/jp/ - Otaku Culture

My eclairs are in the oven, about 15 more minutes to go.

>>10079825
Give me one I like eclais

I think I'm gonna play video games all day

>>10079839
which video games anon?

>>10079842
That's what I'm trying to figure out. Either PC games or play on my DS.

i got declined for autism bux.. apparently ADD and depression isn't enough anymore.

Playing monster hunter 3g

It is addicting

>>10079850
Play DS games emulated on your PC.

>>10079862
That's a good idea. I don't feel like walking to my DS

>>10079821

I'm gonna send dinosaurs back to extinction

Playing New Super Mario Bros. U, it's pretty nice to see Mario in HD. The GamePad feels nice as well, it's not as heavy as you'd think it would be.

Paper Mario, eating, /jp/, eating, DS, eating, sleeping.

I hit an all time low /jp/

I just melted cheese on a plate and ate it.

It was sub-par

>>10079858
I wish i could get depression bux

Got my eclairs out, sliced them and spooned in the custard rather than piping it in. Too tired for ganache so they got some cocoa powder with powdered sugar and dusted over them.

Now I'm back in bed and too tired to eat, eclairs sitting here on my bedstand. I can't believe it's already past 3:30PM.

/jp/ - Blog and Cooking Updates/General
I am sorry.

Getting my ass cooked and served to me in hisou. I'm very upset.

>>10080413
That's why it's confined into one single thread like this one.

>>10079858
Pretty sure ADD is in the autism spectrum

>>10080647
Baka.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conditions_comorbid_to_autism_spectrum_disorders#ADHD

Just got back from a 25 minute run.

Just a bit over two months ago I couldn't run more than 60 seconds at a time. Feels pretty good.

>>10080653
Thanks for your hard work.

Things are great. Until about 3 weeks ago I was ready to kill myself, but I got a boyfriend on the internet, I love him so much. He's really helped me stop being so depressed. It makes me really happy.

I just need to stop living in the future though, I can't get the idea of him leaving out of my head which will just lead to bad things ;_;

>>10079821
thanks for the thumbnail!

>>10080703

I took an extra 4 hour shift today because someone asked me and I couldn't say no. I brought a baggy of gold fish crackers and juice with me and left them in the fridge but when I went to go get them for my snack someone squished the fishes and poured my juice in them and put them in the sink.

>>10080773
im sorry

>>10080782
the working world sounds like kindergarten all over again ;_;

>>10080782
I bet you're the one who did it. I bet they weren't your gold fish or juice. It belonged to some nerd you didn't like and you did that.

Bully.

>>10080703
Whose you're boyfrend?

>>10080807

Some men just want to watch the world burn.

>>10080825
that will be me soon.
Holy shit, and i used to laugh at that picture.
Where did my life go wrong?
Good thing my parents don't celebrate holidays anymore.

>>10080817
a previously good friend of mine. we clicked instantly and it's great. i'm just so scared of him leaving me, or us never meeting. it really depresses me.

>>10080839
being 20 and living at home isn't that big of a deal. wait until you are 26 and working a dead end retail job and still living at home. I pay rent and everything but they really want me out of her. I wish I could but that isn't an option mostly because I spend all of my extra income on figures and dolls.

>>10080825
Just how old is this image?
Is that person even alive?

>>10080862
just suicide like everyone else

>>10080902
Do you want him to still be alive?

>>10080862
I'm 24 and have no job.

My sister is 31 and working a dead-end retail job.

And that's just the top of the iceberg with this dysfunctional family.

>>10080825
That picture always bothered me.

Smile, you little motherfucker. Someone loves you enough to bake you a fucking cake.

>>10080171
Ketogenic diet. Some people actually live like this except with more bacon, but the whole no/low carbohydrates thing puts most people off.

>>10080782
I'm on my way to this. My current plan is either get them to increase my hours so I can live comfortably or hop into another retail industry, preferably IT sales. I am actually saving all the money I earn though.

>>10080923
sounds familiar. I'm the oldest of three and the only one working full time and also the only person in the house who's not a druggie or an alcoholic. I just kind of close myself ioff in my room and read eroge on my time off and ignore the rest of them.

>>10080971
would you suck my dick?

>>10080947
Suck a dick, I wouldn't smile if I had a cake like that in front of me either.

>>10080916
I don't know this person or what goes on in his life, but I got curious about the origins of it. It has been around for a pretty long time.

>>10080975
If it were cute, maybe.

Let's all just take a deep breath, /jp/. Put aside all the petty worries and differences, and have a nice fun party. Life is too short to be sad all the time.

>>10080979
its kind of cute i guess. I got a little birthmark on my glans.

