/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I'm lonely, okay? I'm just lonely. I live nowhere, and I do nothing. I am nothing and I have no real friendships. The girl I love doesn't even know I exist. I don't even know if I exist, if I'm real or not. All I do is stay home and imagine myself being happy, and I'm not particularly good at that either. And then I play with myself, and then afterwards I want to kill myself, and then to soothe myself, masturbate again. Days become weeks become months. Once or twice a year I tell myself that I've had enough and try to change, but I can't. Everything around me collapses like a house of cards. I thought moving away from home would help, but no. It only got worse, and it keeps getting worse.
Ah, I wonder when the sweet death will come~