/jp/ - Otaku Culture

She's not even real.

The beautiful thing about her not being real is that you can imagine this in your head, rather than dragging us into your boring fantasies.

which one do you want?
canon alice or fanon alice?

Why would any of the Gensokyo ladies have any need for a guy? I'm sure they'd rather spend time with one another instead of being violated by some man's dirty phallus.

Goddamnit, /jp/

We really need to, just once, have one big faggot get-together where we're all shaven and wearing frilly skirts and dresses and have trap sex for one night.

I think it could improve the board, many of you hopeless faggots will finally be able to take it easy.

Maybe we can take the opportunity to drug Suigin, Currybutt et al. and dump them in the nearest river, concrete blocks and all

>>5533960

Suwako gave birth. She obviously fucked someone.

Pic related it's her unholy spawn.

>>5533947
Alice spends all her time with dolls. She wouldn't like you.

>>5533974
If only.

>>5533954
Canon Alice is the only one for me.

Fanon Alice is more like a mistress.

>>5533981

Frogs give birth on their own.

>>5533981
>implying Gods have to fuck to procreate

Not very well-read, are you?

>>5533988
canon alice won't have sex with anyone since she's only interested in magic and herself

>>5533974
Hyped up for another /jp/ meetup eh?

>>5533981
How many times do we have to go over this?
There's no evidence for this.
Gods reproduce asexually all the time.

>>5533960
This is actually my fantasy of Gensokyo. None of them need men or want them. They're like unearthly beautiful angels no man can ever have and can only be admired from afar.

To be honest, I cannot even fantasize about being with any of them because I know that they would reject any and all advances on the spot with me. Isn't that sad? To not be able to fantasize about 2D fictional characters because you know not even they would want you?

>>5533974
The images are horrifying.

jesuschristhowhorrifying.jpg

>>5534005
Very

Hopefully one with more sex, drugs and unprovoked murder and less socially awkward neckbeards wearing their "special occasion" video game reference t-shirt and nervously laughing after making faggot touhou meme jokes.

Yes, I can read your mind

>>5534010

She gave birth to a half-human. While god-birth is inconsistent, to create a demigod (which is what Sanae can be considered to be) requires human-fucking.

>>5533974
I'll do it, but only if half of us show up in white ren costumes.

>>5534029
It's not sad, because that's the point of gosenkyo. There are literally thousands of perfect 2D girls, you can let a few dozen of them live in a glass paradise while you shameless violate some eroge heroine.

Oh alice is an easy girl to please, just let her be herself and she'll open up. Very self conscious this one.

>>5533974
But /jp/ wouldn't be /jp/ without our tripfriends.

SHE'S NOT REAL BRO

>>5534029

You could still befriend a couple of them. Maybe not sex, but being their friend is enough. A good amount of them have interesting personalities, to say the least. Hong Meiling is supposedly very easy-going and as long as you don't cross the gate into SDM, she won't attack you and you can just chill and talk to her until you grow bored...maybe challenge her to a fight or two just for kicks.

>>5533974
Oh god....Make it stop!
DO NOT WANT

>>5534084
But you see, I have trouble fantasizing myself into ANY sexual situation (be it from cuddling, making out, to full blown sex) with ANY 2D character. Be it from Touhou or some doujin/eroge. Any time I try my mind/conscience stomps my fantazy flat by saying, "They wouldn't want you doing that anyway."

I have killed MANY a fap session like this. Hell, I haven't gotten a proper erection in at least 5 months.

>>5533974
I'm ready, just say the word.

>>5534104
>But /jp/ wouldn't be /jp/ without our tripfriends
>/jp/ wouldn't be /jp/

This is nothing but a good thing

>>5534126
That's a good thing. You're not deluding yourself.

>>5534126
See a shrink, then a doctor. Seriously.

>>5534126

I feel sad for someone who will never get the chance to enjoy sleeping next to Reimu or fondle Reisen's floppy ears.

>>5534116
This is the doujin I want to read. Generic protagonist runs around gensokyo hanging out with the girls. No sex, no romance, just friendship. Lots of scenes of pastoral beauty. A similar vibe to Yotsubato. Maybe it'd work better with a younger guy.

Then people could draw porn doujins of it to relive thier sexual tension.

>>5534126
Sincerely sorry about your boner problems.

I feel mixed feelings whenever imagine myself with a Touhou. Happy, because I have an extremely vivid imagination, depressed because they would never want me, even if I was the last human being on Earth.

