/jp/ - Otaku Culture

You are only as ronery as you feel.

Try being lonely a little longer. Wanting to masturbate in private does not count towards enjoying being alone.

so ronery? ;_;

No. I think someone is wrong with our brains, we're the children who should have died as infants. Oh well, time to leech off of society.

>>1089488
I've never had a comfortable conversation with someone.

Ah fellow loners. You'll never know how much i don't want to meet you.

>>1089495
Then it's you. I can hold conversations fine, it's just that I usually fake being interested.

It's not really about friends, but a sense of association and belonging. You are just communicating with other anonymouses here.

>>1089495
I haven't either, but I do long for a friend.

This picture makes me sad, I want to go ask for an autograph.

Anyway, I'm not ronery at all, I got plenty to do.

>>1089497
You mean you'd rather hang out with someone you can't relate with?

I'm too busy with visual novels to be ronery

so holny

I have few good friends.
However I only have two BFF you know the type of friend that you grew up with and that by this point in your life are basically family that will be with you until the day you die.

>>1089540
I wish to be you.

Story behind this pic?

>>1089540
you mean childhood friends?

>>1089540
Aw, I didn't grow up with anyone.
Don't come here to tell your happy life.

I heard that this pic was taken few minutes before opening the whole place, so it's not like no one ever came to him for an autograph.

>>1089516
I'd rather not hang out with anyone mostly. I have a bunch of friends who I meet about once a month and I get along with anyone as long as they're not hypersocial or too outwardly emotional. Still, I'm not interested in people, their thoughts or their feelings.

I spend most of my free time alone on the internet, reading, gaming or whatever unwinds me best. On the outside I probably seem quiet, aloof and arrogant and I have little patience for stupidity.

>>1089540
Normalfag.

>>1089547
I guess you can call them that
>>1089548
Isn't it sad Anonymous? ;_;

I have a single friend and a shitton of acquaintances (because I'm at University and I'm not totally antisocial.)

Sadly, except for the single friend, the others always tell me about useless bullshit that I don't care about, like sport or parties or shit like that.

I'm very ronery and not happy about it. Oh well.

sage for blog etc

>>1089482
No, you're not. I actually prefer being by myself.

I hate being ronery but I can't do anything about it.

All my childhood friends ended up drifting apart due to bad circumstances.

>content
>ronery
I don't think it's possible to be both. You're either content with being alone, or feeling ronery. You might accept your lonely fate, but that's not being content.
That said it's very well possible to not be lonely even if you spend all your time alone, without friends, etc. It's called being an introvert, though I'm probably much more introverted than most from what I can tell since I don't miss human contact at all.

I've noticed I'm happiest when I can go for long periods of time with the least possible human contact. I do however notice that while I'm happier, it also becomes kind of stagnant.

There are some who are ronery by poor social skills
>>1089495
>>1089516

There are also some who are ronery by being self obsessed assholes.
>>1089554

Not many people are "happy" being ronery. More they put up with it and pretend it's what they want.

You faggots need to realize that "lonely" is a feeling of emptiness and isolation, RESULTING from being alone, not being alone itself.
Those two are very different. Not everyone feels lonenly from fapping to animu all day without going outside for weeks. Though that might be somewhat of a rarity when I look at all those shitty ronery threads.

I have friends, talk to numerous people daily, have a variety of interests that goes beyond /jp/ and am in education.

>>1089678

Are you saying it's perfectly ordinary to not see people for weeks and be totally fine about it? Believe me, that is not the norm.

>>1089687
That's not what he said at all...

>>1089687
Did you ever learn to read?

>>1089680
That sounds nice.

>>1089696

Actually no, I can't read it all.

>>1089696

Actually no, I can't read at all.

I used to have friends back in high school but I cut off my connections with them. What sucked is that they never had the same interests as me, and I couldn’t get them into mine. My friends would always ask me what I would do on the computer; of course I'm not going to say, "I've been watching anime, playing VNs, etc, etc. But one day I decided maybe it would be okay to slightly, JUST SLIGHTLY, reveal my power level, maybe something interesting could have happened, just maybe I could share my hobbies with one of them. So again, when the question came up, I said that I watched anime. You can guess what ensued after that. Oh boy do I regret that.

For some reason, even though I always treated them well, I ended up getting turned into “the backup friend”, the person you turn to when everyone else had gotten angry with you. Once their problem would be solved I would get abandoned and they would go back to their other friends, over, and over. I also remember always giving advice to them if they were going to do something stupid, but they would never listen to me. For example: “I’m going to go steal that kids money tomorrow” and I would say something along the lines of “Why are you going to do that? Are you fucking retarded? You know what’ll happen, right? Someone is going to catch you and you’re going to get fucked in the ass, don’t do it.” “Nah, I won’t. Trust me. I know what I’m doing.” The next day, he gets caught. I’ll say to him, “I told you this was going to happen, why don’t you just listen to me? I always tell you the same thing over and over and the outcome is the same” “Meh, I guess you’re right.” Now repeat that 100 times.

