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>>8759872
Autistically overwhelming.

Breaking a touhou is scary but the thing that terrifies me is the fact that if I'd be able to create a relationship with one I'll probably end doing it.

At first I'll love her with all my soul, I spend time with her, tenderness, vanilla...etc.
As time passes by I'll grow used to her and everything that amazed me begins to be mundane and soon boredom arrives, there's nothing that interests me in her anymore. At least nothing that is shallow enough to be extracted without pain. Then I start to toy with her insides, "tunning" her mind and see how she reacts, cruel and hateful actions, everytime I cross the line a little more until one day I fuck up badly and she collapses in a void of emotions, grief and remorse.

I fear myself more than anything and that's why I can only love 2D characters, else is dangerous and I don't want to hurt people anymore because of my nature, that's probably why I have a shitty life and existence, but I'm happy ith my karma as long as I don't hurt anyone else.