/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>10247898
Mmm, Sakuya trampling...

>>9666609
Sure, though I prefer soap-smelling feet.

where does this paranoid-schizoid sort of personality emerge? I can't help but recollect some sort of eva interp on otaku tendencies--to give a parallel, the desire for closeness with a /jp/sie feels like the entrance of the kaworu~ character, someone who "understands" the mc and gives unconditional, undying (lol) love to them.

There's the self-debasement and insecurities, probably enabled by this envisioned barrier between the self and the surrounding "world" and the urge to break down these barriers so that there will be some sort of "true" relation.

A lot of the time I'm inclined to have the kneejerk thought that my personality is the entirely the product of being a "sheltered child" and being brought up to think I'm different or special or have to follow some way of life in order to not be rejected from the human stock--go to college and live somehow through grades and recommendations. I don't quite know exactly where parental suggestion and upbringing effects stopped and self-deluding myself into certain things which if I thought about for a minute would immediately find ridiculous--but ultimately they are also "ways to live" or "raison d'etre"s.

I want to escape this cruel series of obsessions and compulsions, and I wonder if it's possible to just live--can a human being do that? This desperation seems to have its root in my fear of a failure destined to repeat itself throughout every manifestation in my life--no, it isn't even the failure but the endless entrapment in a sort of "dead end" scenario which is all too familiar.

I relied in the past on such inevitability, now a subtle change of fate has made such inevitability my waking nightmare.

Would you sniff it, /jp/?

>>8523532

What's your stance on Sakuya's feet?