>>1089862
I also got sick of hearing their constant bullshit about what they did at parties, what new disgusting 3D porn they would be circlejerking about, how much pot they smoked, how naïve and idiotic they were, what they did with their new girls each week, and listening to how they could “beat the shit” out of anyone they wanted to, and how much trash they talked about everyone. Oh, and backstabbing, me included. There was just so much fucking bravado to the point where it became exasperating. I especially loathed getting insulted because of my ambiguous physical traits. (read: trap), because not only did everyone at school laugh at me, my friends did too. Seriously, I never did anything to them, why would I even deserve that? Whenever I decided to stay home instead of going out they would bombard me with countless arguments and insults, saying I was a loser, etc. Let’s not forget how they always tried to scam me for money. All of these things made me fucking sick. They weren’t ever like this before. These were my childhood friends, and I had to see them derail into fucking dickheads.

tl;dr, friends fucking suck.

>>1089864
Those are the wrong kind of friends.

Friendships tend to have more longevity when neither side requires or nags about constantly having to go to parties and hang out. Same with dependency. If a friend burdens you with their problems and is in need of help all the time, it won't last. Helping a friend should be something done happily and it has to work both ways. Also, the quickest way to lose a friend is to lend them money.

When friendships have developed long enough, they tend not to look such from the outside. You do the thing you both enjoy together but otherwise leave each other in piece.

>>1089864

You made friends with the wrong people, it happens sometimes. I'd just ditch them, when I was in high school I found 5 or 6 people who were into anime and video games as much as me and we became (and still are) friends. The thing was though, that I had no idea they were into that stuff until I'd been there for several years, as we all concealed power levels(Admittedly some better than others).

>>1089864

I had a friend like that once, but I kept absolutely refusing to steal or vandalise whenever he tried to get me to. I always lectured him on how it was wrong and he ended up getting pretty annoyed. We kind of fell out for a while and became friends again a year or so later when we were out of high school and he told me he'd given that stuff up and to be honest he's pretty decent now.

I have a job and whatnot, but I have no real friends. Noone has visited my house for about 6 years now.

But hell, with the internet what it is now, how can you really complain about loneliness?

>>1089983
I lend money alot but meh i never get paid back, but it doesnt bother me much.

>>1089864
You're a fucking pushover doormat.

I've got some friends I grew up with and sometimes we hang together to watch a movie, play some D&D or just go out doing nothing.
...thank you, now I feel much less ronery.

There's only one person I really talk to, but he's somewhat a normalfag. We get along pretty well, although the only thing we really have in common is how much we play the vidya. I'm forced hide my powerlevel still though. Also, it is always awkward getting into social situations with people he knows and they bring up porn. Unless the topic of 2D lolis comes up (not a chance in hell), I'll never be able to do anything but stare into space. I do wonder what people whould have to say about my lolis though.

>>1089983

I lend people money all the time not expecting to get paid back. Only if they actually need it though, I won't buy them something pointless.

we bitch about our lives but i think normal fags have pretty shit lives too. they're just going to get married, have kids, get divorced and be like FUUCKK. its pretty much the same shit anywhere

>>1090186

Except they had fun between 16-50 years of age.

>>1090173
Don't kid yourself and wonder. They'd think you're a sick fuck. I guarantee it.

>>1089862
Yeah, those are the wrong kind of friends. I used to have a group of friends back in high school. One day, one of them asked me what I thought of the rest of the guys so I expressed myself: This one always ditches us when there some girl nearby (and tries to pick her up), this other one is pretty closed and doesn't say much, etc. Next day they all ignore me and move away from my seat, when I try to talk to them they don't even look at me or reply. Shit sucked.

I have that friend who thinks I like "Japanese techno music"

I WANT A WOMAN

>>1090195
I don't think they'll be having much fun flipping hamburgers.
make that having fun from 16 to 21.

>>1090177
Then you're doing it right. Gifts are fine, loans are trouble.

>>1089864
you were a pushover, and sound like an asshole.

I had a friend that treated me like shit, too. we were best buds up until 7th grade, then he became this huge asshole to me for some reason, but it was a very small school and I wasn't ready to be a loner yet. stuck around like a beaten wife, nowhere else to go and if there was it wouldn't be any better than this
I managed to man up a year later. It sucked, but looking back it was the best choice I could make.

still ronery, though :(

>Am I the only one in /jp/ who's perfectly content being ronery?

You're the only one who starts threads to blog about it.

well, according to this http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
i'm schizotypal, so it's only natural i'm ronery.
also pic related, it's a ronery youkai

I remember highschool. I was that kid in the back of the class that didn't talk. Every day I had to deal with the jackasses who would ask me why I don't socialize, the asshats that would turn all 'XD OMG HE SAID SOMETHING' when I answered a question in class, and the occasional 'Are you a serial killer?' faggots. The only thing I regret about it all was when my entire family came to my graduation and watched as everyone else smiled and talked while I stood there, alone. The only difference in my life now is that I have to deal with coworkers telling me this shit.

I never had, nor will have any friends in the future. A life without friends is truly the best.

>>1090273
This is exactly why I didn't go to my graduation.

>>1089546
Virgil at Convention, picture was taken before they opened to let people in, either way so ronery ;_;

>>1090273
;_;

>>1090273
>the asshats that would turn all 'XD OMG HE SAID SOMETHING' when I answered a question in class
Holy fucking shit, this shit pissed me off so fucking much.

>>1089605
I lost touch with most of my old neighborhood friends, one turned into a druggie ;_;

>>1090273

>I was that kid in the back of the class that didn't talk. Every day I had to deal with the jackasses who would ask me why I don't socialize, the asshats that would turn all 'XD OMG HE SAID SOMETHING' when I answered a question in class, and the occasional 'Are you a serial killer?' faggots.

