/jp/ - Otaku Culture

The last few days have been tense, and the bruising cream you got from Eirin came in handy once again as it began clearing up even the bruises from that brutal night. You remember coming too after that vicious assault, you being held by a sobbing Reimu after the pain from trying to struggle against your wounds caused you to pass out. For the first time in awhile you remember seeing tears flow from her face and her words tinged with sake poured out, they were almost lost on your dazed state but you remember shouts of apology, "no! I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to... no i'll never again! please wake up! i'll do anything!". Before you could respond to her pleading you passed out again, your wounds too severe to endure for long but you were able to form a thought of forgiveness despite it not reaching your lips.
You awoke again, this time it was midday judging by how the sunlight filtered through the windows and you knew Reimu would be on patrol again. You tried getting up but you were assaulted by pain your body was too slow to realize it felt and the splitting headache kept you from getting up without the world spinning and making you feel like puking. Slowly you tried moving your body without getting up and you realized in muted disbelief that she must have kept beating you after she knocked you out. Notably your arm felt like it was fractured as it brought you great pain to put any pressure on it, there was a lot of bruising on your body as you felt yourself out, notably on your torso as thin small regions of pain denoted where she beat you with her purification rod while you were passed out. Despite the pain and dizziness after what felt like an eternity you were able to pull out of the futon and took the leftover pills able to treat fractures and applied the cream that treated bruising.
You debated internally for a second of cutting and running and returning to the village or seeking refuge with your friends but you knew better and quieted those thoughts. You made your vows, both to literal gods and more importantly to yourself and to the gap youkai herself so you wouldn't balk as you took these vows seriously. You cleared your head and filled your heart with the unending love thats never waned over the weeks where Reimu's been distant, dinner wasn't going to cook itself after all and even if you couldn't make anything too complex you'd never make your beloved go without dinner.
Reimu looked like a wreck when she came in, her face gloomy and you could tell she didn't even change her clothes from last night. You were there to greet her when she came in and despite yourself you had dinner ready and the tea hot and ready. "Welcome back my love... Please make yourself comfortable the teas ready after all.. ah I forgot the bath bu-" you were interrupted before you could finish as Reimu's tired eyes started to tear up and she slumped to the ground where she stood on the veranda with a loud wailing cry. You were a bit sluggish but you made it to her, careful to not trigger another migraine you squatted down and hugged your lover who seemed as delicate as a withering flower in the winter. You wrapped your arms around her shoulders as she sobbed and stroked her head while shushing her softly, despite herself she clung onto you, jarring you a bit as suddenly being pulled in tight for a hug triggered a throbbing sensation in your head. Reimu was unconsolable really but you didn't stop even as her loud incoherent sobbing rang your head like a bell and instead you held her close whispering affections into her ear and caressing her head and back, you were like this until the sun dimmed.
Your shoulder was wet with tears as she finally settled enough emotionally to move again, you got up slowly held out your hand to help the red eyed miko up which she took with a small muttered word of thanks. You expected her to take a seat at the table but instead she followed you to the kitchen hovering over you like a worried mother and watched you plate the food, you could see an internal debate rage in her mind over offering to do it for you but she eventually relented and simply carried her own tray of plated food and walked with you to the table. You seated yourself at the table and with a bit of sadness you noted that she made chose to sit at the opposite side of the table again rather then nestle in next to you like she used to. The entire dinner you shared was quiet and awkward with the miko refusing to look at you and never meeting your eyes when you caught her gazing at you.
That night you lay in bed with Reimu at your side, you made the first move and took her in your arms simply taking comfort with her presence and despite what happened last night a part of you considered that it was a small price to pay for this warmth. It was you that broke the silence with a whisper, "You know i'll never stop loving you right?" with that Reimu pulled you a bit closer, stuck her face into your chest, and started silently crying.

I need help

Vtuber now became a much bigger thing, so big that you don't even need to venture on twitter looking for lewds anymore, most of my favorite H-artists are also doing vtuber fanarts from time to time, and doujins are getting scanned one after another.
And that's where my problem lies, for some unkown reason, I can't fap to vtubers.
Theres something blocking me from getting horny, It doesn't matter how much I watch the pervert ones, it just don't trigger
all my friends are having a nice time sharing R-18 fanarts and I'm alone looking at them without feeling nothing
What is this? Does anyone relate to me? Is there a way to fix?

touhou is dead
/jp/ will be deleted
i'll never be able to pirate new weeb music again

fuck this gay earth

>>21026344
>>21053933
STOP

Ahh I remember money

Yeah that was pretty bad.

>>16447502
2016. Awoo-posting. Resurgence in popularity. How does it all fit together?

>>16242381
>>16242408

>>15438537
reimu's sisters are having little younglings with their hardworking husbands at the village! Reimu cries at night for knowing she'll be barren just like Yukari!

>>14392326
hoooo
hoooo