Well, I guess there's always a chance for a 2D afterlife where everything goes my way, right? Right?!

;_;

>>5534169
He should write an emo ballad about his boner problems.

>>5534138

No it isn't. Deluding yourself is okay in small doses. He can't create happiness. I'm on the opposite end of the spectrum in that I can't control my delusions and see Lady Bernkastel no matter where I go if my mind starts to wander. She ends up voicing my cynical side and being my best friend at times for providing a more extreme example of myself, but the fact that I can't control her makes it somewhat not worth it, even in my fantasies of graphic rape.

>>5533974
But before that, could I suck Suigin's wonderful, amazing cock?

>>5534151
I slept next to reimu last night! and marisa!

Imagining spening my nights falling asleep with touhous is the only way I manage to fall asleep anymore, my life is otherwise pretty empty and meaningless so if I'm not thinking about them then my thoughts start drifting towards more depressing things and I can't sleep.

>>5534140
It's just my low self esteem and or low opinion of myself. I already know the problem Anonymous
>>5534151
>fondle Reisen's floppy ears.
Oh god I know. And Reisen is one of my favs.

>>5533974
I can see it now. A bunch of bleached-white basement dwellers on one floor of a hotel nervously walking past a hotel room marked "/JP/ MEETUP HERE" pretending to everyone else in the hall that they're just "on their way" to a different hotel room, trying to hide somewhere, then nervously walking past the room again.

For those that have the balls to go in, they all sit on the hotel beds simply watching T.V., none of them verbally acknowledging the reason they showed up in the first place. Even the bravest among them will nervously claim that they "left my dress in the car"

All go home an hour later, bitterly disappointed in themselves and simultaneously relieved.

>>5534164

Honestly, I would agree with that story instead of just plotless fucking. I have inspiration to write a Meiling-centric one where that just happens; you hang out with her all the time and become one of her best friends because you actually take the time to visit her and challenge her to the occasional fight to relieve boredom, but it never goes beyond what could be considered a "bromance" with a female character. No sex, no flirting, no real innuendo. Just shooting the shit and having a good time.

>>5534189
You would rather never be with your waifu?

Heartless bastard, how can you like her then?

>>5534206
GET OUT OF MY MIND

>>5534207
Sounds boring. Add some conflict.

>>5534206
I lol'd.

>>5534216
Pic unrelated.

>>5534188
There once was a limp little phallus
that had a crush on a girl named Alice
it wouldn't touch touhous,
smelled similar to hobos,
and will remain crying in Dallas.

>>5534216
>I lol'd

But that's despair Anonymous.

>>5534223
>>5534188
Oh you guys are comedic geniuses.

>>5534216
Make up your mind anon. Be honest with yourself.

>>5534206
>nervously walking past a hotel room marked "/JP/ MEETUP HERE" pretending to everyone else in the hall that they're just "on their way" to a different hotel room

Oh fuck me, I've done kind of thing so many times I couldn't care to keep count.

STOP LAYING MY PSYCHOLOGICAL WEAKNESSES OUT BARE FOR EVERYONE TO SEE

>>5534212

It's a very vague idea that I came up with in the past 5 minutes. I could elaborate and add conflict, but that'd be kind of dangerous because conflict could lead to romance which is something that I'd want to avoid.

>>5534208

My ojousama/mistress/whatever. I love being with her, but she's...scary. I don't really mind that, but the fact that she sometimes seems to be genuinely real makes me question reality. Soon it'll be bad enough that Bern becomes completely real to me.

I love her, but the fact that something I know isn't real is slowly becoming more...realistic...scares the shit out of me. Imagine if you were vaulted from your life and suddenly dropped in Gensokyo with nothing but the clothes on your back whatever's in your pocket. I know most people claim they would love it, but the reality of the situation is downright horrifying.

>>5534271
Oh please, what's the worse that could happen? You could die? You'll die eventually anyway, so you should enjoy yourself before then. Your Owner is becoming more real, so what? Enjoy it. Indulge yourself (as far as she allows you to), and to hell with everything else.

>>5534271
Lots of people hallucinate, few people hallucinate things that keep them in a constant state of arousal.
Just roll with it, seriously, whats the worst that can happen?

>>5534291

She allows me to indulge with other Touhous whenever I feel like it...but she has a tendency of being a moment killer and scaring them off so that she could use me for herself.

I can't escape her even in my fantasies.

