/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>14454562
I didn't come to blog. I just wanted to find my way back to NEET /akbg/ lifestyle. Like I said, idols used to my life feel very fulfilled (not old enough to feel depressed yet). My oshi seemed like the perfect woman and I was happy spending my days just admiring her. Didn't feel like I needed anything else.

But then IRL girl came into life. A ridiculously kind personalty just like my oshi. Doesn't resemble her in looks but is still a solid 7/10. Impressed by everything I do and in general made me feel great. But then things stop going smoothly and I think I start to get overly attached.

I haven't ruined it YET, but I'm losing sleep every day trying to tip toe around everything and not fuck shit up. My oshi is no longer enough to brighten my day and vidya makes me feel like I'm wasting my life away.

If I had to give a numeral representation to my happiness level, I'd say I went from a 9/10 (idols and vidya) to a 3/10 (now).