Ugh, I remember that. It wasn't even that I didn't talk, just that I didn't talk to most of them for fairly obvious reasons. Being asked when you're going to burn down the school really gets old fast.

OH (little) BOY, I CAN'T WAIT TO BOMB SOME OF THE HIROSHIMAS

>>1090273
Man, knowing that you're a failure is one thing, but showing it to your whole family like that?
My dad's smart and knows me well, but my mother wouldn't sit well with that, even though I hang around the house a lot.

>>1090308
That's got to be annoying.
I used to answer every single question because participation was a factor in grades.

In High School, I used to always pretend I was sleepy and slept through the times in class when everyone was usually socializing with another.

Truth was, I had no one to talk to, and I didn't feel the urge to talk with others.

>>1090273
>Every day I had to deal with the jackasses who would ask me why I don't socialize,
Hey that happened to me.
>the asshats that would turn all 'XD OMG HE SAID SOMETHING' when I answered a question in class
Hey that happened to me. Also when I answered their "Why don't you socialize" questions.
>and the occasional 'Are you a serial killer?' faggots.
Strangely, that didn't happen.

>The only thing I regret about it all was when my entire family came to my graduation and watched as everyone else smiled and talked while I stood there, alone.
I love my family too much to let them know I'm a failure* ;_;

So I didn't go to my graduation.

* My family cares a lot about me for some odd reason. The only reason I haven't offed myself yet is because I love them too much to make them cry over me.

>>1090333

yeesh i hated "Ok get into groups!" jesus...flashbacks

>>1090195
Actually, staying home and playing video games/watching animu is a lot more fun. It's actually designed to be fun.

While putting on a facade and making friends make seem like they are having fun, they are crying on the inside. Just like the rest of us.

This thread makes me regret some things about how I treat my friends.

They come over, or give me calls just to hear if I'm okay because they know I tend to shut myself from everyone from time to time. They try to drag me out of my apartment and do something else than spending time by myself.

I guess I'm luck...

>>1090346
Oh god the akwardness ;_;

I talked fine to people and usually people came to me for the "OK GET INTO GROUPS!" moments. I never really hung out with people though which they thought was strange, because everyone liked me for some reason but I wouldn't hang around socializing with them endlessly because I didn't fucking want to goddamn people were annoying.

>>1090333

I would always read books during class. This one cute girl in class only recognized my Stephen King because her mom also reads King.

>>1090333

I didn't pretend to be sleepy, I actually slept because I had been up all night playing video games and shit. Of course by that point in my life I had already decided I couldn't care less about my grades or anything.

>>1090357
I got luck, without socializing, I was always picked in football 'cause I'm quite good at it.

>>1090365
Stephen King is trash and they couldn't even identify him? Jesus christ, school is terrible.

>>1090346
reminds me of this

>>1090360
>thanks moot
moot actually didn't do shit because he doesn't care about /jp/. It was probably just some touhoufag mod who banned the OP for not posting touhou.

haha i'd say "we should throw a party" but i know how that one goes -- even if we did manage to get past the shyness factor, it'd still reek of stink feet and moldy ass...

>>1090371

You have no idea the kind of hellhole I went to. The fact I got into college at all is a miracle.

>>1090372

That hit real close to home. ;-;

>>1090372
FUCCCKKKKKKK

Hey, /jp/, have you ever had a birthday party ?

When was the last time anyone gave you a gift for christmas or your birthday.

>>1090372

Kagamin Bocchi... ;_;

>>1090365

Oh, I did that too. At one point I came across a Satanic Bible and figured if I read that in school I'd get annoyed by people asking me stupid questions a lot less. It worked, but oddly enough caused the 2nd hottest girl in my school to start talking to me. She was pretty smart, too, I actually enjoyed shooting the shit with her about random topics.

Wasn't a very interesting read, though, and I certainly wouldn't recommend it anywhere with a goth presence.

>>1090400
Why do Tomoyo and Nagisa go to the same college?

>>1090376
but... we're in /touhou/

>>1090347
>While putting on a facade and making friends make seem like they are having fun, they are crying on the inside. Just like the rest of us.
You never know how the normalfag mind works.

I used to be a pretty normal guy. Decent social life, plenty of close friends, able to get a girlfriend now and then (read once every 2 years or so) and I was generally pretty happy.

Then something went wrong. I can't remember what exactly, but I think it was to do with getting too interested in animé, coupled with the vidya. I started coming out less when asked. So, I started being asked to come out less.

Now, I'm 21, unemployed, dropped out of Uni 3 times (what a huge waste of money), go out maybe once every 2 weeks (if I'm lucky), and only have 2 real friends who, I think, are starting to get sick of me too. I'm a paranoid introvert who's afraid of getting a job and going out because it involves meeting and talking to people.

IT. FUCKING. SUCKS.

Ronery sucks. That is all. Thank you for reading.

>>1090395
I refuse gifts and people have tried to hold birthday parties for me before but I told them, "No." I hate shit like that. I don't mind giving gifts, but receiving them makes me exceedingly uncomfortable.

