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>>44803489
>Yet when I step out and hear people talk I immediately want to be left alone.
I too like the idea of being part of the world but that's as far as it goes for me. I already know that in practice, I'd much rather just be by myself. It's still a fun little fantasy to entertain sometimes though. What would it be like if I was not as asocial as I am? The possibilities are endless.

>I wish I could fall down a well and find myself in a more fantasy-like world
It seems a bit silly but part of the reason why I refused to engage with reality is because it was not as beautiful as I would have like it to be and I mean purely from an aesthetic standpoint. I wanted to live in a world of grand architecture and picturesque landscapes but even as a kid I knew that such a thing would never be possible and that the kind of beauty I am looking for will never exist on the scale that I would like it to in reality. I dreamed of a circumstance like you described all my life. Like I said in my first post. I don't think I belong in this world. I hoped that maybe that mistake rectified later in life and I would find myself somewhere more suitable through a miracle like that.

I can't exist in modern conventional society, what makes me think I would fare any better in an alternate one? I can't say that I will but if I could see a glimpse of that beauty before I die I would be happier for it.