Exercise is a great help in the war on depression. It is one of the best things you can do. Go outside NOW and get some, in the sun if possible. Make sure to get 30 minutes of sun without sunscreen each day.

If you're worried about people seeing you exercising, don't be. We don't care. When I see a fat guy getting some exercise, I think to myself: good for him, he's working to change himself.

In order from best to next resort:
>>>/adv/ >>>/soc/ >>>/b/

>>7278021
Hurr durr

So many of you guys are fucking morons.

Being alone for 10 years and slowly wasting away in nothingness isn't cured with exercise and a screencap from /b/. I'm sorry, but fuck.

Does anyone else feel like they are losing their sense of self in the days of repetitive nothingness?

>>7278356
>image
Yeah... That's not *quite* how suicidal tendencies work.

>>7278364
>Does anyone else feel like they are losing their sense of self in the days of repetitive nothingness?
Reminds me of runescape players in 2005

Same situation as you op

I just started my therapy with medicinals. I feel SLIGHTLY better and much more less suicidal.

>>7278371
>much more less suicidal.
I wonder if that is a good thing.

>>7278364
But you have to start with something, anon. 1st some exercise, then some therapy. Bit by bit you will get there where you want to be.

>>7278364
After 4 years, the boredom and loneliness are starting to get to me.

But then I play a vn and it goes away.

>>7278383
Some exercise and therapy will get my to gensokyo?
How nice.

>>7278364
Yea, doing the same nothing over and over will do that to you.

I've been a NEET for about 2 years. In that time I've gone from a cynical but somewhat hopeful introvert who thought that he might be able to find some sort of companionship eventually if he really tried hard enough, and who believed in general in a loose sense of secular ethics...to....a nihilistic hedonist who hates everyone he meets (although he doesn't meet many people) before they even say two words to him.

In short, doing nothing all day and every day isn't good for you. It doesn't matter what stupid shit you decide to do everyday, just make something of it, and I don't even mean "something" as in "something meaningful" because even that isn't really necessary. Just....do....something.....

I'm >>7278371

The important think: Ask for help! To your parents, teachers, or whatever. But don't talk about it with anyone, most of people are douches. Tell them you have negative thoughts and you wanted to kill yourself.

Don't think you can get out of it alone: you can't. You can't cure depression with rainbows and /jp/. Even when you'll feel better one day, the next day you are going back in that hell.

At the very least, you should attempt it. It may work. I've had therapists before and they never worked , but that's probably just my own problem. You actually do need to work with them if you want results.

>>7278345
If you don't accept his inheritance you won't inherit his debts either.

>>7278393
Yes! You will live longer and will see the time when we are able to upload our consciousness into virtual reality. Or maybe we will discover alternative worlds and one of these is our precious Gensokyo.
Think of the possibilities, anon.

>>7278406
Is that how it works in the US? I really haven't looked into it THAT much yet because he's pretty damn healthy, albeit obese (Jesus Christ this sounds really callous) but if I end up having to carry his debts I'll be paying until I'm dead, because the work I do won't pay six digits EVER like his is.

If refusing to take any inheritance also protects me from debts then I guess I'm safe because I'm not particularly interested in taking his 3 acre plot of land covered in random farm animals and other forgotten toys....

>>7278383
Yes but depression is being dead inside more or less, without hope. Or at lead hope may not easy to conceptualize. So one can't just get enthusiastic to go and do exercise and get therapy and get happy from the beauty of the world. It just doesn't work that way.

Honestly, to have a concept of beauty in the world, in the most profound of ways, is to have a total crisis of personality and come close to obliterating your "self." Plenty of ways to do this.

>>7278415
That's how it works, though be warned creditors will strike fast and outright lie to you.

Don't sign shit.

>>7278428
Sorry about all the typos. I am very tired.

>>7278410
Neuroscientists are highly doubting that things like these will be possible within our lifetimes.

>>7278435
If you are unsure that you will see it with your own eyes, you can always work on getting that moment closer. Become a scientist and do research in this field. Or become a wealthy businessman and form a fund that sponsors scientists like that.

the good thing about this samefag dying is that he wont shitpost anymore.

>>7278447
It doesn't really make me particularly happy to know that others will get something I want.

>>7278452
Anon, you can work on projects that increase your lifespan then.

>>7278458
Ehh....is giving him false hope of possible immortality or unnatural longevity really a good idea? The fact is that none of use are going to live into the age of immortality if such a thing is ever even going to exist for humanity, and we aren't likely to make it past 70 or 80.

Isn't it better to accept this simple fact, and to give life your best shot anyway, rather than indulging in a fantasy that isn't likely to become reality?

>>7278460
Sorry, but I think most of /jp/ won't make it past their late 40s. With our unhealthy lifestyle, we'll have died of cardiac arrest by then.

>>7278462
Fair enough. The point I was trying to make remains though.

If you only have 40 years to live, just fill the 40 years you get with whatever stupid shit you prefer. Don't spend it fantasizing about more life that you won't get---then again I just said fill it with whatever stupid shit you prefer, so if you prefer to fill it with fantasies that won't come true then I guess I'm contradicting myself. My bad, I retract all of it. Good luck really convincing yourself thoroughly that you'll some day go to Touhouland though.