>(USER WAS AWESOME FOR THIS POST)

Ugh highschool, thank god universities are idiot proof.
Though being smart helped, especially when your "classmates" asked for help, seeing their face when you answer them back "Stop bothering me." and smiling at them like an asshole, it's just priceless.

>>1090398
Anton something's satanic bible ?
god, I read that crap.

It's really hilarious, only the teenage faggots would take this shit seriously.

I thought it was cool enough ;_;

i befriended fellow loners near me by showing them more of my power level. and now i don't feel so ronery

>>1090414
>Ugh highschool, thank god universities are idiot proof.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Well fuck, I haven't laughed that hard in a while, and it was in a ronery thread.

>>1090414
I used to help people all the time.

Not out of generosity, but because if I help them, they won't work and will fail at the exams.

And it worked, helping people is making them weak.

I ranked fist for all high school.

>>1090418

Yeah, that one. I was hoping for something a little more Satanic, but no, pretty much just hedonism. Didn't like it very much but the book served its purpose.

>>1090408
I'm too afraid to enroll in a uni because of all the people. Now I'm stuck in a dead in job, that I can at least tolerate because the people I work with don't bother talking to me or starting shit.

Sweet justice.

not everyone was this lucky
I had to wait till the teacher finally notice me sitting by myself and announce who would pair up with me
hilarity ensues

>>1090346
>"Ok get into groups!"
This and breaks are the two things I hated the most. When we had to get into groups I'd always end up being alone.

>(USER WENT TO HELL FOR THIS POST)

>>1090444
I wish I had a dead end job. I can't even work if I offer to do it for free. That's right, not even volunteer places will take me. Faggots.

>>1090451
>>1090451
>>1090451
>>1090451
This.

>"Ok get into groups!"

I'd always bolt for a group of normalfags. I didn't even care if they made me do all the work, it was better than the embarrassment of being alone.

I'm sure I only got hired in the first place because of my size. I'm 6'8" and have decent sized muscles from other shitty stocking jobs I worked.

My father made me organize a party. Which he "supervised", he spent most of it checking out fifteen year old girl's asses and giving out beer. I'm still not sure if he did it because he wanted me to become some sort of extrovert party animal like he used to be or just because he wanted to look at young girls. He's still a fucking loser but sometimes I can't tell if I should hate him or like him.

>>1090408
I think most people like that just find a niche that they fall into; no one to talk to thus playing video games all day, etc. I loved games as a kid and had friends, but at some point it just turned to just me and my Nintendo and Genesis.

Sort of like the old ladies that have 50 cats in her house.

>>1090480
Congratulations, your father is a normalfag pedo!

Fucking groups, I hated that shit. But usually either there was one of those super-nice girls who would take pity on me and get me into her group and make sure I didn't have to do all the work on my own, or I'd get recruited into a group by virtue of everyone else being retarded and thus making me look like a genius. At which point it was exactly like doing a solo assignment except with a bunch of idiots jibber-jabbering in close proximity.

Well... I have two goof friends, although I don't talk or visit them that much now that school is over.

One I know since elementary. He is a good bloke, and probably smarter than me, but lazy as hell. But he is popular with the others. He hardly visits them on his own, it's that THEY always come to him.

He also tries to avoid the problems of friends. It's okay when they want to talk to him about that... but he'd never ask on his own "Is something wrong?".

The other one is a geek/normalfag hybrid. You know, towards the end of school he started to socialize, but still is a big geek when it comes to anime and tabletop. But what pisses me off is he always rubs his social life under my nose, telling me cliche-like how nice this person is, and that you need to greet your co-workers and befriend them. The thing is, it's a part time job with people I don't want to know better. It's work, period. And then he tells me "And how do you want to meet people like that?"

I sometimes suspect he needs to show how "good" he became by socializing. Sometimes, I wonder why I call him my fried, especially when he talks about stuff like "That's what friends are for. Friends need to help each other etc.". When I talked to him about how I sometimes feel neglected by them, he wanted to come over to talk. It's strange, really. Then again he appears nice but can spit poison when you don't look.

And my graduation was okay. Because all my classmates were more or less acquaintances.

>>1090458

Oh god that. Everyone went ahead and paired up with whom they spent the most outside of the house time,but since I never left the house 3.5/4ths of the time I was alone.

The other .5 is when they liked my sense of humor that I express when I talk or they think whatever has to be done will be easier with me since im usually VERY on top of things.

I loathe when teachers did that it made me realize how ronery I am. ;_;

>>1090346

aggh i feel you...lunch wasn't too fun for me either, coming in during Sophomore year to a new high school and straight out of Juvie for the past 6 months was a tough adjustment, so making friends was difficult...suffice to say my HS years were difficult and i passed with straight D's, i never went to class instead i ditched to hang out at a LAN center to play Day of Defeat.

>>1090458
I hated breaks. I would always think "you asshole teacher! If you were doing your job...", but then I come to realize it was just because everyone was goofing off and I was the only one reading or doing homework, and that made me mad and hate myself for not having fun, too

Teachers like that have a retarded way of teaching, though

I can point out the exact moment in my life where everything went wrong.

