/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Well, I had to write it anywhere, so I'll do it here. It's not like I'm NEET, but I'm a lazy fucktard without future. Every day I wake up at 9.30, eat my breakfast while watching 1 episode of Lupin, have shower and go to university. That's a shitty place, my parents pay my tutition fee for that place to torment me. I come back at 8 p.m., tired to do anything(even my homework), sit and watch streams of games or play myself till it's late, then go to bed, considering that I have many academical debts and I can be expelled any day. And that's like every fucking day, my whole life I do nothing but destroy myself, is there even any meaning to it? I know that I have no talent, (if) I'm going to work all my life just for food. I have never actually worked myself, that's scary. As a backdoor I try to learn japanese on my own, finished both Genki books and even managed to get up to 200 kanji, but since I'm so retarded it took me as long as september -> february and I can't get any more knowledge, also I fucking forget everything even if I don't learn if for a couple of days. So, I don't know why I share this all to you, /jp/, it's just that I don't have anyone to talk to and I had to tell it to somebody how shitty I feel. Sorry.