>>7278469
What could be greater than living your daily life on the computer and your nightlife making false memories of you and your favourite Touhou?
At least when you look back on your life, you'll be able to fondly remember all the experiences you had and all the smiles and frowns and scowls that your Touhou had.

>>7278476
I still don't see how you can define this as realistically achievable.

>>7278481
Meh. I was trying to reason with him, but the truth is that I'm the same way. I sit on my computer and watch anime, play video games, and fantasize about spending time with my waifu (/a/ here, yea I'm admitting it, don't hate me too much) all day.

In the end he's right. You're probably browsing these boards because you're fucking useless anyway. You might as well make your goals something achievable like living in fantasies all day and all night.

>>7278481
How can it possibly not be achievable?

>>7278487
How the hell do you make false memories without some kind of futuristic mind manipulation device?

>>7278492
Lie to yourself. If that doesn't work then you aren't lying hard enough. You didn't just spend a few hours browsing /jp/ and talking about depression. You just spent a night out to dinner with your favorite Touhou where you discussed your feelings for each other and then came back to your house/apartment and made passionate love ending with a simultaneous climax by the both of you and pillow talk.

I've been in therapy for at least a decade, I can't tell if it has helped yet.

>>7278547
5 years for me. I'm halfway there.

Considering you are posting here though, I fear your therapy hasn't been successful (yet).

Therapy makes it worse

>>7278550
Taking therapy means I can receive welfare and keep on NEETing, though.

Therapy only helps if you want to go.

Also the therapist won't tell you that because he or she likes money.

I never understood the concept of therapy. Just stop being crazy, depressed, angry, or whatever the fuck else is wrong with you. I dunno, maybe it's a white people thing.

>>7278565
Just stop being non-white.

Join a Foreign army to start a new life OP. You have access to weapons in case you ever want to kill yourself or go on a rampage later on too. French Foreign legion would be the easiest to get into. You could try the Spanish legion, although they're extremely picky, you'd need to be from a Latin American country for them to even consider you I hear. It's much nicer on the Spanish side though. Joining your own country armed forces would just leave you in the same rut and comfort zone, so it'd be silly to do that.

>It's your decision.

I think things affecting others should be discussed with said people. For suicide that would be your family, neighbours, local police etc. that would all have to put up with your suicide aftermath.

Personally I think the meaning of life is to have fun, so you should look for something you can enjoy. If you don't think anything is fun, I can only suggest you try something new and find out if that is fun.

I meet a psychiatrist every two weeks and I dont pay anything for it. Depends on what country you live in I guess.

>>7278603
>frail, socially retarded, and unmotivated NEET
>French Foreign Legion

Yeah, good luck with that.

>>7278619
For what reason are you going to a psychatrist?
because you are too nice?

>>7278603

>>7278623
"iluvOP is actually a psychiatrist for psychiatrists.

>>7278620
It's not hard. If you just go through the phases, military training is something that just flies by. The only thing you need to worry about would be big black cunts from north Africa thinking they can fuck with you; but FFL is heavy on camaraderie, so I'll doubt even the most socially awkward of people would have any trouble. Most of the rumors you hear about them are just romanticist rubbish.

The US army is a lot easier from what I hear, and if you're /k/ommando, it's great handling the best of firearms.

>>7278620
It's not hard. If you just go through the phases, military training is something that just flies by. The only thing you need to worry about would be big black cunts from north Africa thinking they can fuck with you; but FFL is heavy on camaraderie, so I'll doubt even the most socially awkward of people would have any trouble.

The US army is a lot easier from what I hear, and if you're /k/ommando, it's great handling the best of firearms.

>>7278623
Uhhh I go there to spread love! And making sure that they spread the message too! Also to rant about my depression and anxiety. Its all good!

Hmm also this
>>7278632

>>7278645
Sometimes I think that /jp/ is a pretty good therapy sometimes.
Unless the no fun allowed squad shows up

>>7278565

It's not so easy to fix all your problems by yourself. Although that's what I'm trying to do. I don't want anyone to have to waste their time with me.

>130+ posts

Fuck you, too, /jp/.

Don't tell me the mod didn't delete it because it had a Touhou picture, please.

>>7278655
How the fuck are people still complaining about this when there's roughly 3 depression threads a day for 3 years straight.

I don't see why joining any kind of armed forces would do you any good. If you still long back to any part of your old lifestyle, it will be a nightmare, I can tell you that from experience. But even if you're completely willing to give it all up and turn your mind into steel so you can succeed in the training, what good would it really do? How is it going to improve the quality of your life and make you happy just because you did exactly what you've objected to doing your whole life? I see absolutely no inherent value in leaving your "comfort zone", unless there's something specific outside your comfort zone that you deeply desire and are willing to give everything for.

>>7278659

The same reason people still complain about anime spam.

>>7278632
It reminds me of myself. My parent's hate me and they love to send me to weird places like psychiatry and few others, like sending me to priests to make exorcisms on me.