>>10080995
It's no use, these guys want to feel depressed for whatever reason. Maybe they think they should feel sorry for themselves or something, I don't know and I probably never will. Either way, I'm 23, I've never graduated highschool, never had a job, so my life is basically the same as some of these guys or even worse. I don't complain about my life though. There's nothing bad about it. Since I became NEET seven years ago I've always felt like this was the best way to live a life. Every day that passes like this makes me appreciate life so much more.

>>10080995
shut up cutedude

>>10081026
What about responsibility and shame? Who runs the world?

>>10081068
What are you talking about? If you're saying I should feel responsible, I have no idea what I should feel responsible about. If you're saying I should feel shameful, then again, I don't know why I should feel shameful.

>>10081089
>I have no idea
>I don't know why
Wanna switch?

>>10081182
stop saging you piece of shit

>>10081182
No thank you.

>>10080825

If you reverse image search this you will find normals who think it is 'depressing'.
The dude is only 20 and also someone has made a cake for him; nothing depressing about that.

Whenever i'm feeling down I just listen to this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ioguMAxwK5A&feature=watch-vrec

I'm kinda bad, I guess, since I'm becoming more violent and I'm in anger all the time. I have tried to hide it so far but is starting to show up involuntary, and the thoughts of getting a weapon and hurt people are getting more frequent.

I guess I should talk of this to my psychiatrist, but I don't know if this is enough to get me in a mental hospital.
>>10080703
I suppose it's hard to stop these paranoid thoughts, but do whatever takes to make your mind realize that the thing is real. Like meeting in person and stuff. Holding a person close and sex and shit.

I just bought 25 dollar pair headphones and my cat chewed through wire. Is there way to fix it?

>>10080947
Maybe he hates his mother, like I do. Things like birthdays and Christmas and parties are a pain in the ass, since I have to fake affection.

>>10082007

I listen to this (not /jp/ related though):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NmwB2OHHH4w

I have a big paper I'm not done with due at 10, I'm like 1/2 to 2/3's done with it and I don't want to do anymore.
I really dislike college, why did I do this to myself?

oh great I just remembered I have a draft I need to do by 2 too. ;_;

>>10081981
I only find it sad because he doesn't have any friends in that picture.
>>10082018
splice the cable and redo it. there should be guides on how to do that somewhere.
if it wasn't for the cat I wouldn't mind coming over and helping.

>>10081026
What about your parents? do they complain about you?, and if they do, what do you say to them?

>>10081981
You don't even know how to use "normal" anon. You've bastardized the meaning into "anybody I don't like and anybody who doesn't follow my exact beliefs".

Gave up smoking because I need a job soon. Goddamn debt to loan companies that I have to pay off.

I won't even try going for autism bux since I know I'd get denied. Shit sucks, but what can you do?

>>10082007
I need find some calming music.

>>10082039

I feel I can post here even though I am now in education:
I have an exam tomorrow and I am sitting on /jp/ procrastinating. I even went outside to the supermarket just before as a method of procrastination.
It is utterly insane, the exam is fucking tomorrow and I'm still doing this.
I already did poorly (I think) on my Real Analysis exam because of this behaviour.

I talked to a /jp/er from Canada about this problem a few months ago, he said I should talk to someone: a counselor or something.
If you are reading this: I am going to book in to see someone at the beginning of next year; I found out that the university offers it.
I swear, when it gets this advanced procrastination is like a real mental illness. It's killing me.

>>10082079

>>10082036

The first five minutes of that are calming.

>>10082042
This is probably going to sound like a lie, but no, they don't complain. I could fill posts with reasons they probably don't, but I'll spare that because it makes me seem like some kind of psychopath.

>>10082092
Eh. Don't feel too bad. Being an employment or education(or even making friends!) doesn't mean you turn into a complete normal overnight. Unfortunately the truNEET thing has gotten quite out of hand over the years.

>>10082125

The thing is if you fail two subjects they put you on probation and then if you fail another they kick you out.
If I am no longer at university my parents will stop giving me money; I can't move back out of the city because they have let my room out.

So it's a serious thing that I am unable to take seriously because of my extreme laziness.

>>10082092
yeah I'm still here, dunno how that "you" got in the name field though.

I'm in the same situation. I know I should be doing it but I simply don't care that much or at all. I was given this assignment like 5 weeks ago and only started writing it this weekend. although I did pick a topic I could write about and research without leaving 4chan, anonymity and how that effects users. heh. my other one is on google, facebook and how they track you for their gain etc.
it's not like I can't do them, it's easy enough to talk about but I also have a major issue typing out and formatting essays to look and sound good. back in highschool it was called "written expression problems" or something along those lines, I can't fully remember.
I'm just rambling now, I'll stop.

>>10082149

So much for all our talk then. We said we were going to stop doing it and it seems to have become worse for both of us.
I don't know what to do. Maybe I should just resign myself to it.

