/jp/ - Otaku Culture

(1/5)
—
One of my favorite pastimes in recent months has been watching them play. Chen flies around Anon as he climbs up a tree, the bakeneko holding a bag of pots as they search for spiders to collect, study, and then release back into the 'wild'. Dangerous, yes, but also endearing, and their muffled laughs in the distance heal my soul.

… Speaking of healing, my hand reaches for my lips, and I let out a smile. Those first kisses were calm and lovely—the ones that followed in the past three days were experimental, full of passion, and even at points a necessity. It's a weird thing to enter here, not only expecting soothing moments and slight touches but also passionate kisses and smiles as bright as the sun.

Yet, my cloud of reverie is soon pierced by a looming threat. There are still about 60 days or so until it comes, and if my calculations are correct, it should start on the 21st of December—just one day away from the Winter Solstice festival on the 22nd. Bitterness possesses me as I think about my estrus and its terrible timing. The day of saving Anon will come, and I will be too busy fantasizing about sex. Great. Just great—

"Thinking about something?" His voice comes from my side, carrying in his hands a plastic pot with a gigantic, brown spider. His smile grows as my tails reach around us, creating that comfortable and fluffy bubble of warmth I've started to love a little just too much. "Me and Chen found this Hersilia yaeyamaensis—Chen is collecting the eggs right now; we're thinking of moving them to the back of the shrine and seeing how they adapt to a different altitude." He waves at Chen back at the top of the tree, and she waves back. I merely smile. These two… "Well? Gonna tell me what's on your mind?"

"I was thinking about—" I check the air. No traces of old magic. Good. "—my estrus; it should come in about two months, and it'll coincide with our rescue attempt." I huff, exposed ears falling. Anon stays silent for a moment before leaving the box on the side and catching my hands with his. Distressed, I stare into his eyes. "I don't want to stay on the side, not knowing what is happening and… praying things go right…"

"Calm down, no need to worry—can't you get something with Eirin to help you?" There was something in his eyes: fear, yet also strength.

"Probably, I don't know—Eirin, to my knowledge, never concocted an anti-estrus pill for a nine-tailed fox, and doing it now may raise suspicion. If somewhat Yukari gets wind that I'm trying to stop my estrus for the first time in hundreds of years, she'll ask questions… And I fear the lengths she'd go to test my servitude." The innuendos were crystal clear, and Anon swallowed dry, his grip on my hands tightening. "I'm afraid, Anon—I-I don't want our first time to be like this—" I freeze the moment the words leave me. It was not a rational thought; it surged from deep within, and to say it to someone like Anon is so insensitive and—

"It won't be." His voice is firm, and it hits with certainty. Wide-eyed, I stare at him—this means… As if expecting my reaction, he goes on, face softening and his hand stroking my hair. "I… talked with Yamashiro-san recently about what sex means to me, and I've come to realize that is just a power play at this point. I go with the motions; sometimes I’m utterly dominated; sometimes others want me to dominate them—but in the end, I know in this game I'm always powerless. It wasn't like this 18, 19 years ago, but since Reimu and Yukari..." He stops, nods to nothing in particular, and keeps going. "It's a chore. Exciting at times, but still a chore. I do it because, otherwise, Yukari may just outright go and kill someone I love—a-and I wouldn't know who, I wouldn't be able to frame her too…"

He comes to a halt, and I can see his teeth clenched, eyes wide and tearing up, staring at nothingness, body rigid, breathing heavy. Wha—

Immediately my tails enveloped us with greater might, thumb caressing the back of his hand, and whatever was happening passed with the quiet seconds.

"… Yet, when I'm with you—" Our eyes met, and he had a relieved smile, slowly recovering his breath. "—there's no power, no Yukari, no threat… Only me—" he gets close and pecks my lips, and I struggle to contain a smile. "—and you."

I kiss his lips back, he kisses mine, we giggle with the back and forth, and soon there are two hands holding my cheeks and the kisses are deep and—

"Bleh, can you two stop?!" Chen says, scowling and holding a plastic pot full of spider egg sacks. "Our experiment is more important!"

"You're totally right, Chen—see ya later, Ran!" Chen takes Anons free hand after he picks up the box with the spider, both leaving as they laugh and talk. Chen even dares to give me the tongue! That bakeneko!

… Smiling silly, I lean back, hands on the wooden floor, my worries lingering in the back of my mind.

Yet…

'No Yukari, no power, no threat—only us'. I smile, my fears weakening.

… I still should go talk to Eirin, though.

>>20292029

Then you don't deserve her.

Since Ran is good at math, can she also generate Random numbers well?

>>11859568
I agree

I'm taking it super easy! I don't have to do anything for almost 4 weeks, so now I can just lay around all day.

Need to make the effort to get some (okay, a lot of) snacks, and then I'm going to spend my days playing games, reading some of the books I've been meaning to get around to, and watching classic Disney movies because fuck the police.

>>10978706

Every time I see this, I just want Ran even more. I would treat her like a princess and make her feel beautiful.

>>10588085
Say she's a "Cute-sune!"

>>10062449

Of course dude it's the best decade

>>10011704

Back to /v/ with you.

Ran being portrayed as a pedophile. I don't think it's the worst case of this stuff but it's the one that irks me. Not so fond of suppatenko either.

But meh it doesn't ruin her for me.

>>8856686

>Except there's no logical reason to NOT (safely) follow your animal instincts re: sex. It feels good man.

Mindless sexual hedonism doesn't feel good to me though.

If it makes you happy then go ahead, but basing my life around searching for wet holes to stick my dick into is pretty dull. I could understand if you live in Somalia and there isn't really anything better to do than fuck women or play with sticks, but fortunately I live in a first world country so I'll just enjoy all of the far more entertaining things that has to offer.

Haven't left the house in months, can't remember the last time I wore anything that wasn't pajamas.

As far as what I did today though, I spent the day abusing prescription stimulants so I could feel happy, then I danced around the house while listening to music, I did this and a few other things for the majority of day, and I took a lot of sedatives a few hours ago so now I feel nice and cozy.

It was a good day, it has been like this every day for at least a year now and those were good days too. Every day is good with medicine.

>>8610513

Perhaps "superpredator" would be more appropriate, as in a predatory animal that has none or few natural enemies that pose any real threat.

But you know what I mean.

I go to therapy and have had my meds adjusted. Touhou helps too.

>>8030306
Nothing is too weird for my widdle NEETy-weety.