Once I caused mental break down for psychiatrist. After 2 visits she was like "fuck you I hope you will die", so her assistant had to help her to calm down. Funny as HELL.

>>7278655
>jp
>mod
Cute

>>7278660
You'll be essentially dead by the time you finish anon. The real you would die as a new personality would take root, and a new person would be born. You accomplish suicide, but maintain an average level of happiness as perceived through the eyes of a normal. If that doesn't work for you, then killing yourself might be the best option. I recommended enlisting in military service as a final alternative to suicide.

>>7278667

That would be more convincing if there weren't three pages missing.

>>7278639
>It's not hard
>getting into the French Foreign Legion

You should stop getting your information from Cowadooty. Fyi, 9 out of 10 applicants don't pass selection, and you'll be competing against people in peak form who already have military experience.

>>7278675
Middle class white American applicants are ripe for the taking. 9/10 applicants are filthy slavs from some Eastern European shithole or some stray African that could not make it as a mercenary in his home country.

>>7278649
Exactly. When the nice anons such as yourself are browsing, its really enjoyable. Maidens sharing their secrets and feelings. Its always so sad when all the frustrated and angree anons appear to ruin the fun. Lets try to have fun when we can!

Thanks for the welfare, EU country.

Currently making close to 600€/mo. Own a small apartment passed on from my parents, and also rent an underground parking space for 150€/mo. Don't pay taxes, don't pay rent, bills rarely go over 200€/mo. I can even maintain a motorcycle and have money to spare to import stuff at my own convenience.

>>7278695
And you seem like a really nice person.
Sometimes I think about really making friends on /jp/ because of people like you

>>7278695
You forgot spamming Saten images and Flanfly threads.

>>7278708

Does that bother you, Hong?

>>7278689
Why so racist mr hamburger?

If you want to discuss such things go to /int/.

>>7278702

He's not a nice person. He knowingly makes threads and posts shit that pisses off a lot of people here.

Does anyone have muscle twitching? I couldn't sleep well last night because my calf was twitching. My doctor (google) said it's nothing to worry about but it still kept me up last night so I am sad.

Now I am too tired to put in an order for my new teas ;_;

>>7278715

That's rich. YOU are telling other guys to go discuss things somewhere else?

Just kill yourself. Grant yourself tranquillity at last.

>>7278727
The facial muscles on the right side of my face twitch whenever I read a shitpost on /jp/.

>>7278672
It was 5.

>>7278689
What about White middle class English? Would they give me a chance, or reject me out of fear of creeping Anglo-Saxon values invading their noble European institution?

How can you grow tired of being a neet? There are 100s of novels I still want to play.

>>7279155
Don't bother. They are all shit.
That's how.

OP just needs some friends ;_;

>>7279464

Perhaps he is undesirable, like myself. But I hope he stays strong and finds what he's looking for.

Remember kids, if you go to Gensokyo you can't shitpost on /jp/ any more!

Op here, I went to therapy this morning. It wasn't that bad, but I doubt it will help.
Well, we'll know in a few years. Getting out of the house sometimes can't hurt at least.

Thanks to living in a socialist country, I won't have to pay it myself, so I'll be going once per week from now on.

>>7280385
Good luck.

Good luck OP. Suicide is a permanent solution to an often temporary problem.

>>7280740
What if your problem was the world you live in?

>>7280385
Once a week is pretty quick pace. I had that too when they wanted to make sure that I wont teleport to Gensokyo. I hope it helps you and that you will feel better soon. I'll pray for you!

>>7280772
Should I be telling my therapist the truth? I mean the whole truth? I'm so pathetic.
I can't see me answering questions like what I do all day truthfully.

>>7280793
I think you should. You dont have to for now since it might be awkward and hard to say. I lied many times on my first times, but the more you tell, the more he/she can help you. Its all upto you. Dont feel bad about what you do and what you dont do. They dont hate you for it. Nobody really does. Im sure you are a sweet person and there's no need to feel bad. But yeah, try to tell as much of the truth as you can.

>>7280793
I read and fap to touhou doujins and occasionaly play VNs and watch anime.

Not that hard, is it?

>>7280793
I'm sure they have to hear by far worst things sometimes.
That's one of the reasons why I want to be a psychologist.
There are so many interesting people with so much interesting secrets.
I just wonder when I will be truly disgusted for the first time.

Best of Luck, OP
Happy to hear you're giving it a shot.

Thanks everyone. Means a lot to me.

>>7280806
I guess you would be digusted by all the normalfag bullshit pretty quickly. There aren't as many real Fuck-ups like you imagine there to be.

>>7280818
When the therapist asks you why you decided to come there just tell him that the nice people on /jp/ helped you

>>7280832
I wonder how often they get girls who are just depressed because of a break up or something.

Giving this a bump to contrast with the Flyable Heart thread contrasting with the mla ';oh shit unfinished translation got leaked'; thrad.

>>7280832
>>7280858
There are no meaningless or stupid problems.
If it bothers my patients then I'll have to help them, just like I would have to help someone who just murdered 20 people and ate their corpses

>>7280861
Nice. I'm a fan of your work.