>>5534271
>>5534291
OH SHIT I BETTER GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS INSANE ASYLUM THAT IS /jp/ WHAT THE FUCK SERIOUSLY

>>5534308
That sounds adorable. When you get sick of her, have an intense emotional breakdown, like, "NO, YOU'RE NOT REAL" kind of thing, and fight with yourself. It'll be like Fight Club, except you'll be raping yourself, probably inserting various objects into your ass and stuff.

>>5534311
No~

Come play with us~♥

>>5534308
Can she scare Flandre?

your a fuck up

>>5534202
I do this. I hug my pillow and imagine sleeping with Reimu, Marisa or both. I.. guess I'm pretty happy too, not thinking too much about it.

>>5534336
Wow, this is like real-life Umineko. "WITCHES DON'T EXIST, BITCH! SLICE UP THOSE COW TITS OF YOURS AND MAKE ME A SAMMICH!!"

>>5534336

That's actually a common exchange.

"You know I'm not real, right?"

"Yeah..."

"So then, why am I here?"

"Because I want you here."

"You enjoy being raped?"

"NO! I HATE IT WHEN YOU DO THAT!"

"Shut up, you enjoy it. You enjoy being raped by a small girl who exists only in your imagination. You're really fucked up, you know that?"

>>5534392
That's so cute~


I want to see you two together.

>>5534398
This, that's adorable.
I'm jealous.

>>5534392
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Sometimes I stand in front of the mirror and give myself a reach around while pretending there is a cute trap beating my erect penis from behind me while he slides his delicate fingers in my puckered asshole.

>>5534343

Flandre really isn't one to show up. It's Reimu, Reisen, or Kogasa most of the time. Scaring off Reimu is bad enough, but one time I imagined Yukari...and she managed to scare her off.

I kind of want to see what would happen between these two.

>>5534392
Can't tell if troll...

>>5534392
I wish I was as far gone as you, Bern.

>>5534398

And then she proceeds to tie my hands, possibly gag me, and use me as her toy.

ITT: Faggots. Sad, delusional faggots.

>>5534425
I'd go to the bathroom to give you two private time, but I still want to hear your screams~

>>5534425
Really?
Do you tie your own hands together or just 'feel' it?
How do you get yourself off without being able to touch if your hands are tied, or do just indulge in the feeling of being blue-balled?
How do you get untied?

"No p-p-please."

"Shush now~"

"W-what do you w-want?"

".....I want to hear you scream~"

>>5534431
SMALL WORDS FROM A SMALL BEING, TRYING TO ATTACK WHAT IT DOESN'T UNDERSTAND

>>5534392
>>5534411

Even if it was a troll, it was still glorious.

>>5534441

I "feel" it. I'm perfectly capable of restraining myself with a real rope (hooray for learning how to properly tie knots in Boy Scouts). She sometimes chokes me, and I actually feel my throat clench.

I get off on the feeling of being pretty much blue-balled...then it gets so bad that I'm forced to break the illusion. I really don't enjoy the notion of having to clean my sheets, so I usually leave. Then I go back to my bed and she's waiting for me to return with a smug expression on her face that says "See, I was right...you do enjoy being raped."

>>5533947

>>5534445

It usually goes in the fashion of her finishing my sentences for me in ways that I don't want her to.

" 'Please...' 'please' what? 'Please keep going, mistress?"

"Don't...

" 'Don't stop?' I have no intention."

>>5534468
At first I thought your trolling was hilarious, but now that I think about, it's really kind of frightening...

>>5534468
>>5534476
That's so sweet.
I'm a bit envious, myself, though I'm not really a masochist.

>>5534481

Neither am I...or, I'm not up-front about it. Keep in mind that my favorite Touhous are caring and loving...and Bern cockblocks me so she can have me to herself.

>>5534476
I wish I crazy too

>>5534491
Do you cry often? She makes you cry, right? She better make you cry. At least tears streaming down your face, if not outright sobs.

>>5534468
Bern, what the fuck is wrong with you?

Your 2D fantasies are no excuse.

>>5534514
>>5534492
You are just jealous that you'll never be able to have S&M sessions with your waifu.

>>5534534
I am.
It sucks, I want to be forced on my knees and lick my waifu's feet clean too.

>>5534502

She makes me cry and tell her that I love her even though I know that she doesn't love me.

I'm in a no-win situation. If I submit, she gets off on asserting her dominance. If I resist, she gets off on trying to tame me and "punishing" me...which usually involves using her "Magic of Miracles" bullshit so that she can fuck me for 2 hours straight with me having no chance of release, holding me on the edge for that entire time. Then when she finally drops the magic and she lets me go, it's treated as some sort of reward and I end up submitting to her anyway.