>>10082164
Lets both get to work!

lol I got kicked out of uni for failing before had to apply as an outsider and try to squeeze into some courses that were mostly full and then get 4.0 on 3 courses to get reinstated. Shit was ghey mang.

I fucked up once because of illness and twice because of some stupid group project bullshit for some class that I tried to solo. took the class from a different professor and got an A cause there was no group project lol

>>10082189

Okay. This time tomorrow it will be over, surely I can work until then. Good luck.

>>10082201
Good luck to you as well.

>Playing video games *by yourself* past the age of 13

Seriously, /jp/?

How much autism do you have to have to not have grown out of that shit after your early teens?

>>10082278
who quote

>>10082278
I played runescape in my teens after all my friends nearby moved away.

>>10082194
>uni

Oh wow, people still go to those?

Image is from University of Delaware Office of Residence Life Diversity Facilitation Training

>>10082303
Probably just put up by some jealous nigger.

>>10082303
datsracist.gif

I found this in my sociology book, I think ]one of my friends posted it on here at one point after I showed him.

How do you get motivation to tackle new things guys?

>>10082359
what kind of new things? if I have an interest in it I'll start.

>>10082359
What kind of new things? I do things I like and I don't really have a problem doing any of them.

>>10082359
fear of regret

>Going to college in the U.S.

AH
HAHA
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

>>10082371
Well for me I am trying to build something and keep putting it off.

>>10082402
>not being poor and getting financial aid
that shit got me a new bed, 5 classes, and an extra 1k to spend.

>>10082419
Every state doesn't have shit like Bright Futures, and even BF was cut down from 100% to 75%. They don't pay for books anymore, either.

The Pell Grant is only like $5500 along with various STEM grants that get you maybe another $2-3k. Try to pay for tuition, books, and housing/food with that pittance.

If you didn't do well in high school and are poor you're extra fucked.

>>10082278
So what do you do then anon?

>>10082452
Watch late night shows like Red Eye and Ferguson while eating, my one remaining joy in life.

You know, like a well-adjusted adult.

>>10082419
who are you quoting?

>>10082436
I live at home, paid for my books, tuition, bought food with my mother and grandmother and live in a house that was paid off in the 70s.
that's just me but I know what you're getting at, shit sucks if you don't have enough to pass by. like right now I only have 33cents in my bank account, we're broke now but it's not like we have much to lose when everything we have we own. just worry about power and food, rest can come later.

Whoah! I suddenly feel like I don't want to kill myself.

>>10082092
grow up kid

nobody forces you to study anything
you're adult, you do what you want

if you chose not to study and then feel bad about it then kill yourself out of /jp/

>>10082359
if I want to, I do it
if I don't, no reason to force myself

>>10080703
I wish I had a /jp/ boyfriend too.

>>10082741
i can be your boyfriend

>>10082792
I'm in the US.

>>10082741
I'd be your boyfriend but you're either a trap or a world away.

>>10082748
Would you be interested in a gay relationship?

India just won the first Test match against England, so I am happy.

>>10082795
Which part?

>>10082803
New Jersey

>>10082793
>>10082810
what a coincidence, >>10082748 here, i am also in new jersey.

I had an internet relationship with a /jp/sie that ended recently and now I want to kill myself more than ever. Before when I had no one to talk to it wasn't a huge deal, but after having someone there to talk to all day every day for nearly a year and then going back to nothing is more painful than anything.

>>10080703
I wish you luck.

Today I ate almost an entire pan of brownies I made from scratch. As well as some cookies and various other sugary treats.

I don't do this often, but it's never seemed to make me gain weight, so I'm sure I'll be fine. At least until I get the beetus or something.

>>10082822
what happened between you two?

>>10082822
>>10082817

You're both welcome to email me if you want. I may not answer right away because I'm going to sleep now. I was only up because of this thread.

>>10082822

Now I feel awful for ditching my internet lover. I was in a really bad place and couldn't deal with other people at all, especially someone else of questionable sanity. I really hope things worked out for him/her like they did for me.

Today I practiced a bit of Hisoutensoku for like an hour. And the rest of the day I did absolutely nothing.

I used to spend all day watching anime (a lot of free time after homework / work), but when I can't discuss the anime with anyone it gets quite boring. Now I have a huge backlog.

>>10082855
I'd like to believe this is what happened in my case. Wishful thinking.

>>10082847
Here.
>>10082855
>>10082876
I don't abandon people unless they do it to me first, if you need someone to talk to, I can be an option. I am happy to help out.

>>10082876

I understand you feel awful but this is the kind of stuff even normals have to do deal with. The trauma is just amplified in your case. Think of it like this, you managed to reach out and connect with another person. It didn't work out, shit happens. Now do it again, it's the only way to beat loneliness.

