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OTSUPEKO~!

>>39995790
Are we ever getting the video? It's a good song.
>>39995827
Same lad. Same...

This summary was not made entirely by my own ability. I asked for a second opinion in regards to the explanation segment and revised some stuff from that advise. It wouldn't feel right to not mention this.

I wanted to get this out sooner rather than later to hopefully stem some narratives or at least put some minds at ease. It isn't everything in the stream but it is most of it and most importantly the explanation she gave with a with a clear head.
Pastebin over here.
https://pastebin.com/8jz7qZeW

>Wants to do a re-take on the explanation
She starts off apologizing for all the worries she has given everyone in regards to her depressed state these past couple of days and says that she once again wants to try and lightly provide an explanation for this, she then laughs as she explains that she planned to explain this properly in the member stream, but since she didn't understand her own feelings as much as she thought she did, the member stream also ended up becoming a confusing one.
But since she has now recovered and is back to her usual energetic self she wants to take another shot at explaining, although it will be a light explanation.

>Were you lonely?
During her break she checked Twitter a lot and saw a lot of people expressing their sadness over her not being around, and she says that seeing all the comments, the art, the tweets and so on, made her very happy and that it was for that reason this smiling face could return. She then reiterates and says that in all seriousness she has recovered from that slump and is back to being happy again.

>Not an official leave
As she begins to write her poem she writes "Tadaima" first but then corrects herself stating it isn't like that and it brings her to talk about how she was surprised to see so many people talking about her as if she was going on a official leave as that was not how she saw it herself, and reflects on that while she thinks she never said anything like it, it is still probably her fault for making people believe it.
(A nuance difference is at work here, she is surprised about seeing people refer to her break as 休止 which is a more formal word hence me using "Official leave" instead. She does frequently say she took a break in the form of 休み which is less formal)

>The explanation
First she wants to address that she did not expect it to worry as many people as it did, and that it was spreading far more than she herself thought it would. Even while she herself knew it was a rather big thing, it reached out further than she thought and for that she is very sorry for the worries and for anything else it might have given people, since she got the feeling that she really messed up as she was reading all the tweets, replies, and whatnot.
She then begins explaining the cause of the incident and starts off with stating that to prevent people from further worrying she'll clearly state that since that time she has come to terms with her thoughts and feelings and from now on will be streaming as usual every day, and she says that because her explanation might cause people to worry again.

She continues and mentions that during superchat reading during the Princess connect stream she ended up crying and because of that she felt like she was not able to continue reading and ended the stream there. Since she ended up making a lot of people worry from that she regrets not being able to get out a tweet after the stream to reduce people's anxiety. The reason she acted like that was because her ideas kept getting rejected whenever she asked management for permission to put these ideas into motion on the grounds of being difficult to implement for reasons unspecified by Pekora, and despite negotiating that she could pay for it out of her own pocket the decision by management would not budge. Despite getting increasingly more frustrated with the situation she managed to continue streaming as usual for a while, since streaming itself was fun for her. However, one day she saw someone implement an idea that she herself was turned down for, this became her breaking point as it felt like a direct attack against her making her wonder if the fault lies in her in particular and why that is.

In that turmoil she still decided to stream that Pricon stream and figured that while she is streaming it will work out one way or another but when it came to the superchat reading bit she just broke down, and then the result is all from that which she once again apologizes for. And then comes the Member stream where she figured she'd explain what was going on and at the time she honestly thought she'd be able to do it without issue but as soon as she got into the stream she turned into a sobbing mess for the entire time, she laughs at this and apologize for acting like that as she herself thought it would go better than it did, but after all her heart had yet to recover at that point.

LET'S GO
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xcPx-vFDtjE

Is not the same without our daily Pekochan. We will wait for your return.