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>>23890183
Yeah, some writers can be excessive with their description, but even a reasonable amount of visual description is too much for me. But apparently that type of writing is meant for the half of the population that can actually visualize images in vivid detail without losing focus. That's why I feel like I'm missing something and find it boring and redundant, like it's not meant for me.

I don't have total aphantasia, but I just can't retain images in my head for even a second. It's just a quick flash repeating itself, never giving me enough time to focus on any details even though the details are clearly there. Apparently many people can retain images in their head for a while, which is insane to me.

Imagine a thread connecting two points in space. Then another tread connects the second point to a third, which is directly above it. Then another thread connects that point to another point directly to the right. And it keeps going like that a few more times. By the time I reach the fifth or sixth point, regardless of how far or how close they are to the initial point, I've already lost track of the early parts. It's not a solid image in my head, it flickers. I have to make an effort to reconstruct the first couple threads from memory, because while my mind was focused on the later parts of the figure I lost track of the early parts. Apparently, many people can keep a solid, vivid mental construction in their head, one that doesn't flicker at all, and slowly build on it, or make it change shape, or add or substract details at will. I can't do that, my mind's eye feels like it's resetting every second. Whenever a reset takes place, the image is practically the same but over the course of several resets I lose details I'm not focusing on.

This wouldn't happen if I could see every detail so far as if my mind was a piece of paper I'm drawing on. Then the resets/flickers wouldn't matter because I wouldn't lose track of anything. But whenever I focus on a part, I lose track of the others and they disappear within a second, forcing me to rebuild the entire thing again.