>>10082915
That is invaluable advice.

>>10082915
It's rather I disliked who I had become, during the process of being ditched.

>>10082957

Please elaborate. Having dealt somewhat successfully with shit like this I would love to be able to offer some advice. If you want it that is.

>>10082915
I don't know, it seems hopeless though. For normals it's easy because they are easily social and have things in common with each other. But there aren't many people that will want to give a worthless NEET with poor social skills the time of day.

It's nearly impossible for me to make any friends even online. That relationship I just got out of was my first interaction with someone new since school (7 years ago) and it would have never even happened if they weren't so persistent in getting me to open up to them. I feel like I will never find someone like that again. And I feel like a fool for finally even letting someone in my life in the first place because they only brought pain.

>>10082359
i've been trying to motivate myself for a decade now

nthing works

All this talk of "relationships".
I've been talking to a /jp/ faggot for a while.
I like him like that. But he doesn't know! He thinks I just wanna be his ordinary buddy...
It's very fun. I bet by March I'll have him begging for virtual cock.

He might be reading this topic now. But if he asks me I won't admit it!

>>10082988

I think you should be proud of letting that happen after such a long time. It proves that you aren't entirely static as an individual. I think you should keep trying to reach out to people and you should also try to do small things to improve your perception of yourself. My recovery from depression and anxiety disorder really started when I changed my diet to be more healthy. Not only did it improve my physical well being but I finally accomplished something to be proud of and stopped hating myself so fucking much.

>>10083040
>It proves that you aren't entirely static as an individual.
As if that would have needed proving.

Lately I've been thinking what it would be like to have a girlfriend. I haven't had these kinds of thoughts in years so they kind of bother me. Still, they make feel warm inside.

It all began when a next door neighbour, who happens to be a cute girl, said hi to me when I left my apartment. Pathetic, huh?

>>10082822
i'm >>10080703


if that would happen to me i'd probably kill myself. i talk to him every day, and our skype calls last for nearly 24 hours + some times, if he were to leave. i'd be hopeless. I already have co-dependence issues, I can't even do anything without him or him somehow being related.

>>10083001
get drunk and come onto him, show him your true love!

>>10080703
Living in the future and in the past are bad things; don't worry and just enjoy the moment now! If he makes you happy, it's all good!

Wishing the best to the two of you.

>>10080947
That's a pretty one-sided view you got there. I know plenty of people whose parents will treat bad pretty much all year and then try to make it up with material things on "special" days... they'd much rather be treated like humans on the regular days.

Wait, are you guys women or just gay as hell? Not that there's anything wrong with either of those.

>>10083387
He's a yuppie grad student. Understanding such things would be too demanding for him.

>>10083392
it's complicated. many people on here are bisexual, but only gay for humans, but only straight for 2d.

I sprained my neck while sleeping. Hurts like hell. How does something like this even happen?

>>10083392
Do you know how straight guys go to jail and all of a sudden all sorts of ass are considered "good ass"? Or how a homely girl seemed considerably cuter back when you were both in the same class? Sexuality and attraction depend a lot more on the environment than people would like to think.

>>10083406
make someone lonely, and in an environment with guys that are similar to them for years with little contact of the opposite sex, well you know.

>>10083352
Not pathetic at all: the value of interactions in our subconscious thoughts is inversely proportional to the number of them. If you were outside all day and fucking people left and right, you'd think absolutely nothing of it. Because you're on the other side of the spectrum, it has an impact on you. Nothing to be ashamed about, it's just a different way to live life.

>>10083409
Exactly. It is only reasonable that at some point an interest in relationship blooms due to the many factors that affect any being (loneliness, hormones, idealistic view of romance, etc) and why would your brain tell you to go outside your comfort zone to get someone? You'll aim for what "resonates" with you, especially if it's at your arms' reach. It's just how people connect.

>>10083412
i'm pretty sure you're
>>10083416
>>10083406

i like you. you're smart. you're not a baka

>>10083422
I don't know if you mean it or not, but I like you too either way; because you're either kind or good at sarcasm.

>>10083429
no i'm sorry i wasn't being sarcastic. i'm >>10083409

sorry i didn't mean to sound sarcastic

>>10083432
NOW you sound sarcastic.

>>10083432
No need to worry, I genuinely appreciate it both ways.

>>10083422
>>10083429
This is why I visit /jp/.

>>10083439
>>10083432
Just fuck already.

This thread makes me think of the compliments I received from /jp/, now it's breaking my heart.

I dreamed about my waifu.

>>10083462
wow no i'm sorry. i wasn't being sarcastic I swear ;_;

>>10083510
Isn't that the best thing ever?

>>10083462
dont worry i'm never sarcastic :)

I fapped

reps, reps, and even more reps.

i hope i finish before flanfly