When I was a kid, I played the vidya a lot but still had plenty of friends. I got along with everyone and I even played soccer. It was looking as though I would grow up to be a normalfag. That was until one day, when I was in 5th grade. I was walking with a group a kids I played soccer with after some school program with animals in it. I brought up the fact that one of them resembled a pokemon and one of my 'friends' said something along the lines of "all you ever talk about are video games". It wasn't true, I'm sure it was just that one kid I managed to piss off somehow; but from that day foward I vowed to myself I would never speak unless spoken to. I followed through with it and before I knew it I had no friends, no life, and now I was giant weeaboo. I guess that plan completely backfired.

depressing thread is depressing

>>1090524
Kids say the darnedest things!

>>1090269
That seems like a good, reliable test, let's see what it says!

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

Right. I don't think you should listen to closely to that test. If you think you are schizoid/shizotypal, go see a shrink - these are disorders we're talking about here.

>>1090546

But internet tests never lie! Are you trying to tell me I don't have a 387 IQ and I'm not the reincarnation of Sephiroth? Pshaw!

>>1090546
The test listed me as Paranoia: Very High, but I don't trust online tests.

>>1090524

Holy shit, yes. I can relate. I always keep my mouth shut because I'm afraid of saying something so stupid, that everyone who heard what I said will call me out on it and tell me how stupid/pathetic I sound.

I don't deal with criticism or humiliation well at all. It kneads at my mind for days/weeks/months and sometimes, if I feel I made myself look particularly stupid, years after.

I think my problem is that I always take things too much to heart, and I don't really feel that anything I say has any value to it. I also hate my laugh, so I'm doing that less too.

I generally hate myself, and this is why I am ronery.

I had a normal social life throughout school (minus the gf), then became a hermit three years ago. I'm probably happier now than I was before. The thought of going back to my old friends really depresses me... I used to hang around dumb people at school so I wouldn't be nerd, but I don't think I'll go back to that. I believe it's still more fun for someone who is a nerd at heart to hang out with normal people than other nerds. Nerds are just depressing to hang out with, even if they talk about video games more.

The best kind of friend you can have is another person who is a nerd at heart who is trying to be cool. I knew a guy who was a computer programmer/vidya game nerd when he was at home, but also was one of the coolest guys in the year with a gf and great social life.

>>1090524
With me it was my best friend. I was a childish little shit then, and I noticed my best friend always.. ALWAYS had to do exactly what I was doing, following me around like a puppy. With everything from going to places, to getting new hobbies, learning instruments. And I "wanted to be a speshal snowflake" like the little bitch I was so as soon as he got interested in the same stuff I was, I would abandon it. Eventually I grew bitter and started doing stuff with him less and less till I became so bitter I was a shut-in nothing.

>>1090524
FUUUCKKKK

I don't understand all the IT'S GOOD TO BE RONERY people. I've got a small family by normal standards (Mom, Dad, and a sister - older, faggots, I'm the younger) and they're all as nerdy as I am. They watch anime with me, my dad has played several VNs, fuck, they've even tried Touhou once or twice. So even if you only have a few friends in school, who gives a shit? Your family should always be there to back you up.

In b4 I get saged.

>>1090551
I think the FBI is logging the results of those tests.

Oh god, this is sad

I mean I've had my share of awkward social mishaps and misfortunes, I can relate to a lot of the stories here

But really just move on there's no need to dwell on old shit

>>1090524
I had a similar childhood moment.

It was in the fifth grade. I left a class for awesome people to hang with the normalfags. I had made a single friend. I made that friend on the playground, where a teacher was smugly proud that I was talking to people. But it wasn't me who talked to him, he approached me. And observing this, I thought, "This may well be the last friend I ever have."

And it was true.

>>1090572
Did you mean you don't understand all the "IT'S NOT GOOD TO BE RONERY PEOPLE" or what? Otherwise the rest of your post doesn't seem to make sense.

>>1090524
I made a similar vow that backfired too, but I would have told that kid to fuck off. Never speak ill of Jigglypuff, god dammit.

Middle school is generally when you start to get pressured, knowingly or not, on how to think or see things in a different way. "Put the toys down and be in the IT crowd", but I knew that was bullshit. Actually, arrogance bit me in the ass on that one, too.

>>1090572

What does enjoying being alone have to do with your family? You don't think that everyone who likes isolation got kicked out and disowned by their parents, do you?

>>1090200

I WANT A MAN (femanon)

Disregard the shitty motivator attempt, this is pretty fucking accurate.

>>1090597
Are you a whale?

>>1090597

No. Out. Back to /r9k/.

>>1090572
Most of us, at least the ones that aren't underage b&, have already graduated from school.

>>1090572
I've been playing the vidya since the NES around my family so they're used to it. My siblings play games with me still at times and my parents comment on how realistic they look at times; but if I was to ever reveal my powerlevel even slightly, people would think there was soemthing wrong with me for watching 'them cartoons for jap kids'. It doesn't help that my family is full of rednecks and wiggers.

I am ashamed of my family, as my brother thinks Death Note is brand new and awesome.

>>1090603
Generic text is generic.

>>1090408

I'm sorry :( *hugs*

>>1090637
>:( *hugs*
what the fuck

Ronery thread?

Let's see... Rather normal school life, I suppose, even though I was the guy everyone picked on when they had the chance. Which is why I stayed inside reading books during breaks (and classes...). High school (different from elementary) was worse, but I got through it with okay grades, and no friends - the few who spent time with me were... odd, and I didn't much like them. College was better, and I almost socialized a bit with people - I even met my first girlfriend during college, although it was at a summer camp, and she lived 500 from me, so it ended after a few weeks (the first time 'round) - I did lose my virginity to her when I was 18, though. (cont'd)

>>1090603
This is srsly as true as it can possibly get sadly...