>>5534643
You mean she orders you to cry, or her actions cause you to cry? Two totally different things, bro.

>>5534556

What's strange about Bern is that she only acts that way in bed behind closed doors. When I "see" her out in public, she's usually just commenting on how stupid some stuff is and how fun it would be to fuck it up royally. She's still my mistress and reminds me of it every chance she gets, but for some reason she feels no reason to really assert her dominance when I'm out and about.

>>5534643
I don't really like being dominated and abused unless it ends with gentle cuddling and love afterward.

>>5534672
Does she let you sit by her feet and lean on her legs?

>>5534670

Her actions. Afterward she puts on an act of being completely loving, but at the same time she's enjoying the fact that she made me submit completely. Then she orders me to confess my love for her, and mean it. She once described as being the ultimate form of dominance to make someone love you through violence without actually returning any affection.

she's right. I love her because she treats me this way.

Got any tips on how to fully go insane? At best, I see a touhou, but that's all. No talking or interacting with her, instead she just stares at me instead. It's been like this for a couple of years now.

>>5534684

Bern's tiny. That's not possible in most cases. She usually occupies an empty chair next to me. When I'm actually lying down on a couch, my head is usually on her lap and she pets me like a small dog. Again, not really out of love; she makes me admit that I'm nothing but her pet.

It was my impression that she wasn't into men.

>>5534687
I wish I was as fucked in the head as you.
Lucky bastard.

>>5534695

All I needed to know about going insane I learned in Alliance of the Golden Witch.

Seriously. read the chapter where Ange learns to summon the Stakes of Purgatory. It works. I just happened to lose control and summon Bern too many times. Now she just pops up whenever she feels like it.

>>5534687
So she is loving afterward? Even if it's false, the cuddling and nursing wounds is the best part of being abused.

>>5534705
Oh, that's right. Still, being treated as her lapdog is so enviable.

Ah, my masochist heart is aflame~

>ITT: A sad, sad story.

this thread was interesting for the first 30 or so posts

At this point, it's shit and drudgery

>>5534713
What episode was that again? 4?

>>5534714

Of course she cuddles me and is loving afterward. After I tell her that "I'm nothing but her pet," she kisses me, cuddles up next to my ear and says "Good boy."

>>5534729
Ah, that's so great...
Pain is okay if the reward is warm, even if it's false warmth.

>>5533974
Way ahead of you, aniki. I trap full-time.

I'm jealous of you guys. Even if I could hallucinate my waifu, it would be hard to keep the illusion when playing a friendly game of mahjong with her.

>>5534729
You should write up some Bern-centric S&M thing with a "it's all in your mind" twist at the end.
It'll even help your ero-writing skills.

>>5534707

Lambda's her lover. It's a completely different relationship from the one that I have being her pet.

That still doesn't prevent me from getting REALLY pissed at the thought of them together.

>>5534764
Does she tease you with that?
Does she make you cry?
Tell me everything.

>>5534713
Well, damn. Guess it's time to finally read Umineko and stock up on some sleeping pills.

>>5534729
What does she have to say about you talking about her like this on /jp/?

I wish i was Bern, but with a different girl and less mental rape

>>5534776

Never mentioned. I just assume that any time that she's not abusing me, she's playing games with Lambda. It's never really come up except one time Lambda showed up and asked me why Bern spends time with me in the first place. My response was to tell her to fuck off and she told me that Bern would never really love me.

We don't really get along. Bern understands the dynamic and is probably kind enough to never bring it up because she knows that either one of us would fly into a jealous rage and kill the other. While she'd be entertained, she told me that she REALLY doesn't want to go out and try finding another pet.

>>5534797
But then you'd be a weaboo in tokyo, surrounded by other weaboos.

If that didn't want to make you kill yourself, you wouldn't be human.

>>5534797
The mental rape is the best kind of rape.

Any brute or unwashed barbarian can physically rape you. It takes a truly refined individual to cause you such mental anguish and pain that it gives you pleasure despite the torrent of emotions swirling around your brain.

And then the cuddling afterward, where she pretends to comfort you and tell you it's all alright, where she soothes your troubled mind with empty words of love and warmth; that is the best part of the pain.

Reported for fucking roleplaying.

>>5534796

Gets off on it. She's not here now, but she always tells me that she thinks it's funny how I like to talk about her and make it out to look like I really don't want her around when the reality is that I can't get enough of her.

