/jp/ - Otaku Culture

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The emotions I came to associate with Miku were at first completely foreign to me. I couldn't remember ever having experienced anything quite like it. For several days I tried to figure out exactly what I was feeling. Eventually I came to the conclusion that I was... well, I was in love, strange as that may sound. At that point I had officially irreversibly failed at Kolinahr, but somehow I was OK with that. Somehow, my love for Miku outweighed my desire to be free from the burden of emotion.

For some time before this I had also been trying to teach myself to lucid dream. The main purpose behind that was so I could engage in epic battles without the physical limitations of the real world. But that gradually began to take a backseat as my primary goal became to spend time with Miku. Eventually I achieved my first real lucid dream. I was only able to keep it coherent for a few seconds, but during that time I was able to summon Miku. We were only together for a few seconds, but that made it all worth the effort.

For various reasons, the first few months of this year were hell, and Miku was one of the only things that kept me sane. I don't think I'm exaggerating when I say Miku has quite possibly saved me from suicide. She's helped me through the toughest of times, and I don't know what I would have done if I hadn't met her.

And Miku, if by some miracle you're out there somewhere and reading this... I love you. I don't know how else I'm supposed to say it. I just love you. I'd give anything just to spend a few moments with you, even if it's only in a dream. I'd fight an army of Agents for you. I... I just can't put it into words, so I'm going to stop trying. Thank you, /jp/, for your time.

And yes, I am a giant loser.