>>1090647

Dropped out of college, and I'm now 25, no education to speak of, and working nights at a local warehouse. I've enough money to go on a holiday, which I will do next week, and I've been thinking of going to Ireland actually, but once there I won't do anything - there's nothing I want to see, and there's nobody I want to meet there... I can just see it end with me sitting at a café or pub somewhere with my sketchbook, drawing stuff. After a week I will return home, start up the computer and head over to /jp/.

The few girlfriends I've had I've broken up with for various reasons - most of them didn't live anywhere nearby, and I seriously doubt they could understand or accept my loli/incest/guro collection. Anime and manga in general haven't been a problem, but I really, really don't dare reveal the fucked up parts of me. But at the same time I feel that I don't really need a girlfriend.

I've a guy downtown that I chat with, every now and then, but other than that, it's the usual bullshit chatting going on at work "How was your weekend, horrible weather we've got, played any new games lately?"

To be honest, right now I don't really need people in my life. I'm still - probably - going to Ireland though, if only for a change of scenery. It'll end with me sitting at an internet cafe, I'm sure.

Whoa, blog post. Also, pic unrelated.

>>1090524

I wish I could trace it back like you. There was at some point a small event that had a great impact on my psyche, but I can't for the life of me remember it.

I used to enjoy answering questions in school, but apparently I must've made a really stupid mistake on something simple. Because at some point many years ago, something changed and I became overwhelmed with self-doubt. All of a sudden I can't answer the simplest questions without double and triple checking to make sure I'm not screwing something up. I'm talking everything from the simplest 2+2 arithmetic on up. It's not as if it only applies in real life, it is in full effect even on 4chan. Before I submit my post I have to do a quick google to make sure I'm spelling that name right, or make sure I got the wording of that quote right, or what the fuck ever. I like my 'ronery' life, but this self-doubt bullshit displeases me. I used to be carefree and what people thought meant nothing to me, then it made a complete 180 and made me miserable. And possibly what annoys me most is that I don't know why.

>>1090649
That's because this generalisation encompasses about half of the white people on earth.
Or at least, what half the white people think they are.

It's quite hard to be more general.

>>1090661
Err, it's quite normal to check yourself.
I do it all the time.
Really, nothing abnormal here.

>>1090269
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
I hate weak people.

I felt lonely a lot during university, I didn't make any friends (read: uni ISN'T idiot-proof for socially-retarded people); the only people I hung out with were a few housemates occasionally. I think my case is rare because I managed to get through all of university, living away from home, without ever entirely breaking out of that teenage, angsty shyness.

Fortunately, I have always managed to maintain a good relationship with my childhood friends from school, so I have drinking buddies. Still, I regret the fact my adult personality has been formed through experiences of greater loneliness and social alienation, rather than the feelings of liberation and the shrugging off of inhibitions that most uni-goers report.

>>1090572
All my parents did when I was growing up was fight about money and drill into me that I was a worthless piece of shit who should have never been brought to the world.

I haven't talked to them in years. I hope they're dead.

>>1090681
Oh my god, we should totally be friends, like! I'm
>>1090546

Chances are I wouldn't be able to stand you, though.

>>1090661
I have problems double checking myself as well. I'll delete my posts if I so much as find one spelling error. The same goes to every conversation I have, I won't talk about something unless I'm 100% sure I know all of the facts.

>>1090709
This is normal, stop trying to be special.

>>1090720
Actually, no it isn't. I'm normal and I don't do that shit. Are you fucking neurotic?

>>1090597

I WANT A WOMAN! God you guys are depressing

OP's pic always makes me sad.

>>1090654

Eh man im in the same boat as you 25, unemployed sigh. I just want to leave.

>>1090736
Checking what you write is normal, I wouldn't send an error ridden e-mail to my boss and neither would you.

Not checking what you write or what you quote is a proof of laziness and negligence.

>>1090671

Not when taken to extremes. I won't open my mouth unless I am 300% sure I am absolutely correct about even the smallest details. I sometimes check the same simple math equation like 5 times to make sure I didn't fuck something up somehow.

>>1090735
I WANT LOTS OF MONEY AND TO BE LEFT COMPLETELY ALONE!

I was doing fine in highschool

A few people annoyed me but I had a decent number of friends. Went to parties (never held my own birthday parties tho, just felt awkward), socialized, play vidya and talked about animu a little during my senior year

Then came college and it went down hill completely....worst part is, our college has very few true single rooms. So when room selection comes and you don't have a roommate...and you don't get a highpick (we have a lottery system that determines who picks first)....yeah...enough said

I don't have or the need to have friends.

I hate saying I have some social anxiety disorder because it always feels like I'm making excuses for myself, but I really think I have it ;_;

SO RONERY

ARE YOU GUYS RONERY?

>>1090765
I didn't realize I was sending important notices to my boss when submitting posts to 4chan. My mistake.

>>1090794

TELL YOU WHAT WHY DONT YOU COME ON OVER TO MY PLACE FOR LUNCH?

>>1090796
Boss or anyone else, fact is, you would consider anyone not caring about writing badly to be an idiot.