>>5534855
So she's having Lambda eat her out?

>>5534843

I'm a low-level weeaboo in Tokyo surrounded by complete normalfags. The stress of that is what finally broke me from being able to control my Bern fantasies.

>>5533947

>Fanon

She'd accept you for who you are and love you unconditionally with the occasional tsundere outburst.

>Canon

She doesn't have time for romantic relationships because she's too busy with her research and messing around with her dolls. Especially not with a pasty otaku like you. You'd stutter and follow her around her house while trying to make small talk. She'll end up asking you to leave because you're bothering her,point you in the direction of the human village and close her door behind you.

>>5534866

...you know what? Fuck you.

>>5534888
Why do you hate Lambda? She's just eccentric.

>>5534885
>Canon

It's true.

BUT I COULD SHOW HER THE MEANING OF TRUE LOVE

>>5534900

Because I'm a jealous fuck who can't stand the thought of Bern being with anyone else, even if it is her actual lover and I'm just a pet.

>>5534920
Why do you see Lambda? Why not Beatrice?

>>5534920
But what if she's all like, "An useless lap dog like you has no right to feel jealous" or something like that.
I mean, that just gave me an idea for awesome NTR-esque thing.

You guys do realize that he's making all this shit up and you're all eating out of his hands.

>>5534933

I'm sorry, what? Beatrice is their plaything in an entirely different sense and she already has Battler. I don't really care about her either way.

The fact that I'm SHARING Bern makes me mad.

If Suwako gave birth to a half-god, then of course Alice can have the time of day for you. I mean, Marisa had a dad after all.

>>5534947
Tell me why I should care.

>>5534948
But why can you see Lambda? You didn't summon her, did you? How can you see her?

>>5534915
She already experienced the feelings of love.

>>5534764
I thought it was marisa.

>>5534947
Even if he is, it's still the most interesting thread i've been linked to in weeks.

>>5534944

Bern told me if I complained too much she'd leave me for good anyway. I shut up and Lambda was never discussed again.

>>5534947

Nope. Combination of lucid dreaming and forced hallucinations has led me to this point. I don't mind sharing it, since I really have nothing better to do.

>>5534948
Why mad? Shouldn't you get sad?

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>>5534977
Enlighten us on how we can achieve this level of hallucination

>>5534970

I'm talking about Bern. I don't care about that dollfreak Alice.

>>5534977
Regardless, everything you say is invalid.

This is my reality you're living in.

>>5534915

Good luck with that. If you can't help with anything she's doing then you are of no use to her.

>>5534950

Marisa's dad wasn't a loner obsessed with dolls. Neither was Suwako.

>>5534977
Aw, that sucks. She really could've used her to drag you out even further.

Canon Alice is the type of girl that grows affectionate with time.

Spend a few years in her house as a leech, trying not to bother her at all, and she'll eventually grow to love you like she would a household spider.

>>5535016
>Spend a few years in her house

Alice is known to be kind and let lost humans stay in her house but if you expect her to let you stay there for years then you have another thing coming.

>>5534988

1. Be unstable. I'm not sure if I had been genuinely depressed when I was in highschool, but I was put on medication for it. It fucked me up good. That may have something to do with my current level of instability.

2. Do the Ange thing of imagining a completely blank space with nothing in it, or your personal paradise. Work on creating your fantasies there.

That worked, at least for forced hallucinations. The lucid dreaming thing just came to me, probably because I had fallen asleep while experiencing the hallucinations.

>>5534978

I'd be sad if she just left for no reason. The fact that I know she's with someone other than me who happens to have a deeper connection is what infuriates me. I'd probably try to kill Lambda if she made me mad enough.

>>5535027
Is it possible to kill Lambda? Delusions aside, isn't she an immortal witch in Umineko? Can humans kill witches?

>>5535002

By "shut up" I mean "grovel on the floor and promise to never speak of it again." It wasn't needed, but I fucking begged for her to stay. Then she called me stupid for going to such extreme measures, followed by a comment on how I'm a good and loyal pet for being so submissive.

>>5535024
Then you could build a house right next to her house and live as her neighbor, going every morning to give her a gift, leaving it on her doorstep if she refuses to answer the door.

>>5535049
What would happen if you stopped resisting anything she did and just became completely and utterly submissive? Would she get bored and leave?

>>5535035

That's why I said "try." She'd probably put me through physical torture just for entertaining the idea, something I'm not fond of. Bern wouldn't really say anything about it or try to stop her, but still wouldn't approve because it lacks the finesse of sexual/mental torture.

