/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Well...me, I haven't had a friend in 7 years now. I've been counting. I was kicked out of school at 16 since I wasn't attending, as I had bad social phobia. I never really dealt with it and ended up entering a seclusion. I ended up spending all my time on the computer and it never stopped. Over the years I just became apathetic toward everything and stopped caring all together.

Eventually my parented kicked me out around age 19. I had to go on disability (by this point I was diagnosed with social anxiety disorder and psychotic depression). This paid for an apartment with 1 main room, a bathroom and a closet. For 5 years now I've been living this way. My days consist of just waking up, sitting on the computer, drinking tea, reading, sleeping, and whatever can fill the void.

At this point I just don't care. I'm 23 now and have no life experiences. From a medical point of view I have the social development of a 16 year old, and that just makes me feel worse about it (though I don't feel sad or anything). I will never be able to reintegrate back into society, though I don't really seek to. I'm cynical toward everything and just can't stand social contact. For now I'll just live how I do now until something happens that makes me want to kill myself or something.

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I wonder how many mods there actually are. I forget if Coda/Pixel are mods (one of them quit) and I'm pretty sure Maggot still mods /cgl/. I haven't been in #4chan in forever though, so I could be completely wrong.

Those days seem so far away.

Hey American hikikomoris, you might want to start stockpiling up the food for a while, it looks your country's economy is going to crash and burn. Be sure to check your door's locks and don't let strangers in!