/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I had a terrible, terrible dream last night.
I had friends and was living a relatively happy life until suddenly everyone dies due to a certain disaster. Then I die too and wake up back in the beginning. Unlike the meeper, I never give up on hope, even when it should be useless and kept spouting quotes from super robot anime to keep myself motivated. I have such wonderous friends. I have so much fun. And yet every single time the disaster ruins everything and kills everyone. Eventually after enough loops I manage to scale a large mountain all alone and successfully make it to the wizard who lives at its peak. The world was already 99% destroyed at that point, so it's likely that in that loop only me and the wizard were left alive. The wizard was aware of the loops and acknowledged my effort, making me a wizard. Then we both die and loop again. In the final loop I use my magic to summon a very tall woman with purple hair and large breasts (basically Eua) and she teaches me the magic ritual needed to defeat the horrible fate that I'm trapped in and live to the next day. A world that doesn't end at that accursed date.
So I did the ridiculous ritual she requested of me, knowing that I could always loop again if I'm being fooled, and successfully escaped my horrible fate. The problem is that now I'm in THIS world and I'm getting all existential. The rational thing to think is that it was all just a crazy long dream and that I'm still me, but I really do feel like I'm not native to this world. I am a wizard, not a human. Not Anon E. Moose, but rather ANONYMOUS the Sorcerer of Life. I came to this world after doing that ritual and stole the body from the Anon who was supposed to be posting here today.
And of course, in this world [red]I never once had any friends.[/red] That hurts. It definitely feels like a Saikoroshi situation, except due to the 99.99999999999999999999% chance my previous life was just a dream of the current me, it'd take more than a miracle to go back. Perhaps with wizard powers I could've averted the catastrophe.