>>5535062
Did you try imagining while you were going to sleep, or did you sit down somewhere or what?

>>5535051

Someone is persistent.

Just know that everyone has a breaking point.

>>5535061

Probably. She likes the fact that there will always be a bit of fight in me and constantly thinks of new ways to get me to admit that I'm her bitch. They all work. That's why she interrupts me any time I'm with someone other than her (most times a Touhou.) Not that she's jealous, but just to remind me that even if I try to "run" or escape, I'll always come back to her.

>>5535073

I think you misquoted something...what are you referring to.

For the record, shit like this is what infuriates me. I only have this picture because I like the artist's rendition of Bern.

at first I thought all the "lol you are autistic" shit on /jp/ was a retarded "u mad" spinoff.

Now, I'm not so sure.

Lain is my only waifu.

>>5535077
Love is not for the weak, and if only perseverance can show my love, then I shall be more persevering than the sun's constant shining on our planet.


I doubt she'd send her dolls on a friendly neighbor, though. I'd be more worried about things in the forest eating me once they learn Alice won't bother protecting me.

But even in the moments of my death, I would be banging desperately at Alice's door for help as I slowly get eaten, even knowing she wouldn't help me, just for the small hope that whatever that is killing me leaves my bones at her doorstep as a sign of my love.

>>5535094
>>5535027

>>5535099
Hide your new. It's showing too much.

>>5535099

It is.

I'm a pretty normal person and tend to hide the fact that I'm insane. I'm not sociable with most people because I have a disagreeable personality, but most of my friends tell me that I'm a nice guy who happens to look at everything sarcastically or cynically, and it's better to just ignore a large part of what I'm saying most of the time. I can't attest for the rest of the board, but autism isn't just being antisocial or asocial.

>>5535110

Whenever I was bored. I usually get tired when I'm bored, so it overlapped with me lying down to sleep for a little. I would end up going into a trance-like state for about 5 minutes, even though it would feel like an eternity.

>>5535094
What? So you want to be Bern's friend? Her lover? Her close acquaintance that she can feel at ease with?

>>5535119
>I'm a pretty normal person and tend to hide the fact that I'm insane. I'm not sociable with most people because I have a disagreeable personality, but most of my friends tell me that I'm a nice guy who happens to look at everything sarcastically or cynically, and it's better to just ignore a large part of what I'm saying most of the time

You're not antisocial. These are the kinds of things that people say to garner attention on the internet.

And, since it's /jp/, it's working.

>>5535141

My friends consist of around 10 people who I grew up with and a few others I lived with during my first year of college. I'm not really keen on getting to know most people, and was pretty much forced to get along with others from the start. I could lose a lot of my "friends" and feel indifferent about it, as opposed to others who grow attached. I'm social for the sake of appearances.

>>5535130

Lover, although it will never get much further than "pet."

>>5535169
What would you like different as a lover that you don't have as a pet?

>>5535196

Knowledge that she really loves me instead of feigning it. I'd want the abuse to be the same.

>>5535220
Ah, I guess that would be nice.

But can't you just pretend and have it worth the same?

>>5534888

This is a cool picture. And a good thread. It's been very interesting to read, Bern.

>>5535220

Also. How long have you had such vivid delusions? I hope I didn't read over that part.

>>5535256

When she calls me her plaything and treats me physically like a lover after viciously raping me (cuddling et al), it gets kind of confusing.

This thread

This thread

>>5535347

A little over 2 years ago.

>>5535352
I not just accept what comes instead of trying to reason it out?

>>5535363

Accept that she doesn't like me at all or keep a delusion within my delusion that she genuinely cares for and loves me?

>>5535372
The second one.

>>5535380

Well, I kind of already do that. My train of thought pretty much follows a "Why did she do this? Why did she abuse me? It hurt so much...but...she's cuddling me. She's comforting me...that means she loves me...doesn't it? She loves me, right? ;_;"

>>5535428
How does she cuddle you if she's so small? She can't wrap her arms around you, can she? Do you curl up in a little ball?

>>5535358

I see.

>>5535441

She's not that small. She treats me like a big hug pillow that sobs.

>>5535592
Daww.
How does she comfort you, though? Does she pet your head? Lay down on you?

>>5535610

All of the above in combination with calling me her pet. She also kisses me softly as I cry.

>>5534205
>>5534205

CONAN IS THAT YOU?

>>5535648
Is she heavy when she lies on you?

>>5535698

...no...she's really light and very soft. Why do you want to know all this?