>>1090772
You could get lucky and end up with another "leaves you alone and keeps clean" Anonymous.

I HAVE CAKE!

Oh I was starting to wonder the same thing OP.

>>1090794
>>1090800
>>1090825

It's like I'm really on /b/!

>>1089482
There was a point in my life when I simply stopped caring.
Before I would force myself to relate to people I didn't like, watching movies that I thought were shit, or following soccer matches even thought I hate that, just to have something to talk about with them.
Then I gave up, I figured up it's my character and something that won't change, so as long as I can live by myself I'm fine.
Sometimes I'd look out of the window, or while I'm driving or simple while I'm buying something, and see a young couple laughing together, thinking to myself that I'm lucky since I won't never need to look out for another person, never bother with a family, I'll just go on with my easy life never having something to live for.

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Very High
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

Hm...

>>1090839

Ha, I'm the exact opposite. I really do enjoy the normal stuff as well as all the weeabo and weird shit

I always have things to talk about when people come up to me or they bring up a topic, but that's where it stops. I talk to these people, we laugh, but in the end we go our separate ways, they go to their friends, I go back alone

>>1090853

Jesus why are you fags taking this test, if you think you have some sort of mental problem go get properly evaluated, i did several times and i get full disability benefits, full health care and a check every month, we have a system in place ABUSE IT.

>>1090874
Do you live in one of those European socialist paradises?

>>1090874
Are you in the US? Where does one go to find a list of these disorders that will land me a government check?

>>1090874

Not everyone lives in a welfare state. Plus, assuming they actually have real problems, they're probably problems that keep them from wanting to actually talk to a real psychologist.

That said, taking the test is retarded. What is wrong with you people? Go back to livejournal.

>>1090709
Oh god the memories... I was like that in grade school and middle school. I had a mentality like an old man when i was a kid, so i refused to play their stupid games, play ball etc. just because i was oh so mature. Now i hate myself for that. When i got into high school i lost that mentality, and started acting stupid and made mistakes and stuff. I hate myself for that too. Right now I'm in between. Too arrogant to accept mistakes, but i do them all the time.

Made me remember back in middle/high school i was being bullied by a kid who was younger than myself. Truly pathetic. Every single day when i was driving home in the bus i would play my CD-Player at full volume so that i couldn't hear if people was talking about me. But than he would just pull my hair (inb4 Trap), make even younger kids do it and "train" them to be bullies/minions. Every single day i would imagine myself slaughtering that bastard. One day he was pulling my hair i gathered enough courage to take off my headphones so that i could ask him to stop bothering me, but as soon as i took them off he just started laughing at me and ridiculing me with all his little friends. At that moment i cant remember what happened, but the day after he didn't bother me. Actually he never talked to me for a very long time. It just annoys me that i cant remember what the fuck happened in the bus that day. But now a couple years after he bothers me every single time he sees me. Fuck i hate rural towns.

Let's see what we have here...

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Very High
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

As a psychology major slated to graduate this coming semester, I call shenanigans. An online test is far from a valid diagnostic tool, but these results are laughable.

>>1090901
That's really sad.

>>1090894

Just research a mental disorder and go into your Social Security office and ask to apply for Social Security Income, its not fucking welfare, and by law you are NEVER required to under go any type of treatment...ever!

Hey does anybody want to talk to me?

sb8807902@gmail.com

>>1090937

oh and yes US, Cali which is even better since i also got my medicinal marijuana card with no problem "ughhh im sick durrrrr, thanks lol"

Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

Well thats fun.

ITT losers.

>>1090949

do you have tits?

>>1090949
I hope you like old men dicks

>>1090949
What a nasty "personal army" that would be. Hundreds of lonely men wanting to talk.

>>1090967
NO U

>>1090967
Well gee.

>>1090901
This reminded me of a group of bullies I knew in middle school. Every day at school they would harass me, always starting shit. I'm suprised none of us got into a fight. When I got into high school I never saw any of them again, until my senior year. It turns out their leader became a giant christfag and I ended up having a decent conversation with him at one point, how truly weak minded he was. I got a job at a local store after I graduated and I saw another one of them. He had gained at least a hundred pounds, had a huge gut, dressed like shit, and smelled like ass. I laughed a little on the inside.

I was pretty normal for a kid, growing up with decent grades even when you play a lot of vidya gaems. But after one summer I got really fat, then all of a sudden everybody, including my own friends, started picking on me and just me.

At first I didn't mind it but it got worse, so what I did was try to socialize with them ever more. It did NOT work. So I tried being the anti-social kid, still didn't work. They only stopped after an incident where I lashed out and bit one of them on the arm, and it was deep enough to tear his skin and flesh open. I got beaten up really badly by his "gang" but after that they got expelled so I still somewhat won in the end.

After that I slowly drifted away from everyone else, which was also the same time I got into anime, then manga, then jmusic, then whatever. Also the time I went through my 'fucking weeaboo' phase, complete with the screaming nonsensical Japanese phrases and using anipike as the holy grail of getting your anime/manga info from.

I always had friends in high school. We never did anything outside of school, but I had friends to talk to while I was there. It was nice.

I really miss having friends, but now that I'm about to graduate from college, I feel like I'm below the level of everyone else. They have all experienced life, they have licenses, they have had girlfriends/boyfriends, they have had sex, they've had jobs, some have had kids. I just feel like I got left behind and there is no way to catch up.