>>5535714
I'm curious and you interest me infinitely.
I'd ask you to describe everything down to the very little detail (sans sex/rape), but I fear that'd be too blunt and scare you away.


Do you ever groom her? Brush her hair, etc?

>>5535725

There's nothing really to tell and it's already in the thread. She acts like a really good friend when not raping me, but does not hesitate to remind me that I am still her pet.

"Good friend" being my perspective. She's very cynical and jaded and tends to think a lot about "what if" scenarios if Murphy's Law was in full effect...pretty much, "What would happen if I made a Miracle happen...here? To that guy?"

Most times if I'm relaxing on a couch she's either lying on top of me and using me as a mattress or my head's in her lap and she's petting me like a dog. If I go to pet her hair she sometimes swats my hand away but allows it for the most part. She won't allow me to stroke her tail under any circumstances other than sex, but she likes taunting me with it.

>>5535813
Does she ever get bored around you outside? Why does she stick around if she can't torture you?

>>5535836

She likes watching people and thinking of all the possible ways to fuck up their day. Ever hear of schadenfreude? She loves watching misfortune happen to others. I do too, so I'm guessing she sticks around because I'm someone that she can discuss it with.

>>5535886
Has she ever nipaaed?

>>5535886
Does she ever make you do anything outside the bedroom?
That is, randomly force you to praise her name or something in public? Or give you a command to obey, or risk punishment later (or immediately)?

>>5535892

She's not Rika. She giggles a lot, but never goes "nipaa~"

>>5533947
>Do you guys think a virgin like me has a chance with Alice
In your head where you can imagine anything, yes.

>>5535903

Like, what do you mean? I'm not really a nice person to people I don't know well, and people I do know well I tend to treat a bit worse. She's not demanding that I be a dick because I already am one. She's also not vain so she doesn't want me proclaiming my love in public. She just critiques me on how I could have "better handled" situations.

>>5535119
>GENERIC TRIPFAG, BEING AN ATTENTION WHORE
And you wonder why people hate tripfags, seriously...

>>5533943

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>>5535924

I don't. Being an attention whore would mean I go around making people pay attention to me. Most times I post as anonymous, and only use my trip if I intend on being in the thread for a while.

>>5535924
Get over the whole tripfag thing dude, we've been done with that for ages. Either learn to love, take it easy, filter, or force anon. Going around spouting off about attention whoring tripfags just practically screams that you're new.

>>5535918
I don't know.
Does she try to rape you in a public place?

I'll remember this thread, /jp/. I'll fucking remember this.

>>5535948

No, but that's what the whole "tail teasing" thing comes in. She knows I love her tail, and she exploits that to no end. Sometimes she'll just start playing with it on her own and stare at me smugly because it drives me nuts...or if I'm lying down on her lap she'll dangle it over me and snatch it away the minute I try and touch it. Then she makes me beg for her sweet embrace so I can play with her tail.

>>5535941
Lol no, I can be pissed off about tripfags if I want to. All of them turn into attention whoring emofags that say something evangelion DEEP >>5535936
>I hate people that I don't know for no reason, but I'm telling you guys so that you will have an opinion of me, btw you guys are all anonymous so I hate you too
;~;

>>5535975
>Then she makes me beg for her sweet embrace so I can play with her tail.
I thought you said she never lets you touch it except during sex.
How does this work?

>>5535977
Well yeah, you can do whatever you want, nobody here can stop you. But you'll just being showing off that you're new to the board. If that doesn't mean anything to you then so be it.
Also considering your LINKIN PARK RULEZ level of resistance to establishment, your overusage of buzzwords, and the phrase "evangelion DEEP", I'm going to hazard a guess that you are a teenager, and you mostly post on /a/.

Did I guess correctly?

>>5536002
Wrong, I usually post on /sci/, I just like using trigger words that get people's attention, and pointing out the faults of others, especially when they try to attention whore and contradict themselves in the same sentence. It's what I do for fun.

>>5535981

Context. She'll either flaunt it by playing with it herself in front of me, wagging (? I'm not sure what the verb is for when a cat moves its tail) it around so that my attention is focused on it, or just dangle it in front of my face when I'm relaxing.

"You want to play with it, don't you?"

"...yes..."

"Do you REALLY want to play with my tail?"

"Please..."

"If you submit, I'll let you..."

It's pretty much one of the rewards I get for letting her treat me like a toy.