I want to hug the bunch of you really tight and say you're not alone anymore.

Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:Low

Is this good?

>>1091022

But I want to be alone. If you hug me, it will be an awkward experience for both of us.

Paranoid:High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic:High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

>>1091035
You are the only person who took the test honestly, congratulations.

>>1091010
You haven't really missed out, and you're still young as a college grad

You definitely don't want fucking bratty kids at your age

>>1091010

same

>>1091002
I started slimming down during my last years in high school, since that was finally when my growth spurt kicked in. What followed was probably the closest I ever get to being near the top. For my first year in college I actually felt like a lead guy in a VN. You had a good body, good looks, and girls were the ones who were actually approaching you. Too bad I wasted all that by getting hooked on D&D campaigns, more animu/mango, and the internet.

So now I'm a jobless hack who had just barely gotten himself back to studying by going to a community college, while everyone else you grew up with is now enjoying their careers... or either being dead or in jail.

Oh fuck, this is depressing.

I had a good number of popular kids for friends as well as some of the geeky kids for friends. I was taller than most of the other kids, so in several cases a punching bag for most of my popular friends. They still would be nice to me and we could have conversations easily, but I think we all knew that I was a back-up friend for most of them.

As for my geeky friends, I would act arrogant and speak down on them or annoy them, but sometimes be nice. I wasn't a complete asshole to them.

I later began to gain more female friends than male friends. I even completely spilled my all my weeaboo knowledge to one of them, and she thought that I was amazing.

I still never got invited to parties or been in a relationship.

I was a very shy and introverted child, not to mention an only child. It was very lonely growing up and didnt learn how to relate to other children until i was in Kindergarten. To add to that my father was an alcoholic and beat both me and my mom for years. She wouldnt leave him because both of them were heavy into drugs. I suppose that kind of abusive and destructive relationship are common with addicts. Like i said growing up was hard because my self esteem was non-existent and i had no backbone to speak up or stand out from my peers. By the time i reached junior high i developed very bad acne, i did however manage to have quite a few girlfriends. This never lasted as they always left me for the cuter guys. I remember being so angry at one of my replacement boyfriend that i cornered him outside of class and slammed his cranium into the fucking brick wall. It was awful, i was branded a violent menace. My teachers and principles called in my mother and berated me not know what kind of emotional and physical abuse i had already endured all these years. When i got home i was in for it. "WHY DID YOU GET INTO A FIGHT WITH THAT BOY YOU IDIOT??!!" I could only cry, finally i siad " I got in one little fight" and them my mom got scared and said "You're movin' with your auntie and uncle in Bel Air" This was very hard for me but it was all better after that.

Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

>>1091010

Yeah. Nothing ever happened to my friends, most of which were cool and good friends, I just kind of dropped off the face of the earth and thus we grew apart. It would just be too awkward to get back in touch and hang out. It's not that I'm actually ashamed of my life, I love it, but it's just... it's incompatible with normality. I can't answer all those questions about "Oh hey man, what have you been up to?" and shit, and on some level seeing them all in college or with jobs now would be a depressing experience. Like it would make the death of childhood real all of a sudden.

It would've been cool if I had been able to pull my best friend down into the mire with me. Then we'd be able to hang out all day and play shit like 3rd Strike which I can't do over the internet. But it's better to have too much alone time than too little.

>>1091079
3/10 for the effort. Too obvious from the beginning.

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Personally I wouldve rated my schizoid rating higher but my dependent and narcissistic ratings lower.
lol, internet.

>>1091078
friend zone lol

I feel bad for you anon, i always thought that ronery was more of an exaggeration. I don't have a girlfriend but i do have friends. Sounds like most of you got the raw end of the deal in life.

I was a loner throughout elementary and middle school. When I got to high school I started making some nerdy friends and even got a girlfriend. I graduated high school and went to college in a different state. There weren't as many nerds in college as in high school, but I got along with people at the anime club pretty well. I graduated from college with a BS in computer science. Now I work for a small company. Pretty much all I do outside of work is watch anime.

Reading these threads makes me feel less lonely for some reason... It's good to know that there are others who have experienced the same shit that I've been going through.
Thanks, /jp/, for being a place I can call home.

too lazy to bother typing the full story, but here goes a shorter version:
I had a bunch of friends in middle school, some were geeky, some were normalfags, I was somewhat of both, in high school I lost more than half of them because they left for other schools/places, however I did gain other friends due to circumstances and workplace(s), I was somewhat geeky, played a lot of vidyagames, however I was also a normalfag who went to parties almost weekly if not more often, but that did take a small toll on my health, eventually with studying and work over, most of my friends from school / work drifted over, went overseas to study or work. At that time, about 3 years ago, I got into anime/mangos/VN and ended up not going out a lot, hikki would be incorrect as I have no trouble socializing, but I don't feel the need to do it, and I have a job which I can do at home, but even so, I'm quite close to being NEET. I did most of my studies privately, and acquired the needed knowledge in my field.
So I don't feel the need to socialize, because acting like a hikki is still somewhat entertaining, I still have a few BFFs from school, but we talk mostly online and rarely meet up in real life.
I'm undecided if I should get a normal life again or if I should keep wasting my time online.

>>1091164
>>1091164
>>1091164
I agree ;_;