>>5536016
/sci/ huh. Well you're definitely still a teenager, only teenagers post there. Really you seem very rowdy and anti-social. Don't you think you should take on a more constructive hobby?

>>5536016

Doesn't that make you an attention whore yourself? It's pretty easy to pick out if all of one's post, even if they're anonymous.

You pointing out that I'm an attention-whoring tripfag isn't doing anything but stroking your own ego in some weird way. Nobody else gives a fuck and tends to ignore it. That's why there are 4chan mods to hide posts you don't like. You complaining, although anonymous is still being an attention whore. I just enjoy responding to anything, and tend to move on if I'm ignored.

>>5536017
What do you mean "submit"? It doesn't make sense in that context.
Praise her name? Call her your owner? Follow a random order of her's? Get on the ground and roll over?

I'm as far gone as Bern

>>5536041
>Implying that I don't know that this is the epitome of stroking my own ego
>Implying that I'll stop doing this because you pointed that out
>Implying that that fact that you are beginning to imply random facts about me doesn't ,make my statements about you any less truthful
Oh you tripfags

>>5536048

It's something that she says and I know what it means. It usually depends on what she wants, but she usually makes recite some mantra that I'm her pet, she owns me and she can do whatever she wants with me. Then she kisses me, and breaks out the rope and gag much to my protest that this isn't what I wanted...what happens from then on is detailed earlier in the thread, but she pretty much says in a really elegant way, "Oh shut up. You know you like it. You can't get enough of me, so stop kidding yourself."

>>5536053

Please refrain from using green text as implication statements. It's meant for quotations, thank you.

>>5536087
She gags you as well?

>>5536091

Sometimes, more often than not she wants to hear my protests and tends to shut me up by shoving her tongue in my mouth or her tail in my face, depending on position.

>>5536087
>Implying that showing what you implied isn't the same as quoting something
>Implying that I'll listen to an autistic attention whoring fag
Man, I need to find something else to do than argue with retards at 4:05 am.

>>5536102
You really have lost control of your life.

>>5536102

>autistic

I'm a functioning member of society. Also, maybe you should try sleeping. It's early evening here and I have a class, but being up at 4AM isn't really healthy unless you sleep during the day a lot.

>>5536101
Why do you love her tail so much?

>>5536115
>Functional member of society
>Teaching people how to become delusional and how delusional BERN is
It's summer, and underage b&s like me have nothing to do. Inb4 you imply that I came here this summer, and spilled over from /b/
Spoiler, neither would be true.

>>5533945

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>>5536132
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>>5536125

Because it's a tail. She's already sexy, but that tail adds a fantastic element to her, along with the blue hair and purple eyes. I'm also a cat person. I'm not sure why I like the tail, but I just do. Not that I don't love the rest of her, but the features I tend to focus on are her hair and tail.

...I feel like I should leave. I'm starting to drift off...like she's reading the posts over my shoulder and giggling.

"You know...you could just go home...and let me help you indulge in all your perversions...You know you want me to torment you, abuse you, and make you beg for more...so why not?"

I have a class in 15 minutes, god damn Bern and her sexiness.

>>5536132

I wasn't going to say anything of the sort. Methinks the fellow doth protest too much.

>>5536161
I can't relate to you, I like to dominate, not be dominated.

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>>5536167
Reported.

>>5536161
Alright, one more question then:
Have you ever kissed her on the lips while not having sex and/or when one or the both of you were consumed with lust?


>>5536169
But surrendering is so enjoyable.

>>5536175
So is smackin your waifu across the back of the head.

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>>5536161
do you fall asleep together after rape?

>>5536175

No.

>>5536203

She sleeps like a baby. I lie awake and tend to cry myself to sleep.

>>5536214
Do you believe that if you admitted something (I don't know what) to her, she'll go away?

>>5536223

She hasn't gone away when I admitted that she wasn't real. She tells me she isn't real all the time and that she's just my base desires given form.

But...I don't want her to go away. Ever. I'd miss her too much. ;_;

>>5536285
Well then that isn't it, stupid.
If denying it's existence doesn't work then it's something else.

Nice thread guys. I enjoyed reading it.

>>5536292

Don't make her disappear. I love her so much...

>>5536319
Stop calling it a her.

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>>5536344

Stop calling her an it. She makes me happy even if she isn't "real."

I feel kind of pathetic being so attached to her, though...but I still love her.

>>5536358
I'd call it sexual frustration with a face you can know and love but I'll get called out on that.
You obviously can't keep it under control.

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>>5536358

You sound fascinating. Tell her she does as well.